So, I was sitting here and I thought, 'You know, I haven't written in a long time (A FREAKIN YEAR!).' I've known this yet, I thought I'd wait until Christmas break so I'm not swamped with work- though I'm not using that as an excuse, I haven't been writing simply because I haven't. It's bad, I know, but I'm not going to lie about it. Hopefully, I can finish this story, and soon. I like it and luckily, I remember… kinda… what I want to happen, so it shouldn't be too hard. Sorry, though, that anyone who liked this story had to wait as long as you have. I really am.

Also, lol, I have come to hate Twilight. Funny, ne? ^_^

Dude... this took me like... no time at all to write... Damn I feel like shit. Sorry you guys. ^.^''''

I'm tired of writing disclaimers. If you want to see it, go back and see it.

Onward!

BTW, thanks to 999KitKat999 who got me writing again- though I won't say how.


Her mind was so full yet so empty. She could comprehend everything that was going on no ,everything that was said, her entire life- it could all be simultaneously thought about, yet she still has so much room for so much more thought.

'Love? How could anyone love me?'

She was shocked to say the least. After what seemed like an eternity of their eyes meeting, she blinked once. Then again.

Suddenly, and without warning, Is pushed Jasper away from her and stood up in an instant. She looked away into the distance but made no move to run. She stood in silence as wind gently rushed by her, moving her long hair in all different directions.


Jasper stayed where he was for a moment in shock before standing too, but not moving closer to her, preferring to give her the false idea of security. He wouldn't let her leave him, not after that. Maybe he had lost his sanity too, but after telling her his feelings and feeling her against him, he wouldn't be letting her out of his sight again. Neither his logic and gentlemanly instincts or his darker carnal desires as a vampire were willing to let her leave him.

It was a long while before she unfroze from her goddess-like statue form and turned her head towards him, her eternal face brilliant in the night's lights. Her eyes were a bright red because of the transformation and his inner vampire purred at the image or pure sexual temptation. Jasper may have been a gentlemen, but the vampire part he had kept hidden and under tight reins most certainly wasn't.

She opened her mouth and spoke, her voice an instrumental sound of musical notes floating in the air between them.

"I won't say anything in return Jasper. I-…" She paused and a look of contemplation consumed her face for a brief second before she continued, "Please don't expect me to." She looked heartbroken, as if speaking those words hurt her as much as they did him.

'She just doesn't want to hurt me.' Still, she had said the truth as it was to her. That was his Is.

He smiled and walked over to her. It probably wasn't the smartest move considering she could still be pissed off at him and she was still a newborn vampire, but he ignored the way his army instincts fought with him to stay away from her, and pulled her into a tight hug. "That's fine. You don't have to. I never expected you to."

'Though, I hoped.'

"But I don't regret telling you. I do love you, more than you could ever know." She was still unbelievably tense under his comfortable hold, but he simply help it.

She finally began to relax, most likely forcing her muscle to cooperate, and he still held on. After a few moments, he simply took a deep breath, filling his lungs with her scent. "This is enough," he breathed against her skin as his nose ran along her neck, throwing himself entirely into her smell, memorizing it for every moment here on out. It smelt of cinnamon and lavender, each smell surprisingly independent from the other, but clearly defined. It was intoxicating- more so than her blood ever was. "Gods, you smell amazing Isabella…" He whispered he held her tighter and closer. The pull of his had him at his limits as he couldn't help but lick one straight line from the base of her neck to under her ear. 'She tastes better than she smells,' he thought absently.

He noticed soon after when his clouded mind acknowledged the fact that Isabella let out a gasp and it was instantly followed by an almost inaudible moan.

'That would be the vampire instincts taking over.' He noted without much thought. The same thing was happening to him.


Isabella's head reeled from her thoughts and the onslaught of sensations from Jasper's close proximity. He was so close and smelt… amazingly good. Like vanilla and chocolate. 'How have I never noticed that before?' she wondered. Not that it mattered. The little distance between them had her sences completely taken over. Her mind fogged over and as she felt him taking a deep breath at her neck she was forced by an unknown instinct to do the same to him, inhaling his delectable smell. The moment he had licked her, she was shocked but a feeling, deep inside her, liked it very much. It was a darker side she realized she was connected to. 'Was it always there?'

The thought was soon swept away as a new scent came into the fray. It was new, yet she seemed to instinctively know what it was. It was also in that same instant, that she knew the same scent was coming from her as well.

Arousal.

She quickly broke from his hold and was suddenly five feet away. Jasper's face showed surprise which quickly shifted to rage at being denied her. She watched in near fear and fascination as he seemed to get his bearing about him and closed his eyes, suddenly burning black. He was obviously battling with himself, with the urge to come after her even as she stepped away. After a moment of tense silence, Jasper's jaw locked tight, fists clenched, he opened his eyes, now a dark crimson color.

Is could actually see the darker side of him fighting to breach the surface. 'How long have you been fighting with yourself Jasper?' It wasn't until his eyes widened that she realized she had said it out loud.

The creature inside of the man who loved her had an evil edge that wanted to take over. Jasper himself held onto the restraint he had and battled with it, forcing it down.

Isabella could see the apparent winner, yet a part of her, a foreign part she had no problem merging with, had a problem with who it was. Before Jasper could force his so called evil side away, she took a step forward, simultaneously reaching out as if to stop him. She stopped after a moment, not sure what to do.

His eyes, still red and animalistic flickered to watch her. The intensity in those eyes frightened and excited her. "Don't," She said, taking another step closer still. Her voice was in a whisper now, her eyes wide and focused on him, desperate for some part of him to stay alive. "Don't fight." She paused again and took another step again, followed soon by another until she stood before him, her hand resting on his cheek as she stared intensely into the eyes of a monster. "Don't fight yourself Jasper."

His eyes narrowed, partly angry and partly confused and filled with worry. His voice was raspy and dangerous as he growled out, "You have no idea what I could do Isabella, if I was free."

She didn't even blink or hesitate as she replied, "You already are free. All you need to do is embrace every part of you. Even the darker sides."

She wasn't sure what gave her the right to say it, except that it had to be said. She was a newborn, yet even she had connected to the new and darker side of herself. It was natural, something she didn't regret. It made her who she was. "I know you were keeping part of yourself at bay, the part of you that ran rampant during your years at war. I also know that you kept it hidden from the Cullens so they would accept you, and Alice, who you loved. And now me. But Jasper, you don't have to." She smiled so gently, so encouraging, it looked so out of place on a vampire temptress's face. "I won't judge you, any side of you. Embrace who you are. Embrace yourself fully."

His eyes flickered between the both of hers, looking uncertainly as he tried to search for what she was hiding, or what she was up to.

She had nothing to hide and let him look into her. She removed the blockade between her emotions and let them flow freely into him if he so cared to take them in.

His brows were furrowed as he felt her sincerity. "Can you really risk it?"

She smiled a friendly and innocent smile as she said, "There's nothing to risk. I simply get every part of Jasper, my friend, my hero, and the man who loves me. After all, you can't be those things if you're not complete yourself."

His eyes closed tightly as his hand came up to grasp the one against his face. He grip tightened and he inhaled deeply several times before opening his eyes and staring down at her with a gental smile.

His eyes were a bright red without so much as a flicker on insecurity. She could see the darker sides of himself in his stare and that only made her grin grow larger. "There's the man I've been looking for."


So yeah, enjoy it?

Lol, I was rereading the story to get back into the feel, and OMGackt, my little A/Ns were SO funny and adorable to me. XD

HYDE: How could you forget about us like that!

Gackt: HOW!

JaeJoong: She's been busy with us. -Points behind him where G-Dragon, Onew, Xiah, Lee Min Ho, Jung Yong Hwa, Kim Bum, Lee Jun Ki, Kim Jae Wook, Hiroki Aiba, Kato Ryosuke, Hamao Kyosuke, Sato Takeru, Huang Yi Da, Nakamura Yuichi, Kanata Hongo, Mike He, Koji Seto, Figaro Ceng, Kamenashi Kazuya, Jo In Sung, and many others stand-

G & H: O_O

I've been busy... XP