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"Holy crap guys, that practice was BRUTAL" I flopped onto the bed completely exhausted and sighed. It wasn't often we would skip a day of school but being back on the cheerio's was hard on all of us; all of us, especially me had figured coach sue would go easy on us due to the reason she let us all re-joined. Man we were wrong. We forgot how much Sue liked to win, and you can't win a national championship with 3 out of shape cheerleaders. We had extra long practices which mostly involved laps around the track and sessions in the cheerio's private gym. Within the first weeks 2 of the girls were kicked off of the team for making a remark about my sexuality. No one has even looked at me the wrong way since which I for one am grateful for. Now I think about it, although the rest of the squad are jealous of our immediate promotion after re-joining the team, I can see the looks of pity they throw at us when coach sue demands all 3 of us to stay back. Today she had all 3 of us doing suicides until we were on our knees. I threw up on the field since I'm the most out of shape; I guess my body's been through a lot the past few months with all the alcohol and lack of eating; not to mention my mental state. I guess coach is still thinking a lot about my situation because she allowed us to take the day off; much to our teacher's protest, but what sue Sylvester says, goes.

"Tanaaaaa" Brittany groaned as she too, collapsed on the bed beside me "Now I know what Lord Tubbington feels like when he tries to get through his cat flap! I'll never laugh at him again"

I heard Quinn giggle from Britt's bedroom floor; she always finds it funny when Britt talks about her stupid cat.

"Man I need a massage so bad, I feel like my whole body is knotted up" I groaned, I have never felt so sore in my entire life! I feel the bed shift and Brittany straddles my waist and pushes my shoulders and face into the bed. I feel her hands begin to lightly massage my muscles; I let out a low groan, it feels so good.

"Ahh that's good Britt, remind me to repay the favour…

"I seriously hope you two are NOT having sex up there…"

"Would that really be so bad, Quinny? What would be hotter than seeing us get our cuddle on?

Quinn scoffed in disgust

"Don't worry Q I'm just giving her a massage! If you lie on your belly lord Tubbington might give you a massage if you ask him nicely!"

"Erm, thanks B but I don't think lord Tubbington can give me a proper massage…thanks though…"

Suddenly, I can almost feel the light bulb go off above my head. This would be the perfect time to try and get Quinny to make out with Britt's and me. I sit up and Britt moves off of me, looking at me questioningly. I smile at her and look at Quinn, then back at her. She reads my look instantly, a big smile appearing on her face. I get up and straddle Quinn and begin to massage her.

"Ohhh… that's ni…wait, Santana what are you doing?"

"Oh relax Q we're giving you a massage, I know you need one, you worked just as hard as us now lie still"

Quinn did as she was told and I continued to work her upper body, Brittany began to massage her calves and thighs. I could tell Quinn was enjoying it because she moaned occasionally and I could feel her relaxing as the time passed. I shared a look at Brittany and she knew Quinn was enjoying this too.

"Lets play a game, ask me a question, Britt's"

"Uhm, where is the riskiest place you've ever had sex?" I could hear the mischievous tone in her voice as she asked; she of course already knew the answer.

"Well Britt's, I would have to say in the Choir room before Glee practice" as I answered I could almost hear Quinn's curiosity buzzing from her.

"My turn to ask Quinn! So, Q. That night you found me in the park, what were you and Finnocence up to? Are you's like, together or something?" I saw Britt give me a sad look out of the corner of my eye, the incident in the park was just before things got really bad; she had no clue I was so damn depressed. Thinking back to that night sends a stab of guilt through my chest; I try to ignore it. "So Q, spill!"

"Well we're just friends, we went to breadsticks that night, him and Rachel had another argument so I guess they're not together now… He wants to have another go, you know, him and me. I don't know though, he's a nice guy and everything but he doesn't know what he wants"

I snorted. I couldn't help it. "Finn? A nice guy? Finns an asshole and he will never know what he wants until he is finally reunited with the ocean he came from"

"San I know you don't like him but could you at least try to be less insulting towards him? I know he can be a bit of an idiot, but I might, at one point try and get back together with that idiot" Quinn sighed and rolled over so she was facing the ceiling.

"Quinn, you could do so much better than Finn, Santana thinks so too! You just haven't met anyone to compare with him yet" Britt shuffled over to Quinn and spooned her. "We love you Q, we don't want to see you end up unhappy," I decided it was my turn, it was now or never. I shuffled to the other side of Quinn and lay my arm over her waist and took one of Brittany's hand in mine, she gave it an encouraging squeeze.

"Yeah Q, I mean we've all been through a lot of shit and we just think you're worth so much more than to be dating Finn, he's a loser and he never treated you right; always chasing after berry, I still don't know what he sees in her, you're beautiful Quinny!"

"Thanks so much guys, it means a lot; anyway nothings definite, I haven't really talked to him much since, that night. You know san we're the unholy trinity, and I care much more for you than some boy, and you need me right now so I'll be here for as long as you need" I felt Quinn give me a peck on my forehead. "And you too Brittany, I love you as much as I love san and I'll always be there for both of you"

Brittany gave me a smile from over Quinn's shoulder and nodded. I returned the smile and gave a slight nod back.

"That means so much to me Q, and I speak for Britt's as well as myself when I say you mean the world to us too" I leaned in and gave Quinn a light kiss on the lips. What surprised me was that she closed her eyes and opened her mouth slightly, allowing me more access so I deepened the kiss, grasping her hip. Brittany noticed and began to trail kisses down her neck. We both heard a moan escape Quinn, which only encourages us more. I began to move my hand up Quinn's top when suddenly Quinn's eyes dart open. Britt noticed the change in atmosphere and stopped immediately, looking at me slightly confused.

"Woah, woah, stop… I..I'm sorry but this can't happen. I love you both, but….I'm sorry. I'm not gay and. Just. I need to go. I'll see you guys tomorrow okay?" and then she bolted from the room, leaving Britt's and me in silence.

"Well" I scooted over to Brittany who was still in the same position as she was when Quinn left. "I'm kinda turned on, we were so close! But since we're both here, and we're both kinda turned on, why waste a perfectly good moment" I smiled at Britt, it must have been enough to convince her because she straddled me so quick I hadn't realised she's moved. She kissed me hard on the lips wasting no time in removing my cheer top.

"Woah, guess you really have the hotts for Quinn, ehy?" I breathed into her ear. "I hope you don't prefer her to me" I smiled at her

"Santana Lopez" she purred, " you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, and you're all mine" she kissed me again as she removed her top. I felt her hands wander as the then began to unzip my skirt. "I could go a lifetime without getting my cuddle on with Quinn, but the thought of never getting my cuddle on with you…well that just isn't an option! I'm going to show you how much you mean to me Lopez, and since we have this place all to ourselves, I can guarantee you that you will be screaming all night!" She picked me up and pinned me to the bed, I love it when she gets aggressive! She smashed her lips into mine as she removed her bra; she then reached back to remove mine too, intensifying her kisses as she went. This was going to be, the .ever.

The next day I couldn't be happier to not have Cheerio's practice. Even after the bath Britt and me took last night, it wasn't enough to relieve our muscle aches especially after our special work out the previous day. Quinn doesn't know what she missed! As me and Britt approached our lockers we saw Quinn waiting for us. We both shared a look of relief when we saw her waiting, we weren't sure what to expect after yesterday afternoon.

"Hey guys" Quinn looked up and gave us a small smile; I could tell she wanted to say something so I left her the opening. "Look about yesterday, I'm sorry; I know I kinda led you both on but we were so relaxed and lovey with each other I was caught up in the moment. I'm really sorry; but I'm not gay. If I was I wouldn't hesitate to, you know, with the two of you; I'd be a lucky girl, but I just don't think of you guys that way…"

"In what way?" Finn has interrupted us mid conversation, I'm not sure how long he'd been listening but he was shooting daggers at me.

"Nothing Finnocence, this is a private conversation. As in none of your business! So move along please, affores I endz you" I felt Britt's hand around my wrist, just in case she needed to intervene, but she shouldn't worry, I'm not gunna go all lima heights on Finn for listening into our conversation.

"Well Santana, if it's so private maybe you shouldn't be having it in the school corridor; and Quinn you made out with her? How could you do that? I can't even believe you're friends with her! She's an attention whore! You saw her in the park that night! And now she's manipulating you, just how she does with Brittany!

I could feel myself trembling, one more word out of him and so help me god! I felt Brittany pull me back and step in front of me.

"Don't you DARE talk to my girlfriend like that! She DOES NOT manipulate me and she is NOT and attention whore! You have no FUCKING CLUE what she's been through so back the fuck off!" all of the anger I had felt had stopped surfacing momentarily, I have never, ever seen Brittany lose her temper with anyone, let alone use bad language! Quinn must have been as shocked as me because she took a stop next to Britt's and glared at Finn.

"You know you're a complete asshole, right? Number one, it is NONE of your business what I do because we're not together! We haven't been together since you chased after Rachel fucking berry! SECOND don't you ever fucking dare talk about Santana that way, Brittany is right; you have no fucking clue what she's been through! She needs her friends right now and you are most certainly not one of them. Well done Finn, whatever chance you MAY have had with me is now gone. Just go."

I had tears in my eyes by the time Quinn had finished talking; It was then I realised how much both Quinn and Brittany actually loved me, and how broken they would have been if I had have succeeded in taking my life that night.

"Oh look, Lopez has turned the waterworks on! Because THAT isn't attention seeking! And all this lesbian crap! REALITY CHECK SANTANA, you've fucked every boy in this school! You might have fooled Brittany into thinking you love her but everyone knows that as soon as you're bored you'll be back with some stray; and Quinn, you really must be as stupid as Brittany is if you believe her shit!"

I couldn't contain the anger flowing through me anymore; I snapped. I lunged at him, he was so surprised he fell to the floor with me, I began punching and scratching him all over "How fucking dare you Finn! Don't you EVER call Brittany stupid! She's a genius and how fucking DARE you say that I don't love her! I love her more than life and she is the ONLY reason I'm still fucking alive so cut the crap Finn you fucking asshole! I HATE YOU; it's people like you that make this work a living HELL

Somewhere through my outburst people had began to crowd around, some people calling for help. Probably scared I was going to kill the guy. I felt big hands around my waist trying to lift me off of Finn; it was puck.

"Puck let me go or I swear to fucking god I will end you!" the more I struggled the tighter his grip became on me. I looked over at Brittany and Quinn but they were frozen to the spot at my outburst. I've never felt so much anger at once, I used all of my strength to push back and puck loosened to his hold slightly, as soon as I felt his grip loosen I turned around and punched him straight in the face; as I did I heard Coach Sylvester's voice shouting through the crowd. I took one last look at Brittany and I ran. Fuck everyone. I ran towards the doors and headed straight to my car. Leave it to Finn fucking Hudson to undo all the progress I'd made over the past few months.