A/N: So i know its been a while, 59 days haha, so sorry about that but writers block got me or more like my muse for this story went on a vacation. Hopefully it's back a little more. So thank you so much for the reviews keep them coming! :D Oh plus if you haven't check out the youtube video for this story the link is on my profile page.
Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds/ Grey's Anatomy or any of the characters or any other random shows you think of while reading this! hahah :D
Not all can fix it
Confused?
Emily walked into JJ's office, to find not just JJ but Garcia in there to. They were both laughing at something.
"Emily." JJ said as Emily walked in all ready wearing her façade like a mask.
"My raven haired beauty." Garcia squeaked happily.
"Hey." Emily said taking a seat next to Garcia and in front of JJ.
"Look at this it is so adorable, and it goes perfect with the leather jacket you got him. He's going to look so cute." JJ said showing Emily an adorable pair of jeans and an adorable tiny gray hoodie.
"That is going to look so cute. Take a picture of him when he wears it and send it to me." Emily said hoping she sounded excited enough.
"Of course!" JJ answered laughing, still smiling and then turned to Garcia and said, "Garcia all ready wants to print a dozen for the team." JJ noticed her friends smile, if anyone could keep something hidden it was Emily Prentiss but right at that moment she just seemed 'off'. "So what brings you here?"
Emily tried to look her best, her confident best, and said, "Nothing." She chuckled and added; "Just came to stop by."
JJ stared at Emily; there was still something 'off' about her. "There's just something 'off' about you."
"'Off'?" Emily questioned and tried her best to pull off a convincible laugh then said, "I'm just tiered good thing we have had two days off cases and hopefully today to."
"Oh trust me, no case, at least so far. Besides you are sick so it's all good. " JJ chuckled she still didn't believe Emily and she knew that Garcia didn't either. But then Emily had called in sick, maybe that was why, but she didn't look physically sick.
"Hey I have an idea!" Garcia squealed, "Let's have a girl's night, well if we don't get a case."
"I love the idea, and plus I'm sure Will wouldn't mind." JJ said then turned to see Emily that wasn't looking as happy about the idea and said, "You in?"
"Of course. " Emily tried the laugh again though she knew it didn't sound genuine.
"What's wrong cupcake? You do seem weird today." Garcia said also having noticed their friend's weird behavior.
"Nothing really, like I said I'm just tired." Emily insisted, how could she tell them what was really wrong. 'Oh I was dating Hotch, you know our boss, but two nights ago I found out he was cheating on me, oh yeah and I also got into a cat fight with the women he slept with, oh did I mention she was Kate Joyner's identical twin.' That was not something you could just blurt out and say. Besides the fact that Emily was not someone who liked to appear weak or the victim she certainly didn't want to lose her best friend's trust. How could you tell someone something like that?
"Okay, whatever you say. But tonight we are so watching some Grey's Anatomy just to see the beyond gorgeous men on the show! I mean talk about yummy!" Garcia announced happily for once Emily actually gave out a natural smile know full well what show Garcia was talking about and what men.
JJ laughed along her friend knowing that was their most popular girl's night out event; to drink tequila and admire the gorgeous men on Grey's Anatomy. "As long as I still have dibs on McSteamy!" JJ laughed.
"Ahh no way you're practically married!" Garcia called back at JJ. "He's mine!"
"You two do know none of us do get him, right?" Emily laughed
"We can dream, Em, we can dream." JJ chuckled and then turned to Garcia and said, "And that doesn't mean I can't take a good 'McLook' at him. Besides you have Kevin if someone should get him it should be Em."
"Ahhh don't include me in your cat fights over a fictional character." Emily defended herself still mixing her genuine smile with fake laughter.
"Yeah, Em, is right the less the completion the better. Besides Em, goes more for the tall, dark and handsome… McDreamy!" Garcia said seriously then sang the ending with a smile.
"Oh forget McDreamy Garcia, which I would more than settle for, but Em's perfect guy isn't on Grey's Anatomy, but rather here in the FBI, actually in the BAU." JJ said with a smug voice.
"What!" Emily called back, "Who?"
"Oooo JJ, I do think you are right, you know who Em." Garcia happily teased.
"What? Who?"Emily said seriously and leaning forward on her seat. She just really, really, hoped that they weren't talking about who she was thinking.
"Hotch!" both women said in perfect sync. And then quickly laughed as Emily's face dropped but not in what they thought.
Emily couldn't believe how easily the mention of his name effected him. She felt as if her whole day had just been turned worse she felt her heart ache once again. He had cheated on her and her best friends were saying that he was her McDreamy.
"Hey…" JJ was the first one to notice Emily's silent reaction it seemed she was fighting herself on something. "Em… come on, what's wrong? What's really wrong?"
"I all ready told you nothing!" Emily snapped she didn't want their compassion and pity and she certainly didn't want to risk losing anything else. But when she saw the hurt looks that both JJ and Garcia bared she felt her guilt. She had, had no right to snap at them they were just trying to be good friends. "I'm sorry. It's nothing really…uhhh.. so I'll see you guys after work, my place?"
"Uh… yeah." JJ answered knowing hers was a definite no because of Henry and Garcia's was too small.
With that Emily walked out on her friends. How could she just walk out like they didn't matter? But she couldn't tell them it was too much. She knew them to well, JJ would be the shoulder to cry on and the caring silent one that would ignore Hotch just to try and make her feel better and Garcia would be the loud and hectic one that would be beyond mad and would actually go out and yell at Hotch.
Emily was confused what was she going to do now? She couldn't even function in her own job well. He was her life they had been living together unofficially she would spent the night and now the one night she spent home she felt alone and she wanted him, yet she didn't want him. What was she supposed to do with her life? And now she even felt melodramatic, but he had gotten to the point where he had been everything to her.
And she could swear she felt the blood seeping through the gauze on her hip. She looked down only to realize she was right. Emily groaned and headed up to the bathrooms to clean herself off.
Hotch sat in his office chair with his head between his hands as he tried to breathe. In two days everything he had worked so hard to built was destroyed and it was his own fault. Now he couldn't even see her eye to eye. His guilt was eating him up and he knew that he had to do something about it. But he had no right to keep tormenting her like he had been.
Was he giving up too soon? Or was he actually being the bigger man and learning how to let her go? Why couldn't there be a sort of manual on it all?
He was the bad guy in the story line and Hotch knew it, but he didn't want to be he knew he made a mistake but he wanted to do something anything that would help him prove that he could still be prince charming. He had to do something; he had to at least try, right? He could give up once she asked him to but until she didn't he had to try and prove it all to her, and to himself.
A/N2: thanks so much for reading and if you watch Grey's Anatomy you know exactly how yummy McSteamy and McDreamy are hahah :D Please review and tell me what you think even though this was more of a filler chapter! :D Oh and if you're interested i just uploaded a new story so go check that out to it's called 'Missing Piece'!
~THUNDER BRAT
