AND we are back! at long last haha, I know I said I was going to get right back to this in the new year but I've been a little bit busy and haven't really managed to find the time to do it, but I have now though so here we are, I hope you all had a happy Christmas or a happy holidays, and of course a happy new year, and without further ado, lets pick up where we left off


*Tori's P.O.V*

She's gone...

She's really gone.

Why did she have to go?

Why now?

Why did it have to be so sudden?

I want her back

I need her back

I miss her.

"TORIIII WAKE UP!"

Ooff... and now I'm on the floor, with my stupid sister Trina yelling at me for some stupid reason, "TORI!" "WHAT?!" I screamed back at her sitting up, shocking her and, to some degree myself too, "can I borrow your lip gloss?" are you kidding me? that's what she had to come screaming into my room for? some stupid f*cking lip gloss that will probably end up all over some guys... never mind.

"Whatever, keep it" I shrugged and crawled back into bed, Trina was off like a flash, taking the lip gloss and slamming my door behind me without so much as a thank you.

Now I'm alone again, the way its been for the past week since she left, I looked at the clock and it said it was 2 pm but I really didn't care, I just wanted to wallow in self pity under my bed covers away from the rest of the world, crying to myself and whispering "I miss her" and "I want her back" and I know you might think I'm overreacting, but Cat has been my best friend, no, my only friend, Andre aside but you know what I mean, like only girl friend, Cat has been my one true friend for my entire life, we were never apart for more than a few days at a time for years and years, and now all of a sudden its been a whole week and I haven't seen her and I won't see her for a whole year, and even then after my first year at uni is over I might not even get to see her since she may end up on holiday with her family, which I wouldn't stand in the way of.

"Are you not even going to say hello Tori?" CAT?!

I jumped up so quickly I fell out of my bed for the second time, today just keeps getting better doesn't it? standing up realizing my laptop is on and Cat's on the other side, giggling to herself about seeing me fall over and embarrass myself.

"Cat? how long have you been there?" I asked going over quickly, sitting at my desk.

"Oh you know, about... three hours?" "you've been watching me sleep for three hours?" "no you fool, I was speaking to Trina and she's worried about you so I asked Trina if she could go into your room and and answer my video chat, and wake you up while she was at it" "really? so she didn't actually want the lip gloss?" "I don't know, but I asked her to keep it secret so it'd be a surprise" wow, so my sister who I thought didn't care about me at all just helped Cat surprise me, how nice, I guess I owe her a hug now.

"So Tori how have you been?" Cat asked whilst brushing her hair, "oh you know, living without my best friend" "Tori..." Cat giggled "its not like I'm dead you know, I'm always just a phone call away honey, or in this case a video chat" "I thought you might have been busy" "what, you think I'd be too busy to take a phone call from my best friend? I wouldn't care if I was in bed with..." "Cat!" I yelled to cut her off and she just laughed some more "fine lets just say a really hot guy, if you called for a chat I'd make him wait Tori, heck even if I was at bank that was being robbed and someone had a gun to my head and you called me I'd answer it, just because I'm not physically there doesn't mean I don't exist Tori, I miss you just as bad" she wiped a tear from her eye and I instinctively did the same, "oh Cat..."

"Don't just mope around in self pity Tori, you're still you, you still have Andre, heck you might even want to try talking to Jade" "Jade?!" I yelled again and Cat just giggled, "well... you never know what might happen, listen I gotta get going but it was really nice talking with you Tori, I missed your beautiful face" I quickly tried to hide my blush but it just made her laugh even more, "when can we talk again?" I asked sounding like a child, "I just told you Tori, if you need me you call me, I promise I'll answer it, unless I'm asleep" "thank you Cat" "you're welcome Tori, I love you" "I love you too, bye" and with that the video chat ended and for the first time in what felt like years I smiled.

I figured I should do what Cat said and go spend some time with Andre, I mean I'm sure he's upset too and missing Cat, so after a quick shower and a change of clothes I headed for the door, giving Trina a hug before I went, which she acted like she didn't want but I knew she did because I felt her hug me back.


*Jade's P.O.V*

Huh... its been a week since school finished, a whole week? crazy.

Everything felt so different as soon as school was over though, like all the time I was at the school everyone was afraid of me, and I didn't exactly help that by being quite the bitch to most people, a few in particular...

But the truth of the matter is I'm just someone who likes to keep their self to their self, you know? its hard to explain but like, that's how I've always felt, I don't really like trusting people or letting them in.

Walking down the street heading to the store to pick up some stuff for a family get together, since my dad's sister had a daughter it would be the first time we'd be seeing her, and I was actually excited, I mean... me, excited over a baby? I hate babies, but its different when its your own family, when you'll be able to look at them and know they'll be a part of the rest of your life.

I was replying to a text from Beck, yet another one he had sent me practically pleading to get back together, I had barely talked to him since what happened at the talent show, all throughout the exams I did my best to avoid him, I wanted nothing to do with him at all after what he did to Tori, I can never get that look in her eyes out of my head, when she looked up and saw me on the catwalk, the way the life just drained from her eyes, I could see how excited she was to perform and to see just how upset she was when it went wrong, and to think it was because of me... well I knew that was horrible.

"Tori?" I said to myself as I looked across the street, seeing none other than the girl I was just thinking about walking down the street by herself.

"Tori!" I yelled to get her attention and she looked at me, and she smiled too, she smiled when she saw me? not many people have ever done that, hell I can't actually remember the last time any of my family did that.

I crossed the road and went up to her, before I could say anything Tori gave me a hug, this is weird, what's gotten into her?

"Hi Jade, how are you?" she asked slowly releasing the hug, somehow I had found myself hugging her back just as tightly as she hugged me and I almost didn't want it to let go, "I'm fine, how're you?" she smiled and looked me in the eye again "oh you know, just fine" "is Cat not with you?" I asked and she looked away quickly "Cat um, Cat's already moved" wait seriously? I mean I knew Cat was planning to move but I didn't think it'd be so soon? I mean I thought she was going to... never mind, that's still a secret, we talked about it.

"She did? oh I'm sorry to hear that" Tori sighed and looked down a little "but I spoke to her today and she said I shouldn't beat myself up about it, we'll see each other again" "I'm glad to hear that Tori" "she said I should spend time with those around me, like Andre, and she even mentioned you" "she did?" "yeah she said you never know what might happen, and then here you are, its like fate or something" she giggled a little and I couldn't help but laugh slightly too, "well I'm glad you're doing well without your little sidekick, you two were practically inseparable in school" we both shared a bit of a laugh about that one.

"Yeah, I miss her so much, but she's helping me through it, without her I'd be a sobbing mess" "you're such a wuss Tori" I teased her a little, playfully pushing her shoulder, she giggled and smiled at me, "you know I'm really glad I bumped into you Jade, it was nice to see you" "yeah it was nice to see you too Tori"

We both shared a hug before we went our separate ways, "bye" she smiled, "see you round Tori"

And just as we were both about to walk away I felt a sudden urge to stop myself, I could see she needed a friend, she was putting a brave face on it but she did need a friend.

"Hey Tori!" I yelled turning around, she turned around too and looked back at me "yeah?"

"Do you want to, um... get a coffee sometime? or something? just to you know... chat?" am I asking her to hang out or am I asking her on a date?

"I'd love to Jade, I'll text you about it" she smiled as she waved before heading off again.

I turned to carry on with what I was doing myself, bringing my phone from my pocket, I went through my contacts and found the name "Cat" and hit call


Right that's where we'll leave it now, what could Jade possibly want with Cat? is it in connection to that secret? we'll just have to wait and find out

I hope you enjoyed this, its so nice to be back and I hope I'll bring you another chapter soon :)