Chapter Eleven: Nothing I Want More
Carlisle POV
"Bella?" I asked again. I couldn't formulate words. Bella was standing in front of me, she was really here.
"Carlisle..." She began to cry before I pulled her into me and kissed her passionately. Not caring if my kids were watching. The kiss was sweet and short but that kiss. That one kiss sealed our fate together. Once we pulled her apart, we held each other tightly. "I should have stayed. I should've gone home with you when you came to get me at the airport."
"No. I should've told you before you were about to get on the plane." I argued.
"Maybe...but I got on the plane after you told me you loved me. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have ignored you when you called and emailed." She cried into my chest and I just rubbed her back soothingly. "And I wasn't on a date the other night. I was out with a kid I went to high school with...who is married...and he offered to showed me around the city."
"You knew I was there?" I asked.
"Yeah...my neighbor told me a 'cute blonde man that could make you melt' stopped by my place." She laughed and I held her even tighter. We stood there for what seemed like hours before I heard someone clearing their throat. Bella let go of me and looked around me.
"This is all so sweet, but...I think your forgetting something." Emmett said, holding open his arms. I kissed her one last time before she went over and hugged Alice and Emmett. "We missed you, Bells." Emmett said once all the tears were dried and we were sitting around the table, eating cake.
"I missed you guys too. Waking up to a silent house...I hated it." Bella laughed. We stayed up and talked for hours, it was like we were a family, that the last few days didn't happen. Once the kids were in bed, Bella and I stayed up on the couch like old times.
"This...isn't going to be easy." I finally said.
"I know."
"I'm still going to love Esme. I always will."
"I don't expect any less." She said, sitting up and looking into my eyes. "But I do expect one thing."
"What?"
"You to love me, to be with me." She said as a tear escaped her eyes.
"I promise, I will." I said before leaning into kiss her. The kiss was just supposed to be sweet and short, but once our lips touched, I couldn't stop. The kiss grew with passion and my tongue brushed past her bottom lip, begging for her to open. She did and our tongues intertwined as the kiss grew in grew. I pulled back when we were both desperate for air, and my lips traveled down her neck, placing kisses on each part I touched.
"Carlisle..." She panted as she ran her fingers through my hair.
"What?" I panted.
"I...want you." She said and I stopped kissing her and looked into her eyes. I smiled and leaned into kiss her again, picking her up by the waist and carrying her to her bedroom. I sat her down gently and began kissing her again, moving to her neck as my hands traveled to the hem of her shirt. She lifter her arms and I pulled the shirt off of her body and let it drop to the floor. I leaned into kiss her as she began playing with the buttons on my shirt. My shirt popped open and she slid it off my shoulder. My lips returned to her body as my hands began rubbing her back up and down, finally stopping at her bra clasp. I unclipped it, letting it fall loose and I slid it down her arms and onto the floor.
She pulled at my shirt, dragging me down with her as I kissed her collarbone and eventually, her bare breasts. I took my time, kissing her, sucking on her nipples. I just wanted for this to last forever, I was in no rush and neither was she.
"Carlisle..." She panted as I felt myself grow even harder. She began reaching for my pants zipper and I allowed her access. She pulled my zipped down and unsnapped the button, loosening my pants so I could slide out of them. I tugged at her sweatpants and she arched her back, making it easier to slip them off her body. We were both left in our underwear and I couldn't be slow anymore. I tugged her panties off her body as well as my boxers and hovered over her, dangling my erection near her hot center.
"Bella..." I moaned before entering her. Her needful moans were all I needed to continue and slide into her. "God..." I whispered after I began slowly thrust in and out of her. I began picking up my pace when she wrapped her legs around my waist.
"Fuck..." She moaned as I began massaging her breasts again, giving her even more pleasure. "More...please Carlisle...more." She moaned and I began to thrust into her at full speed...hard and fast.
"Shit...oh god...Bella!" I moaned as I neared my climax.
"More...god...I'm so...fuck...CLOSE!" She yelled before snuggling her face into my mouth. I felt her walls clench around me as she climaxed and I was not far behind her. I rode both of us through our orgasms and fell limp on top of her, both panting heavily. I finally was able to generate enough thought to slide out of her, causing us both to whimper, and lay next to her, pulling her close. She reached down and pulled the sheets up on top of us, as I hugged her even tighter.
"Dad! Let's go!" I heard Alice scream out in the hallway the following morning. I pried my eyes opened and realized Bella was asleep on my chest, I smiled and kissed the top of her head before shaking her gently. Her eyes fluttered opened and looked up at me.
"Morning." I whispered, kissing her.
"Hi." She yawned before sitting up, letting the sheet fall to her waist. It took all of my will to turn away and put my boxers on on as she began changing as well. We both tried to be discreet about coming out of her bedroom, especially since I was only in my boxers...but it didn't work.
"Hey, Pop." Emmett said, slapping me on the back.
"Go get your breakfast." I said and he smirked and walked away. "So much for discreet." I laughed at Bella who was a bright shade of red. "What?"
"I was hoping not to get caught...this is so...embarrassing..."
"Hey...we weren't super quiet last night." I tried joking but she just starred at me.
"That's even worse! Carlisle..."
"Bella...babe...let's not make this about them, okay? Let's make this about us." I said, grabbing her waist and kissing her softly on the lips. "See, not about the kids." I whispered.
"Kids? What?" She joked as she took my hand and led me downstairs to the kitchen. Emmett smirked at us and Alice was trying her hardest not to...but soon failed. "Alright, guys lets go." Bella said, standing up and grabbing her coat.
"Why can't I drive?" Emmett wined.
"Your jeep isn't here." She said, rolling her eyes.
"So? Dad's car..."
"No way in hell are you driving my Mercedes to school."
"You let Bella drive it!"
"Bella has been driving a bit longer than you have, Emmett. Just go with her." I said, waving my hands at him.
"Well, since you have to get to the hospital soon, I'll just use my truck." She said, opening the door letting Alice and Emmett go in front of her. She stayed back long enough for me to take her in my arms and kiss her. "I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too." I said, beginning to feel like a lovesick teenager. "I love you."
"Love you too, I'll see you..." She began before Alice blew the horn at us. "at lunch. Two o'clock?"
"Sounds perfect. Bye." I said before I let her go from my grip. I watched them drive away before closing the door and getting ready for work. I walked passed Alice's room and saw her laptop open with a picture of us. I walked in closer and saw the picture, it was the four of us on La Push beach after Bella's graduation. We looked like a family. Alice was on my back and Emmett was grabbing Bella by the arms from behind. I scrolled through her IPhoto and printed the picture and found an empty frame in my bedroom and put in my work bag. The drive to work had to be one of the happiest in a long time. I was in love again...and I didn't feel guilty for loving her anymore. I pulled into work and was bombarded by the single nurses who seemed to never end flirting with me...even after my wife had died.
"Good morning, Dr. Cullen." Tanya greeted, bashing her eye lashes. I rolled my eyes and got the picture out of my bag. "What's this?" She asked once I handed it to her.
"This is a picture of me with my kids, and the nanny." I said, pointing to Bella.
"Precious." She said, sounding confused.
"And she is now my girlfriend. So would you please just back off? You doing this everyday, turns me off even more than if you were to just leave me alone. So just...leave me alone. I love her, very much."
"Your wife?" She asked.
"Told me she didn't want me to be alone. Please just stop." I said before taking the picture back and walking away into my office. I closed the door and waited for my surgery prep. I set the picture next to a picture with Esme and the kids. Seemed odd, but I thought it was right. The morning was slow leading up to the time where I had to prep for the appendicitis surgery I had to perform. The surgery went exactly as planned, but it was a hard one. The girl was a little bit younger than Alice, so it made me that more nervous. But when I saw Bella sitting in my chair when I returned to my office all those nerves were washed away from my body.
"Hey you." I said walking over to her and bending down to kiss her gently on the lips. My smile faded when I saw that she was holding the picture of us. "Oh..."
"When was this taken?" She asked, not sounding angry or weirded out at all.
"A few years ago, right after your graduation." I said as she stood up so I could sit down.
"I like it, where'd you find it?" She asked as I pulled her into my lap.
"Alice's laptop was open when I walked by her room this morning...I kinda stole it." I laughed, kissing her gently. I took the picture from her hands and put it back next to the other picture. I saw her starring at the picture with Esme and I became slightly uncomfortable. "Sorry, I forgot to get rid of this." I said, grabbing the frame and pulling my drawer open and placing it inside and then closing the drawer again.
"What..are you doing?" She asked, standing up and opening the drawer to take the picture and putting it up again.
"But I thought..."
"Why? I know you still love her and always will."
"But..."
"I was just looking at it, Carlisle." She said and I starred at her in amazement. My current girlfriend was almost begging me to keep a picture of my wife up. I kissed her passionately and brought her back into my lap. The kiss grew with passion as she straddled my hips. I moaned softly as she began grinding against me.
"Oh...Bella..." I moaned as she began loosening my tie and brought it over my head. "We...really...we...oh..." I moaned as she began kissing my neck. I began playing with her shirt and pulled it up over her head as she began playing with my buttons. She slipped the shirt over my head as I unclasped her bra and brought it over her shoulders.
"Paging Dr. Cullen to trama two. Paging Dr. Cullen to trama two." A nurse called over the intercom. I moaned as she stood up and picked up her bra. I picked my shirt up and buttoned it, not bothering to redo my tie.
"I'm sorry, raincheck?" I asked once we were dressed again.
"I guess so." She said, smirking. "Love you."
"Love you too." I said as we parted ways.
I walked in through the back door and began walking to the living to see what Bella was up to, but found something, well heard something completely different.
"I know, I wish we lived closer too...well two months is too long for you to get you llicense so you can drive here...yeah my dad is going to agree to drive me to Forks to see you...Bella'd never go against my dad..." I had heard enough. I cleared my throat and she turned around and looked like a deer caught in the headlights. "I gotta go, Jasper. I'll miss your voice too." She said and hung up.
"Ali, who were you talking to?" I asked, trying to stay calm.
"No one..."
"Alice..."
"Jasper. Okay? We've been talking for a while."
"Jasper?"
"Bella's younger brother." She informed me and I began to feel angry. "She didn't give me his number, I stole it out of her phone when she was in the shower. Don't be mad at her." I shook my head and walked upstairs to my room to change. I heard the shower go on, and I knew it was Bella, Emmett was at practice and Alice was probably talking to Jasper again. I smiled and stripped down to my boxers before walking to the bathroom and gently opening and closing the door. I pulled my boxers all the way down and gave a little knock on the glass doors. She whipped around and smiled seductively.
"Can I help you with anything?" She asked through the doors. For a moment, I knew this was a bad idea, Alice was downstairs and Emmett would be home any minute. But once I saw the soap running down her wet body, all my thoughts of my children were washed away.
"Umm, yes, there is a very sexy woman in my shower right now, and I'm afraid I need one as well. I have a date tonight with my girlfriend." She cocked her eyebrows at me before speaking again.
"Well, we wouldn't want you to be dirty on your date, would we?" She asked, opening the doors and pulling me inside.
"No, we wouldn't." I said, pushing her up agains the shower wall and began kissing her passionately. She began grinding against me as I kissed her lips. "Oh..." I moaned, trying to keep quiet. I gently picked her up off her feet and wrapped her legs around my waist.
"Carlisle..." She moaned as we continued rocking against each other.
"What, Bella?" I asked in her ear.
"Fuck me." She whispered and I stilled both our movements and looked into her longing eyes. I gave a smile before entering her wet, hot, center. "Shit..." She hissed once I began thrusting into her. I soon picked up speed and our moans of pleasure got louder and more frequent.
"Oh...fuck...Bella..." I moaned as I felt myself getting closer to release.
"Carlisle...oh god...I'm gonna...come!" She yelled as she came around me. I soon followed and I pushed her further into the wall once I had orgasmed. We stood there, panting heavily for a while before I pulled out and set her on the ground on the shower.
"Oh my god..." She panted as I began washing her. "You're fucking amazing." She said and I kissed her neck.
"You have no idea what you do to me, Bella." I whispered into her ears. Her hands moved back and grabbed my length and I let out a hiss at the contact.
"I have a pretty good idea." She said, turning around and pushing me into the tile. We soon finished and shut the water off. I grabbed a towel and began drying her with it, I felt her nipples harder as I brushed the towel by, but we had been in here for too long. We finished drying off before she left the bathroom, making sure she put good emphasis on her ass as she walked away. I groaned at the sight before heading to my room to change into a t-shirt and a pair of jeans. I met Bella at the top of the stairs and took her hand before walking downstairs into the kitchen where Alice had so nicely made dinner.
"Could you two at least keep it down...and in your bedroom when you do that?" Alice asked as we sat down. I nearly choked on the water I had just sipped and I saw Bella grow red. Emmett snickered before diving into the ziti Alice had made.
"Sorry, kiddo." I said, trying to deflate the situation. Dinner went by quickly and Alice had run up to her room the minute she was done. Emmett lingered longer than normal, and I could sense something was wrong. "Em?" I asked and he turned to me.
"Yeah, Dad?"
"What's up? You were pretty quiet tonight."
"Nothing..." He lied and I looked at Bella.
"Emmett, you suck at lying. Spill it." Bella said and I could see him tense up even more.
"Most of my friends are beginning to look at colleges, they are getting a sense of what they want their future to be."
"I don't see the problem, Emmett." I said.
"I have no fucking..."
"Watch your mouth!" I yelled back at him.
"Sorry. No freaking clue what I want to do! Where I want to go! I feel like I'm standing still." He said before looking away.
"That's okay, Em. Not many people know what they want to do when they're your age."
"You did. Mom did. Bella did."
"Actually, I changed my major twice before settling on education. When I was your age, I wanted to be a lawyer." She said and I saw him relax a bit.
"Really?"
"Yeah." She answered confidently.
"Your mother actually didn't even want to go to a real school. She wanted to go to design school to become an interior decorator." I said and he just starred.
"Really? What made her change her mind?"
"Your grandparents didn't give her much choice. Either go to a 'real' college, or loose her trust fund. She chose the trust fund."
"So, she didn't do what she really wanted?"
"No. She loved what she did, she never regretted the choice she made. She said, had her parents not done that, she wouldn't have met me and had you and your sister. You're going to figure this out, Emmett. Trust me."
"But..."
"Isn't there a college fair coming up soon?" Bella asked and he nodded. "What if you and me went to it together. It might help you focus."
"Sure." He said.
"Good, now go and start your homework." She said and he left. She looked at me a shrugged.
"I think there was more to whats wrong than just not knowing what to do in the future." I pointed out as she stood up and sat on my lap.
"There is. All his friends are going on college tours with their mom's, and he doesn't have that. Its something common when teenagers loose a mother."
"I wish I could help him."
"You can. Just continue being the best father you can be."
"I'm a good father because of you." I sad and snuggled my face into her neck.
"No. You're a good father because you're an amazing man, Carlisle. Please don't second guess yourself when it comes to this." She said and I kissed her gently. "I love you." She whispered.
"I love you too. You know what I want to do tonight?" I asked.
"What?"
"I want to get out of these clothes...and watch an endless amount of movies and eat way too much and fall asleep next to my love." I said and she stood up and dragged me upstairs.
"Me too." She whispered as she slid the shirt off my body and onto the floor.
