A/N: I do not own the Total Drama series; however, I do own Christian Walker
This chapter will look more into Gwen's past about her in year 8/9, her relationship with Hal and her being friends with Marissa.
Onto chapter 10: Deception
It's Saturday afternoon. I just finished working at Bite Me and I'm just lying in bed. Christian appears to be nowhere to be seen since I got home. I'm gonna assume that he has gone out to work or anything like that. I really do want to talk to him about the lack of communication we're having at the moment. But will he hit me again? I want to talk to Trent about this, but I guess he is busy with the songs he is gonna sing at Courtney and Duncan's wedding. The only thing I can do right now is to write and read my diary. I grabbed my diary and pen from the inside of my pillow cover and opened up to one of very first diary entries.
Dear Diary,
So I have this family friend. His name is Andy. He has spiky black hair and he is tanned. He was a pretty cool guy. That was until he used me and shit. He wanted me to pretend to be his girlfriend to impress this snobby bitch. She had long black hair and wore crop tops and mini shorts. She even wears these types of clothes during the winter. Who the hell wears that shit? I don't understand why he wanted me to get that girl. Was it because I'm different? I don't even know anymore.
That was the day I stopped talking to him. I didn't want to associate with him. He kept begging me to talk to him again. But I didn't want to anymore. What is the point of talking to him if he was just using me to get some bitch for him to play with? I don't care if our families are gonna hang out, I'm still not gonna talk to him.
Andy was a good person. But I guess the people he hanged out with during high school really changed him a lot. I flicked through the pages and found a certain diary entry that had a bit of blue lipstick on the page.
Dear Diary,
I hate hot weather. I don't like going out to different places in the heat. But no, my mum wanted me to get out the house to meet other people. Then again, I think she wants to spend time with my little brother. Why does she love him more than me?
Anyway, I decided to chill at the local pool. It's weird that I haven't been there since I was around nine-years-old. I didn't feel like going back after I was attacked by this evil bitch. I didn't even start the fight. Anyways, I chilled by myself at the little corner of the area. It was somewhat peaceful and it gave me time to think. All I thought about was how my mum didn't really appreciate me from time to time and I still wonder where my dad is. I haven't seen him since I was seven. My trail of thought stopped when Andy and his gang approached me. They wanted me to move so they have a place to chill and shit. I told him to get lost but he didn't want to. He tried to threaten me and wanted to hurt me. But I stood my ground. Then this guy came along and tried to act all tough and protective. Though I got to admit it was really cute of him to that. Andy and his friends started to bash him up. I thought this guy was gonna fight back, but he didn't. All he did was cover his face. I felt that I should have helped him, but I was scared to. What if Andy tried to hurt me again? Luckily, this pool guard helped out and banned the three of them for the rest of the summer. I wonder if they are gonna follow those rules. I highly doubt it.
The pool guard decided to let the injured guy and myself alone for a bit. He and I started to talk for a bit and I apologised for being useless. He then started to call me "Lyn". I hate that little nickname. Stupid Andy. Andy came up with the name when were little. He just kept calling me that name to annoy the hell out of me. I told the guy that my name was Gwendolyn. I think he liked the name. I wanted to keep talking to him, but my mum decided to call me and told me that I have to go to hospital because my little brother accidently swallowed poison. I told the guy I had to rush. I got up but sat back down again. That was when I started to kiss him. I don't know why I did it but, he did help me a bit and I really did like him. The best part of that moment was that he kissed me back. I know that this will sound so girly-girl, but it was like fireworks. I could feel the chemistry between us and I wanted to see him again. But we had to stop the kiss and I told him I had to leave.
That was when I realised I forgot to ask for his number…
P.S. That lipstick stain is just a little reminder of how amazing that kiss was
Rereading that entry made remember back to what the guy looked like. He was slightly tanned, had somewhat visible biceps, slicked back black hair, sparkling green eyes, had slightly visible abs and was taller than me. The thought of him again made me feel happy and all girly-girl inside. I also can't believe that him and I never met after that, or the fact that him and I never gave each other's phone number. I flicked through the pages and I noticed another entry about my time during year nine. It was a time where everything was amazing and shit at the same time.
Dear Diary,
It has been over three months since Hal and I went started going out. It was a perfect time. He treated me right, be made me happy and everything. He didn't care about my weird looks or weird ways. But he was pretty cool. During my time with Hal, I also hanged out with Marissa from time to time. Marissa was pretty and sweet and she let me in all the gossip in the school. Although I wasn't into learning about the rumours and crap, it was interesting to hear all of this. I found out that some of the most popular girls in the school are starting to do drugs and everything. I don't understand why girls as young as 14 would do this. All the things you do to be more popular.
Anyways, Marissa told me a few things that were kinda shocking. She told me that some of the people I know hate my relationship with Hal. Most of these people are in the popular group. I don't understand why. Marissa told me that they wanted to break Hal and I up ever since we started going out. I'm happy that Marissa told me everything. I'm happy that I can trust her with everything. At times, I felt that she and I can be best friends for a good time.
That was until I found out she was a manipulating bitch. Everything she told me were all lies. Those people were fine with me going out with Hal. It was mainly her who didn't like the relationship. I found out about everything from a good friend of mine. I flicked through the pages and I found an entry that was about one month after the break up.
Dear Diary,
It has been exactly one month since the breakup between Hal and I. I realised that I'm still unhappy and I still feel pretty shit about it. As I said a few weeks ago, my friend told me about Hal and Marissa's secret relationship. It seems believable now. Ever since the breakup, I see Hal and Marissa walking around together during lunchtime and how they would usually walk home together. I'm still happy that I haven't talk to the both of them. But I really do miss Hal. I stopped liking him and all, but I really want Hal to tell me himself rather than someone else telling me the truth. But hey, I doubt he will tell me anything because I really don't want to associate with him for now on. I don't care if he wanted me to talk to me again, because I'll never talk to him ever again. That is a promise I'm going to keep.
Surprisingly I did keep it. It has been just over eleven years and I have kept that promise. Hal and I never talked again. I guess hanging out with a different group of friends made us not talk to each other. He didn't even ask me about going on the Total Drama shows. I guess it's somewhat true about breakups. Once you broke up with someone, you will barely talk to them again. But then again, I'm still good friends Trent and all. That's saying something.
I realised now that everything can change in a matter of years. Even if the time period is pretty small, I feel that change will happen no matter what. I grabbed my pen that was next to me and flicked through the pages to find a brand new page to start writing again.
Dear Diary,
A certain change can affect anyone and everyone around them. It's weird to think that everything can change depending on someone's decision. I have reread some of my past diary entries. Andy was a lovely guy, but when he started to hang out with Jake and Hunter, his whole personality changed. I didn't see any goodness in him. If I think about it now, Andy was kinda like Duncan, except more of a fag and just a tad more rebellious.
Then there is Hal and Marissa. I didn't know that not talking to them can make me feel so happy. I'm happy that I'm not controlled or manipulated by them. Come to think of it, I haven't associated with them for over eleven years. I wonder if they're still going out. I also wonder if I still went out with him. I wouldn't have found new friends or not go on Total Drama Island. Diary, I'm happy to not have any of those two in my life. I would absolutely hate it if I see any of those two again from now on. I don't know if I'll be able to handle myself if I see any of those morons again.
Then there is this guy. The guy I met when I was at the pools at the age of thirteen. He looked perfect in my eyes. He made my teen-self be all girly-girl and shit. He seemed familiar. For some reason, I keep thinking back to a day where he tried to help against this bitch when I was nine. Thinking back to his physical appearance, it appears that he somewhat looks like Trent…
I stopped writing for a bit. I reread the last sentence I just wrote over and over again. It can't be right. I try and remember back to that day. The scorching heat, the calm blue pool water and the complaints from the people saying it's too hot.
*FLASHBACK TWELVE YEARS AGO*
I was looking upon the former family friend and his mates. I felt so much anger in me. I wanted to punch him and everything, but I couldn't. Why the hell must they annoy me on this day?
"Hey, don't threaten her", yelled out a random guy. I looked towards the guy who yelled out. He seemed cute and sweet for doing that.
"Well, well, well, if it isn't the wannabe-popular Trent Garcia. Why don't you just run along and be the third wheel of Christian and Rachel's relationship and stop being a hero", jeered Andy.
"Well I would do that, but I think you should stop terrorising this beautiful girl here", Trent called out.
*PRESENT DAY*
My mind started to process everything that I was thinking. It came to the conclusion that the guy who wanted to protect me was indeed Trent Garcia. I took hold of my pen again and wrote more in that entry.
Well diary, I have just realised something. The guy that helped me out when Andy was threatening me was really Trent Garcia. The one who I met during Total Drama Island; the one who I had a huge crush on; the one I broke up with on national television and the one who I'm still close friends with to this day. It's weird that I met him when I was younger. He was the first guy to make me feel those random butterflies in the stomach and made me blush like a freaking Pikachu. Trent treated me right. There are many days where I wish I was still with Trent. But, I still love Christian.
That reminds, I should write a bit more about Christian. He and I met through Trent during a little get together. I think Trent did want to get to know each other for a bit. I learnt that Christian does care about the environment and he likes all these horror movies and everything else. He is brilliant in playing the piano and he is so good looking. The times Christian and I were together were magical and lovely. At the same time, I started to drift away from Trent. We didn't talk that much and some of the times I wanted to talk him would be about him playing at my wedding.
Nowadays Christian and I barely see each other. He is so busy with work and hanging out with his friends at cubs and shit. I really want us to spend time with each other, like the times when I was going out with him. I also still have that gut feeling that he is cheating on me. Thank goodness that Trent is helping me out. But, I would really like it if Trent and Christian can hang out again. Trent does miss Christian. I know that deep down that Christian misses Trent. Why can't the two of them be friends again?
Since I last wrote in you, nothing much has happened. Courtney and Duncan are still planning their wedding. Duncan just told me that there is a huge chance that there will be an open bar. I wonder if he is telling me the truth. Note to self: ask Courtney about it. Geoff and Bridgette are still sucking face as usual and DJ owns this cake shop. Yes, sweet, lovable DJ owns one of the finest cake shops in the city. I'm really happy for him. I still remember the days where the food was really good during Total Drama Action. I found out through one of the aftermath shows that DJ was the one who cooked all those amazing foods. I'm really happy that DJ owns the place now. I remember back when I asked for a cake for my wedding and the boss was really rude to both Christian and I. DJ was an apprentice chef and he managed to make my wedding cake ever so perfect. I do hope that Courtney and Duncan have DJ make their cake. DJ definitely hasn't changed since the times on Total Drama.
Trent and I are still talking to each other. But, I think he is still trying to plan the music for the upcoming wedding. I do miss Trent, a lot.
Well, I think that's all I need to write. I'll probably write in you soon.
-Gwendolyn Lovelace Walker
I closed my diary and placed both my diary and pen in my pillow cover. I started to relax on my bed and I'm finally happy with what I wrote. I started to drift away to allow myself to go into a deep sleeping trance.
BEEP, BEEP, BEEP
I realised that my phone was ringing. What a great way to wake me up. I tried to look for my phone in my room, but I remembered that my phone was on the kitchen bench. I quickly got out of bed and rushed to the kitchen. I looked at the screen of my phone and it was Courtney calling me. I clicked on the green button and raised my phone to my ear. "Hello", I greeted. Courtney then started to tell everything about the wedding; so much about the wedding that I decided to take a seat at the dining table.
As soon as Gwen left the room, there was a slight muffled noise coming from the cupboard. The door started to open a bit and a piercing hazel eye looked through. The door started to open a bit more. However, as soon as the door opened more, the mysterious person fell out of the closet. The person turned out to be no other that Christian Walker. "Stupid cupboard", he whispered to himself. Christian started to approach his bed to find the pillow that Gwen sleeps on. He peeked through her pillowcase to find her secret diary. He opened her diary and quickly skimmed through different parts of her diary. He saw bits and pieces that intrigued him.
"I think I'm in love with Hal Talon".
"Hal liked her roughly 9 months before him and I went out".
"I feel like he isn't being honest with me".
"I want to talk to Christian about everything, but I feel like he is going to hit me again and again…"
"The only person I can talk to about everything is Trent".
"As I said a few weeks ago, my friend told me about Hal and Marissa's secret relationship".
"I don't know if I'll be able to handle myself if I see any of those morons again".
"Thinking back to his physical appearance, it appears that he somewhat looks like Trent…"
"I also still have that gut feeling that he is cheating on me".
"There are many days where I wish I was still with Trent".
"I do miss Trent, a lot".
You could see the slight anger that comes across his face. He scowled at some of the bits about Trent. Christian knows that Trent is his best friend, but his mind believes they aren't anymore. "Trent, you are most definitely going down", he said slowly and threatening. He quickly closed Gwen's diary and placed it back into her pillowcase. He grabbed out his phone from his pocket and started to write a text message.
Babe, please meet me at our local club. There are many things we need to discuss, especially us two ;)
Love you beautiful
Christian sent his text to the mysterious woman and stood quietly in his room.
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I would like to apologise about Gwen being slightly out of character.
What do you know, Gwen has just realised that she indeed kissed Trent when she was just a little teenager. For now, I don't know if Gwen will tell Trent about this. The new shock twist we have here is that Christian now knows about Gwen's deep and inner thoughts through her diary. Will he tell the mysterious woman about Gwen's diary?
I'll be honest, I really like this chapter. However, it took a bit of time to write. This is because I was trying to figure out some of the different situations that Gwen might have experienced with Hal and Marissa.
The next chapter will be about Christian meeting up the mysterious woman and we find out a bit more of Christian's past.
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed reading chapter 10: Deception. I haven't written the next chapter yet, so I don't know when I'll update this story.
I don't mind if you flame or criticise, but please leave a review
Love, Madim
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