It was 6:55pm and Onodera was just leaving his apartment to go and meet Shin. He wondered why he'd even bothered to keep the appointment, he felt horrible and wasn't in the mood for this date at all. He stuffed his hands into his pockets and hesitated outside his door, he'd actually tried to put a little effort into his appearance. He'd put on a fresh pair of jeans and tried to clean the scuff marks off his trainers. He'd given up with his hair as it never really did what he wanted, even back in high school the middle parting was just because his hair refused to do anything else. Onodera took a deep breath and felt his phone buzz in his pocket. He pulled it out and saw it was a message from Shin: I'm at the restaurant, see you soon!

Onodera flipped his phone shut and slowly made his way to the restaurant. It wasn't anything fancy, just an average family restaurant, but Onodera would be grateful of a nice cooked meal and if he got it for free even better.

The brunette paused outside the restaurant and saw Shin inside, his sandy-brown hair stood out against the mass of dark hair that filled the place. His palms began to feel clammy and he realized with a start that this was the same feeling he got when he went on the first date with his senpai in high school. He laughed at himself and pushed the weird feelings away before stepping into the building and heading over to the table Shin had reserved for them.

"Onodera!" Shin beamed and motioned the brunette over excitedly. "I'm so glad you came. I was worried that you wouldn't show."

Onodera only smiled and sat down opposite the man. He had to admit, this man was better looking than he remembered and his plain brown eyes were nothing special but they sparkled with life. This man was the complete opposite of Onodera and it scared him a little how someone could look so happy for no reason. "What do you want to drink?"

Onodera shrugged, a little uncomfortable. "Whatever."

Undeterred by Onodera's attitude, the man ordered two iced teas and even ordered Onodera's food for him. "Trust me, they do great pizza here."

Onodera only nodded and wished for something stronger than iced tea. Why did he even bother to agree to this? And he even got nervous about it! He'd become so laughable, his personality even more messed up since Takano had returned to his life. He sighed at how pathetic he was for letting one man control so much of his life. "Onodera what's wrong?"

He was pulled from his thoughts and he shook his head. "Nothing."

Shin pouted and rested his chin on his hand. "It's not nothing. I hope it isn't me…" Shin trailed off and smiled as their drinks arrived. "Here." He handed Onodera his drink and took a long gulp before setting it down on the table. "So refreshing, right?"

The brunette hadn't even touched his drink, the iced tea reminding him of the times Nowaki had come over to help cure him of the many hangovers he'd had. Instead he drew patterns in the condensation that had formed on the outside of the glass. He really, really wanted something stronger. He motioned a waitress over. "What alcohol have you got here?"

She rattled off all the drinks and Onodera chose the strongest one on the list before the waitress left to get his order. Shin had watched the whole exchange and noticed how his companion hadn't even looked at the waitress as he ordered but rather was eyeing up the alcohol behind her.

He wondered what had caused the deep sadness in the green eyes that had first caught his attention. When Onodera had first walked into the shop, Shin had thought he was the most beautiful man he'd ever seen. He was instantly smitten and knew that this man was the one for him, but he also knew that the chances of this beauty being gay were slim, which is why he got so excited when Onodera had told him otherwise.

As he studied the man some more, he noticed a thin, pink line running from the back of his neck and disappearing down the back of his shirt and as he looked more he started to notice lots of little faded scars that were just visible above the neckline of Onodera's shirt. They wouldn't be noticeable unless you really looked for them. Shin felt pity swell inside him and he suddenly reached across the table, taking Onodera's hand in his.

Onodera was just turning around from making his order when suddenly Shin's hand shot out and grabbed his. "Onodera-"

Shin broke off as Onodera snatched his hand back and looked like he'd been burnt. "Don't touch me."

Shin sat there, shocked at this sudden reaction. "I'm sorry."

Onodera flexed his hand before letting it fall into his lap and they sat in silence until their food arrived.

The night ended awkwardly and Onodera regretted coming out, his mood was even worse than ever and his lack of alcohol was not helping. Onodera stormed out the restaurant and Shin quickly paid and ran out after him. "Onodera I'm sorry if I did anything wrong."

Onodera ignored him and practically ran to the closest bar, only to realise he didn't have any money with him. "Shin I need money."

Shin stopped to catch his breath and frowned. "Why?"

"Just give me some money." Onodera held out his hand expectantly and waited for Shin to cough up some cash. Brown eyes looked in shock at the sudden personality change, what had caused this man to be in such a foul mood? It couldn't just be because he'd touched his hand, could it? Shin shook his head and tried to calm the man down. "Listen, how about we go back to mine and-"

Onodera snorted and waved the man away. "Fine, I'll just get money from someone else."

Shin had to jog to keep up with Onodera's long strides. "What do you mean? Come on, I'll get you some tea or something back at mine." Onodera stopped and looked at him hungrily, Shin stepped back, now frightened of the green eyes he'd found so beautiful. "Onodera?"
Onodera grabbed the man's arm and pulled him along behind him until the brunette found a dark alley. He shoved the man against the wall and began to kiss him roughly. Shin couldn't believe what was happening. As Onodera's lips crushed against his he wanted to fight back, he didn't want this, but he somehow couldn't fight back. As Onodera pressed his body against him he realized something, Onodera's cheeks were damp and his body was trembling.

Shin gently pushed the brunette away to see he was crying. "Oi, Onodera what's wrong?"

Onodera sank to his knees and put his head in his hands trying to contain the tears that were rolling down his cheeks. "Onodera?" Shin reached out and put a hand gently on the trembling shoulder before helping him to his feet and letting him lean his weight on him. "I'll take you back to mine so you can freshen up, okay?" Onodera simply nodded and let the man lead him away.


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