Then he remembered the letter in his pocket. He pulled it out, smelling Andy's favorite perfume on the letter….

My dearest Sam

If you are reading this letter something happened to me, I just hope that it was something worth losing my life for and not a silly rookie mistake! It also means that you just found out that I am carrying your baby, jeez that must have been a shock! But all jokes aside it also meant that Noelle was my new health proxy and that I am being kept alive, for our little baby's sake. I have never loved someone like I love this little baby inside of me, I know you must think I am crazy but I will never regret making that mistake the night of the sting …. I really think that, that was the night our little baby was conceived. We both made mistakes and we are BOTH responsible that things went south although I wish you didn't break up with me in a parking lot, I wished you kept your promise that I would not get rid of you so easily, I wished I did go to the Penny and had that drink with you, but I felt that I had to proof to myself that I can cut UC work. Nick was great especially when we found out that I am pregnant, he even peeled me an green apple every morning as that was the only thing that helped for the morning sickness, he protected me with his life and I will always love him for that.

I want to tell you a story …. We were lying in bed one night and my stomach hurt as we were laughing about something, I cannot even remember about what. We must have fallen asleep and I woke crying and you were not even awake and you pulled me closer telling me that you've got me, just then I never felt more love, wanted, known in my whole life. I know it is just a silly little story but you're it for me Sam Swarek, you're my story! I know you with Marlo now and I wished that I could trade places with her but I want you to be happy, more than I want for myself and you are with her! We both screwed up but that is all in the past, the most important thing is our little baby….

My wish is to not be kept alive after he or she is born, if the doctors cannot save me I want the machines to be switched off, to die with dignity. My wish is that you and Traci are my baby's primary caregivers but I know that you with Marlo now and that she is part of your life. I know that I am breaking a promise by telling you this but a few weeks ago I found out that she is bipolar, she assured me that it is under control, and I believe her, but with her being in my child's life I needed you to know so that you can make sure that she stays on her medication! Traci will need you to stay strong it is going to kill her to lose me so soon after Jerry! Please look out for my dad that he doesn't go off the edge again, and make sure that he sees his grandchild a lot. And Oliver and Celery must be my baby's godparents. And I want Nick to be part of my child's life especially because he saved my butt undercover and got me save out. I know that you two will find away to work together even if it is just for my sake.

I know you must be panicking right now but you will be a great father to our baby, just wish that I got to see it! Please remind our baby that I loved him/her since the moment I found out I was pregnant. Please tell our baby that I always loved and will always loved his/her dad. I just wished that we didn't screw up so much. I just wished we didn't waste so much time.

But even if it was a rocky road I would do it all over again, in a heartbeat just maybe without all the mistakes.

Love you always

Mcnally

PS. Please do not give our child a silly name like Andrea, for a boy what about Samuel Nicolas Swarek or if it is a girl Traci Samantha Swarek?

Sam had to stop reading a few times as he vision blurred from the tears. He put the letter back in his pocket close to his heart and he knew that he will try his best to make all Andy's wishes come true even if it means that he and Collins had to try and work together.

He must have fell asleep as he was woken by a hand on his shoulder, it was Frank signaling him to go outside and although he didn't want to leave Andy alone he needed some coffee and to stretch his legs and Traci was standing right outside ready to take his place for a bit.

Frank's POV

When I walked into the room, I saw Sam fell asleep with his head on Andy's hand. I almost felt sorry to wake him but I really needed to talk to him. I also needed him to give Traci a change to sit with Andy a bit especially after I spoke to the surgeon and that he told us that he did not have much hope that Andy would survive the night. I told Noelle to take Tommy to our house as he would need the support if things turned for the worst tonight. Noelle did not wanted to leave but after I assured her that no one can override any of her decisions she left, Olivia will stay a few days with her sister in order for Noelle to sort Andy stuff out if necessary!

Once outside the room Sam could see that Frank had something on his mind ….

Pretty please R & R, next up will Andy wake up and what does Frank got to say...