hey guys, sorry for another late night update I was dealing with some personal shit and my laptop was fucking up...
rotting christ x : first of all, it takes me about six tries to type our username because my laptop keeps autocorrecting it to Christ, and, ...sorry?...
Amon amarth fan : Some of them yes, you get the rest for the list in a later chapter XD
hidingwithinshadows : Its completely fine, and thank you so much! Will do sir *salutes you*
so guys, I know there isnt much tragedy and shit yet, but i have like three recovery chapters before it gets really bad. Just letting you know.
this is three months later, yes i skipped. So just letting you know, thats not a typo.
And for those of you who know what im talking about here (if you dont, dont worry about it, it doesnt matter) Holy fuck Copeland is getting big! Have you seen her laterly? Like, if you google search her, you get a bunch of her baby pictures, but go onto her facebook account and its like HOLY FUCK SHES BIG! If you havent seen them, go onto her facebook, its not set on private or anything, you can look at it even if your not following her. But the recent pictures?! Shes growing up to damn fast! (I sound like her mother here XD) Im gonna put a fucking brick on her head, shes not alloud to get older! Its making me upset tbh.
Anyway, this is one fucking long authors note, sorry about that. Heres the chapter
Spinning
The world was spinning, not unbearably so, but enough that Nico had to keep on hand on the wall so not to come tumbling down on some unsuspecting drunken teenager.
Everything seemed funny to him, the terrible music, the drunken dancing, even the wasted couple fucking in the corner.
He felt as if he had been injected with some kind of drug, and with his luck he probably had. It wouldn't have been the first time he unknowingly took something, and definitely not the first time he had taken drugs period.
The red liquid spilled out of the plastic cup as he stumbled through the room, he wasn't sure what it was, but it tasted good and made him feel even better. There for he decided not to care, he stopped paying attention to what he was consuming much earlier that night.
He felt a hand press onto his ass, making him slightly giddy inside, maybe it was a sexy girl, or guy, he had no preference, and at the state he was in it wouldn't have mattered anyway.
When he turned, a petit brunette stood drunkenly smiling at him. Before grasping his wrist and pulling him against her.
He cringed at the pain of her grip against his cuts, but soon shook it off as she started grinding against him.
There time was spent sloppily making out, hands exploring everywhere, along with grinding and leaving love bites. But they where soon separated in the crowded room. It didn't matter, it wasn't as if he cared about her, and with everyone as wasted as they where he would soon find another.
Soon he found himself in another immanent situation, pushed up against the wall with someone- he never did see who- who obviously was looking for sex.
She never did get it though, as she ended up turning away and being sick on the carpet. Nico took that as his cue to move along.
He had at some point lost his drink, which, if he was being perfectly honest with himself upset him alot more than it should. With so many people here, and so much alcohol in his system he would never find that red drink again. At least not tonight, tomorrow, as soon as he got over the major hangover he was sure to have, he would have to go try some different drinks in hope of finding it.
it had over all been a pretty good night so far- some man had given him the best blow job of his life, he definitely wasn't complaining- and he would have to remember to thank Megan later. He never wanted to go to a party, he wasn't a social person if you haven't guessed. But after surviving three stressful months of school, he decided he was in desperate need of some good alcohol and stealing yet another bottle of Megan's would be much to risky. She had unknowingly been supplying him with all the Booz he needed for the past three months and was starting to get suspicious.
Thank god he had found a decent party, but if was a Friday night, he guessed it wasn't to miraculous.
Nico stumbled through the crowd, searching the area for something else to pour down his throat, he needed more. He was hopelessly shit faced, dont get him wrong, but he had not yet fallen and still had some sense of right and wrong. there for he wasn't drunk enough, especially if he planned on getting laid. although that didn't matter to much at the moment because when he woke up sober and naked in bed with some random stranger, he sure as hell would wish he hadn't gone, and he wanted this night to be a good memory.
After a few minutes of stumbling around the room, he managed to find a table filled with different drinks.
He wasn't sure what was in the punch bowl, but it was sure to be heavily spiked, and thats just what he needed. So he ended up stumbling back away from the table with a cup full of the yellow substance.
It was ok, not as good as the red but not as bad as the beer, so he called it decent and moved on.
It hadn't occurred to him until he was practically to drunk to remember his own name how stupid he was.
He had spent practically his whole life with drunken messes of foster parents, now most kids who grew up like that would have right off the bat decided to never drink. But not Nico, no he still had no problem with drinking untill he passed out instead of facing the world.
I wish I could say he had some deep revelation right then and there and decided he would never get drunk again, but unfortunately, he was way to drunk for that, and even if he was sober wouldn't give up such a great stress reliever
It wasn't untill Nico saw his least favorite couple sloppily eating each others faces off against the wall that he truly felt sick that night.
Even in his drunken state, the sight of Thalia and Luke well on there way to fucking each other made his stomach churn.
In the past three months the two had officially started dating, and needless to say, he had seen way to much of the boy. Whether they where making out on the couch, or disrupting his precious sleep with sinful noises in the night, he was always there; and Nico was sick of him.
but luckily, he saw no more of them that night, because not ten minutes later he was passed out in the hallway.
"oh my fucking god." someone groaned from across the room.
The lights where off, thank god, and there where peope passed out everywhere.
As soon as Nico opened his eyes the nausia hit him, he couldnt remember the last time he had a hang over this bad, and he really wished he had drank some water before he passed out. Granted, he still would have had a massive hangover, but it would have helped a little.
Nico rushed to the restroom, emediantly emptying the contents of his stomach into the toilet. He cringed, before standing up and flushing it could hardly see, so he made the stupid desision to turn on the lights. two words, bad. idea.
"Holy fuck!" nico swore. covering his eyes with his arm, struggling to flip the switch again with his other hand. Damn you stupid bathroom lights.
When he managed to turn the off, despite barly being able to see, he turned on the water, washing his hands with the coconut soap and drying them on the blue bathroom towl.
His head was pounding, and he desided that it would be best to get home asap, but he didnt have a car and wouldnt have trusted himself driing anyway, so he decided to text Jason. He would usually turned to Thalia, but obviouly she was here, and lately she had been to busy with Luke anyway. It was a shame, had actually started getting comfortable with the girl.
To Jason: Dude, anyway you can pick me up? I got i massive hangover and no way to get home. Dont worry about Thalia, shes with Luke, i wouldnt want to disturbe them. Im outside the last house on 3d Ave.
He sighed, stepping out into the cool morning air, emediantly leting out a pained noise. The sun, oh god the sun. Nico squeezed his eyes shut, taking a few deep breaths, squinting his eyes and stumbling off the porch.
The bird song was killing him, it was as if someone had cranked up the vollume to full blast, and if not for the randome people and cars passign but, he would have covered his ears. But he figured he would look like even more of a lunitic if he did that.
His phone vibrated, letting him know he had recieved a text.
From Jason: Be there asap, why where you at a party anyway? You usually dont go out...
Nico sighed in relief, he would be there soon to take him home, then Nico could curl up in his warm welocming bed and sleep for eternty. He smiled to himself before typing a relpy. Ok cool, and dont worry bout it. its no big deal
Jason was nice for the most part, but he had the big brother aditude, and that got annoying sometimes. He worried way to much.
Nico debated on poping in his head phones and listening to some Bring Me The Horizon, but decided against it. It probably wouldnt be to good on his hangover. So instead, he plopped himself down on the last step and leaned his head against the rail, closing his eyes and just waiting.
He would have done anything for a cigerret at that moment, but quickly dissmissed the idea, no he was not starting that shit again. The road always leads to distruction, he was pretty much fucked, but he knew all to well he could get allot worse.
Nico's phone vibrated again, Just down the block, you ready?
Yep.
Afew seconds later, Jasons blue suberue pulled up infront of the house, and Nico hopped into the passengers seat.
"You look like shit." Jason commented, slightly laughing at Nico's pained state.
Nico just rolled his eyes, before closing them and leaning back in his seat, despratly tring to fall asleep again.
The ride home was, for the most part siglent, untill Jason asked, "Do you know where Thalia is? You said not to worry an she was with Luke, but they werent at his apartment, and you know i worry about her Nico, i dont like Luke."
He nodded, gesturing back the way they came. He may have goten better with them, but speaking still wasnt something he felt comfortable with.
"They where at the party?!"
Nico nodded once again, not opening his eyes, simply because i felt as if his eyelids gained five pounds each and there was no way in hell he could pry them open.
"Damn it!" There was a sound, like Jason hitting the steering weel- it wasnt the horn, just like he had hit the side- that made Nico flinch, which of coarse sent him into another panick attack, thinking about all the times he usto be hit. Oh god why now?!
He stated shaking, his breath coming out in short fast gasps, his mind was going into over drive and he was positive he could hear his past foster mom Terisa laughing.
Nico was pretty sure Jason had pulled over, but he wasnt sure, he had currled into a ball and the present seemed so far away. Like it was at the end of a tunnel he was passing through Although he was running in the opposite directing.
Terisa's laughing became louder, he could practically feel her nails digging into his arms, her hand colliding with his cheek, and the sting of where her rings came in contact with his face.
Nico squeezed his eyes shut, covering his ears, but now she was louder, and he could practically see her face.
He started rocking back and forth, he felt like the world was spinning, well, it was, but tha was not what he ment. His heart rate sped up and he was dimly awair he could quite possibly have a heart attack if he didnt snap out of this.
Nico could faintly hear Jason yelling, crying out for, help? Maybe, he sounded so far away.
He squeezed his eyes shut tighter, desperatly trying to snap out fo this, but she seemed so real. It was as if she was truley there, beating him like she usto. and thats when a terrifying thought creeped into his head.
What if this is real, what if Thalia, Jason, Percy, Luke, Annabeth, everyone i know now, what if they are the ones that arent real? hat if Terisa is really here, beating me still, and l of this was some kind of dream? What if im waking up?
And thats when he went ove rthe edge, tears started streaming down his face, someone was calling out, and Nico was fairly sure it was himself. Terisa's hits became harder, faster, she sarted kicking his ribs as he fell to the ground.
He ached all over, at this point, he wanted nothing more than to die. All he wante was to slip away form reality and be gone forever. Nico was never one for religion, but what ever came after this, he was sure could never be as bad as he has it now.
And thats when he heard her, it was so faint, so distant that he almsot missed it. But it was there.
"Nico! Nico please listen to me! Nico get up please! Please Nico! Can you hear me? Nico you need to calm down, breath in out. What ever your feeling, seeing right now, its not real. Listen to me, breath. Nico its ok, breath. Come on, In, out."
her words where there, trying desperatly to grasp him , pull him from what ever spell he was cast into, what ever trance he was in.
Nico focused on her words, he comforting words, her voice, the voice that always seemed so calming to him. The only one who could help him when something like this happed, the girl that could calm him down by just looking at him, the one he had grown to trust.
Thalia Grace.
Nico fought back, trying desperatly to escape the prion of his dark thoughts, focusing everything on Thalia, her wors her voice her memory. Everything, and just thinking about the girl seemed to calm his nerves.
"Nico, Nico can you hear me? You need to calm, down. Listen to me, focus on me, what ever is going on in your head right now is fake, not real, it cant hurt you. Focus on me, listen to me, everything is going to be alright. You need to breath, in, out, in, out. Come on Nico, can you hear me Nico? Its ok, breath, calm down, its ok Nico." Her calm and comforting words where getting louder, the spinning was slowing, the pouning dying, and the memory of Terisa fading.
His eyes flew open, and he sat for a second, becoming awair of his surroundings. He was currled into a ball on the sidewalk, Thalia sitting as close to him as she could manage, her arms draped around him comfortingly. Jason stood beside the car, looking extreamly pale and worried, and Luke as behind Thalia, standing with his arms folded, looking annoyed and unimpressed.
Thalia's eyes flushed with relief as she saw Nico staring back at her, and she tighetened her grip on him, pulling him into her lap, and he couldnt her but think about how bacwards this felt. But decided to egnore that thought, nestling his head into her chest and the fear burned dully far back in his mind, the overwhelming sensation of how right this was, she was, outwaying every other emotion by far.
"Oh thatnk god your ok" she said quitely, tears briming in her electric blue orbs. " was so scared Nico, dont ever do that to me again.
and for the first time in a very long while, Nico felt safe, content, completely relaxed, and it seemed the words just slipped from his mouth despite himslef, "Im sorry."
and thats where im leaving you. *evil laugh*
HE FINALLY TALKED!
what do you think of the mild Thalico in this chapter, i know its not anything great yet, but i mean, this is the first time hes even spoken to her besides "dont toutch me" once. He cant exactly have a raging crush on her yet now can he?
anyway, I hope you enjoyed and I'll see you all next Tuesday!
BYE
