A/N: I'm so so so so so so [...] sorry for the delay! :O It's been what? One month? :O I'M SO SORRY! I didn't mean to leave you hanging like that :( I just really didn't find time to write plus this chapter was really hard to write (and the next will be too, however I will get them up sooner! PROMISE!)
Okay, so I hope you're still with this story haha ;) Please enjoy reading :)
The room was awfully quiet and Ali could literally hear his and her hard breathing. Eventually Freddie cleared his throat and let his hand fall from her shoulder to take her hand in his.
"Ali, it's just..pretending. No big deal. We'll manage, don't worry.", he told her quietly. She looked away and tried to blink back the tears. She needed to be strong right now.
If he saw her tears he'd just..know. And she couldn't let that happen. Ali turned back around and looked into his eyes. "You're right. I was just overreacting because I thought it would be, you know, awkward. But you're right, it's nothing.", she replied, trying not only to convince him but herself as well.
Freddie smiled at her, obviously – and thankfully – buying her story. They sat there for a few moments, neither really sure what to do next. "Um, Vance said we need to put the ear pieces in.", she eventually broke the silence and he nodded.
"They're in the nightstand though.", she continued and again all he did was nod. "Are you even listening to me?", she questioned, raising an eyebrow. "Yes, I'm totally listening to you. The ear pieces are in the nightstand.", he said, clearly just brought back to reality from far far away.
"So, how do we put them in?", she asked, somewhat amused by his behavior. "Well, once we're in the, uh, bedroom, we'll just, you know, get them and then put them in as part of the, um, act.", he stammered.
Ali raised an eyebrow. "Well, I could put in your eye when brushing your hair out of your face? It's small after all.", he answered her unspoken question. She smirked but nodded.
Then they were quiet again. Well, how the hell did one start something like this? Ali took a deep breath and then leaned in to brush her lips against Freddie's.
It was a soft kiss at first and Freddie didn't respond at first, obviously surprised by her action. However, after a couple seconds he started to kiss back and the kiss quickly got more passionate.
Ali could immediately feel the warmth spread through her entire body, her heart swelling and butterflies in her stomach. Kissing Freddie still felt as good as it had years ago.
She sighed into the kiss, leaning against his body completely and he pulled her closer, his strong arms going around her waist. She completely lost herself in the kiss, oblivious to her surroundings and the mission at hand.
"Just go ahead with it", Freddie murmured against her lips, bringing her back to reality. God, they were about to do this. The order Vance had given them. It all came crashing down on her and she tried so very hard to lose herself in the kiss again.
It would be so much easier if it was just her and Freddie, nothing else. She couldn't take anything else right now. As if he'd read her thoughts Freddie suddenly started kissing down her neck, causing her to sigh again.
His lips against her skin felt unbelievably good and she couldn't help but forget all about the mission all over again. However, he soon picked her up in his arms, carrying her over to the bedroom, his lips never leaving hers.
And even though she did everything in her willpower to stop her mind from leaving the kiss and going back to that, she wasn't able to do it. Freddie laid her down on the bed gently and then hovered above her.
He looked deep into her eyes. "You're so beautiful", he said under his breath and Ali wasn't sure if she had even been supposed to hear that. Freddie started to kiss her again and her eyes fluttered closed.
She felt his arm brush hers when he reached over to the nightstand to get the ear pieces. Then he gently threaded his fingers through her hair, his fingers pushing the small piece into her ear.
Her eyes opened again and she stared at him. She couldn't do this. She couldn't.. "Relax, Ali, it's just you and me", Freddie whispered, seeing the horror in her eyes. No!, Ali's mind screamed, no, it's not and you don't know anything!
But she just forced herself to smile up at him, brushing his hand to get the other ear piece. She leaned up to kiss his cheek and quickly pushed the ear piece into his ear, her kiss hiding the action.
"If you can hear us, kiss now.", Vance's voice immediately rang in their ears. Freddie softly kissed her on the lips, lingering there. She tried to keep her eyes closed, tried to stay focused on Freddie and blend out what they were about to do but she couldn't.
Her eyes opened again and she broke the kiss. Freddie however didn't stop and instead started kissing her neck again. She looked up to the ceiling, trying to fight back the tears yet again.
This wasn't how it was supposed to go. "Come on, show a little more passion. Start undressing!", Vance ordered. Ali closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Then she pulled Freddie back down to her so that their eyes locked.
"Help me", she breathed, her voice not even really there but still cracking. She saw a look of confusion flash across his eyes but then she saw the concern, the understanding. "Ali..", he started but she cut him off, shaking her head 'no'.
It was a lie. But that didn't matter right now. She needed him to stay focused but still be careful and she could only reach that goal with lying to him about the real reason.
He just nodded and then grabbed her hand, leading it to the buttons of his shirt. She got the hint and started to undo the buttons before pushing the shirt off his shoulders.
Ali traced her fingers over his muscular chest and secretly admired his abs. "The pants.", Vance's voice rang in their ears again. With shaking hands Ali reached down to undo the button on his jeans and unzip it.
Freddie put a finger under her chin, forcing her to look into his eyes. "It's gonna be okay, trust me.", he assured her quietly and she nodded. Vance and the others couldn't hear what they were saying thankfully.
Sure, they were wearing ear pieces but they were only one-way. Ali carefully pushed his pants down and he kicked them off. She swallowed hard, fearing the next words from Vance.
And they came: "Take off her shirt, the shorts can stay as long as your boxers do." Ali looked into Freddie's eyes shocked. Vance wanted them to go there?
"You don't have to go there. You can pull the covers over you. All you have to take off is Alison's shirt and her bra as well as her shorts. The rest can stay. And the bra only has to go because they need to see it fly across the room.", they heard Fornell's voice.
Ali shivered slightly and turned her head so Freddie wouldn't see her facial expression. He kissed just below her ear and whispered: "Just you and me, remember? It's okay, Ali, this won't make things awkward, I promise."
If only he knew! He didn't have a clue what this was all about! It wasn't about the awkwardness at all! If only it was. That would be so much easier, Ali thought. She felt Freddie's hands sneak under the hem of her shirt, gently pulling it up and over her head.
"Kiss down her neck until you reach her collarbone, maybe lower.", Vance ordered again. Freddie did as he was told. "Show more passion!", Vance barked. Ali tensed up at the tone of his voice.
And she really thought Freddie wouldn't listen to what Vance was saying. But apparently she was wrong. Freddie started to kiss her neck and collarbone more roughly, biting and nipping away.
When he reached the strap of her bra he pushed it out of the way and Vance told him to continue – in that same hard voice. And Ali lost it. She screamed and pushed Freddie away from her.
She was breathing heavily, tears flowing down her face. "STOP!", she screamed, kicking and punching in Freddie's direction. She didn't see his eyes widen, didn't hear his soothing voice, didn't hear Tony and Ziva's calming voices, didn't hear Vance shout at her and Gibbs shouting at Vance.
"Please, don't! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it. Please stop! Please don't!", she screamed, her voice chocked with tears. "ALI! It's me! Freddie.", she eventually heard a voice, somewhere far off and felt someone shaking her.
"You need to leave, they will.. Please don't hurt him! No!", she screamed desperately. "ALISON! Please! Nobody's here that will hurt you or me in any way. Please, Ali, look at me!", she heard his voice again, this time much more present.
She carefully opened her eyes and froze as she took in her surroundings. Freddie was kneeling in front of her on the bed. She was curled into a ball, her face felt wet from crying.
His eyes were wide with shock and concern and his face showed how worried he was. No! This could not be happening! "Oh God!", Ali exclaimed under her breath.
She shot up and ran to the bathroom, pulling out her ear piece on the way and slamming the door shut behind her. She sank down with her back against the door, her hands covering her face as she sobbed uncontrollably.
She had always been scared that this would happen someday but she'd never expected it to actually happen. And with people around for that matter. Only problem: It just had.
A/N: So, as you might have noticed, things are getting kinda messy and angsty from now on. But I promise you, there's light at the end of the tunnel ;)
Anyway, the next chapter should be up quite soon :) Already working on it :)
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~ C.
