Title: Don't Worry About Me…

I do not own any of the Inuyasha characters, they belong to Takahashi Rumiko.

Summary:

"Kagome…" Inuyasha silently whispered,"why would you even do…." Kagome placed her delicate finger towards Inuyasha's lips.

"Don't worry about it", she replied with a fake smile, "I promised didn't I?"

Kagome walked away, heart aching, he would always be there right?…it just won't be the same.

"Kagome!!!", Inuyasha yelled, clenching his fist. :::I'm so sorry

Chapter 10: Puzzle Pieces of my Heart

The anonymous stranger continued to spy at the two so called friends.

This is the girl that Kikyo won't shut up about? This Kagome.

The hue of her reddish eyes showed a glint of interest. She was never one for listening to others conversations, in fact she found them kind of boring. But this…she was, well, intrigued.

o O o O o

Kagome gripped the large blacken gates that separated Inuyasha from herself. Her breathing had finally returned to its normal rhythm, but her heart was a different story. Just looking at Inuyasha's features caused it to pulsate at a fast pace.

Why do you look so sad?

Inuyasha saw her far etched appearance and placed a smile on his slightly strained face.

You're pretending aren't you…

He jogged with inclined demonic speed and was able to reach Kagome's presence at a very short amount of time.

That's okay, because I think I am too.

"Kagome." Inuyasha said at a low tone.

He had finally called her by that. Her first full name.

"Inuyasha." She replied, with the same soft toned voice.

Their atmosphere radiated thick with discomfort, it was so unnatural.

His mouth felt dry, as if from just swallowing a large unnecessary pill. This was wrong, all wrong, he wasn't suppose to be acting like this. He was to convince her, persuade her, from staying away from this Bankotsu character.

So, why wasn't anything coming out of his mouth?

Kagome, she was in between everything. She was hurt, even though she didn't deserve any aspect of it.

And?

And, it was all his fault.

"I, I'm sorry Kagome" Inuyasha said, eyes covered by the thickness of his silver mane.

It's okay, really.

"I can't say or do anything to deserve any of your trust back."

I can pretend nothing ever happened.

"Besides, even if there was some way. It wouldn't be right to give myself another chance."

His voice was starting to crack, truthfully he was scared. Afraid of losing Kagome to another.

Stop talking like that, it doesn't suit you.

"You have Bankotsu now, right?" He murmured softly, clenching both hands into tight balls of fists.

Just please, tell me it's going to be okay.

He started to chuckle lightly, as if it were the response towards Kagome's subconscious statement. That's all he could do however, was to laugh. It helped him cope with the doleful things he knew were about to come. He hadn't remembered laughing like this for a while now.

Laughing to hide his discomfort.

Not since he first associated with Kagome, everything corrupt seemed to slowly erase away from his life.

But now, what would happen next?

Would everything dreary and terrible just return?

Drawing that same familiar picture that was his life. A plain canvass that contained black and white memories.

Colors were nowhere to be found, because that was what Kagome filled in his life. Vast colors of different emotions. It helped him see through her eyes and appreciate what he had, instead of his regular sulking and complaining.

"Kagome?" Inuyasha asked with a fake smile on his face, "Colors fade away don't they?"

Kagome stayed silent, her sapphire stained eyes remained concentrated towards her best friend. Her answer formed into a simple nod.

"No matter how much you engrave pictures with multicolored hues, it still fades away eventually." Inuyasha sighed, as he closed his eyelids grasping the familiar cold darkness.

"I tried not to let mine wilt, but I guess I just always screw up."

No, don't say things like that.

"You said that you'll never leave my side, remember?" Inuyasha said, fluttering his eyes open, "I doubted you when I first heard that statement, because no one ever did…"

Her heart was starting to ache.

"…all they saw was my outside appearance. My demonic features. My faults." He said filled with regret, while resting his focus somewhere else.

Aching for her best friend, not from Pity, but because…

"You were the first person to change my outlook on life, Kagome"

She failed on her promise.

"You made me think of others, rather than my selfish self."

She hadn't been there for him, today. She left his side, and used Bankotsu to fill her self-centered desires. In return, Inuyasha began to blame himself for all the things that took place, when in fact she had just as much to blame.

I'm sorry for leaving you.

Kagome walked slowly towards her best friend and clutched his muscular built chest, hugging him from the back. She rested her small frame into his more sturdier one, and began to grip his body tighter. She was afraid he'd disappear into the cool breezes of autumn, and away where she could never reach him.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha whispered, low enough for just the both of them to hear.

A hug, it always appeared to solved their problems. So why did it feel different this time? Their bodies didn't fit together perfectly like they used too, like incorrect pieces in a puzzle. Inuyasha palmed Kagome's delicate hands, and instantly felt the warm kindness radiating from them. It felt comforting against his touch, but...

"Please don't." He ordered gently, as he unclasped Kagome's firm hold on him.

He knew deep inside that he had to let her go, it was for her own well-being not to be around him anymore. Well, because he might just end up dragging her down into a pit he called loneliness, while causing her more anguish in the process.

Loneliness.

How he hated that word. It was that one solitary expression that perfectly suited and described his very being.

"Huh?" Kagome spoke faintly.

The phrase just barely even managed to escape her lips. She was taken back by Inuyasha's upsetting phrase, and it just put vast amount of pain on her already throbbing heart.

"I mean, let go, Kagome." His voice was a little forceful now, as he pushed her hands away from his tensed body.

He already missed it.

"Oh, my mistake." She said with a fictitious smile, while looking down at the ground.

Her warmth.

It only left small traces of tingles on his coarse palms. He wished to be forever engulfed within them, and to be with her always. For Kagome to always hold his hand, and say that everything was perfect.

The very opposite of what was taking place at this moment.

"Listen Kagome, since Kikyo and I are dating now…"

It still pains my heart every time you say her name.

"…you and Bankotsu can have more time to get to know each other…" Inuyasha practically gritted out of his mouth.

How could you?

o O o O o

A small laugh escaped her reddish lips. These two were supposed to be best friends, as she recalled. Yet the half demon refuses to even acknowledge her sympathetic actions, let alone return a hug.

But still one must wonder, why Kikyo sees this girl as a threat.

She's nothing but a mere human.

o O o O o

This time it was Kagome's turn to release a soft chuckle. Her mood was completely changed, and she was sure to let Inuyasha know exactly how.

How could you even ask me that

"Is that what you really thinking?" She questioned, faintly dripping with anger.

Kagome looked at him, cobalt eyes shot like frozen daggers into his very soul.

"Because if you're referring to it as a joke," She asked, "it's not very funny."

Her words seeped with seriousness, and that once kindhearted voice of reason that resided in the back of her mind quickly became engulfed with darkness. It was trapped, and well, Kagome was a different person now.

"It wasn't supposed to be a joke." Inuyasha answered, with a very low tone.

It's alright to be mad.

"You're kidding, right?" She said with a sadistic tune, "I can't believe that you're actually telling me this. Do you think that this is what I want?"

Its okay, Kagome, you can be angry.

She fought back the tears that wanted to stream from her eyes. It was just so hard, especially standing right beside him.

"Do you even know what I want Inuyasha?" Kagome continued to speak, "Or, is it just because you're still running away?"

You can cry, because I'm still here.

"I know that Kikyo means a lot to you, but it just hurts to admit it to myself. And it hurts me even more when you say it right in front of my face, Inuyasha. Did you know that?"

I didn't.

"Or, did you know how stupid I looked running into both of you guys during your date?"

Kagome's voice was starting to shake inordinately. Inuyasha wanted to be there for her, but...

"Do you know how much it hurt, to know that my only best friend just lied to me? He didn't even come after me, and ask about my feelings towards the situation." She carried on talking, but this time her voice was slightly louder.

"He left me there to run on my own Inuyasha, while that girl held him down like a dog."

That's right Kagome, tell me everything, have no regrets once this moment ceases to exist.

"The only time he actually begins to notice me was when another guy came into my life."

Her words started to take its toll on Inuyasha's heart. It felt like many gashes of paper cuts.

"Now he wants to scamper away like a helpless animal, just because he made a mistake…he wants to leave everything behind."

It was bleeding now. The paper cuts dug deep enough and caused his heart to bleed uncontrollably.

"Is that what a best friend does, Inuyasha?" Kagome asked, as her voice finally returned to its normal tenor.

No, Kagome please, you know I'm not like that.

She turned around, leaving Inuyasha to completely face her back. He heard her sniffle silently, and suddenly smelt the faint scent of saline.

"Hey, Inuyasha?" Kagome asked with a dulled tone.

"Hmm?" Inuyasha answered, barely speaking the appropriate words.

"Can you do me a favor?" She questioned the half demon.

A stream of silence followed her statement, as Inuyasha stood there merely giving her a slow nod. That's okay, Kagome expected that to be his response anyways.

"When my best friend comes around, could you tell him that…I…I miss him."

Those were Kagome's last spoken words, before she sprinted away from that place coated with deceit.

Away from him.

Inuyasha held his arm out straight, as if trying to reach and bring her back into his muscular grasp. But his legs seemed to be having a war with him, for they didn't move one single solitary step.

She was almost out of his sight …

"Fuck!" He cursed hoarsely.

Gone away into that picturesque view that composed of a sunset.

o O o O o

Her perfectly manicured nails gripped the cell phone containing many embedded rhinestones that sparkled against the sunlight. She dialed a familiar number, and waited until she heard a ringing sound.

"Kikyo, I have something important to tell you." She said, with a malicious smile on her features.

She could almost picture Kikyo's excited form, as she was about to find out the reasons of Inuyasha's sudden change of emotion.

"Well did you find out anything, Kagura?" Kikyo impatiently asked.

She wanted to know now, and now means NOW!

"I found out everything."

o O o O o

Kagome must have ran at least two miles, until finally reaching her destination. Approximately fifteen minutes passed, and the once coral sunset developed into the cold listless night. Sparkling stars emanated as the only light that could be seen.

"It's the night of the new moon." She whispered, as the cool gust of wind danced around her small frame.

Kagome kept walking, until she finally gripped the memorable cool metal chains.

"We spent a lot of time here didn't we?" She smiled at herself.

Standing there alone, she felt very relieved. No one was watching her, no one could judge, but most importantly he wasn't there.

Her clammy palms grew accustomed against the cold metal. As she sat down at the aged seat that the metallic chains connected to.

"This swing…was the same swing that Inuyasha used to push me from." Kagome whispered, as the words seemed to flow against the soft windy currents.

Why was it so hard to forget?

Why?!

That's easy

Kagome placed a half smile against her unblemished features.

I love him, that's why.

"Yet, he causes me so much pain. Watching all alone from background, all those time he shared with Kikyo." She said. As she focused her eyes on a couple happily walking with their fingers intertwined against each other.

But what is love without pain?

A hollowed shell of false emotions.

If one must fall in love correctly, they would first have to experience a rollercoaster ride called grief. If they don't, well, they really wouldn't comprehend their partner fully, do they?

I understand Inuyasha.

Knowing the person's attributes inside, as well their outer armor, can deepen a relationship for the better, and maybe heal some scars that were left behind.

I do, but if you can't return my feelings with the same amount of affection, then…

"I'm going to move on, and leave you behind…" She murmured against the vast darkness around her.

Tears once again fell from her crystallized sapphire stained orbs, with no indication that it would cease anytime soon.

I'm not sure if I'm able too.

Kagome placed her hand on top of her mouth, covering the muffled chokes of sobbing that tore her heart into two. Her eyes clamped shut, as more darkness came into view.

This is what it's going to feel like now…

To be away from Inuyasha.

o O o O o

The half demon's gleaming silver mane flowed against the waft of breezes, dancing on their own music. His amber colored eyes stayed hidden under his bangs, however. He had still been outside his house, since that moment.

He was still waiting, for her?

Maybe I'll finally wake up from this nightmare.

Why don't you come after her?

He scoffed at his childish thoughts.

"I'm sure that I'm the last person she'd want to talk to now, or ever." Inuyasha said to himself.

In a blink of an eye, a large crack had been placed into his front yard's stairway. His hand felt numb, but that what he liked about aggression. By the time you've finished, you can end up feeling numb all over. Then the pain, even in your heart, would finally fade into the nothingness.

Right now that's exactly how he wanted to feel.

No, that's not right.

What he wanted to feel the most was, her warmth.

"What've I done?" He choked out furiously.

At that moment, the once strong hearted half demon finally broke down into tears. Picturing a faded photograph of Kagome and him on his mind, caused him to create another large crack on the stairway.

Slowly enough, his colors…no Kagome's colors, would all fade away until it turned into black.

o O o O o

End of chapter.

Thankies for waiting you guys! I made this one long because deserve it. (Yay!)

Not sure if this chapter made sense, because I typed it in the middle of the night.

Oh, and school semester's almost over…so updates with come more frequently!

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P.S- Out of curiosity, how many actually want a Bankotsu/Kagome love fanfic? Or is the classic Inuyasha/Kagome still stronger?

Well let me know!