Kai's P.o.v. not Nikolai

'Thoughts'

[Other language]

Flashback

"Talking"

Eye contact conversations

'Kai I'm alright now we can switch back.' Nikolai told me telepathically and I got up and saw a portal open. I hugged Nicky and waved good bye to everyone before stepping through the portal and watching it close. When it did I turned around and saw the blood covered walls of the Hiwatari mansion and all the rotted corpses. I headed into the kitchen and grabbed a water bottle to take to the basement.

"Anyone home?" I looked to see Brooklyn standing in the hidden doorway carrying a little boy around seven or eight at least.

"Jeez Kai how can you live in this death house?" I just stared at him then looked at the floor.

"Sorry." He looked at me guilty but I brushed it off and cleared the counter and took out the first aid kit.

"What happened to the kid?" I asked him and saw him fidget before scratching his head and shaking his head. 'Of all the years I knew him he was never nervous like this. But my memories from the days in the Abbey are still foggy so I don't remember much of my childhood. He just came and found me one day saying he was my best friend before I met Black Dranzer and lost my memories. He escaped the abbey and came to help me bring down my grandfather and Boris.'

"Did you see them hurt him?" he nodded and looked away as I cleaned the gashes on the boy's stomach before bandaging them up and leaning on the counter. 'Brooklyn was there for me since the beginning and still is here for me now but I never could do anything for him. He said it was enough to have me notice him at all. Said I was never really paying attention to him in the abbey because I was always sick or injured.'

"Kai you need to get out of here."

"No I'm staying here because they won't step into this place at all. It's safer here than it is in other places." 'His orange hair reminded me of Tala's hair and it hurt to remember Tala that look in his eyes and that look in the other one's eyes. Stop it! Stop remembering this!'

"Brooklyn see if you can find any one else in that school I'll go check at the hospital and see if I could bring more supplies. I'll clean this place up when we get back." As I finished saying this the boy awoke and looked at me before smiling at me in a silent thank you. 'He was mute and in a stranger's house thanking the stranger for saving his life.'

"Do you want to stay here or follow Brooklyn, he was the one who found and rescued you." The boy nodded to Brooklyn and followed him out and I did as well but I headed left and he went right. I passed right in front of the Granger dojo and headed into it for old times sake.

"Hey Kai how's it going? Oh come on still with the silent treatment I mean I won fair and square at that tournament!"

"I know but its fun to watch you sulk when I don't talk." I told him and watched everyone laugh at him as he fell over I laughed as well then.

"Hey Kai you want a hotdog before Max puts Mustard or mayonnaise or what ever it is he puts on it." Ray said as he tried to save me a hotdog but failed and ended up having his hair dipped in it.

"Hilary did you see where chief got off to?" Tyson asked looking for Kenney and not finding him at all. I saw him walk into the kitchen to grab a cup of water but I liked watching Tyson act like an idiot so I just stood there. Maybe that was why I didn't notice my phone was ringing until Max told me.

"Hello?"

"Kai you have to get out of there Voltaire he's in Japan and the others the-" the line went dead and the others were staring at me trying figure out what happened to make me look shocked.

"RUN NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I shouted a second to late as a scream was heard in the kitchen and Kenny came out of there bleeding before he collapsed to the ground never to rise up again. The others managed to get over their shock and began to run towards him but I grabbed them and started running before Boris could find us out and kill them. We ran until I had them at my old hide out that was still in ruins thanks to Dunga trashing it.

"Kai we left Chief how you could be so heartless and leave hi-" Tyson stopped talking I don't know why he did and even I now I still don't. But maybe it was because I was finally crying and he was shocked or maybe it was because I had gotten shot in the arm.

"Shut it Tyson because I saved you all and doing this never gets any easier, if anything running away and leaving someone behind gets harder and harder. So just shut and sit still while I think." I snapped at him and tried to stop the tears but they wouldn't stop I just kept seeing the faces of those I had to leave behind. 'I'm so sorry mom, dad. I left everyone behind again and I can't even be strong for these kids.' Some put their hand on my shoulder and I barely stopped myself from hitting Tyson in the face. My fist was an inch away from his fear-stricken face.

"I want you all to get away from me, when I help you get out of here and into a safe place hide and stay hidden until it is safe. I don't want there to be anymore deaths than necessary so I will call Brooklyn and he will guide you." They nodded silently while I hooked up Dizzy to my phone and watched as more tears fell to the floor because Dizzy knew that Kenny was gone. All I could hear was the dripping sound of my tears and blood hitting the floor as I waited to see if Brooklyn survived.

"Brooklyn take the Blade Breakers to the hide out and make sure they survive until I take down Boris and my grandfather. When they are safe you can come find me at the mansion." He nodded and while I waited I began to tell the tale of my life and of the fact that I barely remembered my childhood at all. What made me tick and why I was and am the way I act.

Kenny's body was still there on the floor waiting to be buried so I gave him that honor to rest and made his, and Grandpa Granger's grave by the koi pond. I ran the rest of the way to the hospital and began grabbing whatever wasn't nailed down. And when I was ready to leave I set the bags down and went to make sure I didn't forget anything. I fell backwards and landed on some man that got shot in the heart. He had bright orange hair and ice blue eyes.

"Tala… when did they get you here?" I asked myself silently as I remember that it was him who shot Kenny and him who shot me in the arm. He had lost his self to the cyborg and now they had killed him. But when did they do that? After the cyber bit-beasts came and annihilated most of the city?

"Oh god Tala not you too, I've lost everyone now haven't I Brooklyn?" I asked holding back the tears as I listened to his erratic breathing. I closed Tala's eyes and grabbed a stretcher. Once he was placed on it and the supplies the boy was placed on top and we carried it back to the Granger dojo to bury him.

"Kai I found some other kids but they didn't want to come out unless they knew we could protect them. And this child's name is Niko and he said that he was abandoned in the beginning so he raised his self and would wish to join our family and share our name Hiwatari." Brooklyn told me and I remembered that that day all those years ago I unofficially gave the Demolition boys and any other child that wanted it my last name. The right to be part of my forever growing family, any one who would want the name, could add it on and I would treat them as such.

"Niko Hiwatari it is then, welcome to the family my son, and Brooklyn will be your brother/uncle." I said and he smiles happily as he helped me to put all the supplies back on the stretcher so we can head back to the mansion and get started on cleaning the place. When we arrived I dropped my end of the stretcher and pulled Brooklyn behind getting stabbed in the arm in the process.

"Tyson I think I stabbed someone." I heard a voice whisper loudly and helped lift the stretcher so we could enter. To see the Blade Breakers standing before me looking exactly the same in every way.

"What are you doing in my mansion stabbing me in the arm?" I asked and saw Max look away guiltily and the others laugh nervously.

"Tell me have you actually killed anyone to save your selves or did you scare them away by striking out blindly?" they nodded while I sighed and set the stretcher on the floor once we reached the kitchen. I took out some cleaning supplies and passed them out to everyone before staring at eth dead bodies and sighing again.

"How can you live in this dump Kai?" Tyson asked and Brooklyn and Hilary hit him on the head. I took another look around and apologized to him as I began picking up bodies and dragging them outside to the garden and throwing them in the holes I dug out before Nicky called to me.

"Kai are you alright you seem different and I don't think it's for the better." I don't know who said that but it brought back some many memories of the abbey that I had a bad headache. I almost tripped because I was so dizzy and just lifting my hands seemed to make me tired.

"Oh come on Kai you can't be serious is that all you can do? I know you can do better you have to for us all." Brooklyn said to me as I almost fell thanks to the blood loss I've been dealing with for a few hours.

"Shut it, I know I can do better and I don't need you looking over my shoulder."

"Kai you seem different somehow… I don't think it's for the better, what they did to you in the labs must have been worse than what happened to Maya." I glared at Brooklyn and he shut up quickly before helping get back to our cell so I could rest for a few hours.

"Kai hey there okay just breathe slowly and you'll be alright." I heard someone say as they rubbed my back, but I don't have time to be sick right now so I pushed them back and began to drag the rest of the bodies out. Five in each hand on two attached to my belt loop. Niko was sitting on the counter staring at me worry shining in his eyes and I didn't want him to worry.

"Hey don't worry I'm okay see? I won't let anyone hurt you my son, because I love." He nodded and I knew he was reassured so I went to finish cleaning up the house the best that I could. When I finished burying the bodies I went back in to look for some new clothes for Niko and Brooklyn I could change later I had other people to worry about right now.

"Kai get down here!" Brooklyn shouted and I dropped the box of clothes and ran to the living room to see Ian standing there bleeding and crying. I kneeled in front of him and pulled him into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Kai but I didn't want to lose Spencer and Bryan now that Tala is gone. He said that you have one month to join him or he's going to kill them and I don't want to be alone again. He said that I had to have proof of having seen and given you this message." I saw the knife and took it from his hand cutting my wrist and taking a smile vile out of my back pocket that I use for blood samples. And handed it to him after I cleaned up the cut and bandaged it along with his wounds.

"Don't forget that you three are Hiwatari's and I will find a way to free you all, and don't worry I gave Tala a proper burial so don't worry about that." He smiled and left through the front door making me feel so much more pain.

"I'll find a way I promise brothers." Brooklyn nodded and pushed a couch in front of the door and we put two bookshelves to cover the windows, slowly boarding up the house.

"Kai I think that Niko needs some new clothes since his are torn and bloody." I looked at Niko and saw him falling asleep so I went to pick him up and take him to my room. Once everyone picked a room that wasn't my parent's room I made sure that they had walkie talkies.

"I lost all of my sjema before I even turned fifteen. I can't stand seeing my family slaughtered before my eyes anymore Brooklyn." He put his hand on my shoulder and shook his head slightly and pulled me up so we could head back into the house since we were on the roof. As we got inside I found Niko in the living room staring at the bookshelves and I did as well.

"Did you read all of these books papa?" I looked at him and thought about the fact that he called me papa. 'I really am going to be this kid's father and there is nothing I can do to raise him properly except to stop my grandfather. I don't want to him to grow up seeing his type of lifestyle. And he can speak well do sign language and I can read it.' I nodded to him and he looked at me in awe as did Brooklyn because it was a lot of books.

"Kai I'm hungry can we eat something like a late midnight snack?" Brooklyn asked making the same face Tala made when he wanted something and knew he would get it. 'That's right Brooklyn is Tala's step-brother.'

"Kai you're laughing and crying… why?" I looked at him and realized he was right and began laughing even harder.

"You should have seen your face!" I said as I tried to catch my breath he looked happy to see that I laughed.

"I haven't heard that laugh in a long time Kai. The last I did it was before you killed your parents." I looked at him and remembered that was the memory that I was forced to watch every single time I rebelled and yet it never phased me like it did today.

"Kai go get Tala and Brooklyn so we could start dinner for your birthday." My mother Lillian Hiwatari said and I ran outside to get them. When I got there they were on the floor unconscious and well back then I went to the abbey from five in the morning to seven at night as did the other Demolition boys.

"Kai you will be returning to the abbey with me as will all of your friends. But the only to do that is to get rid of all of your parents so what do you say?" Boris asked me but I just glared at him so I didn't see that needle coming. That needle that always made me obey him even though I was acting like a caged animal.

"Now the first ones to go will be the Ivanov's, Palpov's, Kruszvenit's, and then your parents." I looked at him and growled deeply before setting of to o and kill my targets. Succeeding in all of them and never once telling my family members of what I did.

"Kai snap out of it, it's not funny anymore." Max was saying as I stood there staring at the books remembering every face and sound uttered when they died.

"Did you know that it was I who murdered the parents of the Demolition boys Brooklyn? Your parents, Tala's, Ian's Bryan's and Spencer's and you already know I killed mine." I saw his pupils turns small and many gasps as the others heard I laughed at their expressions and left the room. I stepped into the kitchen and opened the mini-elevator that went to my parent's room. I climbed in and pushed the button to head up.

"Kai where are you?!" I heard Brooklyn shout from the kitchen and tried to hold back my laughter but it came out in giggles. 'I didn't know what was funny I mean Brooklyn was angry and would probably want to hit me so why was I laughing?'

When I climbed into my parents' room there rotted corpses were still there. Since I was six when they were there and now I'm fifteen. Grandfather would sometimes put me in here when I failed to do as he said or rebelled against him and the tape didn't work. I fixed mom into a new dress and dad into his favorite clothes, there now they look presentable.

"Kai where are you?!" Brooklyn shouted angrily and I looked at the mirror hanging next to the bed so mom could brush her hair.

"Come here Kai let me brush your hair."

"Okay mama, wait I didn't put on my fins!"

"Fins?"

"Yeah Tala and the others call them that since Gwandfather tells me to put them on." Lillian nodded and started brushing my hair until it was down and braided it. My hair reached up to mid back, my hair was still the same length.

"Kai remember you can't tell anyone you're a girl, especially you're grandfather." I nodded and she kissed my fore head before picking me up and carrying me to bed.

"Where's daddy's big, strong little boy!" Dad said since he knew me as his son not daughter. Dad and Voltaire wanted a son and would have had me killed but mom told the doctors and they faked my birth certificates and mom never asked to know what I was so she didn't have pictures.

"When you get older we'll start practice blading alright?" I nodded and then mom rushed dad out of the room. We slept together because she always had to make sure no one walked in on me getting ready to dress.

"Oh, and Lillian, Father wishes to speak with us tomorrow about Kai staying full time in the abbey and coming out once a month for vacation." Mom looked at me sadly but nodded to him anyway making him smile as he left.

"Don't worry my little phoenix I will always be here for you and when your father finds out we'll see where it is he stands." I nodded and fell asleep holding onto her night gown.

I looked at the brush and sat down to brush my hair. I had my hair down and measured it to the last time, it grew about a few inches very close to my tailbone.

"Kai where are you please come out now?!" Brooklyn still sounded angry so I got up and headed into the bathroom to start washing my clothes and hair. I didn't have time for a shower not while all these people were here. I looked at my tank top and skin tight shorts that went down to my knees.

I wore bandages around my chest and tight black clothes underneath to look less feminine than I already was. My mother taught me to dress like this so it was easy to hide up until now. Anyone could walk in on me in the shower so I only took one when I knew for sure no one would come. Or when I left the blade breakers to do as they wished.

"Just need to wait for them to dry and I'll be done getting dressed." I said to myself as I got started on drying my hair, it naturally went up into its spiky self with out my help it just needed to be dry.

"Oh, Nikolai I hope that you're doing better than I am… to think that you and Sanie both knew I was a girl when you touched my face. Please take care of your selves and the others."