Chapter Eleven
Everything in italics is Maura's dream, anything else is what's actually happening.
"I love you," Jane said smiling.
"I love you, too" Maura said, looking into Jane's chocolate brown eyes. Then all the sudden about six months had passed and Jane was eight months pregnant. Their world still seemed perfect. Jane was about to have a baby, they were in love, and from the looks of Maura's formerly pristine apartment, they were still living together.
At that moment, Joey walked in and kissed Jane, "Hey babe."
'What?' Maura thought. 'This isn't happening,' she thought some more. 'Jane just said she loved me and now she's with Joey? She told me the reason she couldn't love Joey because of me.'
She rolled over in bed and outstretched an arm, subconsciously wrapping it around Jane.
"You ready to go, sweetie?" Joey asked Jane, hugging her from behind.
"Yeah, will you grab my coat for me?" Jane asked turning her head and smiling up at him. As he walked out of the room she sat back down on the couch, practically on Maura's lap. "What's wrong?" Maura said nothing. "Look, Maur, you know that Joey is the father of my baby girl and when I came to you and said I was sorry but I should be with Joey, you said you considered it and you thought it was the right thing to do." Being Italian, Jane talked with her hands and as she did, Maura noticed a diamond ring catching the light on Jane's left hand.
Maura let out a small whimper in her sleep.
"Why would I say that?" Maura asked. "I love you Jane, I always have. You just told me you loved me and that I was the reason you didn't love Joey back not four hours ago." Maura was angry and sad and immensely hurt.
"Babe, are you r-" Joey was interrupted by Jane.
"In a minute, Joe! Maura, just because I'm with Joey now doesn't take away the truth from that. It was true then, and sometimes I feel like it's still true now." Jane looked at Maura with sympathy in her eyes.
"Jane, don't. You're engaged to him now, not to me. That should be my ring on your finger, not his." Maura could feel her eyes welling up. "I love you because you are you. He only loves you because you're pregnant!" She regretted that as soon as it came out of her mouth. "Jane, I'm so sorry. That didn't come out the way I intended it to. I meant it as a derogatory thing to Joey, not you."
Jane just looked at her with hurt written all over her face. "Don't even." Jane got up and walked away.
"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" Maura heard Joey ask.
"Nothing. Let's go." Jane said very coldly.
'Could Jane still love me?' Maura thought. Days went by, then a week, then two. She hadn't heard from Jane in two whole weeks. She saw an open, empty vodka bottle on the coffee table, but couldn't remember drinking it. Then the phone rang. It was Angela.
"Ma-m-ma," was all she could get out. She was hysterical.
"Angela, I'll be right over." Maura grabbed her coat, shoes and keys. She stormed out the front door and to the guest house. Angela opened the door. She was a complete wreck. Maura could tell by looking at her that something was wrong with one of her kids. 'Dear god, please don't let it be Jane, please not Jane.'
"J-j-jane.." Angela managed.
Maura pulled her into a tight hug. "Angela, I'm here. What is it?" As she waited for Angela to calm down enough to be able to speak, all she thought was, 'I can't believe I let Jane leave like that and now there's something horribly wrong with her or the baby.'
Angela's breathing became somewhat regulated and she said, "Jane..and..J-joey...car...accident. Jane's..b-baby..."
Maura felt like she was going to be violently ill. She grasped Angela's shoulders and held her at arms length. "Angela, look at me. Are Jane and the baby alive?"
"I-I don't know. The..the hospital w-wouldn't tell me a-anything over the ph-phone." A sob wracked Angela's body.
"What hospital are they at?" Maura knew that when the hospital won't tell the patient's family what's going on over the phone, that means it's really bad.
"Mass Gen." She sat back down on her sofa, put her head in her hands, and cried.
"I'll be right back. I'm going to call and find out what's going on." Maura walked out of the guest house and practically ran back into her own home. She grabbed her cordless phone and dialed the number for Massachusetts General Hospital. "Hello, this is Doctor Maura Isles. I need to speak to whomever is the doctor attending to Jane Rizzoli."
"I'm sorry, ma'am. He's in surgery right now." The girl on the other end sounded like she was sixteen.
"Is he operating on Jane Rizzoli?" Maura said, jaw clenched.
"Ma'am, I can't tell you that information."
"God dammit, I'm a doctor and I know for a fact that you can tell me that information. If you don't tell me right now, so help me God I will come over to that hospital and..." Maura was seeing red. If this bitch thought she could stand between her and finding out whether or not the love of her life was, in fact, alive, she had another thing coming.
"Calm down, ma'am. I cannot tell you that information over the phone; however, if you come to the hospital I can tell you who he is operation on as long as you have some kind of I.D. proving that you are a doctor or a family member of the patient." The girl was very calm, which calmed Maura a tiny bit.
"I'll be there in 10." She said and hung up the phone. She ran back to the guest house to ask Angela if she wanted to come. Angela said no, but to call only if it was good news. As soon as she entered Mass General, she heard a woman's voice and recognized it as the one who had been on the phone with her a few minutes ago. She had her medical I.D. in her hand as she approached the desk. She strode over very calmly and placed the I.D. on the desk. "Is that Jane Rizzoli in surgery right now?" Maura said, again, jaw clenched.
"Yes, Dr. Isles, it is." The woman said, her voice filled with sympathy for Maura.
"What is the severity of her injuries and is her baby girl alive?" Maura sounded distant, and she was. She was trying to dissociate herself.
"All I know is that they are both alive. I will call the O.R. and have them send someone out with an update as soon as they can. For now, you can sit over there if you like." She tried to smile as she pointed to a waiting area.
"Thank you," Maura said, trying to be as polite as possible. She was elated that they were both alive, but she still didn't know how bad their injuries were. 'Oh god,' she thought, 'I didn't even think about Joey.' She walked back over to the desk and asked the young woman, "Is Joseph Grant alive?"
The woman smiled at her, "Yes, he is. I believe he only has a broken arm and a bump on the head."
Maura didn't want to admit it, but she was relieved he only had minor injuries. That might mean Jane had minor injuries, too. Just then, a young doctor came out of the Operating Room. "Are you Dr. Isles?" Maura nodded. "I'm Dr. Leo, I'm the resident on Ms. Rizzoli's case." When he said 'Ms. Rizzoli' there was a tone in his voice that told Maura it was over. "I'm so sorry to inform you of this, but Jane passed away at 4:30. In the ambulance, she asked that her daughter be given to you, and that you name her Jane because she wanted her daughter to remember her."
Maura fell to her knees. "No," she whispered. "This can't be happening." She began to violently sob.
Jane was woken up by Maura crying and shaking in her sleep. She gently shook her, "Maura, Maur, wake up." Maura's eyes fluttered open and she looked at the woman she loved.
A/N: I know this is long, so I hope you love it. I'm sorry it's so sad, but I feel it's necessary. Is Maura going to pull away or will she tell Jane to never leave her? What do you think? Read and Review! -Lexi
