Title: Not Gonna Lose You.

Disclaimer: I obviously DO NOT own Saiyuki (If I did, do you think I'd be here simply WRITING FANFICTION?!) that is all.

Pairings: Gojyo x Hakkai (possible Sanzo x Goku...maybe if I can talk my friend into it )

Warnings: Suicide attempt, Disturbing Imagery(they're in a hospital later on...shudders ), Shounen-Ai, Yaoi(later), RP ficlet.

Author Notes: This is another RP changed into a story using original text from both players, I didn't change or add much to the fic. I mainly played Gojyo, my friend mainly played Hakkai/Demon Hakkai. We took turns at Sanzo, Goku, demons, extra characters. Please enjoy.

SUMMARY: Hakkai's feeling guilty, Gojyo's still feeling guilty and just when you thought things were on the road to getting better...demons attack.


Hakkai was staring at him pain in his eyes. "I wish I could help."

Gojyo shook his head lightly. "It's okay, who knows, even if you could...it still might not be treatable."

"You're in pain..." said Hakkai reaching out for his hand. "It hurts me to see you this way."

"I'm sorry 'kai...I know it must. I was the same." The kappa said in reply lifting his hand a little for Hakkai to reach over easier. The man took his hand and kissed it gently. "You're too kind to die this way...I would trade places with you if I could, in an instant."

Hakuryu made a small noise from his lap, annoyed at being ignored. Hakkai stroked his head lightly with his free hand. Gojyo blushed faintly at Hakkai kissing his hand, though shook his head again to the last part of his words. "I wouldn't want anyone to trade places with me with what I have, you more so."

"You shouldn't have smoked so much...I know...when we lived together, I hinted more than once for you to stop."

Gojyo let a dry laugh slip his mouth. "I know, and me being me was too stubborn to do that." he smiled apologetically to him. Hakkai let go of his hand and hung his head and shoulders as his back ached.

"Are you ok 'Kai?"

"Tired..." said the man quietly.

"You've been tired for a while ne? Why not take a nap? I don't think the foods coming just yet...and I don't think the other two will either."

"I don't know if I dare sleep, when I wake maybe you'll have run from me."

"Hmm? And why would I wanna do that?"

"I don't know..." said Hakkai as he felt sleep coming over him. Suddenly something stirred in the back of his mind. "Youkai..." He snapped his head up to look at Gojyo. "There are youkai coming!"

"Youkai? You sure? I'm not sensing any..." at least he was thinking he couldn't sense any? Goku came running from the bathroom. "Sanzo says YOUKAI are coming!" This threw the store into a panic. People ran everywhere in a desperate attempt to escape.

Okay so maybe there were Youkai coming. "Way to send everyone into a panic saru." Gojyo called over. "Just leave it to us three, right 'kai?"

"Tch, what a fucking time for the idiot squad to turn up when they're not wanted." muttered the priest emerging from the bathroom loading the gun. Hakkai felt dread rise in his stomach, he was useless as he was.

xxGenjyoSanzoxx: The window of the restaurant was smashed in a few moments later, and one fairly large demon forced his way through the wreckage.

"Give us the scripture or die Genjyo Sanzo!"

"Tch, Like hell I'm going to do as a demon says." Sanzo said aiming the gun at the youkai.

"You think they'd come up with better lines after all this time...wouldn't you say?" Gojyo asked rhetorically after summoning his shakujou. Goku smirked and summoned nyoi-bou. "Let's kick some ASS! They interrupted my DINNER!"

"Hah, just yours?" asked the kappa with a grin.

"Goku and I can handle these ones, maybe you should stay put and watch Hakkai's ass for a change." Sanzo said, not realising it could be taken more than one way, not that he was caring how they took it of course. Gojyo smirked at that.

"I guess I could do that."

Hakkai bent lower in his chair over the dragon, he hated being a burden. Goku attacked the horde with a cry of happiness. Sanzo shot at the demons like the little trigger-happy priest he was, While Gojyo was left to deal with the remainder that had been left for him, the blade of the shakujou cutting through a couple.

Hakkai gave a cry as one got through Gojyo's defence. He put up his arms but got the full brunt of a club to his head. The hit was so hard it sent him stumbling out of his chair. Hakuryu fluttered into the air in fear. Gojyo turned at the cry, cursing himself yet again. He swung the weapon towards the offending demon making sure the blade hit it dead on the head as well as hitting a few others in the process. He went over to the healer standing over him while he finished off the remaining few. "Shit...'Kai? " He muttered to him, Hakkai did not stir at the call of his name.

"Great, now I'll never hear the end of it from those two..." The kappa grumbled getting rid of the ones he'd been left with. He panted slightly kneeling down beside the healer trying to stir him awake. "Damnit, wake up...Hakkai," The young man didn't move.

"GOJYO! WHAT HAPPENED?!" Goku asked running to Hakkai's side.

"One of them managed to slip by me and got a hit in on him." Gojyo replied summarising it up for him.

"Typical kappa..." muttered the priest coming next to them." Can't you do anything right?"

The young man stirred with a groan on the floor. Luckily for the priest the groan had got Gojyo's attention before he layed into the monk with a fist for that comment.

"Hakkai? You ok?" He asked, hinting the concern in his voice.

"Help him up!" Goku bent down to take one arm.

"I'M GONNA'!" The kappa snapped. He took Hakkai's other arm helping him up. Hakkai moaned as he was lifted back into his chair. He held his head.

"'Kai?? You okay? I'm really, really sorry...I never saw him slip by me." Gojyo apologised to him, looking at him with concern. Hakkai looked at him blearily clearly trying to focus. He thought he might be sick. He groaned and felt himself fainting again.

"Geez, you had better hope he remembers something other than your name when he comes to fully..." Sanzo warned the kappa glaring up at him, clearly blaming it all on him. "Tch let's go. We need to get him back to the hospital now!"