If These Wings Could Fly
By: Tracy Cook
Disclaimer: I own nothing. These characters belong to the creators of Vampire Diaries.
Couple: Bonnie/Damon
Rating: M
Chapter Eleven
'Open Ends, And New Beginnings,
Never Forget Where I've Been, And Where I Hope To Go.'
The weight of guilt she was carrying was starting to suffocate her. Bonnie knew that she hadn't really done anything wrong. Damon and her had both been dead before any feelings started to develop between them. And everyone knew that death was the ultimate end of a relationship. Even marriages ended in death. So, she hadn't actually betrayed her best friend, but she still felt terrible as she listened to her sobs echo throughout the cave.
She was still crying.
She had been crying for what felt like hours.
Bonnie rested her chin against Damon's shoulder and she stared up at him. Her emerald eyes traveled along the perfect curve of his jaw. He was such a handsome man. She had always thought that. When Caroline had first started dating him, she had been jealous. Of course, she never told anyone that, and after she found out what an asshole he was her feelings had changed drastically. But, even after that she still thought he was very attractive.
"I feel so bad." She whispered. "I never meant to hurt her."
He popped one of his blue eyes open and stared over at her. Bonnie was doing the thing she always did. She was sacrificing her own happiness for other people. She had nothing to feel bad about. Damon and Elena had been falling apart long before they died and ended up on the island. "She'll be fine."
"I don't know, Damon. She's been crying for a while."
"Trust me. She'll be fine."
She cast her eyes across the cave to her best friend and her chest tightened painfully. In the past, Bonnie was always there for Elena when she got her heart broken. This time she had helped cause it. "I have to go over there and talk to her."
"I don't know if that's a good idea." Damon sang. He had witnessed a darkness swimming in Elena's eyes earlier when they were arguing. Something wasn't right about her and he didn't trust her right now. She didn't have control over her emotions. And if she could blow up on him that bad, he had no idea what she would do to Bonnie.
"I have to."
Bonnie used his shoulder to push herself to her feet and then she started to walk across the cave toward her friend. The closer she got, the louder the sobbing got and it caused her stomach to flip. She just wanted Elena to be happy. Why was it that Caroline, Elena, and her couldn't all just be happy for once? 'What would make me happy? Would Damon make me happy?'
She honestly didn't know.
She was so confused lately.
As Bonnie took a seat next to Elena, her head popped up and her brown eyes were filled with hope for a split second. She had thought that it was Damon coming over to talk to her. It wasn't. It was her ex-best friend. Her gaze hardened and filled with hatred and she asked, "What do you want?"
"I just wanted to talk to you." She said in a soft concerned tone of voice. Her friend's eyes were all puffy and she was sniffling loudly. Her hair was a mess. She looked so broken. Bonnie was starting to wonder why she was so broken. All Elena ever did was complain about how Damon wasn't the man she wanted him to be. She was constantly trying to change him. She didn't love him for who he was. So why was she so broken?
She had her theories.
"I figured you were too busy snuggling with my boyfriend to talk to me." She spit back.
'He's not your boyfriend anymore.' Bonnie didn't dare say the words, but they did cross her mind. "Elena." She spoke slowly. "This thing going on between you and Damon has nothing to do with me and you know it."
"Really? Because it sure as hell looks like it does!" Elena's voice heightened angrily. She could feel something stirring inside of her and she didn't like it. She didn't feel like she had control over herself any longer. Her jealousy was so overwhelming. "He said he loves you, Bonnie! This is Damon we are talking about, he doesn't just throw those words around! They have to mean something!"
It was true.
Damon Salvatore wasn't someone that just walked around telling people he loved them. And if he did, it was usually in a sarcastic way. This was different and it definitely meant something. But, those feelings hadn't truly developed until after he was already having problems with Elena.
"Even if they do, you two have been having these problems for a long time." Bonnie reminded. "Before we died the two of you were breaking up every other week because you just weren't happy with each other." She could tell that she was getting through to her friend, because she had stopped fighting back and she was listening intently with sorrowful eyes. "Are you really sure that you are in love with him?"
"You are seriously asking me if I love Damon?"
"Yes."
"Of course I love him!"
"But, are you in love with him?" Bonnie asked with a furrowed brow. She could see the doubt swimming in Elena's eyes. She knew that she was uncertain about the answer. "Do you wake up in the morning and find yourself happy just to be laying in his arms? Do you think about him all the time? Do you see a future with him? Do you want to get married to him and start a family?"
Silence followed the questions.
Damon was watching and listening closely to their conversation. He was curious about Elena's feelings.
The truth was, she had always envisioned starting a family with Stefan. She had imagined what it would be like to stand at the altar with him. She had flipped through wedding magazines looking for the perfect dresses. She had thought about what they would name their children. She had never done any of that while thinking about Damon. He was never that to her. He was fun. He was dangerous. He was exciting. But, he wasn't her future.
Now, she had lost both Stefan and Damon because of her indecision.
"Did you ever think that maybe you are holding on to Damon in order to prove something to yourself?" Bonnie wondered. "To prove that your relationship was worth it? To prove that you didn't give Stefan up for nothing?"
The words stung Damon.
Even if his feelings for Elena weren't all there anymore, he didn't like the thought of being another regret to her. He didn't like the thought of her holding on to him just to prove something to herself.
Elena clenched her jaw tightly and her muscles tensed as she thought over what Bonnie was asking. She knew that she was right. She had been holding on to Damon in order to prove to herself and everyone else that their relationship was worth it. That they were meant to be. She didn't want to admit that she was wrong.
"Do you?"
"Huh?" Bonnie furrowed her brow, confused by the sudden question.
"Do you see a future with Damon? Do you wake up happy in his arms?"
"Elena..."
"Just be honest with me, Bonnie."
Elena didn't sound angry anymore. She just sounded defeated. "Honestly?" The other woman nodded at her. "I don't know what I feel toward Damon. But, I think I would like to see what the future brings."
Damon's lips curled up into a smile when he heard Bonnie admit to wanting to see what the future with him brought. It caused his body to react in ways he had never expected. Why was he so excited? Why was he so happy? Why did he care so much that she wasn't completely dismissing the thought of being with him?
'She is taking Damon away from you and Caroline is taking Stefan. You will be left with no one.'
A voice in Elena's head was screaming at her. It was trying to use her jealousy against her. She could feel the anger rushing through her veins and the darkness consuming her. The voice wasn't her own. It was someone else's. Her body was suddenly cold and she was shaking.
"Elena?" Bonnie asked, placing a hand on her friend's shoulder. She didn't understand what was happening to her. She looked like she was getting sick. Her body was shaking and she was freezing cold to the touch. That was when she noticed something swimming around in her eyes. It was a darkness. Like the shadows flying overhead.
"Damon..." She muttered moving to her feet and taking a step away from the other woman. "Something is wrong with her. This isn't Elena."
Within seconds he was standing protectively at her side. His arm wrapped around her waist, pulling her small body closer to his. He had noticed something strange behind his ex-girlfriend's eyes earlier and Bonnie had just confirmed that she saw the same. He didn't know what it was, but he knew that it was fueling her anger and jealousy toward Bonnie. He wouldn't let it hurt the woman.
'This was her plan all along. She never intended on sending Damon back through to the other side. She wanted him all to herself.'
The voices kept echoing around in her head and Elena was finding it more and more difficult to ignore them. She didn't want to believe them. She knew that Bonnie Bennett wasn't that kind of person. She wasn't selfish. If she was, she wouldn't have even bothered to come over and talk to her a few minutes ago, but the darkness inside of her was playing on her doubts.
'Wrap your hands around her neck. Take her light away. Give it to me.'
"Elena?" Bonnie took a step toward her best friend and she reached out to her.
"Stay away from me, Bonnie!" She screamed at her. "I'm not myself! I-I can't fight this thing inside of me. Please, just go away."
"Let me help you."
"Damon." Elena growled angrily. She felt like she did when she first turned into a vampire. She was so out of control. Her emotions were ruling over her and she was being tempted to kill and hurt people she cared about. "Get her far away from me. There's something trying to make me hurt her."
'I Hear Your Voice, I See Your Face,
But What I See, Is Not You.'
"Caroline, are you on the other side?" Liv called out into the room.
Stefan looked absolutely horrified as he stared down at the blonde's lifeless body. He was praying that she had made it to the other side alright, and that she would make it back to him. Suddenly, he felt a cold pressure against his shoulder and a light breeze rush against the skin of his cheek and he knew that she had made it safely. She was standing right beside him.
"She's here." He assured the witch.
"Good. You won't have much time to get to them, so please hurry! And make sure that you keep on that talisman."
Caroline placed one final kiss to Stefan's cheek and then she started to head toward the door of the apartment. She could feel her heart pounding in her chest and she thought that it was weird. She was dead. Why did she have a heartbeat? Why did she feel so alive? It didn't make much sense to her.
Extending her hand, she twisted the knob to the door and she pulled it open. On the other side was a long expanse of darkness. She couldn't see what was waiting for her out in the abyss. There could be demonic creatures like the one trapped inside of Elena. She didn't know and she was terrified, but she had to do this for her friends. She had to get them all back. Stefan needed Damon in his life, and she needed Bonnie and Elena. 'Hell, I guess I even need Damon.'
She knew that she had to hurry.
So, even if she was scared to death, she plunged into the darkness as quick as possible.
"Bonnie!" Caroline called. She couldn't see her hands in front of her own face, so she didn't know if her friends were anywhere nearby. "Elena! Damon!" There was no response. There was only nothingness.
She continued to stumble hastily through the darkness, her hands held out instinctively in front of her body. Just in case she ran into something. "Is anyone out there!?" There were no demons. All she saw for miles and miles was darkness and silence. 'WAIT! WHAT'S THAT!?' Caroline thought to herself, squinting her blue eyes to attempt to see clearer. Far in the distance was a bright light. She didn't know what it was, but it was the only thing in miles and she knew that she had to find out.
She didn't have time to walk.
She sprinted toward the light as fast as her legs would carry her. Considering that she was a vampire, it didn't take her long at all to reach her destination.
"What the heck?" Caroline whispered to herself, furrowing her brow at the sight before her.
There was what appeared to be a large glass dome. The edges were cracked and there was a giant hole in the top. Inside of the dome was an Island swarming with dark shadows. 'Those things must be what are inside of Elena...' She concluded, lifting her hand and holding onto her talisman. She wanted to make sure it hadn't fallen off. She was going to need it if she was going to get through the shadows.
"Caroline!" A voice echoed in her head. It was Liv. She was calling out to her.
'Oh god, please let me still have more time! It can't be time to go back, I'm so close!'
"You have about an hour left before it's too late! Hurry up!"
The blonde let out a sigh of relief when she heard that she still had an hour before the spell wore off. That should be plenty of time for her to search the entire island with her vampire speed.
Quickly, she climbed to the top of the dome and she stared down inside. It was quite a drop. Caroline was scared of heights. 'I have to do this... Just close your eyes and count to three.' She closed her eyes tightly and she internally counted, 'One. Two. Three.' With that, she pushed herself over the edge and she started to fall to the ground.
After a few minutes passed she realized that she wasn't falling fast. She was slowly floating down to the island. "I can fly here?" She exclaimed with a toothy grin. "This is so freaking cool!"
Caroline felt a little guilty for taking some extra time to swirl through the air, but she was fully confident in her abilities to get her friends back to the land of the living in time. All she had to do was search the island top to bottom and tell them to get their asses back to Earth.
She spread her arms out like a bird as she landed on the island. Her blonde curls bouncing in the wind.
The shadows all noticed her immediately and they started to swarm toward her. Their mouths were wide open and she could see their razor sharp teeth. Caroline reached up and held onto the talisman tightly. Now, she would see if it was actually going to protect her or not. If it failed in protecting her than this was going to be a lot more difficult than she had first anticipated.
'Please work. Please work. Please work.'
Luckily, it worked.
The talisman started glowing and all of the shadows were repelled. Each time they tried to fly at her they were thrown backwards through the sky by the magical powers tied to the necklace. She smiled excitedly. Everything was going perfectly.
'Okay. So where could they be hiding?'
'No One To Talk To, No One To See.
Isolation.'
Author's Note :
Thank you all so much for all of your wonderful reviews and support for this fic! Y'all keep me writing! I hope that you all enjoy this chapter! I know that it is sort of short compared to the others, but soon the chapters should be getting a little longer again. AKA when Bamon head out on the road! :)) SO, how does everyone feel about this chapter? Did you think Bonnie was right about her thoughts on Elena's feelings? Do you think that this is the start of mending their friendship? Do you think Bonnie imagines a future with Damon? Excited to see how that progresses? What about this thing inside of Elena? Probably gotta get rid of that huh? ;p
Thank you all so very much for your continued support! I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter!
I love you guys!
-Tracy Cook-
