Katniss's POV
Remembering Peeta again was great. It was the first kiss that triggered the memory, but I just wanted another kiss to celebrate. I didn't remember anything after the berries, but I figured that was coming soon, and it can't get much worse than that, can it?
I fall back asleep cuddled against Peetas side still, and I guess he moved me into the room with Gale and Haymitch and the two kids, he also climbed in bed with me, it felt nice to have someone comfort me right now. All the Hunger Games memories wasn't nice, but I figured that would've been a pretty huge gap in my memory, and Peeta and I's marriage if no one told me.
I wake up to Gale shaking me and quieting me motioning for me to come with him. I get up and follow him back in the room Peeta and I were in. He sits on the bed and I do to, but this time farther away than what I did Peeta. "So you don't really remember Peeta?" He asks me with a concerned face. "Actually I woke him up earlier os he could tell me why I love him, he told me about the Hunger Games, so now I remember him." Gale looked down and sighed, "that's great, do you love him again?" I look at Gale a long time.
"Why are you asking me this anyway?" I ask Gale who looks back up and in my eyes this time. He stares into my eyes for a very long time actually, and when it became uncomfortable I looked away. "You, uh, never answered me, Catnip." He reminds me about the question and I think about it. "I guess I'm getting there, but there has to be other reasons why I love him, to. Right?" Gale nods and looks at me again, this time witha look in his eyes.
"I never really understood why you chose him," he says. I look at him with a blank exspression. "Well who would I have chose, if not the person who said he's always loved me?" I ask him and he sighs. "Maybe someone more like you, maybe someone you've known all your life. Maybe the only one you remembered after the memory earaseing." He says. Was Gale asking why I didn't choose him to be my husband instead of Peeta? This is a lot to take in.
"I... You always said you didn't like me like that. You always told me we are only friends, best friends. I didn't even know you liked me like that." I say because now I'm very confused. "I didn't know I liked you as more than a friend until I started watching the Hunger Games. Peeta just came out and said on national television that he loved you forever, and you just... You accepted it."
I look at Gale, "I... I'm tired, I can't do this right now. I'm gonna leave." With that I get up and hurry out the door, right before I open it though Gale says "Katniss?" I look at him, now he was right behind me. "Yeah?" I ask back, instead of saying something he bent down and kissed me. He kissed me for a long time before I figured out that I have a husband and shouldn't be kissing him back. I pull away and cross my baggy sleeves over my chest. Instead of telling him that we should stop I hugged the only completely fimiliar body I knew as of right now. I guess Gale took that as a 'don't stop kissing me sign or something, so he pulled me in again for another kiss and it was really long. I was still hugging him so he just put my hands on my waist.
The kiss is pasionate and I could feel him love me through the whole thing, but I pull away, again remembering Peeta. "Please, Katniss. Just once, let it go my way." Gale says still holding me. I look up at him and pull away again, but he wasn't letting me go. "I have a husband." I say, and he looks away and then back again. "You can't remember why you love him. Did you feel something in that kiss, Katniss?" I look at him, "I think so, yes." He smiles, "then maybe all this happened so you could change picking him and come to me. Maybe this is a redo." I look at Gale, I never thought of it that way, and I didn't plan on dwelling on it, but I did. We stould there in each others arms for a very long time.
The more I thought about it, the more I didn't think that it was probable, but I could tell he loves me, as well as Peeta. Last time I chose Peeta. But I can also tell that Peeta loves me because he loves me, and Gale loves me because he says he got jealous. He didn't say jealous but what he said meant he was jealous. I think in the end I'm meant to be with Peeta. I put my forehead against Gale's chest and tear up. Why did this happen to me? Why not someone else, what did I do that made someone earase my memory? "Alright, well go on back to Peeta then." Gale says, he lets me go and I almost fall, bus he doesn't agknowlege it, he just steps around me as I try and gain my balance and walks out the door. "Gale?" I say rather loudly, but he doesn't turn around.
I enjoyed the kiss, but I do have a husband and I do feel the love coming back. The love was pointing to Peeta so I came back to the bed and layed down. I feel like I fell asleep instantly and what felt like maybe an hour of sleep Peeta got out of bed, he probably didn't intend on me waking up but I did. "Go back to sleep you've had a long night."
Longer than I'd care to elaborate, so I went back to sleep and maybe a couple hours later, Haymitch wakes me up. I sit up and Peeta brings me some food and water. "Where are we anyway," I ask and look around, Gale was nowhere to be found. "And where's Gale?" Peeta sits by me I start eating. "We, uh, we'll get to that later, but I want to tell you about the following year after the Hunger Games. Gale went back to work, so he'll have to come back when you're better to visit us sometimes... that is if you still love me and we stay together." He says the last part with a pure sadness in his eyes.
I kiss his cheek and smile. "Don't be too sad, there's still a chance." He smiles and Haymitch clears his throat. Peeta snaps back into attention and he clears his throat as well. "Anyway, the 75th Hunger Games happened that year. Menaing the Quarter Quell. For this year's Quarter Quell all the remaining Tributes for your District go tput in the bowl and picked out, you being the only girl, we went back because I wanted to be with you, and the fake baby we created to keep you alive."
I listen until the part where Finnick and I are trapped hearing Prim and Annie scream for us, I lose it right then. I don't remember but envisioning hearing Prim scream because of the Capitol. I pull myself together and Peeta finishes. He goes all the way to the part where I shoot an arrow at the barrier and it all go kaboom. Suddenly I remember all of it. Beetee and Finnick and Johanna and how Peeta loved me throughout the whole thing, I even remember me wanting to save Peetas life so he could win and I could die.
I remember why I love him so much, and why I always will.
As of right now it is very very early in the morning and I just posted a chapter, so if there are a lot of errors use your brain to figure out what it's supposed to say. Tomorrow I start school, and so I will be posting LESS OFFTEN. But it's not the end of the world. For you. Please leave me a review telling me what you thought of all of the story so far, and follow the story if you liked it enough, you can also go on twitter and follow me there ( MorgannNewell)
