The loss was hard on Jethro and Jana, but they were being strong for their remaining babies. They had made the decision to keep the miscarriage quiet. At least for now. Most people did not even know they were pregnant and even fewer knew about the complication. They would tell Jordan and Tony a white lie and everybody else that they were having twins. They would tell the triplets some day but for now they were not ready to talk about it. Jana remained in the hospital overnight and into the next evening. They released her after dinner but she had restrictions and would have weekly appointments with the high risk specialist. They had left the baby at the hospital for testing. They didn't know if they would get an answer or not but they wanted to at least have the option. When testing was done they would have the remains cremated and either keep them or find a place to scatter them.
"We should give our baby a name." Jana commented.
"People typically name kids." Jethro laughed.
"No I mean the one we lost." Jana corrected.
"We don't know what it was." Jethro reminded.
"We could use a gender neutral name." Jana offered.
"Gender neutral?" Jethro questioned.
" Names that people of either gender have; Sam, Alex, Casey, Jo, Chris, Lee, Sydney, and other names like that." Jana explained.
"Lee" Jethro replied.
"Lee?" Jana repeated.
"Shannon always wanted a Lee. It's the closest I'd let her get to Leroy. I know this was our baby but if what they teach ya in Sunday School is true. Then she'll be looking after him and her until we can ya know get there." Jethro explained.
"Lee Gibbs" Jana repeated.
"I'm sorry we lost Lee." Jethro apologized.
"Don't you have a rule about apologizing?" Jana asked.
"Yeah but I feel like this is my fault. We were fighting and then this happened." Jethro explained.
"You heard the doctors. Lee had stopped growing weeks ago. It has nothing to do with our fight. We would have lost him or her eventually." Jana explained.
"The timing though." Jethro sighed.
"Don't beat your self up. It was my body that failed him anyway." Jana explained.
"It wasn't your fault." Jethro insisted.
"Then why did it happen?" Jana questioned.
"I don't know but that's what the doctors are trying to figure out." Jethro explained.
"It's not fair. I am glad we have the other two and that they are healthy but this. Just isn't fair. He should be here." Jana explained.
"He is maybe not like his brother and sister but he is." Jethro explained.
"Brother and sister?" Jana asked.
"I just have a feeling." Jethro replied.
Jordan was glad to hear that everything was going to be OK. His dad and Jana had not been specific and and he knew something was up, but Jana was still pregnant. He did not know if the babies were healthy or if they would have problems. He knew that his parents would love the babies either way. He just hoped that they would not have their hearts broken. He hoped that the babies would be as happy as possible. He watched his own twins sleep. Stephanie talked about how hard and dangerous the pregnancy was. All pregnancies were dangerous and twins brought added risks but she acted like she was at death's door. She hadn't even needed bed rest. She had restrictions but she acted like she could not even get out of bed to shower or use the bathroom. Both twins were in the high risk nursery because they had trouble maintaining oxygen levels. It was common in twins and they were five weeks early, but he heard Stephanie say they were in the NICU. She had even once claimed they were months premature. Another red flag. At least he was out now. He was out and the twins were healthy. That is all that mattered.
Dylan was happy to know she was getting two siblings. She loved her brother and nephews but hoped the babies would be girls. She had always wanted a sister. A sister who was alive that is. This was her chance to get two. She could not wait to find out what they were. Her parents were waiting until the babies came. Dylan wondered how that was possible. She knew that they took a picture of the baby to find out the sex. She also knew that boys had a different part. Wouldn't the picture show the parts? Would they just not get the picture taken? Would they but just not look. She wished they could answer the questions but Jana was not feeling good and her dad was not wanting to talk. Dylan laid on her bed and closed her eyes. She was hoping she could see what they looked like.
Tony was busy with Tali. He had scheduled an appointment with an ENT for the following Thursday. In the meantime he was just treating her ear infection. Tali was not a fan of getting sick and was not exactly making life easy for him. He could not wait until she was better and could go back to here routine. He would not be getting any rest until then. At least the medication tended to work pretty fast and Tali bounced back quickly on her own. In a rare moment where Tali was appeased. He began to think of Jethro and Jana. He wondered what had happened and if the baby was OK. He prayed that it was. Jethro did not need to go through that pain again. He should not have endured it in the first place. He could not imagine, but sometimes Kelly was the only thing that kept him going. Raising a child on his own was not easy but the alternative was devastating. He could not imagine having Tali one day and her being gone the next. He could not imagine having to some how move on after that. Losing Ziva was hell but he knew that it could have been much worse.
A/N: When will Jethro and Jana tell the others about Lee? New chapter will be up soon. Thanks for reading and please review.
