Chapter 11- The Secret's Out
Hello readers~! I sincerily hoped that you all enjoyed chapter 10! I know Kagome did, she re-read it about a million times XD. Anyway, here's chapter 11.
Lavi- *heart eyes* I love Yu~!
Kanda- Stop making puns with my name!
Lavi- But it's true!
Kanda- I don't care! Enough with the puns! Say it normal!
Lavi- But I do love Yu!
Kanda- *growls and turns away* Disclaimer, Darxetta doesn't own anything
Lavi- TT~TT *being ignored*
Darxetta- ...Uh huh, anyway, enjoy!
Kanda froze, like Lavi had when he told him how he felt. He didn't know what to say, how to react, how to feel. But there was this warming sensation that crept up his body, he felt englufed by warmth. It wasn't Lavi, that was a different kind of sensation, but this was...something inside of him. He thought for a while, and he still couldn't put his finger on what it was.
"...Lavi, I feel warm inside... But I don't know what it is. What is it?" Kanda asked feeling shy now. Lavi leaned down so Kanda could stand properly, but he still held him to his chest in a hug. "Yu, It's called Love." Kanda blushed more than he was before, he felt like a tomato, probably looked like one too.
On the other side of one of the stone pillars, Lenalee smiled in triumph. She stepped out form her hiding spot, Lavi knew she was there, but Kanda didn't. Lavi eventually let go of Kanda and turned to Lenalee with a big smile on his face. "Thanks so much Lenalee, you did a great job! He looks so cute!" Kanda, if it was even possible, blushed even more. Then realization hit him. "W-wait! Lenalee did this!" he asked surprised, gesturing to himself. Said girl smiled widely and nodded. "You bet I did. It seemed fitting, and you just look too cute!"
She stepped over to the pair then leaned down in front of Kanda. "Kanda, Lavi told me you were having difficutlies with being around people." He felt the urge to step back away from her, not because of her or what she had done, but because of Tyki. He nodded slowly. "So I wanted to ask you first instead. So that way you feel more comfortable." Kanda hadn't thought of that. He didn't need Lavi to ask, he felt completely safe around him. It was everyone else he hated coming near him.
"Ask what..." he said hesitantly. "Can I hold you?" More than anything Kanda was quite surprised by the question. He didn't expect that, out of all of the things she could have said it was that. He looked down for a moment and thought about how he'd feel if she did. Lavi was right here, right next to him. He reached out and took a hold of Lavi's hand, he looked up at Lenalee then. He trusted her, he'd always been there for her, and now she wanted to be there for him. Kanda had known Lenalee his whole life, and he knew that she could never be who he felt everyone else was.
He released Lavi's hands and walked over to Lenalee holding his arms out. Lavi beamed at him and grew heart eyes. "Yu! You're just too damn CUTE!" Kanda tried his best to ignore the comment. Lenalee let a smile grace her face and she put her hands on Kanda's sides, looked at him for a moment, and when he didn't say anything against it, she picked him up. "Wow Kanda, you're so light!" The blush that had faded from Kanda's face was growing once again. She pulled Kanda to her and held him, craddling his head and swaying a bit from side to side. Kanda lay his head on her shoulder and closed his eyes feeling comfortable.
For several moments they stayed like that. "Kanda, you do know that we all love and care for you right?" Kanda had a moment of doubt. "Who do you mean when you say all?" Kanda had remembered the day that Tyki had taken him. The finders, all of them, turned against him. He was betrayed by them. They fought against the exorcists to make sure he was out of their hair, out of their way so they didn't have to deal with his shit any longer. "The finders turned against me...you know that right?" Lavi glared a bit and the look didn't fit his usually happy face.
"That's right, when we were trying to get Yu away from Tyki they turned on us and began to push us back. If it wasn't for them then I guarantee that we would have gotten Kanda back." Lenalee stopped rocking Kanda and shifted him so he was sitting on her arm facing Lavi who had taken a camera out, from nowhere, and started taking pictures. Kanda's small blushed turned fiercly red and he jumped out of Lenalee's arms at Lavi trying to get the camera away.
On Kanda's trip down, everything seemed to play in slow motion, and the camera still went off. The ribbons un-knotted from Kanda's hair and all of it let loose and spread out like a wild fire. When Kanda finally hit Lavi they both fell back on the floor, in a very...promising position. Lavi, one knee up, his hands lay on either side of his head. Kanda, straddling Lavi's chest, leaning forward so his hair made a curtain around the pair of them, and his hands next to Lavi's, to keep him balanced.
Behind them Kanda could hear Lenalee squeal and he swallowed in emberassment. Lavi smirked up at Kanda and he felt heat creeping up his neck. It wasn't just an ordinary smirk, god forbid that, it was one of the most sexy looks that Kanda had ever seen displayed on his red-heads face. Did you catch that? Maybe I should repeat that, his red-heads face. He seemed like he was seme now, but would that happen in the future? Would they even do that? Kanda wasn't sure, and he didn't know if he wanted to let it happen. Maybe he would, maybe he wouldn't. It all depended on whether or not he got over Tyki, or rather, what Tyki had done to him.
Kanda leaned on his right arm and brought up his left. He ever so lightly moved Lavi's eye patch out of the way. "Open it..." Lavi did as he was told and he looked at Kanda with both of his eyes. "Can you...see out of it?" Lavi let out a laugh,"Yes." Kanda didn't believe him, the eye was a pale green. Lavi closed it and Kanda leaned forward before kissing it. He moved down a little bit and kissed the tip of Lavi's nose, before finally giving the red-head a small kiss on the lips. But Lavi wanted more than that. He manuevered one of his arms under Kanda and brought it around to rest on the back of the boys head before pushing down slightly and deepening the kiss.
Lenalee let out a gasp and she blushed just as much as Kanda had. Kanda stopped and sat up looking at her. He started to shake his head and his hands,"I-it's not what it looks like! T-that was! I! Uh... That... We... You... I... Mmh..." Lavi laughed at Kanda's loss for words. Lavi sat up and wrapped his arms around Kanda's lower back so he wouldn't tumble off his lap. Lenalee, still shocked, pointed at the two of them. "Are you...?" "I just told him I loved him, today,"Lavi said simply. He reached up and fixed his eyepatch.
Lenalee smiled,"So that's why you wanted me to dress him up all cute! I get it! But, for how long?" Lavi shrugged and looked at Kanda. "I realized that I liked him the day he was taken from us, but I dunno how long Yu's loved me for." Kanda was still out of it, he had a blank look on his face and was still mumbling incoherant things. Lavi slid his hand under Kanda's chin and forced him to look at him, he licked Kanda's lips and kissed him soflty. Kanda blinked and leaned into the kiss whilst closing his eyes.
The red-head pulled back and Kanda wanted to smack him for it. "How long have Yu loved me for?" Kanda glared at him,"Stop with the puns already!" Lenalee and Lavi laughed,"Seriously Yu! How long have you loved me?" Kanda looked down feeling bashful and poked his fingers together. "W-well..." Lavi in turn, tilted his head to the side in utter curiousity. "Well what, Yu? Come on, tell us." The samurai puffed out on of his cheeks and looked away from both of them, he blew out the air in his mouth and fiddled with part of the ruffles in his dress. "I've always loved you Lavi..."
Lavi couldn't smile anymore, it was starting to hurt his face and he couldn't keep it up, but Kanda was just way too cute! He stood up and threw Kanda into the air before catching him in his hands. Kanda and let out a small yelp and when Lavi caught him he wrapped his arms around the red-heads neck and his legs around his torso. "Kanda! You can't do that in a dress!" Lenalee had said while laughing. Kanda, though nobody else knew, had enjoyed that, he was smiling and he wanted to laugh.
"...Do it again Lavi..." he said feeling emberassed. Lavi could only continue to smile and he placed his hands under Kanda's arms, and threw him up again. This time Kanda let him see his smile. It was a sincere smile, one that reached his eyes. Lavi loved it, and he loved how his little samurai's eyes lit up, and how he seemed to glow and radiate happiness. He caught him and did it again and this time Kanda closed his eyes and laughed.
Lenalee smiled brightly and let out a few laughs of her own. It was cute, the two of them together having fun like this. She loved it and she never wanted this moment to stop. But everything comes to an end. The trio heard footsteps approaching and Lavi set Kanda on the ground, in which he hid behind Lavi feeling, once again, emberassed, but this time it was because he was still wearing a dress.
The three of them crept up to the corner and Kanda hated how you could hear his shoes click on the floor. They all leaned against the wall and looked around the corner. There was no one there, that was wierd. "What are you guys doing?" came from behind them. The other direction! Kanda was the first to turn to look at the person. He regretted it, so dearly.
It was General Tiedoll. He looked away and turned to leave. "Ah w-wait! General!" Tiedoll turned to look at Kanda but stopped and continued, then he started to walk away. Kanda swallowed hard and ran in front of the general to stop him. He held out his arms and his eyes were hard, but filled with determination. "I'm sorry! Can I explain to you what happened before our relationship gets even worse that it is now?" He gave Tiedoll the most sincere look on his face and instead of letting him answer he ran up to him and threw his arms around him.
It didn't do much good since he only went up to the lower part of the general's chest, and his arms couldn't completely go around him, but he did it as best as he could. He closed his eyes tightly and gripped his shirt. "I'm sorry general! Please just hear me out! Let me tell you what happened! I... I don't want you to hate me too..." Tiedoll stared down at Kanda surprised, he smiled soflty and patted Kanda's head before leaning down and hugging the boy back. "Alright, I'm all ears Yu-kun." Kanda, slightly ticked off at Tiedoll's nickname, let it slide this one time.
"I should probably tell Komui too...so let's go to his office ok?" He pulled back a little and looked at Lavi, then at Lenalee. She probably wants to know too, I'll tell her... "Lenalee, Lavi, I want you guys there too, although Lavi already knows." Lenalee straightened up and inside she felt happy that Kanda trusted her with something. She didn't know what she was going to hear though, and she wasn't prepared for it, neither were Tiedoll or Komui.
Komui was once again settled behind his desk with Tiedoll at his side, Lavi and Kanda were on the couch, same position, Kanda sitting as close to Lavi as possible, only this time Lenalee was sitting on the desk and swinging her legs back and forth. No one could tell but she was gripping the edges of the desk so hard that her knuckles were white. Komui had his hands folded in his lap and his fingers were tapping the backs of his hands. Tiedoll had his hands shoved in his pockets and he was biting his lip while playing with the change he had in his pocket.
You could pracitally feel the tension and anxiety in the room. Kanda sat there for a moment before looking down and making his hair cover his eyes. The rest of it was down and it formed a cloak around him. He opened his mouth to speak but no words came out, he closed it, took a deep breath and finally said it. "Tyki raped me..."
There was complete silence in the room. Lenalee gripped the edge of the desk harder, and it broke under her grip, the crack echoed around the room. Komui stopped tapping his fingers. Tiedoll bit down harder on his lip, which made it bleed, and his hands froze in his pockets. The three of them looked at Kanda, who had his head hung low and the shadows from his hair covered his face. Lavi was a little tense and he had to fight the urge to go back to the Noah and beat the living shit out of Tyki. That would happen, all in due time. He was more concerned with Kanda at the moment.
"I...I see. I'm sorry I frightened you then..." came Tiedoll's voice. Kanda looked up at him, his eyes sad and once again he felt dirty. The general leaned down on one knee and held open his arms. Kanda got down from the couch and ran over to him with watery eyes. "Oh my son... My son..." Tiedolls' voice cracked and he held Kanda tight against him. The samurai cried into his chest and he could feel the little droplets from Tiedoll hitting the top of his head. Lenalee got down from her seat and walked over to the pair quietly before joining the hug and letting her own tears free. Komui pushed back his chair and walked around the desk before he too joined the group hug and let his own river of tears fly out from his eyes dramatically.
Lavi remained seated, this was something for all of them to let out. But even so, he still let tears fall from his eyes. After everyone wore out their tear ducts they released each other but stayed close. Kanda sat on the floor next to the general, the dress was spread out around him and his feet were barely visible. He blushed at his appearance and that's when the general broke. He wrapped his arms around Kanda's waist and pulled him too him before shouting out,"You're just too cute! In that little blue flutter dress with those cute little heals and the blue bow with your long hair down and the blush on your face! God if you were my daughter I would kill any man that even looked at you! I love you so much!"
Kanda sweat dropped and looked over at Lavi laughing a little bit. Lavi on the other hand had turned away hugging his knees to his chest with depression marks running down the side of his head. He let one of his hands out to poke at the newly grown mushrooms that he prodded at sadly. Komui turned to him with a straight face,"Lavi don't grow mushrooms on my couch! It's un-manly an-" he stopped himself thinking for a moment. "Lavi, Kanda, do you guys have something else to say that we should know about?"
The pair of them froze. Their heads cranked slowly to Komui and their jaws dropped. Oh god! Has Komui figured us out already! This is bad! Really bad!
Tiedoll released Kanda, and looked over at Lavi suspiciously. "Well?" Kanda pulled away from the general and was, ironically, standing in the middle of everyone. "Uh... nope. Nothing at all, that's all I had to say." Tiedoll stood up and nodded in agreement. "I guess we'll be going now then..." Komui nodded as well,"Alright, but I would like to speak to Lavi, Lenalee, and Tiedoll for a moment, you wouldn't mind that would you Kanda?" Kanda fixed his dress with a small blush before turning to Komui. "I don't mind, but make it quick,"he turned to Lavi,"I'll be in my room, ok?" The red-head, who was no longer growing mushrooms on the couch, smiled,"Yeah, I'll meet you there soon."
Kanda hesitanlty went to the door and frowed when he saw it was slightly ajar. They must have left it partially opened, not like it mattered since Kanda hadn't said anything loud. He shrugged it off and left the room and closed the door tightly. He look a right and headed toward his room, standing close to the walls and trying to stay in the shadows. The bright colors of the dress didn't help much with that, but he still tried.
A couple minutes later he realized that a finder was following him. He looked at him from the corner of his eye and noticed another joined him. He tried to quicken his pace but stopped when a few of them stepped in front of him. Swallowing hard he tried to leave through the gap, but that was filled by more finders. He backed against the wall and bit his lip as nervousness coursed through his blood.
"So, I heard an interesting little story today kiddo," one of them said. Kanda started to shake as they got closer. Their faces were shaded but their eyes were red and the smiles they had on their faces were demonic. Kanda locked his jaw and pressed down tightly. "You wanna know what I heard?" asked another. A few of them laughed deeply, in other words 'Yes, we do want to know.' Another stepped forward, in front of all the rest and he grabbed Kanda's face roughly before saying loud enough for the group to hear,"I heard you were raped by Tyki."
Kanda's whole world slowed down and came to a stop. The finders words echoed through his head and everytime it got louder and louder. His palms got sweaty and he started to shake all over, his eyes filled with fright and he ever so slowly looked up at the finder. "Why don't we let everyone else in on this little secret?" The other finders nodded and they took off in different directions. Kanda wanted to yell at them, tell them to stop, beg them not to tell anyone, run after them, but he was glued to his spot and no words came out. They were all demons, and he knew now, they truely hated him with all of their beings.
The finder in front of Kanda smiled so darkly that he swore that it was Tyki for just a moment. The finder grabbed Kanda's wrist and pulled on him. Kanda opened his mouth to let out a scream but the finder's hand covered his mouth. He tucked Kanda tightly to him and ran out to the forest. Outside it was raining hard, so hard that Kanda couldn't see anything past five feet in front of him. He was scared, beyond meaning. What's he gonna do? Is he gonna beat me? Is he gonna rape me? Please god, oh please don't let this happen again!
When the finder thought they were deep enough into the forest he stopped and threw Kanda onto the ground. Kanda pushed himself up on shaky arms and looked down at the dirtied, now see through dress. The finder brought out a piece of rope and put his foot on Kanda, he kicked him back so he was laying on his back. He pushed his foot down on Kanda's chest making him unable to breathe and grabbed the boys hands, tying them together with the rope. "You're going to regret ever being a bastard to any of us," he said sadistically.
Kanda gasped for breath and shook more than before, out of fear and from the coldness of the rain. "I'm not giving you my real name, mostly because if I did you'd rat me out to Komui, so I'll give you another name. Leo. Remember the name, cause you're going to be screaming it." Kanda shook his head fiercly, clumps of mud were mixing in with his hair and it was making his head feel heavy. Leo slapped him hard across the face and threw him onto his stomach. Kanda tried to push himself up on his bound hands but it hurt and the finder kicked him in the stomach so hard that he coughed up blood.
Leo leaned down next to him and smirked,"I hope you're ready for me, cause I can't wait to fuck you!" He tore Kanda's dress open from the back and roughly pulled it off his body. He brought out a knife and cut off the undergarments that Kanda was wearing. He looked down at the boy when he was done undressing him fully, the dress, tights, and shoes were thrown into the mud a couple feet away. Kanda was wet, shaking and dirtied by the mud. His eyes were wide in fear and his breaths were coming out in short gasps.
Leo unzipped his pants and pulled out his hard and heavy member. Kanda was shaking from head to toe and he was more scared than ever been in the past few days. Leo got on his knees and grabbed a fistful of Kanda's hair bringing him up to him. He forcefully shoved it into Kanda's mouth and used both hands to force Kanda to take in more of him. Kanda in turn gagged and started to choke, it was deeper than Tyki's had been. Leo didn't even bother to thrust, he just kept it stuck deep in Kanda's mouth. He stopped and let the boy fall back when his eyes started to roll to the back of his head.
On the ground Kanda coughed hard and gasped for air. He clawed his fingers into the mud and tried to pull himself away while still trying to get air. Leo laughed deeply and grabbed Kanda, he turned him over onto his back and lifted his legs so they were on his shoulders. "I hope you're ready for this. Oh wait, of course you aren't!" He aligned himself with Kanda's entrance and thrust in as hard as he could, on purpose. Kanda used the air that he had just gotten back into his lungs to let out a scream that shouted bloody murder.
Giving Kanda no time to adjust, Leo pulled out and thrust back in again, he did it over and over, harder and harder, faster and faster. Kanda kept letting out screams of bloody murder but Leo only laughed. "Ngh, N-no one can hear you! Fuck, why are you so got damned tight!" He leaned forward more and put his hands on both sides of Kanda's head. Kanda yelled out as Leo was deeper this time, and it hurt more.
He gave one final thrust before cumming inside of Kanda. "Ngh! F-Fuck! Ahh!" Leo took a few breaths before pulling out and letting the rain clean him. He stood up, tucked himself into his pants, zipped them up, and left. Kanda rolled onto his side and curled up in a little ball. He didn't bother to move, it hurt too much, his pride was diminished and he was ashamed. Pulling his torn dress up to cover himself he cried himself to sleep in the wet mud, with cold rain pouring down on him.
Well there you have it ladies and gents (still hardly doubt if there are any guys reading this, but if there are I approve of you and I applaud you! Go Yaoi!) I really hoped you enjoyed! Oh yeah, and if you don't know about the whole seme uke thing then I'll explain. If you already know skip the paragraph below.
In a yaoi couple there are usually two guys, some have more than one but you get my point. Moving on. There is a dominant one, and a submissive one. Dominant is the seme, the one who tops in the relationship, and the submissive one is the uke, the one who is on the bottom.
I'm excited for the next chapter myself XD, and I, once again, hope you enjoyed it! Chapter 12 will be up pretty soon I expect. See ya then! -gives all my readers a cookie-
