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Dreaming of the Past

I fluttered my eyes opened and was greeted by pure white…erhm clouds? I glanced at my toes and was surprised how tiny they are. 'Am I… a child?' I asked myself lifting my tiny hands. I glance around me and recognized I'm sort of inside a room made out of soft white clouds. The mattress I am currently sitting, was so soft and so white, was made from white clouds, even the wardrobe and the dresser with round mirror was made out of white clouds. I hopped down from the bed and make way towards the mirror inspecting my tiny figure.

'Yep, confirmed I'm a kid now. More like seven or eight years old.'

I saw the reflection of the cloud door in the mirror slowly opening, there stand a tall lady with long wavy chestnut hair. She was wearing a white gown that falls down her feet. Curiously the face of the lady was blurry, I can't recognize her face, but I'm pretty sure she was smiling down at me.

"You're already awake. Come, breakfast is ready." She said with her sweet and kind voice, she lifted a hand at me. I don't know why but I just felt my body moving on it's own and grabbed the lady's hand.

She ushered me towards the dinning hall and just like my room everything is made out of the clouds. The long table, the chair, some closet. The things that are not made out of the clouds were the foods (of course) and the utensils. The fork, spoon, knife, plates are all made out of gold and they're all shining.

"Ahh, Sleeping Beauty is already awake?" I dragged my blue eyes towards the lady sitting on the chair. The lady with the same blurry face and shinning golden hair had greeted me with a husky voice as if she's about to cry. I roamed my eyes around the ladies in front of the long table. They're all have the same blurry faces but I feel safe with them. The chestnut haired lady help me sit down on one of the chair and kindly smile at me before taking the seat next to me.

"Oh come on, you're not going to cry again, aren't you?" a teen age girl with short hair, not even reaching her neck, said with hint of playfulness.

The lady with blond hair started to sob. "I-I'm so sorry—,"

"There, there, there's no need to cry." The teen age girl with long green hair who looks like the short hair girl said, patting the blonde lady's head affectionately. "Onee-sama(1) is so sensitive, always easy to cry."

A petite girl, no more that two years older than the green haired twin, nodded with her content and solemn face, obviously agreeing to the twins.

The blonde lady's lower lip quivered again. "That's b-b-because—,"

"Break fast's ready. It's rude to make the grace from Chichi-ue(2) wait ne?" the chestnut hair lady cut in with gentle voice. Everyone keep quiet, the chestnut hair lady lead a small prayer before starting to eat their break fast. Everyone look so happy, they teased, giggled and talked about something about granting prayers. I just found myself giggling along with them. They all shared gentle smile for me. They affectionately patted my head. Caressed my silver hair. It feels like we're all one happy family. Happy family? Happy? How nostalgic. It's as if I have never felt this happiness for a very long time. I pushed that anxiety at the back of my mind and savored myself with this longing and happiness.


Everything changed. The place changed when a chilly wind blew off, only me and the kind chestnut hair lady was left alone. I glanced around and noticed that we're in some sort of beautiful garden surrounded by a golden bar-like fences. We're both sitting on the soft bench made out of white clouds. The lady was humming a soft tune while making a flower crown while I was leaning down on her lap.

I lifted my hands, they grew a little bit, I'm probably years older now than before. My blue eyes watched as the butterfly danced around the bushes of red roses near us. I giggled. "They're beautiful, Onee-sama."

I heard the lady chuckled softly. "Indeed." She answered. My eyes fluttered at the tall bar-like golden fences and lifted my eyes at the blurred face of the lady. "Why can't we go outside?"

I felt the lady's body tensed, silence followed before she answered. "It's because Chichi-ue said we're not allowed to leave this place. We should follow him, it's for our own safety."

After absorbing what she said I nodded as my response. "Ehh?" I stared at the beautiful spectrum that suddenly appeared outside the fences. I straightened my back and stared at the bright spectrum. "Onee-sama, what is that?" I pointing a finger at the spectrum.

"Oh, that's a rainbow."

I look up with excited smile on my face. "Can I go and played with it?"

The lady shook her head. "No,you can't go near the rainbow."

I pout my lower lip. "Why?"

The lady giggled and patted my head. "Cause we're not allowed to approached it. Someday, you'll understand why Chichi-ue wanted to keep us inside the palace. For now, you should never approached any rainbows nor go out the golden fence. It's for our own safety."

I huffed and crossed my arms together but nodded eventually. "Okay…" I agreed halfheartedly and then I heart soft footsteps. The lady probably heard the sounds as well, she gracefully stand up offering a hand at me.

"It seems that they are here. Come now, dear, we should go inside." She said. I nodded hesitantly. I allowed the lady to ushered me inside the palace that made out of the soft and white clouds.

I subconsciously craned my neck to the golden fence and saw outside the fence were men in silver Knight suits with two boy probably the same age as I am walking towards the west part of our palace. I stared at the boy with red hair, my blue eyes locked with his brown eyes. I grinned widely at him causing for him to blushed furiously. The older man with purple hair that was leading the group noticed the red haired boy looking at me, he forced the head of the boy to the front and mouthed something at the boy which the red hair responded a small nod.


Everyone was busy about something, I constantly asked what are they doing but they always answered I'm too young to know. They let me roam around the palace but sternly said that I should never leave the palace. I was bored playing with my toys made from clouds, I already explored the whole palace, even the attics but I'm still bored. I walk around the lobby of the palace and saw the very tall twin door was left ajar. I momentarily stop and stared at the ajar door before quietly sneaking towards it.

I peer outside, no one's in sight, I hurriedly run towards the garden where I usually spend my afternoon with the chestnut hair lady. I played with the butterflies at first, chasing them around before I heard footsteps again just like before. I peered at the golden fence, careful not to touch it. I saw the colorful rainbow again. I really, really wanted to played with it.

I was still fascinated about the rainbow when suddenly a face blocked my sight. I gasped and leaped away from the golden fence. I stared and recognized the red hair boy from the other day. I smile instantly but he's wearing a frown on his face.

"What are you doing outside?" he said in tone of apprehension. "You're not supposed to be outside nor near the golden fence. Go back inside."

I pout at him. "But…"

"You don't want to upset your sisters, right?"

My body tensed. The boy's right. My sisters have been so nice and kind to me, upsetting them is something I do not want to do. I nodded at the red haired boy before turning my heels back to the palace but then I abruptly halted and look over my shoulder. He was still standing behind the face, the boy blinked his eyes looking baffled at me.

I smile at him. "Thank you!" I said and turn my back at him again and run towards the palace, leaving the blushing boy.


Everything changed again but this time I'm no longer in palace made out of pure white clouds. I scanned my surroundings, I'm in sort of forest because there are plenty of trees around me. I looked up and saw the end of the spectrum the beautiful chestnut haired lady called 'rainbow' slowly disappearing. Fear suddenly hit me, I lifted my hand to try and reached the rainbow but it was useless.

Tears flowing profusely from my blue eyes as I watched the rainbow disappeared. What happened? Why am I not in the palace? Where am I? Onee-sama? Chichi-ue? Where's everybody? I cupped my face and started crying. I don't know how long I was crying but I just found myself slowly standing up and dusted off my white dress.

With my other hand on my tears-filled eyes, I started to drifted aimlessly. "Onee-sama… Chichi-ue…" I sob. I ignore the stinging pain under my feet, seeing that I was barefooted walking in an uneven and muddy ground. I nearly tripped from the largest root I've ever seen. Feeling isolated and all alone, I paused for a moment to rest my feet but then I started to cry again.

Where's everybody? What is this place? Where's the way to their beautiful palace? I feel so scared and alone. There's no one here other than myself. Sadness filled my chest so I sat down under the oak tree, pulling my legs closer to my chest, I gloomily buried my head against my knee while sobbing and then I fell asleep. I didn't know how long I was sleeping but faint whispering awaken me.

I rub the sleep off my eyes and lifted my head only to be surprised because I was being surrounded by five unfamiliar figures. They're all wearing white coats; their faces, unlike my sisters' blurry face, are darkened. They have similar scary scowl painted on their lips.

Two women and three men hovering their darkened face at me, I squeaked and squeezed myself against the tree trying to put long distance between me and these unfamiliar beings. One of them, a man, bend forward, his hand lifted and move towards me. I shut my eyes tightly because of fear. And then I felt him caressing my cheek but my fear still lingers inside my chest.

"I didn't know that they do exist." One of the two ladies said.

"Interesting." The man who's caressing my cheek said. I still have my eyes shut, my body's trembling in fear. "They're as meek as the holy book said. More beautiful even." He said. "Come dear. Don't be afraid, we'll help you get home."

"Ehh?"

"You'll be a perfect doll for Kuran-sama." He said showing his sharp fangs while grinning madly down to me. "You'll be our perfect weapon. We'll call you Ai. Kaname's Ai."

After the severe headache all of my happy memories, my time spending with my sisters, memories of me playing with butterflies, giggling with the boy with red hair, I'm slowly forgetting all of it. Their kind faces, their soft smiles, their names and most especially my own identity.


A/N: the usual Read & Review! *gloom* I'm sad & disappointed... anyways, can anyone guess what is Ai now? It's pretty easy :D


(1) Onee - Big Sister (2) -sama - suffix used mainly to refer to people much higher in rank than oneself (3) Chichi- father (4) ue - suffix that denotes a high level of respect