A/N I do not own any of the characters, that's obvious though ;)

Chapter 10

Pictures of the mountain waterfall I was imagining:
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Bella POV

I woke up ages after sunrise; it was around noon when I woke up. I knew this because Charlie was downstairs preparing breakfast, and that doesn't happen unless I have slept for too long. I kept my eyes closed, 'closed eyes help me pretend the world around me doesn't exist' I thought as I smiled. 'Right now all I want to do is sleep, sleep until I was forgotten, so I could start over again.' I thought. Edward had caused such an irreversible mess in my head, all my emotions were mixed up, my mind was overloaded with stress and was starting to give up. I didn't want to argue with Edward anymore, I just wanted a peaceful life, not one spent in fear.

I suddenly remembered that I was meeting Jasper today. My eyes shot open and a sense of relief and escape rushed through me. I breathed in heavily and smiled. We were going mountain climbing, I laughed sarcastically in my thoughts. My entire body was aching and I was going mountain climbing, I didn't know whether I should have been looking forward to it or not. I was so excited about it when Jasper had first told me, but now, I wasn't sure whether or not my body would have been able to handle it. Obviously I was not going to cancel it… that would just be stupid, overly stupid. I shook my head, shaking the thought away with it. I wondered when he was going to pick me up, I hadn't given him a time so I wasn't sure how he would know when to pick me up, in fact, I wasn't sure when I would be fully awake never mind ready. I laughed inwardly and lifted my back up so that I could rest myself against the headboard; my back ached badly, I clearly remembered how hard he pushed me down to the floor, on several occasions. I wanted to tell him that we were over and that I didn't want to see him anymore, but I was terrified of his reaction and what he would do. There was a part of me that still loved him and didn't want to accept the harsh reality.

After a while of thinking and day dreaming I finally got out of bed and dragged myself into the shower. I let the water pour down my body and refresh every muscle in me, but my plan didn't quite work, I was still in pain even after having finished my shower. I tied my hair in a towel and walked back into my room, I stared at my bed where Edward had forced me unto his lap, I remembered every sob, every struggle. It was horrible. All the memories were rushing into my head as if it was happening right there. I sighed and sat on my rocking chair in front of my mirror. I turned my head around slightly to take another look at the bruises; they weren't looking too good… They actually looked worse than they did yesterday. I wondered how long it would take for them to fade away… I wanted to go and see Carlisle about my wrist but I didn't want him to spot the bruises.

I carried out the new daily routine of applying foundation and powder until it partially disappeared. I got dressed into some 'comfy' clothing as Jasper instructed and walked down the stairs.

"Hi, dad." I said as I walked into the kitchen where he was washing the dishes.

"Hey Bells. I was gunna wait, but I was really hungry and I didn't when you were going to wake." He said shaking his head.

"It's fine, dad, don't worry." I said as I smiled.

"Alright. Well I'm gunna head upstairs and change…" He trailed off.

"Are you going to work?" I asked in a confused voice. He never works on Sunday mornings.

"Uh, no, Bells, I'm going away for the weekend…" he began explaining, fear suddenly took over me and I swallowed the lump that stood in my throat. Charlie's voice was indistinct in the background.

"What?" I said after I had zoned back in.

"I said; I'm going away for the weekend. I'll be back by Tuesday night... Maybe Wednesday." Charlie repeated.

"Oh right. Well, have fun." I said trying to smile.

"I'm going with Billy. If you need to get in touch with me, just call and if I don't answer call Billy." He said slowly.

"Okay, dad, don't worry." I said trying to keep the smile. He then started explaining where the first aid box is and essential things are, I nodded and laughed.

"Dad I know where everything is... I've been here for a year." I said laughing quietly.

"Okay, okay. Well just be careful. And, don't set the house on fire." He winked as he walked up the stairs.

"Dad, that's not funny." I said in a sarcastic voice. I shook my head in amusement as he walked up.

Charlie going away for 3 days is like trouble waiting around the corner, fear was overwhelming me again. What would I do if anything happened? I dreaded the answer. A while later Charlie walked down with a suitcase and fishing sticks, a bucket, a raincoat and fishing clothes. He waved good bye and left the house, I watched from the door as his car left. 'Bye dad' I thought as he left. 'I'll be fine' I told myself bravely. 'I'll just go along with everything that Edward says and that's it, I'll be fine' I repeated. Truth was; I knew very well I wouldn't be fine but I kept giving myself hope. False hope. And before I could get too lost in thought I heard a knock on the door. 'Jasper' I thought as a smile appeared on my face. I walked towards the door and opened the door.

"Hey." I said grinning.

"Hello, Bella. Ready?" He said with a smile.

"Yeah, let me just grab my bag…" I said as I turned around.

"Oh no, leave it. You won't need it." He smirked.

"Oh? Okay then." I said with raised eyebrows. "By the way, perfect timing, Charlie just went out for a long weekend break" I grinned. "How did you know when to come?" I asked curiously.

"I'm a vampire, I know things." He winked as he laughed.

"Not watching me from the tree again were you?" I laughed.

"No, Miss." His nose wrinkled, which looked adorable. "Just stuck by close" He said with his lopsided smile. I laughed and turned back to get my shoes on.

"Glad you didn't choose to wear high heels." He laughed.

"Uh, I'm not the high heel type anyway…" I shook my head as I turned back round facing him.

"It's nice seeing a woman without heels on for once." He laughed quietly. I quickly caught on what he was saying. Obviously because he lived with Alice and Rosalie, he barely ever saw woman in comfy shoes.

"Guess I'm just different." I shrugged.

"Difference is good." He nodded reassuringly. "Ready?" He held out his hand after a moment of silence.

"Yup." I said as I held onto his hand and followed him into his car.

It was a fairly silent but peaceful ride to the edge of the forest. I was interested in seeing where this mountain was. I wondered if it was the one you could see in the distance from Jasper's bedroom window. The one with the waterfall.

"So uh, you said, mountain climbing?" I asked curiously.

"Well, not exactly mountain climbing, similar." He said as he walked round to come and open the door for me.

"Thanks." I smiled as I climbed out of the car. "So where is it?" I asked following him.

"Well, it's quite deep into the forest." He explained slowing down, so that we were walking at the same speed. He was looking sidewards at me in-between his words. "When you're in my room, you can see it through the window." He explained.

"Oh! I thought so." I smiled.

"It's a very tranquil place, very peaceful, good for relaxing," He said in a relaxed voice, " good for thinking…" he added on, looking at me from the corner of his eyes, as if that purposely aimed at me. I guess it was… I did need a good place to think things through.

"Seems like a lovely place." I said in thought.

"It is…" He said quietly. "Possibly hard for humans to get there." He looked at me with a smirk. I laughed at him shaking my head.

"Shame… Seems like I can't get there then…" I said in amusement.

"Well, unless you have vampire with you… then it may just be possible" He winked as he held onto my hand. I didn't jerk away. I knew we were alone and I was safe.

We carried on walking at human speed for another 20 minutes or so until we got to the bottom of the 'mountain'. I could see the waterfall up close now, and I was in awe by how beautiful it was; the fresh smell, the sound, the look. Everything. "Wow…" I said under my breath as my head moved upwards trying to see the top of the enormous waterfall. Jasper stood beside me, still holding my hand.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Jasper said as he followed my gaze to the top.

"Yeah…" I said still in awe. "Where does it start?" I asked curiously.

"Right at the top." He pointed his finger towards the top of the 'mountain'. (A/N Please look at the first link I have provided at the top of this page)

"Wow…" I said again. It suddenly clicked. "Are we going to go up there?!" I asked with excitement.

"Yes, we are." He smiled at me.

"Seriously?" I enthused.

"Mhm." He replied nodding his head.

"Great! Where do we start?" I asked enthusiastically.

"At the bottom." He smirked as if it was obvious.

"Oh my god. How long will it take?" I asked, expecting it to be hours.

"Well, it depends how far we walk at a human speed." He replied. "Of course we aren't going all the way in human speed. That would be plain and boring." He glanced at me with a mischievous smile. "I'll carry you for most of it." He continued. I became embarrassed but managed to stop myself from going hot and blushing, not sure how controlling my emotions was going though, I laughed inwardly.

We spent about an hour walking and the rest Jasper carried me up in a cradle, so it wasn't as exhausting as I thought it would be. Every once in a while during the hour I had to sit down and take a rest, that was only because of my aching body though. I sighed silently. Once we got to the top Jasper sat down on the edge of the enormous waterfall, where there was a little bit of grass. (A/N Please refer to the second link given) I sat down beside him and held my knees in my arms. I lay my head on top of my knees and just observed the beauty in front of me. Jasper allowed me to spend a couple of minutes silently.

"Seems like you like it here." He said as he grinned at me. This was the first time I saw him grin, without it looking like a smirk. I smiled instantly.

"Yeah, it's amazing, I'm… Lost for words." I shrugged keeping my gaze on the waterfall. "How high up are we?" I suddenly asked.

"About 380 meters all together…" He wobbled his head from left to right.

"Oh, my god!" I said in shock. "That's… a long way up…" I trailed off with a tiny laugh.

"Hmm... Maybe that's what makes it so peaceful, it's away from everything." Jasper put his arm around my shoulders as he stared into space. Eventually I ended up having my head resting on his shoulder and wishing that this moment would never end. I continuously did a reality check just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. "Bella?" He asked staring off into the distance. I looked at him as a sign of listening. "What made you… like me?" He asked.

"Well what isn't there to like about you?" I said with a quiet laugh.

"No, I mean, like me." He repeated himself this time looking at me.

"Oh, well, I don't know…I just, did." I shrugged. "What made me important to you?" I said casually.

He smirked before answering. "Bella, Bella, Bella" He sighed as if it was obvious. "You're so special. You are loveable… You have a kind heart and a sweet voice. Everything about you just draws me in." He said as the smirk faded.

"I thought only you had that effect on me…" I trailed off quietly.

"I have that effect on you?" He asked as if he was genuinely surprised.

"Yeah…" I laughed from embarrassment and dropped my head.

"I didn't know that." He said in a surprised voice with raised eyebrows. He stroked my hair out of my face and tucked it behind my ear.

His next expression was one I had never seen before. His mouth dropped open in disgust and his eyebrows pushed towards each other. His eyes turned coal black and that is what scared me. I didn't want to move away, I stayed fixed in my position. His fingers were still in their position, holding my hair back. He ran two fingers down the side of my face and only when my face twitched, I registered exactly what had just happened. He had seen the bruises. I started panicking. 'Damn it! I thought I hid it well!' I mentally shouted at myself. 'Must have been all the climbing. The foundation must have worn off.' I felt like crying. I had never seen so many mixed emotions in Jasper.

Jasper POV

I was shocked that I had that effect on Bella; I thought it was only her who had that effect on me… It seemed as though it was both of us. "I didn't know that." I said in a surprised tone but with a heart filled with love. I pushed Bella's hair out of her face and tucked it behind her ear.

My eyes suddenly stopped on the side of her face. There was a red colour on the side of her face. Running from the corner of her eye to her chin, you could easily make out the shape of four fingers. 'If this is Edward, he would not be alive by tomorrow' I thought angrily as my lips curled up in disgust. My anger was overwhelming and it wasn't in my control. I moved two fingers on the bruises gently. I couldn't believe the sight. I started thinking about how scared and terrified Bella must have felt. A low growl built up in my chest and I wanted to rip Edwards head off. When I saw her face twitch I realised that they were real. Bella was scared of talking to me because Edward abused her. I gritted my teeth together.

Bella POV

"Jasper?" I said slightly scared. "Jasper…" I moved his fingers away. "Speak to me…" I begged. "Jasper." I tried to comfort him. It didn't seem to be any use though. A single tear rolled down my cheek and that caught his attention. He held me tightly in his arms and I held onto him. He held me protectively which caused me to become even more alarmed. "Jasper…?" I asked quietly. I couldn't see his face anymore; I had buried my face into his chest. He held me tighter and sighed as he let go.

"Bella. What the hell has he done to you?" I heard a growl along with his words. I simply looked down in shame. "When?" He asked furiously.

"Jasper, leave it." I said shaking my head.

"Bella, when?" He said emphasising the word 'when'.

"It doesn't matter." I shook my head looking at him.

"Bella, it does matter." He said in disgust. "I cannot stand by and watch you come to me with another bruise every day." He looked at me thoroughly. He stood up and left my side, I began to wonder why he was angry with me.

"Jasper…" I said quietly on the edge of tears, the one person who cared, was turning away. He walked away and walked in the middle of the stream; he stood firmly on a rock and ran his hand through his hair. I could tell he was stressed. I frowned at myself, 'I've messed up again' I thought as I held my knees in my arms.

"Jasper… I'm sorry." I said quietly with an upset voice. He turned his head back to look back at me and quickly rushed over to me. He held my head in-between his hands and looked at me with a concerned face,

"You're sorry?" He asked confused.

"Yeah… It's all my fault, I'm sorry." Tears filled my eyes.

"What are you saying, darlin'?" He asked in surprise whilst shaking his head.

Jasper POV

I ran to the middle of the stream. This is where I usually came, when I was stressed or upset. I tried to clear my head and make a wise decision; I knew from experienced that rushed decisions were not good ones. I was finding it hard to contain my anger and not go back home at that very second. I ran my hand through my hair trying to calm myself. 'How could he do something like that to Bella? How could he even get himself to raise his hands on her?' the more I thought about it, the less it made sense and the angrier I felt. I growled again just as I heard Bella's voice.

"Jasper… I'm sorry." I turned around to look at her. I watched her in disbelief. She was apologising for someone else's actions? I rushed to her and held her face in my hands, kneeling down so that I was level with her.

"You're sorry?" I asked confused and shocked.

"Yeah… It's all my fault, I'm sorry." Her chocolate brown eyes became filled with tears. I looked at her from right to left. I examined her emotions for some clues; pain, hurt, sorrow was mostly what I was receiving.

"What are you saying darlin'?" I stroked her hair and spoke desperately. She was very wrong, she hadn't done anything wrong, and he was making her believe it was all her fault.

"Making you stressed, making Edward hate me, pulling you and Alice apart… You had such a good life before I came." She continued with a broken voice. I shook my head. 'Doesn't she realise how important she is to me?' I thought in surprise. 'Doesn't she realise how much I… How much I… love her.' I finally allowed myself to think it freely after a long time of denial.

"Bella. You aren't making anything wrong. Don't ever think that you caused me and Alice's separation. Don't you even let yourself think that made my life bad; since you have entered my life I've been so much happier, I've been able to spend every day with a smile. You're presence makes me alive. You make me feel human again. You give me a feeling no one has ever given me." I spoke slowly and clearly as I stroked her face passionately. I was finally admitting all my feelings. She looked at me with wide eyes.

"Really?" she looked at me doubtfully. I nodded my head with a serious look on my face. "So you weren't angry at me just a few minutes ago?" She asked confused.

"No. God, no Bella!" I said shaking my head abruptly. "I'm angry at him for hurting you so much." I explained. "I can't get over your bruises…" I said sadly. I dropped my hands down and rubbed my fingers on my arms, and then back on her face this time holding her closer to me.

"Can't you just pretend nothing has happened?" She asked as if begging me to forget about it.

"I can't… Miss Sawn… Don't you see, I, love you?" I expressed myself in one of the hardest ways possible for me. Words. I finally told her, I finally accepted the fact myself. I could sense a hint of happiness but it was mostly fear, huge amounts of fear in her emotions. She looked at me shocked like she wasn't expecting it at all. She threw her arms around me and I held her tightly. "I didn't want to admit it at first. But then I realised when I don't see you for a day, I start becoming a little weak…" I explained. "Not seeing you for an hour felt like I would never see you again." I carried on. She let go of me and smiled doubtfully. "What's the matter?" I asked quietly.

"Jasper… I can't," She started speaking with a shaky voice, but I stopped her. I placed my finger on her lips.

"Shh." I smiled at her. "It's okay, I know you're with Edward, and you can't, but I needed to tell you." I spoke gently. I stroked her hair gently and she let herself relax beside me, she dropped her head on my chest. We spent a good 15 minutes in that position and just relaxed. I knew Bella needed time, and I was willing to give her as long she needed.

"Bella…" I said quietly. "Bella?" I said a little louder, she didn't reply, I turned my head sidewards to look at her. She was fast asleep, her eyes were fully closed and her heartbeat was much slower than normal. I stroked her face with one hand and kissed her forehead. I lifted her off the ground and placed her head on my lap. I decided I would stay until she woke up. It would give me time to think about a couple of things. She looked so peaceful, so calm and beautiful. I smiled and looked away, staring deep into the stream.

Bella POV

I rested my head on Jasper's chest, I felt so safe. His words had warmed up my entire soul, but at the same time, created a sense of fear. If Edward had read Jasper's mind about the kitchen thing, then he might let it slip again. I was thinking about telling Jasper why Edward had slapped me, but I didn't want Jasper to blame himself. As my thoughts continued I started to drift off, slowly falling asleep.

My eyes opened up to the sound and the fresh smell of the waterfall, I was still by Jasper, only in a different position. My head was resting lightly on his lap and my body was crouched up on the ground beside him. He was leaning on his hands and in another world. Or so it seemed, he was gazing into the waterfall. I closed my eyes again and concentrated on the sound of the splashing water which was in the distance, then there was a closer sound; the sound of rapid water on its own journey from the stream down to the river. I smiled and turned around, resting on my back now, I stared into the blue sky. Jasper looked down and placed his hand on the side of my head, he started stroking my hair gently, pushing away every single strand from my face. In a way, now that he had seen the bruise I wasn't worried about hiding it anymore. We spent a few moments in silence before I got up and sat up beside him.

"Good evening." He said with a lopsided grin.

"Thanks." I smiled awkwardly, it was evening already?

"Did you sleep well?" He asked kindly, throwing his hand over my shoulders.

"Yes, thanks. It was a much calmer sleep than I have ever experienced." I said truthfully. He simply smiled and gave me a little squeeze.

"Hmm, Bella, close your eyes." He said all of a sudden.

"Why?" I asked curiously.

"Trust me. Do it." He said nodding his head.

"Alright." I said. 'I trust him' I thought as I closed my eyes. I felt myself lift off the ground and into his arms. I knew he was holding me in a cradle. I waited for the next thing. I felt a cool breeze brush against my skin and I knew we were moving. We came to a sudden stop and I could hear the splashing water much more clearly. It was much cooler as well, I wondered where we were.

"Open your eyes." He said still holding me. I opened them and realised we were standing on a rock in the middle of the stream. Where Jasper was standing earlier. 'Impossible!' I thought, 'any normal person would be thrown down from the currents.'

He lowered me and I could feel the cold water rushing past my feet. I could also feel extreme pressure pushing me down. Jasper lifted me up onto a rock next to us and stood me up properly. He let go of me but still kept his hands around me in case I would fall. I felt like I was a part of the waterfall, it was such a beautiful sight; watching the stream rush pass rocks, travelling down the slope, creating the waterfall.

"Wow." I said more to myself than Jasper.

"I come and stand here when I need to clear my mind out." He explained. I leaned a little forward so that I could see the bottom of the waterfall but I couldn't, there were big rocks in the way of my sight. "Careful!" Jasper yelled as I was about to fall off the edge of the rock.

"Sorry…" I looked at him apologetically.

"I thought you were going down with the stream for a second!" He said in a concerned voice. "C'mon let's go back to land, before you fall down." He said with a laugh as he pulled me off the rock and back into a cradle.

"No!" I moaned. "Jasper, I was just looking over. Put me back down."

"We'll come back again some other time." He spoke as if I was a little child.

"Hm" I huffed like a child. "Okay then." Jasper laughed at me as he put me down on the ground. I stood up, again only inches away from him.

"What time is it?" I asked as I remembered Edward.

"Around 6 why?" He asked raising his eyebrows.

"Oh no! I've got to get back!" I panicked.

"Bella, don't leave, please." He asked with a sad voice. I looked right into his golden topaz eyes and frowned. "Bella, I know you're scared of him. But together we can sort it out. I can help you, but you have to let me." He spoke with a serious voice and face.

"Jasper I'll be fine. I just need to go, now." I said in a begging voice.

"Alright. But I will come home with you." He said nodding.

"No, Edward might already be there…" I said trying to make him understand.

"And? This way I can have a word with him." Jasper raised his eyebrows.

"Jasper! Please! Just leave it. I'll be fine, it won't happen again." I begged.

"That's what you said last time…" He looked at me with a serious face. I looked down.

"I know…" I said quietly. "I didn't think it would…" I swallowed "happen again." I carried on in a quiet voice. His face suddenly changed from serious to sorry. He lifted his hand and caressed my cheek.

"I'm sorry." He said quietly leaning his face forward. I felt the pull again; I resisted it so much, but it was useless, I realised I had moved closer to him. I tried to look away but my body was doing its own thing. 'Bella!' I kept mentally shouting at myself. I was completely calm, and everything seemed perfect but I knew that as soon as I was back home, the hell would start again. Jasper stood still with one hand on my cheek, as if waiting for me make my mind up. I knew I was already in enough trouble; Edward was going to certainly question me. I shook my head so that I would lose eye contact with him, and I was relieved that I hadn't done anything I would've regretted later. I looked down and sighed, just then Jasper brought his arms down and put them around me. I allowed myself to move in closer to him and wrapped my arms around him, my head dropped and rested on his chest; tears filled my eyes and I felt like crying from the top of my lungs. It wasn't fair. Tears rolled down and I pressed my lips together to supress a sob. It didn't work; a single but loud sob escaped my mouth. Jasper held me tighter and stroked my hair with one hand, I knew that I was going to end up having a break down if I didn't leave, so I pulled away and stood still with my head down trying to calm myself. Jasper was helping me, because I could feel myself much more relaxed after a few moments.

"Thanks" I said as I looked up and saw his extremely concerned face. I smiled but that didn't seem to change his expression. I could tell he was worrying about me. "Don't worry about me." I said smiling forcefully.

"How could I not Bella?" He asked shaking his head. I looked away ashamed. "I care about you more than anything in my life." He said with raised eyebrows but still concerned. "Never forget that." He said quietly. A while later he asked me the question I was trying to avoid. "What made him…?" He looked at me with disgust. "Hurt you." He finished quickly. In my head I was thinking 'which one?' But really, the same reason was behind all of them.

"I didn't listen to him." I said with a broken voice. He looked at me opened mouthed.

"What?" he said sternly with anger.

"He asked me not to talk to you, and I did…" I trailed off.

"So this is from the night of the bruises on your arm?" He asked as if trying to figure something out.

"No-" I realised that I was slapped two times. Once in the meadow that day and another two nights ago. "Yes..." I quickly added on.

"I would've seen it…" He spoke suspiciously.

"I was, covering it… With my hair." I said, it was sort of true.

"No, Bella, this is fresh, it can't be that old." He said quietly whilst shaking his head in thought.

"Jasper, could you please take me home now?" I asked desperately, also trying to change the subject. He looked at me as he snapped out of thought.

"Of course." He smiled as he pulled me off the floor and into his arms. He ran off towards his car and slowly the waterfall started disappearing into the distance.

He placed me on the ground and opened the door for me. I sat in and thanked him as he sat down in his seat. He seemed very caught up in thought. I was worried he was about to figure something out.

"Jasper what's the matter?" I asked as he drove.

"I'm wondering…" He trailed off "When did you actually get that bruise?" he spoke in a different tone, a much more curious tone.

"Two nights ago." I sighed as I gave in. He looked at me as if something had just clicked in his head.

"That's when." He paused suddenly and stopped his car on the edge of the road. I looked at him with a confused faced. "Oh, I'm so sorry Bella." He looked at me woefully. I carried on staring at him. "If I hadn't let my thoughts wonder off, he would have never known." He added with the same face.

"It's alright Jasper," I looked at him from the top of my eye. "It's not your fault." I smiled.

"I'm so, so, sorry." He carried on.

"It's alright, seriously." I nodded my head with a smile. It wasn't exactly his fault. It was mine for getting that close to Jasper.

"No, it's not. I caused this and your wrist." He said and I could tell he was beginning to hate on himself. "It was the day I asked you to meet me right?" He asked as if checking something. I nodded. He sighed and leaned back on his chair pushing his curls out of his face.

"Jasper. I'm fine," I said trying to comfort him "I'll be fine." I quickly corrected.

"Bella, stay with us these couple of days? Until your dad comes back." He asked sitting back up again.

"No, Jasper I can't." I shook my head sadly.

"If you're at your house, I can't make sure you're alright." He explained.

"Jasper, Edward wouldn't let me… Plus, it would be much harder for me…" I explained. I saw him nod with a half- hearted smile.

"Bella." He said in a frustrated voice as he started the car again. I didn't reply and he carried on driving until we got to a street close to my house.

"Jasper… Drop me off at the top of this street please." I asked him quietly.

"Bella, you can't fear him for the rest of your life." I could see his eyebrows cross.

"I know." I said more to myself than him. "But I have no choice for now." I said even quieter. I heard Jasper sigh and slow down.

"Here." He said as he stopped by the street close to my house. I smiled.

"Thank you. I've had a brilliant day." I said grinning.

"Good, I'm glad" He got out of the car to hug me.

"Uhm, try not to think about it, please." I asked.

"I won't, I promise." He said hugging me. "But you need to go to the doctor for your wrist." He said light heartedly with a slight laugh.

"Okay, I will." I laughed.

"Will you go tomorrow?" He asked as he let me go.

"No, probably not." I said truthfully.

"Bella." He frowned. "Why not?" He asked still frowning.

"Wait till my bruises fade…" I looked down again.

"Oh…" He said suddenly. "Okay." He said understandingly.

"Bye." I said as I walked backwards.

"Bye." He said slowly. Neither of us wanted to leave, but there was no other choice.

I walked away before I could change my mind. I smiled at the thought of my brilliant day, but frowned at what was coming for me. I had my excuse ready, if Edward happened to be waiting for me or planning on coming. I was at the shops buying a few things, and then decided to go for a walk. I repeated in my head a couple of times before I got home. I felt a little hungry, but ignored my stomach and carried on walking, trying to get home faster. I didn't know what time it was. The last it had been around 6. I had been out for about 7 hours if it was 7 right now. I shivered out of fright. 'What if Edward checked on me?' I asked myself. I didn't have an answer for that… I quickened my pace.

Once I got home I changed my clothes into a pair of jeans and a shirt. I folded my clothes neatly and placed on my rocking chair. I looked at them for a couple of minutes, remembering everything that had happened today. I sighed as I walked out of my bedroom to prepare some food for myself. I was starting to miss Charlie already; he was usually home in the evening for a bit... And then he would leave for work again.

I got a canned soup out of the cupboard and heated it. I sat down at the table and ate as I watched out of the window. I saw Edward approaching my house at a human speed and I got up to wash my bowl. I groaned and let my head flop back. 'Oh no.' I thought lifelessly. 'Why doesn't he just leave me alone' I thought as I rubbed my face with my hand. I heard a knock on the door and I knew it was him; I stood still for a moment, seriously not in the mood for an argument. I moved towards the door anyway.

"Bella?" I heard him call. "Are you home yet?" I heard him ask. 'Yes.' I thought. I opened the door and watched him as he walked in. "Where have you been all day? I've checked on you about 50 times today." He asked angrily.

"I was out… Shopping and then I went for a walk." I stuttered.

"For 6 hours?" He said in a threatening voice. I shook my head with a confused expression. "I've checking on you since 1 pm… Your truck was here, but you weren't" He explained coldly. I looked away from him searching my mind for an excuse, but I didn't have one. "Where were you actually?" He questioned. 'Oh no.' I thought, 'I knew this was going to happen.' I groaned inwardly.

"What do you mean, 'Where were actually.' I told you where I was." I said looking down.

"You don't expect me to believe that, do you?" He smirked as he moved closer and shut the door behind him.

"Well… It's the truth." I said as my breathing quickened.

"Bella, you can't lie to save your life." He said with a threatening laugh. I didn't reply I just kept my head down, occasionally looking at him from the top of my eyes. "Charlie's gone away hasn't he?" He said more as a matter of fact rather than question.

"Yes." I looked at him.

"Perfect time for us to be alone." He smiled crookedly. I backed away cautiously. "We'll get close again, it'll be great." I dropped my head deciding that silence was the best option. He moved closer to me and stroked my cheek. I looked away which caused his hand to fall down. He looked at me angrily. "Why do you jerk away from my touch?" he asked curling his upper lip up.

"Edward… I need a little time away from you." I said quietly, too afraid of his reaction.

"What? Bella I love you, I can't stay away from you." He said desperately as he kissed me. I shook my head groaning. I pursed my lips so that he would stop. I tried to push him away with my bare hands, obviously didn't work. Once he saw how much I was struggling, he stopped. "You're falling in love with Jasper, that's why you back away from me." He said furiously.

"No, no, it's not like that." My breathing quickened.

"Let me show you I'm better than him." He said in a competitive and angry voice. 'Oh no, gosh, I've done it now.' I mentally screamed at myself. He held my waist firmly. I tried to push myself as back as my body would allow.

"Edward… you don't need to prove yourself." I said in a terrified voice.

"So, I'm better than Jasper?" He held my waist tighter. Speaking in a forceful way, I nodded forcefully. "Am I?" He squeezed the side of my cheeks, causing my lips to pop out. I moved my head around trying to get out of his grasp.

"Yes." I croaked.

"Good." He let go of my face and smiled with narrowed eyes. "You haven't seen him today have you?" He kept his eyes narrowed. I shook my head faster than I could understand. He looked at me suspiciously but then let it go and I exhaled out of relief. "Then why is his scent all over you?" He asked casually. My breath literally stopped for about a minute or so. I shrugged I shook my head helplessly, clenching my jaw, trying to supress tears. "You're never going to see him again." He said as a matter of fact. "Ever." He continued. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes, as my mouth twitched aching for a sob.

"Why not, Edward?" I dared to ask, so quietly it was like the wind blowing.

"Because no!" He shouted at me, I flinched my head back. He held my waist tighter and it was starting to hurt. He lifted me up into a cradle and brought my face close to his.

"Put me down." I said as sternly as I could. He didn't listen, he was about to kiss me again, when I kicked him. Not that it hurt him but it got his attention.

"What are you doing?" He asked angrily as he pulled me closer to him.

"Let me go." I spoke, trying to be confident but not having much luck. He growled as his upper lip curled up in a snarl.

"Sorry." I mumbled in defeat looking at him wearily.

"I know you didn't mean it." He said looking into my eyes. 'I bloody did.' I thought but stayed still. "You've had a stressful week." Edward explained, as if that was the reason. I nodded forcefully with my lips pursed together in a straight line.

"I need some time, until I get better." I said quietly, hoping that this would make him leave.

"I can make you feel better…" He kissed me again.

"No, I just need sleep." I tried to push him away. He ignored my words and held my face forcefully, kissing my lips continuously.

"C'mon." He forced my legs around his waist.

"Edward, please, put me down." I asked knowing that it wouldn't work.

"Hmm?" He said nuzzling my neck. I moved my head upwards trying to avoid him but I couldn't. I looked up at the celling hoping for a miracle. He walked up the stairs and took me into the bedroom. I knew where this was going, and I didn't like it at all. It was torture.

"Edward, please." I said quietly, unsure of whether or not he was going to do what I was thinking.

"C'mon Bella. You've always asked for it yourself." He asked rubbing his hand up and down my back. I tensed and closed my eyes. He placed me down on the bed and lifted my T shirt up.

"Edward, no." I said my breath fast now as I held it down. He ignored me and lifted my shirt above my head. I kept my eyes closed dreading every moment. He lay his hands down on either side of my chest and lifted me up. I was scared beyond any scared I had every felt before. He planted kisses on my neck until he got to my lips. He kissed me passionately, I couldn't respond. I was so terrified. My body was frozen into place, trembling with fear. I felt like a doll, unable to do anything, completely in control by him. He handled me with care like I was breakable, which I was, but that was only the beginning. He placed me back down again and lifted my arms up above my head, I started crying from fear. "Why are you doing this?" I asked stuttering from fear. He moved his fingers down from my chest to just above my trousers. I closed my eyes and gritted my teeth together.

"Doing what? Loving you?" He asked as if it was obvious. I opened my eyes and brought my arms back down beside me. I held myself together crouching on my bed. He lifted my arms and put them back where they were before. "Look at the bruises on them." He said sadly as he turned my body back round. My breath quickened. He brought them in front of me to see. I had a yellowish green colour that was on both my arms and on both parts. I looked away. He put them back in their place and lifted me up again. He took his hands round to my back and held my bra strap.

"Edward, please, don't do this." I said panicking and crying at the same time. I held onto it and tried to push his hands away. It didn't work and I felt my bra loosen around me, I realised he had unstrapped it. I quickly moved my arms in front of me to keep my bra in place. I cried helplessly as he moved my hand away. My upper body was now fully exposed. I sobbed but he didn't take any notice.

"You do have a beautiful body." He said with eyes full of lust. I started struggling but it was no use he was hovering on top of me holding my legs into place.

"Ugh!" I screamed. "Get off me!" I shouted. He lifted one hand over my mouth and smiled viciously. I sobbed; I didn't want my first time to be like this…

"Don't worry Bella, I won't lose control. I've been preparing for this." He continued as I struggled. He laughed. "Mmm." He said as moved his hands up my body. I pushed his arms with all my strength, trying to lift his hands of me. "Shh, just calm and relax." He said quietly as he unbuttoned my jeans.

"No!" I screamed. He continued as he pulled my jeans off. "Leave me alone." I sobbed loudly, tears streaming down my face. I kicked my legs whilst shaking my head trying to get him off me. It was no use, all my energy was going to waste. "Please! Please! Stop! Edward, please." I begged until I had no voice left. "I love you but please. Don't." I cried. Last time this had worked so I tried it as a last resort. It didn't work.

"Then prove it." He looked at me, saying every word clearly and sternly, exposing his teeth.

"No!" I screamed, realising that it hadn't worked.

"Shh." He said aggressively. I cried loudly out of fear which made him even angrier. I screamed again, hoping that someone would hear me. "Shh. You're ruining my concentration." He spoke in a sinister voice. I sobbed as my eyes squeezed shut. He rubbed his hands up and down my thighs; I cried loudly moving my legs around so that he wouldn't be able to touch me. He then attempted to pull my underwear down and that's when I couldn't tolerate anymore.

"NO!" I screamed at the top of lungs. I kicked and struggled. I started wiggling my body under his, trying to get away from him. I sobbed loudly. Once he had me fully naked and vulnerable he started kissing me so forcefully that my lips started to hurt. He lifted me up and my ribs started aching. "Ouch!" I groaned in pain. He paid no attention and slammed me against the wall. My breath stopped for a moment, I was in so much pain.

He started undressing himself, ripping his shirt off and pulling his trousers down. I was terrified; adreline was kicking in as I struggled. He was holding me up against the wall by my chest, "Edward." I said breathlessly, "You're hurting me, let go of me." I cried breathlessly. He kept me up against the wall and forced my legs around his bare waist once again. He rubbed his hand up and down my bare body again. "God!" I cried out, "Help me!" I cried breathlessly.

When I woke up in the morning, Edward was still lying beside me in my bed. It took me a moment to realise I had been asleep. I turned around and realised one more thing… I was naked. Flashbacks from last night invaded my mind; I shook my head trying to get rid of them. I remembered everything that had happened and jumped out of my bed, pulling the covers with me.

"I hate you!" I shouted as I ran into the bathroom I locked the door behind me. Even though, if he wanted to break in it would be easy for him.

"Bella," I heard him knocking on the door. I cried loudly, "Bella, don't cry. I don't know what happened to me." He said sadly.

"Get out! NOW! Get out of my house!" I sobbed angrily. I couldn't believe he had actually raped me, he hurt me, again. I realised that my insides were in pain and felt like it had been torn apart. My back was in pain from when he had slammed me against the wall. My ribs were aching from his grasp. My arms were hurting from his firm hold. My pelvis even hurt. I cried loudly, this was not how I wanted my first time to have been. I held my head in my hands; I wanted to pull my hair out. Why did he do that to me? I screamed I was so overwhelmed.

A/N :O My gosh!

It was really, really, hard for me to write the very last bit, because I have had no experience in that area… And, I didn't want it to get too graphic. Bella's hard times are just starting D: But hey, you only get a rainbow after the rain ;) Hehe.

Reviews make me happy! :D Thanks for your time.

Until next time

Armineh x