Frustrating Thoughts

Meeting Rosalie hadn't exactly been my worst nightmare that night. I sat there staring at Edward, his nod calculating, his eyes glistening with doubt." I just heard so many things this past months and I cant help but wonder.." My question isn't really a big deal.. I was just to ask "So where's your parents?" his eyes suddenly aloof.."Well you don't really have to answer.." I quickly countered just not to show I wanted badly to hear the story. It's no secret that Edward is the Black sheep of their family. Loads of people also have loads to say but I wanted to hear it from him.

"Yah..and I don't really want to answer." try as I might, I felt really disappointed. I know its too early to demand something cause even "what we are" isn't really clear. I just assumed that when he told me he was thinking about me the whole week there is already something.I tried to hold back tears. "Are you done there?I think you better enjoy the party, I'll just attend into something. With just that he left me sitting alone in the exactly had I done?

I just wandered around the house, seeing and greeting acquaintances every now and then, the house now too crowded even breathing is so hard, fumes and smogs are everywhere. I tried to make my way up the stairs into the music room where Edward brought me earlier that night. I haven't seen him since he left me. I traced the necklace he gave and asked myself why he gave it and then suddenly left.

"Hey Bella. Didn't know you're here." I just looked at Ben as he approaches; I almost forgot that he is Jasper's brodmate.

"Hi there too.. Lauren hadn't told me you're here too.."

"Oh, she didn't know.. can you keep it a secret?" he escorted me inside the empty music room.

"Oh-oh.."

"Well that's fine..your friends" I couldn't see myself lying to Lauren but as long as she won't ask me, I think the secrets safe with me." so whose your with?"

"Alice invited me.. She is my classmate in Trigonometry" Didn't know why I lied too. Maybe it's the shame of Edward leaving me in the middle of the party.

"Really.. Thought you and Edward's going out.. Could have been a blast."

"What do you mean?"

"Well for instance you're the first girl he'd gone out with for almost three months now." Ben looked at the CD's on the rack, examining them one by one, he looks so engrossed by it while talking, I didn't know he's aware of how long Edward and I had been seeing. "Don't believe the rumors about him really..i mean Jess and Lauren are girls, you know.. Girls tend to believe too much. .Seriously.. I know Edward have some issues but..Everyone have issues right? It isn't true his parents doesn't care for him anymore...he just chose to stay out of their way really..I mean-- I and Edward isn't that close but at least Jasper tell us the truth, You know this Angela?His childhood friend?Well his dad's a doctor and----"Ben suddenly stop talking and stared at me like he is looking at me for the first time.

"You're saying? What Ben?" I asked too quickly, too eager to hear what he is saying.

"Nothin Bella.. gotta run, see you around.."

"Hi there Bella..Edward told me to take you home, he is busy right now.." Alice's' broad smile didn't wipe away the hurt I feel as I walked with her to the car. The words she told me when she saw me on the music room just kept repeating on my mind. Even as I sat on my bed cuddled on my sheets, the tears of frustration just kept on slipping down my wasted cheeks.

A/N: thanks for the reviews. Well another short chapter, that's about it mate. Whats for the next chapter?hmm… well comments and reviews. I think its going to be some rehash of the fan fics ive read from the past.