Here I am. Again. As I promised. With another update. I couldn't decide whose POV to write so I wrote boths. So this chapter will have Spencer's and Ashley's POV. From this chapter and on the girls speaking in present tense and not in past. So we are three years later after their break up. I had to write what happen between those years. But now they live in the present. With their "halfs". Enjoy…


Chapter 11

Spencer's POV

Yesterday it was my two and a half anniversary of Mark's and I. When I got home from work he had candles across the lane. The table was set with candlesticks. He had cooked and the table had pedals of red roses. So romantic. So perfect. But then I though how was my 3 year anniversary of Ashley's and mine. No. I had to put that thought away. I can't think of her.. She is married now. Yeah.. She married 5 months after the announce I saw at that shop. She is married for 2 years now. I was so masochist that I read the tabloids and saw her wedding at TV. She was so beautiful. But then I noticed her. You mean how? Ashley was the most beautiful bride I have ever seen. Probably the camera guy saw what I've seen and had a lot of shots at her face. So I noticed that she didn't smiled. She smiled but it wasn't hers. It was fake. For the crowd. But anyway. I couldn't care. It was her choice.

That night ended with sex, I won't give you details. I didn't sleep because of Mark and the sex we did but mainly because of her. This anniversary reminded of ours. So when I heard the alarm at 6.30 I was a little bit frustrated. I slept only 2 hours. When I get up Mark reached for me and begun to touch me under my shirt. I didn't wear anything under so it was kind of obvious that Mark wanted another round. I wasn't in the mood and besides I was late. I told him no although he tried to come with me in the shower.

I took my shower and left. Today wasn't an easy day. I had to see some potentials parents who wanted to adopt 2 of my children. I was waiting the time to go home and relax a little. When I came home I thought that Mark was at his house but his clothes were at my bed. So where is he?

"Mark? Are you home? Mark?" I hear his voice from the bathroom.

"Hey babe. I'm taking a shower. Wanna join?"

"Nah.. I can't even take my clothes off"

"I can take your clothes off."

"Mark.. really. Are you always thinking of sex?" I swear to God. If he had sex every single hour he wouldn't mind

"No. Only with you. I just love your body."

"You only want me because of my body?"

"No. I said I love your body. But I love you. I love how you move. I love your eyes. I love the way you think. I love everything about you."

"Ok then. You saved yourself."

"From whom?"

"From me of course"

"So are you gonna join me or what?"

"Nope. Finish. I will be waiting for you in the living room."

After 10 minutes he came and sat near me. He has a huge grin on his face. Like he knows something that I don't. I am curious..

"Mark? Is there something you want to tell me?"

"Actually yes. But I prefer to show you."

He is acting a little strange.

"What is it? You know I don't like surprises!"

"This is not a surprise. Well maybe it is. You will see"

He is getting up and goes to my bedroom. He returns with an envelope.

"Here. It's my surprise or my gift for our anniversary. You thought that the candles and the food was my gift? I don't think so."

"What is it inside? I'm afraid to look."

"Just open it."

Inside two tickets for San Francisco. He knows that's my favorite city. I wanted to go for so long. Actually I had plans to go with someone else. You know who. But we didn't make it. So I am going with Mark.

"San Francisco? Are you for real? And where are we gonna stay?"

"Don't worry. Everything is planned"

"But my work?"

"I already called them. They have no problem. So are you ok?"

"Of course. When are we leaving?"

"Today. So pack you things. We have to be at the airport in 4 hours."

I was so excited and then so sad. I packed my things. He had already packed his things and we left.

Ashley's POV

I'm sitting alone in my bedroom. I look outside the window. It's my favorite spot of this house. Better.. this mansion. Where only to people live inside and the people that are helping. Josh had left for his work very early. He won't come back till 22.00 o'clock. That's our routine. He gets up. He leaves. He comes back. We eat. I'm 26 and I feel old. Married for two years and I feel like it is 30. I didn't expect Josh to be that way. At the beginning he was fine. He had fun. But know all he thinks about is his wok. I don't really care to be sincere. I'm just alone. And I have nothing to do. How many times you can go for shopping? Not that much. I saw Josh more like a friend and a security blanket. So I was missing my friend and not my husband.

Last week it was our wedding anniversary. All day I was thinking of Spencer's and mine. Our three years together. I'm wondering what is she doing? Is she with that guy still? Is she happy without me? I don't want her miserable. I want her to be happy. But only with me. The last year I think of her more and more. I never stopped actually. I think that I should tell Josh about Spencer. I can't anymore. I could care less. I don't know if I can ever be with Spencer after I did to her but I can't lie anymore. My parents know that I still think of Spencer. I told them actually. My mother was ok this time. I don't know why. She told me that I could wait a little more.. I couldn't understand.. but I let it be. I hear keys and a door shut. It's already 22.00?

"Ashley? Ashley I'm home"

"Hey. I'm upstairs. I'm coming"

"Hey you. How are you? Did you do anything today?"

"Nah. I was sitting and thinking."

"Of what?"

"Nothing. Stupid stuff." I couldn't tell him right now. I needed time

"Well.. I'm starving. Can we go sit and eat please??"

"Of course. The dinner is ready"

We ate and then sat in the living room. He had a whisky and I had a martini. It was one of our routines. He turns his head and kisses me.

"Honey.. my partners told me that I had to go to San Francisco to seal a contract with a company. I had to leave tomorrow"

"San Francisco?" I made a sad smile and he noticed.

"yeah. I know it's your favorite city."

"yes it is." He doesn't know why it's my favorite city though.

"So what are you doing tomorrow?"

"Nothing. Probably I will be sitting here doing nothing."

"Nope. You won't do anything because you are coming with me"

"What? Are you for real? Really?" I was so so happy that I could go with him. I would be happier if I could go with her.

"Yes really. I thought you need to do something else instead of nothing."

"Perfect. What time are we flying?"

"We have to be at the airport at 6.00. Our flight it's on 7.30"

"I'm going to pack my things"

"Ok. Could you please help with mine later?"

"Of course lazy boy"

I can't believe it. I'm going to San Francisco. Maybe with the wrong person. But still I could feel that she is with me. San Francisco.. I'm coming!

Spencer's POV

We are here at last. I couldn't sleep in the plane. I was anxious. I had a strange feeling. I am here with Mark and all I can think about its Ashley. Why is it always like that? We are staying at HILTON. Mark thought of everything. He is the best boyfriend ever. But I only see him as the best boy friend ever. I do have sex with him. That doesn't mean that I always enjoy it. Most of the time I'm thinking of Ashley. I know that is not ok for Mark. I think that after our trip I'll tell him to break it up. I can't lie to him anymore. I can't lie to myself either. So for now I'll enjoy this trip.

Ashley's POV

We are here. As I breathe the air of San Francisco my mind travels four years before. When Spencer and I were making plans to visit San Francisco. If I can't be with her I can always think of her. Like she is near me or something. We are staying at HILTON. It's near the company Josh has to go for that contract thing. I don't understand those things and I don't care. I'm here. That's it's something that I do care. We go to our suite to leave our things. Mark is going to take a shower. I go down to pay for our room. Four nights and five days. That's how long we are staying.

Spencer's POV

I left Mark in our room. I wanted to go down to ask them about the air condition. It doesn't work and it's getting hot outside. I take the elevator and press 0.

Ashley's POV

I press the button that says lobby and going down. I go straight to the hotel manager to pay. For a moment I feel strange. Like something.. I don't know. I have shudders. I turn my back. And then I see her. Blond hair, blue ocean eyes. Gorgeous as ever. Looking at me.

Spencer POV

I can't believe that she stands before me. I must look like I saw a ghost. Well she is a ghost. The ghost of my past. And she is looking at me. And I am looking at her. She is gorgeous. As always. Her hairs are longer now and darker. She didn't change a lot. As I remember her.

Ashley POV

I have to touch her to see if she is real. My feet moving without notice. I'm moving. I'm looking. I want to touch her.

Spencer's POV

She is coming. She is coming and I can't stay still. I have to touch her. After three years she is here. Standing before me. She is touching my left arm. I didn't feel her touch for such a long time. It's warm. It's Ashley. Oh my God.

Ashley's POV

I'm touching her. She feels.. so warm. We haven't said a word to each other. Probably we both know that we need to understand what is happening. When I..

"Spencer?"

"Ashley"

"When?"

"How?


TBC

That's it for today. Next chapter. The talk. Spashley again. Yay…..

R&R

xx