Chapter 11
Tori POV
With the trial quickly approaching I wasn't sure how Jade would react to seeing her parents again. I was really nervous because I told Jade her parents were going to jail, but I don't really believe that my video will be enough to get them sent away. They could easily get it ruled out because I didn't have a right to record them or the trial would get turned around on me because I broke out their window (I've been watching to many court T.V. shows lately.)
I've been trying to keep her mind off of it lately. She kept worrying about it and I can see she's scared. I don't know what else to do anymore. Well after today I won't have a clue.
I picked up my case before I walked to Jade's room. She was laying on her side with her computer in front of her. She looked over the laptop and meet my eyes. "Hey."She didn't see my case. "Hey. I owe you something."
Jade frowned, obviously confused, "You owe me? Tori, after all you did for me I should owe you."
A giggle escaped me, "You don't owe me anything. But as I was saying when we first brought you here I promised to play for you." I showed her my guitar case.
She smiled, "That you did. So, should I get tissues for when I cry from laughing at you?"
I gave her a playful glare, "I'm not bad! I'm actually pretty good if I do say so myself."
"Getting cocky now are we?" Jade moved the laptop onto the bedside table and eyed me.
Ever since Beck came over and they broke up she has acted a little different. Sometimes I'll catch her giving me a weird look, as if she's trying to figure me out. Maybe she thinks I'm going to go after him now or something…
I sat at the end of her bed and opened my case. My acoustic guitar wasn't anything special. It was a dark brown and I loved it. My dad got it for me when I mentioned wanting to learn it. He got me into classes and I quickly loved playing guitar. Soon after that I walked in to find my parents had bought a piano. After my mom played it I begged her to teach me how to play it.
"Wow that's a nice guitar."
"Thanks."
"You gonna play me that song you've been writing?" She asked.
"Maybe. Ready?"
"Go for it, Vega."
"I've had this song stuck in my head for awhile." I told her. Chewing my lip nervously I started strumming.
After a moment I started to sing, "Falling stars don't crash through your window
If you want it go get it it's meant to be chased.
All your scars won't heal till you let go
Your perfectly worth it forget your mistakes
If you want to fly leave this world with me
We'll touch the sky let's defy this gravity
Hold on to me tight when it all falls down.
You can take my heart if yours won't beat
We're forever unstoppable.
If you're torn apart I'll make you see
That nothing's impossible
If you're broken and you're shattered
Love will save you from disaster.
You can take my heart if yours won't beat.
We're forever unstoppable."
I stopped playing after the first verse and looked at her. Jade stared at me for a moment until she finally said, "You're good."
Despite myself I felt my face heating up, "Really?"
"Yeah."
My confidence boosted (and my ego petted) I put my guitar away and held a hand to her. "C'mon."She was clearly confused, but took my hand and I helped her stand. I gave her her crutch and lead her down the hall.
"Where are we going?" She asked.
I stopped and gestured towards the stairs, "Down."
Jade looked at me, her eyebrow arched, but didn't argue as she hobbled down the stairs. I kept an eye on her just in case.
She started to go past the piano, but I grabbed her arm and sat her on the seat. I sat next to her and explained, "I'm going to play you my song."
"It's on the piano?"
I nodded, "Yeah. Don't laugh at it okay? It's not finished yet and you're the only one that will have heard a song I wrote."
"I won't laugh. I promise." Jade said sincerely.
I gave her a small smiled and placed my fingers on the keys. I played the starting notes before I sang, "See I cant wake up
I'm living a nightmare
That keeps playing over again
Locked in a room so hung up on you
And you're cool with just being friends
Left on the sidelines stuck at a red light
Waiting for my time and I can't see
Why don't you love me touch me
Tell me I'm your everything the air you breath
Why don't you love me baby
Open up your heart tonight cause I could be all that you need
Oh, why don't you love me."
When I finished I looked at her and found her staring at me. She had this look on her face that I couldn't describe.
"You really wrote that?" She asked.
I bit my lip and looked away shyly, confidence gone. "Y-yeah. I-It's not finished just yet but I thought you would like to hear it."
"It's really good Tori." She said.
"You think so?"
"Yes. Is it helping you any? Getting your feelings out I mean."
I nodded slightly, "A little."
She put her hand on my arm and squeezed lightly, "Well, whoever he is he's missing out."
"Why do you keep saying he?" Immediately I realized my mistake and bit my tongue before I let more information out.
Jade looked slightly shocked, "I just assumed, I mean you never said you were into girls."
"Ah."
"Tori, are you into girls?"
I froze and couldn't find words to even speak, to deny the truth. She might not be okay with girls dating girls or anything like that. Dammit Tori why couldn't you think instead of blurting out stupid crap!
"I won't think of you any differently Tor."
"I…Yes. The song is for a girl. I'm in love with a girl."
"Well then she's missing out." Jade wrapped her arm around my shoulder and I smiled softly, sadly.
"Or maybe I'm the one missing out."
Jade POV
A few days after Tori played her song for me I still couldn't get her news out of my head. Tori was into girls. She was in love with a girl. Maybe Beck was right and Tori is in love with me.
Since Beck told me Tori was into me I've been thinking. I keep finding myself wondering if it's such a bad thing for her to want me. She's hot, sexy, nice and I don't have to mention she's going to have a wonderful future doing whatever job she wants. She'll easily make it as an actress or a singer.
I've thought some girls were hot before and there was that one time that Cat and I had that experimentation, though I had always thought it was just a phase. But now when I look at Tori I see a beautiful girl. When she's sad I just want to hold her and do whatever it takes to make her smile again.
I think I might like her and I mean really like her. Yesterday I pretended to trip just so she would grab me and hold me up. I'm not sure though, for all I know it could just be because Beck said she wanted me and how much time we've spent together. Or that she saved me from my parents. I don't know.
I can't even try to figure out how I feel about her because I have to go to court soon against my parents. When I think about my feelings for Tori I think it might be because she saved me from them and then I think of them and the trial. When I think about that I get nervous and worried. What if they don't get sent away and I get stuck sent back home with them? I don't even know what they would do to me if that happens.
I know they would really hurt me and I might not leave my house again. What really scares me is what they'll do to Tori. I know they won't allow her to do this to them without some kind of revenge. I had a nightmare about what they would do to her and when I woke up I was sweating and shaking and Tori was sitting beside me, trying to wake me up.
I can't focus on my feelings for Tori without my parents popping up and when I get scared over them I worry about Tori. I want to attempt something with Tori, but then again if I'm wrong about how I feel it'll hurt her. If I'm right and I do like her she might betray my trust or my parents might find a way to take her away from me.
God, why can't this be easy.
