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Chapter 11 Keeping a clear mind?
Sirius P.O.V
"I have to get back," She said pushing my hands down and stepping away.
"Back? You can't go back, you haven't given me an answer yet!" I countered as I followed her. Selene bent down and grabbed her robe from the floor.
"I've been gone for too long and I need time to think."
"Ha!" I blurted." Time to think… about what Darling? You heard the truth."
"I heard your version of the truth," she simply stated as she slid her arms into the sleeves," besides you told me I could decide for myself what I wanted to believe."
"You still need time to think after this?" I huffed," It's the truth! I loved them and you know it! I would never lie about this and I have never lied to you." She glared angrily at my finger which I had pointed at her. She crossed her arms and leaned on one leg," Pardon? You never lied to me? Sirius…you never told me anything! I was left out of everything. The Potters came first, they always came first."
I flung my hands into the air. Women, I can't reason with them. You say one thing they hear another. It's easy to understand. Lying is lying, not telling anything is not lying. Do I have to explain myself about that?
"I never lied to you." I told her again.
Selene sighed," that's not the point…"
She didn't continue, she simply looked at me with that typical look on her face that you-don't-get-it-and-you-probably-never-will look.
"Selene, I'm telling the truth!" I was practically pleading which was something I never did," Peter betrayed the Potters and he set me up for those murders. He's been a pet rat for years and now he is currently in Hogwarts. To make things worse he is always near Harry, ALWAYS!"
Her stern look softened and she uncrossed her arms," Alright Sirius, let's say I believe you. What do you want me to do?"
"I need your help with getting Peter away from his owner. Somewhere far and secluded, perhaps lure him here into the Shrieking Shack."
"And then you're gonna kill him…" She added.
"Exactly!" I said with a wide grin," dirty little rat doesn't deserve to live after all that he has done."
"That's perfect, isn't it? You're going to get your revenge by killing one of your former friends. The vendetta you have with him is over and you can go back to Azkaban prison."
"Back to Azkaban, what are you talking about? Justice will be served and,-"
"And you will be a killer, making you the same as him. No matter the reason it will still be murder Sirius!" Selene looked up at me," do you really want to go back to Azkaban? You could have a normal life, if we can capture Peter and hand him over to the Ministry and you will become a free man again."
A normal life, I can't even remember what my life was like before Azkaban. I remember being worried a lot. I remember trying to see Selene when she was still in Hogwarts. She was so young back then, still learning while being safe within the walls of Hogwarts. The rest of my memory is filled with the dark walls of Azkaban, the stench of the other inmates and the sound of their whaling and howling throughout the day and night. Not to mention the Dementors lurking at you from the dark corners. I can never get those years back…
"So you believe me, you will help me get Peter?"
"Have you been listening to me?" she placed her hands on her hips.
"Darling there is only one thing I want from you and that is your help." I pressed my lips together in a tight line and waited for her to answer.
"You're unbelievable." She turned on her heel and headed towards the secret passage. For goodness sake! I managed to jump in front of her before she headed into the tunnel.
"Look, I don't know what's got your knickers in a twist because compared to me you have nothing to worry about, but I'm sorry alright? Don't help me then. Just tell me you believe me Sel…that's all I'm asking" I honestly couldn't believe that after all these years I still valued her opinion. All those years I was locked behind bars and not once did she visit. Not even a letter or a message. Perhaps it was for the best.
She looked away from me when she gave me her answer," I believe you…"
Selene P.O.V.
"They'll wonder where I am by now." I spoke softly as we walked through the passage to the Whomping Willow.
"You'll think of something." Sirius replied.
I halted and watched Sirius continue his pace until he turned noticing I had stopped," I can't lie to Remus…"
Sirius sighed and walked back to me. He grabbed both my hands with his and brought them up to his chest," You have to, Love." I pulled my hands back.
"He doesn't deserve anymore lies. Let me talk to him, he'll believe me."
"Pah!" Sirius exclaimed," He'll think you mad or blinded by love."
"Blinded by love, you're ever so full of yourself." I spat and continued my tread through the tunnel. We reached the end of the tunnel and before I went through the opening I turned to Sirius. A heavy weight came down on my heart. Though I believed every single one of his words I couldn't find it within me to forgive him for the secrets he had kept from me. How selfish it may be, it also bothered me a great deal that after twelve years of being apart and now finally reunited he had not once asked me how I was or how I have been all these years. Fair enough I tried to hex the living daylights out of him. But putting that aside, even now everything still revolved around James and his family.
"Don't do anything stupid and stay away from those Dementors." I said to him. He opened his mouth to reply but I cut him off," or enter Hogwarts again."
Sirius gave a crooked grin," were you always this bossy?" He then turned serious," I've been in the shadows for far too long besides I can take perfectly good care of myself, you can't hold me back Darling."
I gazed into his grey eyes and caught a small glimpse of the old Sirius, though very faint, I believed for that moment there was still a little piece left of the man I had once loved madly. Gryffindor bravery.
"You stuck up, half-witted, reckless,-" I stopped mid sentence as Sirius' face was only an inch away from mine.
"Reckless and?" He whispered against the corner of my mouth.
"I-In-Incredi,-" I gulped nervously.
"Incredibly handsome?" He smirked leaning in so close that his lips brushed against my lips.
"Stupid…" I managed to say before leaning in and capturing his lips with mine. Sirius tensed, obviously shocked by me for answering his action of boldness. Yet he consented and growled as he pulled me closer against his body. A moan escaped my lips as nibbled on my lower lip which resulted in my mouth opening and his tongue slipped inside kissing me deeper. My heart pounded fast and a tingling feeling erupted in my lower stomach. God how I have missed this horrible man!
I pulled back and gasped for air," I hate it when you do that." I breathed heavily.
Sirius chuckled," as if it was all my doing, my Love. Now you better get back before the search party comes out to look for you." I nodded and went through the opening beneath the Whomping Willow. I grabbed my wand quickly and said," Immobulus," Which would keep the tree in its place as I made my escape from it.
"When will I see you again?" I asked before I could stop myself. Sirius shushed me by planting another kiss on my lips," I'll contact you in some way, now go." With that he turned around and went back into the tunnel.
The rain had stopped. I sighed deeply and walked away from the passageway when I felt something under the sole of my shoe. I stepped aside and looked at the ground. Pieces of fine wood were scattered everywhere, small pieces, big chunks and pieces of straw? I bent down and picked up a big piece of the smooth wood. There were numbers engraved on it, 2000. Odd… I turned the object around and narrowed my eyes to read another set of engravings. ry Potter.
Ry Potter? Harry Potter. This was Harry's broom! He must have lost it when he fell from the sky and I guess the strong wind took it under its wing and brought it all the way over here. I glanced up at the Whomping Willow. Poor Harry, the tree probably didn't like being hit in the trunk by another piece of magical wood.
I placed the piece of broken broomstick into my pocket and headed back towards the castle.
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Professor McGonagall came running towards me as soon as I had walked into the entrance hall," Miss Merrythought, where have you been? Dumbledore was about to send a search party out to look for you." She said to me looking very worried herself," are you alright? You have a cut on your lip."
I frowned and touched my bottom lip gently with my fingers feeling there was only a small cut. I licked my lip a bit of an iron taste caressed my tongue, blood?
"I'm fine Minerva, I was resting in the woods near the Quidditch field and as soon as the rain had stopped I went looking for Harry's broomstick. I noticed the wind had carried it away and decided to look for it because I know how much he loves…flying." That last comment was a simple guess, I thought about how James loved to fly and he was very skilled with a broom, unfortunately he knew this too and kept bragging about it whenever he had the chance. Stupid git…
"That's very considerate of you, though Filius himself found a few pieces of Mr Potter's broom near the Whomping Willow."
I stuck my hand into my pocket and took out the piece I had found at the tree," I must have missed him then. I found this piece at the roots of the Whomping Willow."
Minerva took the object from me and examined it," is that how you got that cut?"
"Probably, I was pretty tired from the Dementor encounter. There were a lot of them even I had trouble keeping them from away Harry and myself."
"Albus managed to save the young boy before he hit the ground. The poor lad was completely soaked from the rain and cold as ice. Not to mention unconscious. Mr Potter is resting now in the Hospital Wing."
"He is alright isn't he?" I asked her and she nodded.
"Not to worry, knowing Mr Potter he will be up and about in no time. There is no stopping his energy." She said this with a hint of annoyance yet also a bit of admiration.
"He's much like his father…" I said softly, more directed to me then Minerva.
"I think t would be best if you head to the Hospital Wing as well, you have been out in the rain all that time plus the Dementors, I think it's best if you let Poppy check on you." Minerva looked at me sternly, not taking no for an answer. She handed me the piece of wood back and motioned for me to ascend the staircase.
I entered the infirmary and talked with Poppy for a while before heading over to Harry. I sat down on the chair beside him. He had is eyes closed.
"Harry?" I tried, checking if he was asleep or simply resting his eyes. It was the latter for the young wizard opened his left eye to look at me. He sat up straight and placed his glasses on.
"How are you feeling, Harry?"
He sighed before answering," lousy. My broom got destroyed and I fainted in front of the entire school. As if first the train and then the Defence against the Dark Arts lesson wasn't enough of an embarrassment."
Okay, I was expecting a simple yes or no, not spilling his guts," well, there were a lot of them. I had trouble keeping them away from you up there."
Harry blinked his eyes," Wait a moment that was you up there? You screamed my name when I fell?"
I nodded.
"I thought it was my mom's voice…" he muttered under his breath, he looked up at me," that blue creature that I saw, was that yours?"
"Yes, that was my Patronus."
"A Patronus is something that protects you from Dementors, right?"
"In a way, yes," I gave him a smile.
"Can you teach me, Miss Merrythought?" he asked eagerly," can you teach me that spell?"
"Uh, I think that is something you should ask Professor Lupin that question. He's an expert." I quickly told him. Not that I didn't want to teach Harry how to cast a Patronus…I just…well…I don't know. I'm not a teacher.
I patted Harry on the back and stood up," you get your rest now, encountering that many Dementors is not something to take lightly."
Harry groaned and lay back against his pillow," you sound like Professor Lupin and Madame Pomfrey."
"I'll see you around Harry. Just don't make a habit out of this."
The young Potter rolled his eyes and I walked away.
"Miss Merrythought?!" he yelled and I halted," Thanks for…you know, saving my neck from those creatures."
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