******Okay so it came to my attention that the previous chapter 11 i posted had some mistakes and realized i posted the unedited version! Well this is the edited version, sorry about the mistake.***
DISCLAIMER!! All characters belong to J.K Rowling!
Anger and hurt two emotions that were continuously playing in her heart and mind. After reading the note that Remus had left her, Tonks had felt worst then before. But then she had come up with a plan. Tonks knew that Remus was always careful because of his condition but she needed to convince him that it didn't matter to her. She also knew he probably thought what had happen had been last night was because of the whiskey but she knew better.
Tonks quickly went to the bathroom for a shower. She then changed to a pair of jeans and a Weird Sisters t-shirt . She was just out the door when she caught sight of herself in a mirror.
She looked tired and her normally pink hair was in a shade of brown. Tonks closed her eyes and thought pink, but it didn't work. She tired again and though it took longer than usual the normal, she managed to change the brown to a pale pink.
" I have no time for this," Tonks muttered and hurried out.
She knew that Remus would be meeting Dumbledore at Hogwarts because everyone from the Order had gotten the message and as she entered Hogwarts she caught sight of some of the rest of the Order.
"Wotcher Kingsley," Tonks out of breath managed to say as she stopped in front of him.
" Alright Tonks?" He asked noticing that her hair wasn't its usual bright colorful way. He also noticed that she had bags under her eyes and was a bit pale.
"I'm alright, just wondering if you had happened to have seen Remus and the others," She tried to sound casual though it was hard when she tried not to wince at his name.
"He hasn't arrived yet," Kingsley replied. "But he might be arriving a bit late; he had to do something for Dumbledore first."
" Oh," Tonks replied disappointed. She went in with Kingsley into Dumbledore's office. All of the members were already in there, seating around waiting for Dumbledore to begin his speech. Tonks found a chair next to Mad Eye and as she was about to sit down Remus entered the room. She must have been not paying attention because she missed the chair and landed on the ground. As Tonks got up, Mad Eye muttering something about clumsiness, Tonks turned bright pink that would have matched her hair if had been its usual pink instead of a brownish pale pink color.
Remus avoid her gaze and went up to Dumbledore, he murmured something in his ear then went to join the others. Tonks couldn't help but notice that he chose the seat farthest from her. She tried not to take offense but it brought her down.
Then the meeting began. Dumbledore started his speech on now the Dark Lord had been spotted by the ministry things were going to change drastically. He then proceeded on giving everyone duties on which to keep an eye on the wizards that were suspected to be Death Eaters, even those in the Ministry. After the meeting ended, Tonks hurried after Remus who had left the room quickly. She managed to catch up to him as he turned a corner headed to Hagrids cabin.
" Remus!" She called and managed to stop him by grabbing the back of his cloak. She walked around him so that she could see his face. He had a pained look in his face and as Tonks grabbed his arm he jerked it away.
" Um, you said we needed to talk," She said quietly trying to ignore his earlier reaction. It hurt her to think that he would act this way after what had happened between them.
" Yes, about last night," He began but she interrupted him.
" I don't regret it. I told you before Remus, I like you and I think I might-" But Remus interrupted her.
"It was a mistake."
" –love you."
There was an awkward silence. A strange emotion passed through Remus face but Tonks couldn't understand it. Tonks said slowly, " But you said you liked me last night."
" I do, but what happened last night was because we drank too much and it was a mistake," He told her.
It wasn't because we were drunk! I love you Remus and I want to be with you," Tonks told him, pleading with her eyes trying to make him understand. " I love you and I don't care that you're a werewolf."
" You should! I don't want to hurt you," Remus said angrily. He couldn't understand why she couldn't see the reason behind his decision. He cared too much about her to let anything happen to her. If it meant staying away from her then so be it.
" You won't."
" I can't, Tonks. I can't love you, I won't." Something caught his eye behind her. "I got to go." And he left leaving her standing there.
Tonks turned around to find Dumbledore standing on the step staring across the lake.
Had he heard?
Tonks needed advise, she didn't know what to do. She loved Remus but he wouldn't acknowledge her. So on the coming Sunday, Tonks went out with couple of her old school mates. They met at a wizard bar in London. She had worn her tank top with her favorite Quidditch team and a pair of black skinny jeans. Her hair had taken a couple of hours to get the color right, she was having trouble with her powers and had only managed to lengthen it and turn it a deep shade of purple. Her usual happy bubblegum pink would not appear no matter how hard she tired.
As Tonks entered the crowded bar, she looked for her friends. It was hard since there were a lot of people today after work. A live band was playing in the corner and she caught the eye of a cute guy in a Mohawk but she ignored his suggestive gaze. The only guy she wanted didn't want her back. She caught sight of her three friends in a booth and slide beside them.
"Alright mates?" Tonks asked as she grabbed a menu.
"Alright. What about you Tonks, you looking a bit under the weather," Audrey, one of Tonks friends asked. She was a tall willowy woman with blonde curly hair that shaped her long face.
" Of course she's under the weather! All that's happening would make my hair go bad too," Edythe, another friend replied before Tonks had a chance. Edythe had straight black hair with blue streaks; she was short and a bit plump. She had been in the same House as Tonks in Hogwarts.
" I know!" her other friend Zara exclaimed. She was actually one of Arthur's nieces from his brother's family. "It's love!" She always had a habit of knowing things.
" What do you mean?" Tonks asked uncomfortably. She wanted to approach the topic in a different way.
" Hon, I have dated thousands and I mean thousand of men and I know love when I see it!" Zara said pointing her finger at Tonks.
" Tell us!" Edythe begged practically jumping off the seat.
" Alright," Tonks said laughing. " I, um, like someone. And we actually work together, that's how we met, and um, well I confessed." She rushed everything out. She was finally glad to get that off her chest.
" Who is he?" Asked Audrey, mentally going through a list of guys she knew.
" What happened?" Zara asked at the same time.
" He rejected me." Tonks mumbled. Just admitting it made her feel more down.
" WHAT?!" Edythe proclaimed a little too loudly, a few people turned to look.
" Bloody hell Edythe don't yell like that," Audrey glared at her. They she turned to Tonks. "Why did he turn you down?"
" He said it was because we shouldn't be together," Tonks told them.
" Just like Romeo and Juliet ," Edythe giggled.
" No because he actually doesn't love me or so he claims. He thinks he's too dangerous and poor and old-" Tonks angrily said. Her hair turning odd shades of color.
"Wait. How old is this guy?" Audrey asked.
Tonks paused. " A few years older."
" How much?" Zara demanded.
" Um I think 37?" Tonks guessed.
" Way too old for you honey," Audrey said.
"No he isn't, " Tonks replied a bit crossed. They were suppose to be making her feel better not argue with her.
" Yes he is, almost ten years older. And he is probably married any didn't tell you because he just wanted to get into your panties," Zara argued back.
" He isn't married-" but Tonks was cut short.
" You don't know that."
" He probably is just using you."
" And you said he was poor-"
" I don't care about that-"But Tonks couldn't finish because her friends continued.
" And how is he suppose to support you." Audrey argued again.
" I bet there is something wrong with him."
" Yeah, I mean he isn't married."
" Oh we should call, what's his name, that guy, Ackley! You dated for a few months in Hogwarts, bet he loved to get back together." Edythe said already planning a date.
" Or what's his name, John?"
" No he's married already, two kids," Zara told Audrey.
Tonks stood up, she couldn't take this. They didn't understand. She grabbed her purse and walked out leaving her friends behind. As she left Edythe asked the others, " Did we say something wrong?"
Tonks walked through the crowd, upset and angry. Her best friends and they couldn't support her in times like these. As Tonks passed the guy with Mohawk he grabbed her arm, trying to make her dance to the music.
" Come on baby," He cooed at her. When once the voice would have turned her heart, now it just bothered her.
" Bugger off," Tonks replied and pushed him away. When the guy tried to reach her she grabbed her wand and pointed between his legs. "I said bugger off! Or I'll hex your mini to the moon and back."
And with that Tonks left so upset that she ran into Charlie Weasley.
Tonks crashed into someone as she went outside, and found herself looking into the grinning face of her old friend Charlie.
" If it isn't Tonks," Charlie said grabbing her hand and pulling her up. He noticed that her eyes were filled with tears and asked, "Alright?"
"I'm fine. Just a tad under the weather." Tonks replied. She didn't look at his face but stared at the ground.
" Mate, your obviously upset, so let me take you home." Tonks was too tired so she just nodded. When they arrived at her flat, they opened a bottle of Whiskey and drank up. After a while Tonks then explained why she was upset.
"My friends don't understand. They want me to hook up with Ackley again." Tonks snorted at the name. Ackley had been her longest boyfriend and like the others it had ended with heartbreak. He had broken up with her when she had told him that she didn't want to sleep with him again. Then there had been John, who had been so painfully shy that he would blush red when she even looked him in the eye. That hadn't lasted long. He broke up with her saying that he just found her personality too strong.
Was that the problem? Was something wrong with her?
" Well I remember I kicked that guys ass after a match the next day after he broke up with you," Charlie said. He had a bottle in his hand and he tried to put it on the coffee table but he was so drunk that he knocked it over.
" Ha-ha," Tonks laughed, she looked at the clock that was on the side of the wall. " I think I should go to bed now."
" I can't go home to mum like this, she'll have a heart attack," Charlie said as he laid on the sofa. " Can I stay here for the night, Tonks?"
" Sure, but stay out of my bedroom," Tonks stumbled to her room, as she laid in bed she could hear Charlie's loud snores from the living room.
Tonks woke up with a bad hangover, she walked to the kitchen to get a cup of strong coffee before work. She nearly dropped the cup when she saw Charlie in there. He was in his clothes from before and was trying to cookie some eggs on the stove. But apparently he was having trouble with turning on the stove. He kept swearing at it as he gave her stove a good kick.
" I bloody forgot you were staying here," Tonks replied wishing she had a robe. She was only wearing a big t-shirt that went barely to her knees. The t-shirt had belonged to Remus, he had let her borrow it one time when she had spilled coffee all over herself before a Order meeting. He had given her the shirt to wear since the meeting had barely began. She forgotten to return the shirt and it had lain on her dresser for all theses months. But she had worn last night in self pity.
Charlie glanced her way and notice her what she was wearing and raised an eyebrow, " Well I was hungry and can't bloody turn this thing on. I can't understand how this works." He had the egg already cracked on the pan but it wasn't even cooking he had turned the oven on instead of the stove. Tonks grabbed her wand and pointed to the eggs.
"It would be easy with magic," She told him. She waved her wand muttering a spell her mother taught her. But the egg expanded and blew up landing all over Charlie's shirt and pants.
" Yuck!" Charlie yelled. He took off his shirt and then his pants which a big pile had landed between his legs making it look like he had an accident. Tonks had to admit that Charlie was physically in good shape. He had old scars on his arms and chest, but his muscles were clearly defined. Yet she couldn't find him attractive as she did before. Before Remus, darn that man.
" Come on Charlie don't take your clothes off in front of me," Tonks complained laughing. He was wearing dragon boxers which were enchanted to make the dragons blow out fire. " Please tell me that you don't wear those on dates."
" That isn't funny." Charlie said he threw his clothes in a corner and glared at her. " If you had let me cast the spell then-" but he was interrupted by the door bell ringing. " I'll go get it."
" Wait you can't answer like that!" Tonks said hurrying after him, careful avoiding the mess on the floor. " Your practically naked."
" Whose fault is that," He called back at her as he opened the door. " Hello Remus."
And Tonks heart stopped.
