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"Well Stefan informed me that you decided to return to Chicago and I thought you needed some company", Damon stood up and moved closer to her.
Bonnie glared at him, "Not yours", she dropped her bag, "now where is Jacques?"
Damon smirked, "Well you know, Jacques had to go…gave him some of my blood and he just took off".
Bonnie growled, "I will just find someone else", she turned to open the door, but Damon rushed over closing the door.
"Damon, I can and I will hurt you", Bonnie stated facing the door.
"You turned it off, didn't you?" Damon asked.
Bonnie rolled her eyes turning to face him, "Maybe…so what".
Damon sighed, "Bonnie…"
She looked up at him, "If you came to apologize again, I don't care about your apologies", Bonnie spat at him, "so you can keep your apology".
"Bonnie, I want you to know that I never wanted to leave you there. I didn't want to leave you like that. I know that the night you turned…"
"How's Elena?" Bonnie interrupted him, "was she all that you dreamed she would be?" she remarked sarcastically.
"Bonnie…"
"I mean, that is what you wanted, right? Elena awake…walking around…tell me, how did the reunion go?" Bonnie walked around him, "was it just like you imagined?"
"I want to talk about you?"
"Ooooh…", Bonnie chuckled, "you want to talk about me? Well I'm an abomination against nature and I act accordingly, that's how I am".
"Bonnie, you are not an abomination".
"Oh but I am…but let's not talk about me, so how did your reunion go with Elena? Did you take her in your arms and tell her how much you missed her? Did you kiss her…", Bonnie stopped moving in front of him and touched his cheek, "did you make love to her or did you tell her that you ruined lives to break the curse?" She hissed as she raked her nails across his face, scratching his cheek drawing blood.
He grimaced as he grabbed his cheek and within seconds, both of his hands were on Bonnie's arms forcing her to look at him, "Bonnie, I never wanted any of this to happen".
"Uh, huh sure…you never want anything to happen", Bonnie scoffed as she wiggled out of his grasp.
"I mean that, do you not get how I feel about you…"
"How you feel about me? Let's see, I was your best friend and you love having me in your life so that we can banter, we can pull each other asses out of the fire and you can tell me all about the drama that you and Elena are going through. Guess what? That is not my role anymore and it never will be again".
"Bonnie…"
"The night I transitioned was the worst night of my entire life and where was my best friend? Why…he was with his girl".
"Bonnie, you were so angry at me that night. You told me to stay away and I did. I thought it would help that I wasn't there", Damon argued.
"I bet it didn't take much convincing, Damon", Bonnie rolled her eyes.
"Bonnie, I know that I messed up. I know that I have damaged our relationship, but I just want to fix it. I want to help you get through this".
"You don't have to get me through anything Damon, everything is fine now", Bonnie smiled devilishly.
"You turned off your humanity, everything is definitely not fine".
"What did my humanity get me Damon? Turned into a vampire…cursed…dying twice…no…I don't think I need humanity anymore", she replied as if humanity was a disgusting, filthy word.
"I left Elena, I came here to be with you and help you".
"I don't need your help and I am sure Elena will breathlessly wait for your return".
"Bonnie…I…", Damon opened his mouth but couldn't get the rest of the words out for some reason.
"What…you what…you're sorry? I know you are, I just don't care", she replied.
"Ok…but I'm not leaving".
"If you don't leave, I will set this town on fire, was the Great Chicago Fire before your time? Because what I would do would be much, much, much worse. "
"I'm not leaving because you need me".
"I don't need you, I had my own personal blood bank and you let him get away—I can find another one all by myself", she gloated.
Damon blinked, he realized that he needed to try a different tactic with Bonnie, "Nooo, I think Mr. Jacques had a crush on you and that was pretty easy…I can teach you how to hunt and make sure that you don't decide to feed on someone you shouldn't", Damon leaned down to look directly into Bonnie's eyes.
"And why would you do that? Isn't that the exact opposite of what you should do?" she challenged him.
"You must have me confused with Stefan, I think the best blood is from the direct source", Damon smirked.
Bonnie returned his smirk and raised an eyebrow, "Elena would never approve of this".
"I'm here with you", Damon answered.
She nodded, "Ok…we'll see, let me change".
Damon gestured for her to leave the living room. She brushed past him picking up her bag and heading towards her bedroom, closing the door behind her. Damon grimaced as soon as he heard her close the door. This wasn't his original plan, but this would be the plan until he could get her to turn her humanity switch back on.
He was ready to tell her how he felt about her, but he knew that if he told her now—she would never believe him. She would undoubtedly believe that he was telling her that so that she would feel something and flip her switch back on. It would backfire and she would lash out even more. He needed to play this in a way to cause the least amount of damage possible.
When he walked in and saw that guy who was an artist from Bonnie's art gallery sitting on the couch bleeding staring blankly at the television, he knew that the situation had definitely changed. He had to protect Bonnie because at some point, she would flip her switch back on and she would have to live with every choice and every action she performed while her humanity was off—and he knew Bonnie Bennett, she would never forgive herself if she went too far. He would look out for her and at the right moment, he would force her to turn the switch back on—it was just at the moment, he had no idea how.
"I'm ready", Bonnie broke through his thoughts.
He turned around and she was standing in back of him in a black crop top with tight black pants on. Her make up was heavy and the heels she had looked like she could kill someone with them, "Wow…", he breathed.
"I'm hungry, let's go…I know a place that we can go to", she replied picking up her purse and heading towards the door.
He grabbed her arm, "You will listen to me and take my advice…"
"If I choose to".
Damon held tighter onto her arm, "I know how to do this Bonnie, listen to me".
"IF I CHOOSE TO", she stated removing his hand from her arm and then opened the door.
Damon stood staring at Bonnie. He felt as if he was falling down a rabbit hole. Never in his wildest dreams did he think that he would be here with Bonnie in this moment, but he needed to do this for her.
"Coming?" she asked turning to him.
"Of course", he answered her following behind her.
SSSSSSS
Elena stood in the doorway of the kitchen as she watched Stefan emerge from the woods. She had spent the day with Caroline avoiding speaking about the obvious. The truth was, she was confused and she had no idea how to deal with everything. Ever since Damon left earlier that day to find Bonnie, she felt like there was something that she was missing.
"Hey", Stefan smiled walking up to her, "you ok?" he asked concerned rubbing her arm as they entered the house.
She thought for a few moments as she sat down on a stool in the kitchen while Stefan removed a blood bag from the refrigerator, "Things are not the same are they?" she asked biting her lip, "for a few hours, I thought they were the same—but they're not".
"It has been five years, me and Caroline are definitely closer and Matt's getting married and…"
"And Damon and Bonnie are closer than best friends", Elena finished.
Stefan frowned, "I'm not the person who can answer that, only Damon and Bonnie can answer that".
Elena shook her head as tears appeared in her eyes, "Stefan, I woke up from a 5 year coma and Damon spent one day with me and left to find Bonnie, that says a lot".
"Bonnie's going through a rough time".
"This was not just about saving Bonnie, Stefan. This was about something more. He feels more for her and it may be more than what he feels for me. Things have changed…this is not the same Mystic Falls to me", Elena replied quietly.
Stefan nodded sympathetically as he walked over to Elena and hugged her, "No…it may not be", he sighed.
SSSSSSSS
Damon sat down on a stool at the bar as he watched Bonnie sitting on one of the couches. He wasn't exactly sure how Bonnie knew about this place and he wasn't sure he wanted to know. She was sitting next to a guy who appeared to think that the key to getting into Bonnie's pants was to get her drunk. Damon had already named him 'Bachelor 1'. He watched Bachelor 1's hands trail up Bonnie's leg as she whispered in the his ear. There was a part of Damon that wanted to rush over and rip the guy's arm away from his body, but he had to play this exactly right.
He had to admit for Bonnie being a new vampire, she handled her role as a new vampire with skill. He watched as Bonnie pulled the guy up and made eye contact with Damon. He downed his bourbon and stood up following the path that Bonnie took with the guy.
He passed a couple of 'couples' making out on his way to the room where Bonnie disappeared with 'Bachelor 1'. When he reached the room, he opened the door to find Bonnie straddling Bachelor 1 and drinking from him. He was a little taken back from the sight as she looked over her shoulder with blood dripping from her fangs, "What took you soo long?" she asked.
Damon took in the sight of Bonnie with the black veins around her eyes and the fangs and he lost his voice. It was beautiful, sexy and a little unnerving all at once. While this Bonnie was breathtaking, there was a part of him that felt sad that this is who she was now.
"You drank too much", Damon replied as he examined Bachelor 1 methodically.
"I barely tasted his blood".
Damon looked over at her, "He's unconscious".
She shrugged her shoulders, "I was hungry".
Damon looked around, "I'm almost afraid to ask, but how exactly do you know about this place?"
Bonnie rolled her eyes, "The Lotus Lounge is where a lot of the more…adventurous citizens of Chicago go to have fun".
Damon shuddered at the thought that went through his head.
"Relax", Bonnie deadpanned, "me and Chase never came here".
"Good to know", Damon mumbled.
"What is going on here!" a voice shrieked from the door behind Damon and Bonnie.
They turned around to see a woman entering the room. She looked over at Bachelor 1 and then at Bonnie, "What are you doing in here with my boyfriend!"
Damon looked over at Bonnie as she smirked, "Really?" she scoffed.
The woman walked over and lifted her hand to smack Bonnie in the face, but she caught the woman's arm in mid-air. Bonnie grabbed pulled her closer, "Go jump in front of a car", Bonnie stated staring directly into her eyes before brushing past her and leaving the room.
"Bonnie!" Damon called out as the woman started walking towards the door.
Damon rushed in front of the woman, "Just go home, stay away from cars", he compelled her.
The woman nodded and walked out of the room.
Damon looked over at Bachelor 1 and ran his hands through hair, "I'm going to need a much bigger boat", he mumbled biting into his wrist.
When Damon walked outside of the club he looked around to see where Bonnie disappeared to, "Did you see where a short, brown-skinned girl with green eyes went?" he asked the bouncer.
"I think she disappeared down the street", the bouncer replied.
"Great…just great!" Damon yelled in frustration as his cell phone pinged. He looked down and it was a text from Bonnie, "see you at the condo, don't worry-I'll be good".
He gripped his phone and let out a few choice curse words as he began to walk down the street. As he tried to figure out where Bonnie could have disappeared to, his cell phone began to ring and he saw Stefan's name fill the scream.
"Now is not the time", he growled into the phone.
"What's going on?"
"Oh, well Bonnie has flipped her humanity switch and she's like the Anti-Bonnie, in case you were wondering. So I am playing her chaperone and she gave me the slip, after she almost killed a guy in a swingers club…"
"Why were you in a swingers club with Bonnie?" Stefan asked.
"Look, that's not the point…she almost killed a guy and his girlfriend and then she disappeared, so I have to find her".
"So you haven't made any leeway with her, have you?"
"Did you not hear me say, she flipped the switch Stefan. She's a heretic, she could set this town on fire if someone pisses her off. I am trying to be her friend…"
"Don't flip your switch Damon…", Stefan warned.
"Stefan, in case you forgot—I'm not you, I'm not good…I don't need to flip my switch to do horrible things", Damon said as he walked down the street, "how's Elena?"
"Well she's confused Damon. She doesn't understand that when she wakes up why you its as if your feelings have changed".
Damon stopped walking and closed his eyes, "I will be back as soon as I can help Bonnie and I can get her to turn her switch back on".
"Are you going to be able to do that? Are you sure, you're the one who can do that?"
"I'm the only person who can do it", Damon said, "now, I have to go…I will call Elena later".
"Damon, don't mess this up", Stefan warned him.
"Thanks", Damon ended the call, as he stopped when he noticed Bonnie talking to a guy next to a convertible.
"Bonnie, I've been looking all over for you!" Damon grinned locking his arm with hers.
"Hey, who are you?" the guy asked.
"I suggest you get in your car and drive away", Damon ordered.
The guy turned without another word and got in his car.
"Really Damon?" Bonnie scoffed, "I think you're here to keep me in check as opposed to teaching me anything. Know this Damon, I don't need you. I can get anything I want without you".
"Yes, you can…but there's a part of you that wants me here with you. Trust me, I know from experience being bad is no fun when you're all alone", he smirked at her.
"Fine…", Bonnie folded her arms, "let's have some fun".
"My way".
"Ok".
SSSSSSSSS
A week passed by and Damon was finding himself flying by the seat of his pants. He had no idea how to turn Bonnie's humanity back on and she gave no indication that she was interested in turning it back on. Stefan had been calling him non-stop and Caroline sent him threatening text messages daily. The only one he hadn't heard from was Elena. He didn't know what to say to her or what to do where Elena was concerned. He had taught Bonnie about his lying in the street trick and she had become a pro at it. The viciousness that she attacked some of her victims scared him. It was as if she took pleasure in almost bringing them to the brink of death and then stopping. He went behind her trying to heal them without her knowing, but there were a few times that he was too late –but he would never tell Bonnie that. He would take that secret to his grave.
"Matt's wedding is in three days Damon, Bonnie still has her switch off?" Stefan asked as Damon got ready for the gallery party.
"Tonight's a party at her gallery, I have a plan…she will flip the switch", Damon stated as he held his phone with his shoulder.
"Elena's called her. She hasn't answered the phone for her".
Damon sighed, "I know".
"I have no idea how you're going to fix this Brother, but I'm sure you will figure it out".
"I have no other choice", Damon answered as he watched Bonnie walk out from her bedroom in her party dress, "I have to go…", he ended the call with Stefan.
"Stefan thinks you can get me to turn my humanity back on, you really haven't told him the truth, have you?"
"Bonnie, you know I have to keep Stefan in the dark. If he knew what we were doing here, he would come to Chicago and ruin all of the fun", Damon moved closed to Bonnie and looked down at her.
Bonnie raised an eyebrow.
"You know that Elena has called you multiple times. The word on the street is that you have ignored her calls".
"I don't have much to say", Bonnie shrugged, "and I can't imagine that she would want to talk about much more than you being here instead of with her".
"Maybe that she gets to speak to the friend who she thought she would never see again?" Damon stated.
Bonnie shrugged, "I'm a vampire, I'm immortal, we will have plenty of time to talk if I want to".
"Fine…so you're on good behavior tonight, right?"
"Maybe", Bonnie smirked.
"Bon Bon…you know that we can't bring too much attention to ourselves", Damon wiggled his finger in her face.
"You know, if you would switch off your humanity, this would be a lot easier for you".
"Bonnie Bennett, I can assure you with or without humanity, Damon Salvatore has no problem bringing havoc".
"Then there is no need to warn me about playing nice tonight", Bonnie winked as she picked up her purse and she and Damon headed out of the condo.
SSSSSSSS
When they walked into the gallery, Bonnie immediately worked her way around the room. Damon watched her from the bar and it was almost as if, the Bonnie that he met in Chicago had returned. He also noticed Asia eyeing Bonnie from another side of the room. He could see the look of envy in Asia's eyes and he hoped that the night could end on a positive note.
"Bonnie, we missed you!" Jane, one of the frequent gallery visitors hugged her.
"Thank you, I had to take some time off".
"Well we are happy to have you back", Jane beamed.
"Jane, it's so nice to see you again", Asia moved into the conversation, "we have some upcoming events that I know you will enjoy".
Jane looked over Asia, "Umm…thank you Asia, excuse me", Jane moved away leaving Bonnie and Asia together.
Bonnie glared at Asia, "Don't ever do that again", she warned.
Asia went to open her mouth, but was interrupted by Kate walking over grinning. She wrapped her arms around both of them, "Bonnie, hasn't Asia done a great job with the gallery after the other manager left?"
"She has in my absence, but I'm back now", Bonnie replied.
"Yes, Bonnie…I wanted to possibly speak about Asia becoming a co-manager with you. I think you two could work great together", Kate smiled.
Bonnie's eyes widened, "Kate, I understand that Asia has done a great job while I was gone—but I have worked at this gallery for 4 years and I have worked tirelessly to make it one of the must see places in Chicago".
"I will schedule a meeting on Tuesday to discuss it", Kate replied, "excuse me…" and with that statement, she walked away leaving Bonnie and Asia.
Bonnie looked at Asia and immediately walked away from her to her office. She could hear Asia's heels clicking behind her. Bonnie reached her office and placed her hands on her desk. "Bonnie, I don't understand why this is a big deal. I did a lot for this gallery while you were away and when you've been in and out. I deserve to be more than just your assistant. I mean, ever since that guy showed up and you and Chase had problems, you have neglected your job and I shouldn't be punished for that", Asia snapped.
Bonnie felt the veins growing around her eyes along with her fangs and she turned around quickly, closing the door and facing Asia who had a look of absolute fear on her face. Bonne stared directly into her eyes, "You just couldn't leave me alone in here…", Bonnie hissed.
"What…what are you!" Asia gasped.
Bonnie grabbed Asia by her neck and lifted her in the air, "I told you that I didn't need a clone and you thought I was joking".
Asia struggled to breathe as she tried to release Bonnie's grip. Bonnie lowered her down to the floor and let her go as Asia collapsed onto the floor. Asia took gulps of air as she tried to catch her breath, "What happened to you…", Asia breathed.
"Do you want to waste time asking me that or do you want to run away?" Bonnie asked.
Asia looked at Bonnie and got up off the floor and started for the door, but Bonnie was in front of her in a blink of an eye, "I lied", Bonnie smirked as she sunk her teeth into Asia's neck as Asia let out a muffled scream.
Bonnie drank Asia's blood as Asia attempted to fight her, but she couldn't remove herself from Bonnie's grip. If there was a part of Bonnie that was supposed to stop her drinking, that part of her was no where to be found. Bonnie felt Asia go limp in her arms and she continued to drink, until she felt her being ripped from Asia and thrown up against a walk.
"Bonnie! What are you doing!" Damon looked at her in alarm.
"Doing what I was created to do!" Bonnie screeched, "you can maybe save her, but you won't be able to save everyone out there".
"What?" Damon asked as he held his wrist over Asia's mouth to feed her his blood.
Bonnie left the office and Damon lifted Asia off of the floor as he followed behind Bonnie. She stood in the hallway between her office and the showroom. He wasn't sure what she was doing until he heard people in the showroom start screaming, "Fire…Fire!" and then he felt the heat. The room was on fire. He rushed out of the backdoor with Asia and sat her down in the alley as the backdoor slammed closed. He raced in front of the building and he could see people trying to open the doors to the showroom, but they were locked. People were picking up chairs trying to break the windows…but the chairs were just bouncing off of the windows.
Damon looked around and saw Bonnie standing to the side.
"Bonnie…let them out!" he screamed.
She stared at him defiantly.
"Bonnie…let them out…please…you know that this is not what you want to do!" he rushed over to her.
"That is what I am capable of…realize that", she stated as the doors flew open to the gallery and the glass from the windows burst and people rushed out of the gallery.
Damon turned around and Bonnie was gone. In the midst of fire engines rushing down the street and people coming out coughing and trying to catch their breath, he looked around and started down the street. He was done with this.
SSSSSSSS
After an hour of searching for Bonnie, Damon gave up and returned to the condo. Walking into the condo, he found Bonnie on the couch with who he recognized as the doorman. She was drinking from him and when she noticed Damon, she lifted her head up and smiled.
"You're done", Damon stated without a trace of a smirk or smile.
Bonnie removed herself from straddling the doorman, "Stay", she ordered him and walked over to Damon, "I'm not sure if you realized this tonight or not, but you can't control me".
"So I realized when you almost killed all those people back at the gallery".
Bonnie rolled her eyes, "They lived".
"Barely".
"When did you turn into such a killjoy?" Bonnie scoffed.
Damon looked over at the doorman who wore a dazed look on his face, "Tell him to leave, we need to talk".
Bonnie sighed, "Daniel, come here".
Daniel stood up and walked over to Bonnie. She bit into her wrist and held it up to Daniel's mouth as he drank, "That's enough", she stated, "now leave".
Daniel turned and left Bonnie's apartment closing the door behind him.
Bonnie shook her head as she walked over to the freestanding bar and removed a shot glass from the cabinet. She took out a bottle of bourbon and poured a shot, "You know Damon, I thought that you would be a lot more fun".
"Bonnie, this is not who you are. Flip your switch back on".
Bonnie swallowed her shot and smiled, "Why would I do that?"
"Because you almost killed one of your friends here. Because you almost killed a lot of people. Because you set the place that you worked at for years on fire tonight".
She looked at him unmoving as she poured another shot, "The difference here is that you still think I care about any of that. I don't. I don't care about anyone and I'm perfectly happy with staying like this".
"But why? I know what it's like to turn off your humanity and I know what it's like to turn it back on—Bonnie, it's not easy".
"Oh this is much easier than how things were before. You see, that Bonnie that you knew in 1994, in Mystic Falls and even the one you met in Chicago, I will never be her again".
"You will be", Damon argued.
She turned to him, "I will never be her again. Why would I want to be?"
"Because you are an amazing person, Bonnie", Damon answered.
"Am I?", she smirked as she played with the shot glass in her hand, "You know I lied to you before".
"About?" Damon asked.
She leaned closer to him, "About why I left Mystic Falls. You see, the old me was pretty pathetic…the humanity filled Bonnie…she was poor excuse for a witch."
"Bonnie, you were never pathetic. You are one of the strongest people I know".
"Oh really? Well I made a crucial mistake and that showed me just how pathetic I was".
"What are you talking about?" Damon asked as he looked at her in confusion.
Bonnie smiled as she poured another shot of bourbon in the glass, "I fell in love with my best friend's boyfriend, even though I knew there was no way in hell that he would ever feel the same way for me. I couldn't bear to be in the space with him because I realized that he would never feel the same way about me and instead I would have to spend every day knowing that he was counting the days until I died, so he could be reunited with the woman he did love. So I gave up my life in Mystic Falls, the only place I've ever known, so I could avoid feeling stupid and pathetic and weak…I never want to go back to that Bonnie", she swallowed the shot of bourbon and slid off of the seat, "so you see Damon, that Bonnie is gone and she is never coming back".
Damon stood staring at Bonnie unblinking and speechless. He had an inkling, but he had never allowed himself to truly believe it. Bonnie had told him the truth and it was in such an uncaring and cold way that he finally realized the depth of all of this. She wouldn't turn her switch back on. She wouldn't allow herself to feel because as soon as she did—she would have to deal with him and her feelings for him.
"Quiet huh? That's a first", Bonnie chuckled as she turned to leave the room, but was stopped by Damon grabbing her arms and looking down at her.
"You're wrong", he answered.
"Damon, I'm done for tonight", she stated shaking out of his embrace.
He watched her start towards the hallway to her bedroom and he spoke up, "I love you, Bonnie", he said and he watched her freeze, "maybe I didn't realize it years ago, but my feelings for you changed and I wasn't exactly sure what was happening…"
"No…", Bonnie hissed and turned around quickly, "no…don't do this…"
Damon continued as he moved closer to her, "When you sacrificed yourself to send me back to the present, I fought to get you back. I tried so hard to get you back because you were the only person who I could talk to…I felt like you were the only person who understood me completely".
"No…no…you are lying," Bonnie pointed at him as she stood inches away from him, "shut up!"
"Then when you told me what Kai did to you, I wanted to rip his head off and then the curse…Bonnie, it was never a question as to whether I would have let you die in that ballroom. There was never a moment when I hesitated and thought about what it would be like to lose you then".
She shook her head, "Damon, I am warning you…"
"Then you left. You left me, Bonnie. The person who I was the closest to left me, when I needed you. We needed each other and you left me with a letter…a letter, Bonnie. I never read your letter because I couldn't. I couldn't read probably the last words you would ever say to me; I was furious at you. Back then I wasn't sure why I was so angry. Plenty of friends have left me before, some because I pushed them away…but I never pushed you away and I didn't understand how you could just disappear like you did. Then you come here and you build a new life. A life that almost erased your past, that erased us and yes, I was jealous of you and the GQ model—but more than that, I could not stand by and watch someone that I had feelings for…someone that I had developed a love for be lied to and live a lie".
"I don't want to hear this. I won't listen to this…", Bonnie turned away from him and started towards her bedroom, but Damon blocked her bedroom door.
"Bonnie, when Chase's family held me captive…they put a spell on me", he continued standing in front of her looking into her green eyes which were smoldering with anger, "they made sure I would tell them the truth and if I didn't, I would experience unmeasurable pain".
"Get out of my way Damon", she warned.
"Cassandra asked me if we were just friends…whether there was more to how I felt about you…when I said no, I felt the pain. It was blinding…I could barely focus…Chase knew, he figured it out long before I admitted it. That's why she went after you. That's why she tried to kill you, she knew how much you meant to Chase and to me. She wanted revenge on the both of us".
Bonnie balled her fists up at her sides.
"Bonnie, somewhere along the way you became that person that I wanted to be with above everyone else. The person who I depended on. The person who knew things about me that I hadn't discovered. You saw me for who I was and who I could be, Bonnie…I love you and I hate to see you like this. This is not who you are. I may be like this, but you're not", he said placing his hands on her cheek, "I know that everything fell apart and that this is not what you wanted for your life ever, but Bonnie…I know that you are still in there. You don't want to be like this. I love you and I know that I wrecked your life and I will never stop regretting my decisions, but please don't destroy yourself".
Bonnie narrowed her eyes into slits, "You're lying, you love Elena! You just want me to flip my switch on".
"I left Elena!" Damon argued as he forced her to look at him, "after 5 years, I left her and I came to you. Bonnie, I know that I've lied to you before—but I am not lying to you about this. Believe me, I love you and I want to be with you!" He yelled at her surprising himself.
"Stop lying to me!"
"Why would I lie to you now, when you could kill me with a flick of the wrist?" Damon asked.
Bonnie looked into Damon's eyes. She saw the fight in his eyes and she could feel some of her resolve breaking away—but there was no way that she would allow it to. She couldn't. She wouldn't. She couldn't believe him.
Damon could see Bonnie fighting an internal struggle. She wanted to believe him and she wanted to allow herself to feel what he said. He reached out and touched her cheek gently.
"Get off of me!" she pushed him off of her causing him to crash into the wall putting a hole in the wall.
Bonnie headed towards the door of the condo and when she opened it, she felt nothing but pain as if she had been hit by a truck as she felt herself flying back and then she was pushed into darkness.
The confessions…the ending…
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