ME: HIYA!!!
sane coco: you seem happy...
crazy coco: yeah... why?
Alice: It's cuz she's simple minded, like Emmett.
ME and Emmett:Yupp... HEY!
Alice: Gotta go! Guys do the disclaimer.
Everyone: *grumble grumble* okays...
DISCLAIMER: COCO DOESNT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS..... *sniffle*Please enjoy and review at the end!!
CPOV
I was sitting at my desk, in my office, at work rubbing my temples. I had told my secretary to cancel all my afternoon appointments and not to disturb me. This morning was probably the worst one since Bella had come back into our lives. Alice had taken me far away and told me about what happened with Bella. I knew this was torture for Bella but I didn't think it would be to this extent.
"If only you knew what Edward was hiding... from you too." I sighed.
Not even Bella's past seeing can see what he's hiding. I leaned back in my chair and looked up at the ceiling, remembering Edward's first few weeks as a vampire.
~*~
I sat in my house waiting for Edward to open his eyes. The past three days of him screaming for me to kill him were torture to my ears. If Bella had heard him she would have died on the spot...if she wasn't already dead. When I had heard of her death going through the town, I was horrified. She had run out of town and hadn't some back since. Everyone assumed she was dead. The word assumed soon turned into confirmed when they found her in her own blood. They hadn't even bothered to bring her back so she could be buried. I had listened to the women who had envied her say to each other things along the lines of they were glad she as dead, she didn't deserve Edward and such.
I had sat with Edward for his three days, worrying nonstop of how he would take it. When his eyes opened he looked at me with hatred.
"What did you do to me?" he hissed through his teeth.
I quickly explained what he was. I watched his eyes light up.
"Then I can be with Bella again." he marveled.
I didn't respond.
"What? Why are you looking at me with pity?" he asked me.
"Edward... Bella... she's dead. She ran out when you closed your eyes... they found her body in the forest. She was lying in her own blood." I said sadly.
I watched Edward's face contort in pain. He cried out in agony.
"Edward, calm down!" I tried but Edward wouldn't listen.
"And I suppose you want me to just let this go? You want me to forget that I was the one who killed her! I killed her! I killed my only love! I made her run out there! I made her run out of the city! It's entirely my fault! Why are you denying it?!" he yelled at me.
I looked at him shocked. I was only just thinking it.
"I never said that." I whispered.
He looked at me, anger clear on his face.
"You're denying it again when it's true! I killed-"
He cut himself off suddenly, turning his head towards the door.
It banged open and in walked a man with blond hair. Edward snarled.
"It was you! You're the one who killed her! I'll kill you!" he shouted.
The malice in his voice was deadly.
"And what if I did?" He asked, taunting him.
Edward snarled unable to form words.
"You're dead." he hissed, teeth clenched together.
"Awe, poor little Eddie! Wanna get revenge? Come and get me." the man taunted again.
Edward jumped off the table in one quick move, and lunged for the man's throat with another quick move. I watched the man make a slight move to the right but Edward was already there. He ripped off his opponent's throat, this time hitting his mark with his teeth. There was a metallic screech as he ripped off his head. He spat it to the ground. Edward ripped up the man little by little, each tear filling the room. When he was finished I expected him to just leave them.
"As if I'd do that. He'd just put himself together again. I need gasoline and fire." He said, his voice still portraying his rage.
When he found them, he took the pieces of the body outside and burned them. He watched them burn, masking his expression perfectly.
"Edward..." I said, finding my voice.
"Don't come near me." he said, his face remaining expressionless.
"Edward, there isn't anything we could have done. She was dead before the news hit town." I tried to reason.
"You could have tried. You could have made her one too." He whispered.
He stood there silent for a second before turning and running.
That was the last time I saw Edward for a while. He found me in Seattle, Washington with Esme. He knocked on the door of the Cullen mansion and looked at me with regretful dull red eyes. "Carlisle... I'm sorry." he said quietly.
I ushered him in and sat down across next to him.
"It's just... I didn't want to believe she was gone. She was my reason for living and now that she's gone I don't have a reason, yet I'm still alive. I needed to find a reason... I still haven't found one. I'm sorry for leaving. Thank you for giving me a second life." He said so low that I almost didn't hear even though I was a vampire.
"Edward, it's understandable that you would behave that way. Whenever she would visit I could see life in your eyes. You saw her crying before she died and that's stuck in your head forever now." I whispered.
Esme walked in then and looked at Edward curiously.
"Esme, this is Edward. He's...my son." I said to her.
She nodded, understanding at once.
"It's nice to meet you." Edward said weakly.
She nodded again, smiling sadly. I had already told her about him.
"It's nice to meet you too, sweetie." She smiled.
I watched him as we moved from place to place. At first he would just lock himself up in his room, basking in his misery but slowly he started to come out more. He would talk about Bella less and less as time progressed. I had asked him how he was doing one day and he looked at me blankly and answered,
"I'm wonderful. Why do you ask?"
I looked at him, confused.
"Edward, today is Bella's death day. Don't you feel sad at all?" I asked him.
His face twisted up in pain, but he answered,
"Who's Bella?"
and the tone in his voice sounded like he really meant it. I looked at him slightly shocked and mumbled,
"No one."
He looked at me, puzzled but didn't push it.
My only reasoning was that he cut himself away from that part of his life so he wouldn't feel pain and regret all the time. When we had turned Rosalie Edward's face didn't even become pained whenever I accidentally referred to her. He had completely forgotten her. I made sure not to think about her or mention her after that. I didn't want to ruin it with a slight memory.
~*~
I sighed and looked down at my desk. Why did everything have to be so difficult? I sighed again and told my secretary I was going home for the day. I wasn't getting any work done here anyways.
When I got home everyone was playing games. I watched as Bella scored high on DDR and her laugh fill the room as Emmett looked at her shocked.
"Why do you keep beating me?" he asked.
Edward laughed when Bella twirled around and pointed her finger at Emmett.
"It's because you aren't good enough, Emmy! It's got nothing to do with me and my amazing dance skills!" she laughed with everyone as Edward stared at her.
He was spellbound when she was in his presence. If only he knew... Edward turned his head and looked at me curiously. I shook my head.
"Nothing of importance." I smiled.
He nodded and turned back to Bella. I could tell he was suspicious but I knew he wouldn't push it.
I walked up to my office and sat down. It wasn't long before Esme walked in.
"It's her, isn't it?" she asked.
I nodded.
"Poor girl." Esme whispered.
"I know." I responded.
Esme kissed me on the cheek.
"Don't worry much, sweetie. She's strong." She said reassuringly.
"I know Esme, but it's partly my fault Edward forgot. I didn't push him to remember." I murmured.
Suddenly the door creaked open.
"I don't blame you Carlisle." Bella whispered, poking her head in.
"He's your son. Of course you wouldn't want him to be in pain." she smiled.
"But Bella, you're in so much pain right now! How can I not take the blame?" I asked her.
"You aren't going to take it because I said you aren't. I may have only been around for 100 years or so but I know that you can't control the inevitable. I'm happy he's around. He looks at me the same even if he doesn't realize it. He doesn't like to see me sad. He loves to see me happy. It's like I have my Edward." She smiled.
"I'm actually a little happy you didn't make him remember." She said, looking at me with a knowing smile on her face.
"Why would you be happy?" I asked, confused.
"Because then I wouldn't have to see him in pain." she said.
Esme walked over and hugged Bella.
"You're so strong!" she cried.
I sat there shocked as Bella smiled at me over Esme's shoulder. I couldn't help but smile back.
"You have become so strong." I agreed.
ME: you like?
sane coco: mhm!
crazy coco: yesum!
Emmett: Where did you come up with this? and why am i still losing to Bella?!
ME: oddly enough, i came up with it while watching cricket (yeah i watch cricket. got a problem?) i was extremely happy when this popped into my head... and Emmy you keep losing cuz its fun for me to make you whine.
Alice: It's true Emmett. It is fun to make you whine.
Emmett: You two aren't nice AT ALL!!! *whining*
ME and Alice: pfft* covering mouths to stifle giggles*
Emmett:STOP LAUGHING AT ME!!!! *still whining*
ME and Alice: W-we're trying!!!! *can't contain laughter and brakes out in full laugh*
Emmett: I HATE YOU TOO!!
ME and Alice: *rolling on floor laughing*
Emmett: meanies!
SC and CC: *ignores everyone else* PLEASE REVIEW!!!! *turns to guys* WE NEED TO SAY BYE! STOP LAUGHING AT EMMETT! IT'S NOT NICE!!
Emmett: THANK YOU SC and CC!!!
~~EVERYONE: SEE YOU IN CHAPTER...UM... 11!!! YEAH THATS RIGHT! SEE YOU IN CHAPTER ELEVEN,,, WAIT... NO CHAPTER 12!!! SEE YOU THEN~~~
