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Chapter 11: Hidden Fear
Chapter Summary: Edd never thought that his sleeping feeling would resurface once again and he was not ready to embrace it.
'Now I wonder what you think of me
Don't kow why I break so easily
All my fears are armed surrounding me
I can't get no sleep
I keep runnin in circles around you
Are you the trap I wanna fall into?...'
~ Afraid - Vanessa Anne Hudgens ~
My system was not working properly.
My brain was malfunctioning.
My whole body was stiffed.
I couldn't think straight. My ability to think was blocking by something stronger. My heart was pounding really hard and my face was furiously red, saved for my widened eyes.
All I knew and aware of was that my ability of saying anything was blocking with the jock's own. I didn't do anything and so did he. He just pressed his lips to mine and nothing more. It took a few seconds before he slowly moved back. I mentally thanked myself that I was already sitting on the ground or my knees would buckle that very moment. My hands slowly went to my lips as I stared at him shockingly;
"W-what was that?" I asked awkwardly.
His hand was on my shoulder and I felt him gripping it, "I kissed you?" He said matter-of-factly, only it sounded like a question.
"No-I mean... Why did you do that?" I knew that I was really red. My heart couldn't stop panicking. Kevin was just staring at me. He shrugged after giving my question some thought before answering;
"To keep you calm, I guess."
I looked down and tried to calm my heart as well. Now that I thought about it, did that calm me down? No. It made me panic even more.
Why would Kevin do that?
My bully... kissed me.
That did not even cross my mind at all. It was just a simple collision of our lips but it made a different impact into my system. I was still trying to come up of something to say when I noticed him leaning closer to me. I immediately leaned back and realized what he was trying to do.
"Let me see your wound." He said confirming it as he was about to lift the hem of my shirt. I stood up, ignoring the pain it brought me and carefully moved to the side;
"I am okay, Kevin. I can take care of this," I said placing an arm to my stomach while I gripped the cream in my other hand.
"Come on-"
"I told you it's okay!" I blurted out before he could even finish. He seemed to be surprised about my words and somehow, I felt quilty about it. To make up for it, I gave him a reassuring smile, "Really, Kevin... I'll be fine. If I don't, I'll call you."
The jock stared at me. I didn't know if I was imagining it or not but I saw concern in his eyes.
"I promise."
He observed me more before he sighed, "Fine."
I immediately walked away before he changed his mind. Things would have been better if I didn't interfere this morning. But I couldn't resist Eddy. He was my best friend. My only mistake was I was not able to stop him from tricking Chad and his friends which I had the time to do so. I should have tried to stop them from drinking the juice.
I got the letter after I told them to leave Eddy alone. They were asking for me after the school hours and they would meet me. I said my alibis to my best friend and even to Allex that I would be going somewhere. I left the library earlier only for Chad to meet me at the back of the schoolyard
They threatened me. Yes. But I stood on my ground. This was going to be the last. I'll do my best to stop my friends from doing something so stupid. Just leave us alone as for the return. I ventured enough to stare at the bigger jock. Rolf was there, watching us silently along with the others. Kevin, Rave and Nat were the only ones who weren't there.
To my surprise, he gave me a hard jab in the stomach twice. It made me go down to my knees before he kicked me to my side. That was really painful.
You should know where you stand, Dork. You aren't safe as long as I am here so be careful on your actions within the campus. Chad warned me as he turned around. Jason and Mark smirked at me before he followed the former. I almost lied on the ground when I noticed a pair of shoes in front of me.
Hey, you better do something about those. You don't want them to get swollen, do you? I could hear Rolf saying his words as he placed something to my palm. As I looked up, no one was there anymore. I only thanked the big guy mentally.
I finally made it to my dorm. My safe haven. My comfort zone. I quickly removed my shirt and winced when I saw how awful my wounds were. They were swollen a bit so I applied the cream Rolf gave me. After applying the cream to my body, I grabbed a clean shirt carefully putting it on. I slowly lied down ony bed and thought back what happened earlier.
It was a mistake in my part.
I remembered Kevin's sudden action and I couldn't stop myself from blushing. His kiss somehow washed away my fear of Chad's threat. The kiss made me introduce some foreign feelings. I couldn't name them all. My heart was beating faster than the normal pace. I feared tachycardia would come and attack me. Oh, dear! That wasn't even healthy. Without realizing it, my fingers went to my lips as I felt them. I could still feel his lips on mine. Was that even possible? Why would I be imagining it? What have he done to me?
They were all Greek to me! And those were questions that I couldn't come up with answers for the first time. I ended up sleeping early that time, knowing the consequences for tomorrow's activities.
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"Double D!"
A smiled awkwardly as I started leaving my dorm. Allex, to my surprise, was only leaving next to my building. I never had the chance to ask him for I was always on the run. He gave me a bear hug as soon as he approached me, reminding me of Ed. My best friends hadn't met Allex and I was thinking of arranging them to meet one of these days.
"I am so glad to see you here," He said after releasing me, "Oh, and good morning."
I chuckled as I watched his expressions, "Likewise, Allex and good morning too."
"Let's walk together then or are you waiting for your friends?" He said as he started walking.
"They went ahead telling me that they had something to do." I worried about them as soon as I said my words. My shock from yesterday wasn't over yet so I hoped that Eddy wouldn't do something stupid, "Let's go or we'll be late. I definitely don't want that."
"Me too Double D."
We walked on our way to the campus. My eyes went to the gym when I remembered something. I looked at the tall guy and asked, "Don't you have practice this morning, Allex?"
"I do. I am going to my locker first and grab my jacket then I'll go the court right away." He explained. The lockers for varsity players were next to the sports field. The lockers for the non sports players were in the regular locker rooms of the building. If you were a varsity player, you would be lucky because not only you have a locker of your own, you could take a shower which was a part of the room. Unfortunately for me, I wasn't. Not that I was complaining or so. I also had a shower in my own dorm unit.
A previous event made me remind myself not to take any public bath alone, no matter what the cost.
We were about to seperate when another pair of arms jumped on me from behind. I thought it was Ed but the person behind me smelled nice and I started to get worried. I was about to shout when the person shouted behind me.
"Good morning, Double Dorkable! Rise and Shine! The chicken's awake and the crow's white!"
"N-Nat! Oh, for goodness sake! You startled me!" I almost had a heart attack at his sudden outburst. He was starting to untangle himself from me as I continued speaking, "and there aren't crows in Peach Creek."
"it's just an expression," He tapped my head and my hands instinctively went to my beanie. He ended up laughing first before he looked at Allex, "Who's the fella?"
I looked from him to Allex. The latter flinched for an odd reason but I shrugged it, "Oh, sorry for being rude. Nat this Al-"
"Double L!" Allex said interrupting me all of the sudden. I frowned at the name he called to himself. He offered his hand to the jock, "The name's Double L."
"Double L? Double D?" Nat repeated before he looked back and forth between us before grinning like a Cheshire cat, "cool!"
"What's the commotion here?"
My heart started to pump faster when I heard the familiar voice. I took the courage to look at Kevin who was making his way towards us. Raven and Rolf were trailing behind him, "Who is this guy?"
Nat did the privilege of introducing them and I almost smacked my forehead because of that, "Double L, this is dear Kevin, our captain and quarterback player of football team. My little pumpkin, this is Double L, Double D-dorkable's friend."
I anticipated the next scene. Kevin hit Nat on the head really hard. I used the chance of lingering closer to Allex and whispered to him, "I am sorry about them. You'll get used to them soon, I guess."
"Um, I guess you are." He replied though he sounded unsure. I looked at my tall guy friend and saw how he appeared uncomfortable with the jocks. I was a bit uncomfortable being near around Kevin so I had to save ourselves from more awkward moments.
"Anyway, we need to go. I'll see you." I caught their attention as soon as I said that. I immediately grabbed Allex' arm and turned us around.
"Dork, wait!" Kevin suddenly stopped me. I tried not to flinch this time and I hope I was doing it properly. I turned around and found him staring straight at me. I also tried not to blush. The floor was interesting to watch that time so that was what I did. I waited for Kevin to say something but somehow, he wasn't saying anything.
"Guys, do you need privacy because we can leave you two alone if you like." Nat suddenly said stepping between us.
"Do you have a death wish? You better make one now before I change my mind," Kevin dangerously warned the teal-haired jock as he cracked his knuckles in front of him.
"Oh come on, Poopsie, You don't need to be shy and-"
He was not able to finish his words as Rave surprisingly went in between, grabbing and covering his mouth, "I'll make sure he receives his painful death."
"My Raven dear. You don't have to. I know you love me to death."
"Just shut up forever." He said as he dragged Nat away from them. I also used the chance to continue walking away.
"Hey!" Kevin reached for my arm and that surprised me.
"Kevin... Kevin, we'll going to be late. You don't want that, do you?" I ventured enough courage to say those words to him. Fortunately, he seemed to understand me and let go of my arm.
"It seems more like you," He said touching his nape as he looked around but me, "I'll talk to you later then."
I couldn't trust my words afterwards so I ended up nodding at him. Still pulling Allex, who was still bewildered at the whole scene, we made our way to our respective places.
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Luckily for my friends, we didn't have any afternoon classes. Ed and Eddy insisted that they should spend time with me in my dorm. I had my library assignment so I'd go back to the campus later. Eddy ordered pizza as usual as we watched a single movie for that day. We watched silently until Eddy broke it.
"Guys, do you have your dates on our acquiantance party?"
I finished eating my slice of pizza before answering him, "That's not even necessary, Eddy. We will go to this party to get to know the other freshmen better, not to get dates."
"Nah, that sucks. I'll invite Nazz to the party instead."
"If I remind you, the party will be three days from now. I am sure Nazz will be going with someone." With Kevin I am afraid. I thought the last part but I didn't share it with them.
"Party. I love parties!" Ed said before ravishing two slices of pizza.
"We know." Both Eddy and I said at the same time.
"We should do something different together. Don't you think?" I suggested all of the sudden.
"Like what?" Eddy looked at me as he ate his third pizza.
"I don't know. Like going out of town or something." I offered.
Eddy looked at me studying my face and frowned afterwards, "Are you tired of studying or what? Why do you want to travel all of the sudden?"
"I just want to, okay. And I will not forget about studying. I just want to spend some quality time with you guys."
"Sounds good to me," Eddy said grabbing his chin as if thinking of something, "We'll think of places to go after the party. Then the following week, after the exam, we'll go."
"That will be great."
"And no studying, got it?" He pointed his own pizza to me.
"I... can live with that, I guess."
"Good "
"Travel! I love traveling!" Ed suddenly said
"We know." We answered at the same time.
We were almost done with the movie when someone knocked on my door, "Coming!" I stood up and went to it.
"Are you waiting for someone?" Eddy asked me as his vision didn't leave the screen.
I was holding the doorknob before facing them, "Indeed, I am." I opened it and revealed a six-footer basketball player-slash-assistant librarian-slash-advance classmate of mine smiling back at us, "Gentlemen, I would like to introduce Allexander Edvin Everheart. Allex, these are my best friends, Ed and Eddy." I pointed them to Allex.
"Hi, finally meeting you face to face." Allex said to my best friends.
Eddy and Ed both stared at the tall guy their jaws were already on the floor. I couldn't help but chuckle at their reaction. Allex leaned closer to me and whispered, "Are they always like that?"
I leaned and whispered back at him, "I was like that when I first saw you."
"What?" He was taken aback at the words I said.
"You'll get used to me... to us," I said as I tapped his arm and walked back to my friends. I closed both of their jaws and sat beside Eddy, "Come and join us. We still have time before we do our task in the library."
Allex soon joined us and watched another movie. I noticed that we ran out of drinks so I stood up, "I'll go buy some drinks. Don't wait for me."
"Sure, we won't." Eddy said not tearing his eyes from the screen. I huffed as I turned around to open the door.
"Do you want me to come along?"
I looked behind and smiled at him, "There's no need, Allex. Enjoy watching the movie instead." Closing the door behind me, I immediately walked downstairs and out of the dorm. The store wasn't that far so I could be back sooner. But what surprised me as I turned to a corner, Kevin was standing behind his bicycle. He was holding his phone to his ear. I was facing his back so he couldn't see me.
I jerked when my phone made a sound. Kevin turned around and finally saw me fidgeting with my phone.
"Hey..." He said after a few moments of shock and dropped his phone to his side, "I didn't expect you here so I called."
Things that happened between us came back to me suddenly and everything in my system went tensed. Standing alone with him felt awkward. Ever since he did that to me, I couldn't fathom the idea of looking in his eyes. Before he could continue speaking, I did something that I hadn't done unless scamming him.
I ran.
Kevin called out to me but I ignored him. It was a ridiculous thing to do but I knew the reason why I did that. It all made sense to me.
Just when everything was good between us... then I started to freeze. All because of one simple move.
Despite after all the savings he did... I was still afraid of him.
Done! How was this chapter? I am slowly getting the ideas now. I hope I can make those thoughts into words... soon. If I did something wrong in the scenes. Please tell me, I may forget some of them. Thank you in advance.
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