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Chapter 11: Our Bubble
Edwards POV
I felt like crying. Everything could have been so simple. I could have gone back when I was fourteen when I said I would. I could have not dated anybody like I said I would. I could have loved her properly like I said I would.
But I didn't.
I did not go back because I listened to immature snobby children. I dated Tanya to block the pain and guilt that ate away at me. And I can't love her properly because of my mistakes. And the major one I have to fix at this point in time was to break up with Tanya without breaking her.
I didn't understand why I hadn't done it earlier. I knew I didn't want to hurt her and of course I felt bad that I was throwing her away now I had Bella, but I didn't matter anyway, I was going to do it.
I slammed on the accelerator as I neared my home, the last length. She'd be there but so would the others. I knew they loved Bella, but how would they take it?
I turned of the engine and ran to the door. Tanya's car wasn't here yet but I knew she'd be here soon. I opened the door to find each member of my family in the living room.
Alice looked up with a knowing expression.
"I'm going to do it, I have to." I said to her but of course the others heard. Rosalie stood up with a questioning glare.
"Going to do what? If it's what I think, you better change your mind quickly." All the family was looking now, curious as to what we were talking about.
"I have to. Rosalie I know she's your friend, she's mine too. But you know I'm meant to be with Bella." I thought she'd accept it but I wasn't ready for what she said. I didn't think it was really about Tanya.
"You're meant to be with?! Tanya loves you, you ass! And you're going to dump her for Bella? You're going to leave her and be with the girl pulling you away from your family? Family is first Edward, you should know that! How could you do that?" she was angry but what she said hit a nerve.
"She's pulling me from you?! Are you kidding me?!" people tried to intervene.
"Kids, calm do-" Esme was cut off by jasper.
"Look man, I know how much you love her. Just remember your family. Be happy, too."
"Family," Rosalie started "family is something that can be sick and twisted and cruel. But this one isn't and some of us depend on that." She whispered.
I took a deep breath and looked around the room.
Carlisle, my adopted father. My mother's best friend and my adopted mothers love. He was more a father than the sick bastard who was only biology to me. He was the head of my makeshift family, I loved him. My eyes shifted to the next person.
Esme, my mother figure. She was the heart of this family. Even though she could never replace what my mother was to me, the words seemed foreign because she was too perfect. I am proud to be her son as I was with my real mother. My eyes went down for the next person.
Alice, my sister. She was probably my favourite new sibling. She is probably my greatest friend if you didn't count Bella. She was so happy. With everything she had been through, it was amazing how she could still remain joyful. She had been sent to an asylum at the age of nine because she visions. Her parents put her in their because she 'disgraced' their name. The place was a dump. It was hidden in the middle of nowhere and their methods were sick. When she first told me, I wanted to cry. But its made who she was today, it made her stronger. My little sister.
Jasper stood next to her. He was a true brother. He was selfless and would do anything for any of us, especially Alice. Out of my two brothers he is more of a best friend where as Emmett is typical older brother. He grew up in the south. He was an orphan since birth, but at the age of eleven was abducted by sick, twisted people. They beat him, they didn't feed him. He lived with it until he was fourteen, when his abductors were arrested and put to death. Carlisle and Esme found him when he was fifteen. He got better quickly, Alice made sure of it. Still after what he went through, you learn not to make Jasper angry. But my mostly cool, calm brother was a saint. My eyes shot to my oldest brother.
Emmett was the perfect brother. He teased me, he kicked my ass, he called me Eddie but I would never be able to live without it. He was opposites. He had a hard exterior but a soft and warm heart. He was just a big teddy bear. He grew up with his parents and little brother. They were typical trailer trash and were addicts. He would hide his younger brother when his parents would come home, pissed or high and would take all his father or mother gave him. Nobody touched his little brother. He was beaten most of the time and he took it like it was nothing. But one day he arrived home late, he had to speak with a teacher about his grades and attendance. When he got home he heard screams from his parent bedrooms. They belonged to his brother. He had frozen as his brothers screams died away. He slowly opened the door and found something that would stay with him forever. His father laughing over a small, not moving boy and a high mother giggling on the bed. He lost it. He got a bat by the bed and smashed his father with it. He grabbed his little brother and ran. He was only thirteen and it messed him up. When he went to the police, they helped him give his parent what the deserved as he broke down over his brother who was in a critical condition at the hospital. He was put into care and when his brother healed, a family adopted him and Esme and Carlisle adopted Emmett when he was fifteen. He still sees Kellen and writes to him, he lives in New York now. After that he is now my brother and he's better than anything.
Standing by him was Rosalie. We may not get on but we knew we had each others backs. She was my first sister, my first sibling, so we had a connection behind all the irritation. She used to call me bugs, before the others came and I called her claws, don't ask. We understood, mostly. She, like Jasper, had lived in the south. But she was rich, extremely rich. She never met her mother and barely saw her father, and when she did there was always something off about him. So when they went broke and moved to a small, horrible place, she didn't expect to find her father for the man he truly was. He touched her and hurt her. And then one day he and his drunkard friends took it farther and she was raped. The raped and beat her and then left her for dead. She was found by the police and eventually adopted by Esme and Carlisle but has never quite healed. She accepted what happened but had become slightly bitter over it but I knew the warm person she could be. She loved Emmett and she loved us and weirdly enough I wouldn't trade her for the world.
My eyes moved to the mirror behind everybody. What did I see? I saw a boy who was broken. I saw a boy who was fixed by a little girl. I saw a boy who then broke both of them. I saw a group of broken people trying to heal one another and lastly I saw a boy who was trying to heal with them but knew that the little girl was the only one who could do the job. I took another breath.
"Look, I know. You all mean so much to me. We are family and family does come first. We heal each other and we need to be healed. And its mostly worked." I looked at my siblings. "Rose and Em, you have helped each other so much, same with Jazz and Alice. And I have tried so hard to be able to heal right along with you. But I can't. And no matter how much I love you, Bella is first because she is family. She is the person I love, the person I know the most and have known the longest other than Carlisle. She is me, I am her. Without her I'm nothing. Today she told me she wished to be thirteen again and I do too! We were happy, we were in love. We are still in love. The day I left I broke us and you have to understand the only way I heal is if she does and I have to be with her to do that." A tear slid down my cheek and I looked away.
Everybody looked so sad. Except from Rosalie. She gave me a stern look and walked towards me. I don't know what I was expecting. She came close and…hugged me. She put her lips near my ear.
"Go and get healed bugs." I smiled and hugged her tight. I kissed her cheek and stepped back.
"I intend to claws." My other siblings were confused and my parents were smiling.
I ran outside and ran down our monstrous drive. And there Tanya was in her shiny car. She stopped and got out.
"Edward?" she looked at me confused and then something dawned on her.
"Tanya we have to-" she cut me off.
"I know what your about to say. It's okay, you love her." I looked down at her and her expression stabbed my heart.
"Tanya I am so sorry. I care for you so much but I-" she smiled sadly.
"I know. I will always care for you Edward, but a blind person could see how you feel about her and how she feels about you. But you took your time with it. I'd be careful what you say to her if I were you. Good luck." He voice cracked and a tear escaped her eye.
I wiped it away with my thumb and did something that would make it the end. I lowered my head and let my lips graze hers in a sweet kiss.
"Tanya, you will find a man who loved you and deserves you. You're too good for me. Thank you." She closed her eyes and leaned into the hand I rested on her cheek.
"I sure am going to miss this." She whispered. I wrapped her in my arms and hugged her tight.
"Goodbye Tanya. Please know that its me, you're so kind. Remember that. I will miss you, but I hope we can still be friends"
She looked at me and smiled. "We'll see. Now go and get her." I let go and backed away up the drive.
"Goodbye Edward." She whispered.
I ran up to my car and jumped in. It was already dark. I looked at my watch, it was already ten. I hadn't realised it took so long. I raced down the drive and made my way to Bella's.
My car wouldn't go fast enough, but finally, I was outside her house.
Bella POV.
When I had pulled myself of the floor, I made dinner for four. Charlie kept asking me what was wrong we he arrived home but I wouldn't answer. Billy and Jacob arrived around seven and stayed until nine. I didn't really take any notice of what happened.
I got ready for bed in a zombie like fashion and lay beneath the covers of my bed. I missed Edward. His name brought back tears. Everything could have been so simple. Even if he didn't come back when we were fourteen, if he weren't with Tanya we would be together now. But what am I saying? Did I really expect him to be the same?
Yes, I guess I did. But it was too much to ask, too selfish.
I looked at my alarm clock. 10:09pm. I turned onto my side, tears never stopping. I sobbed and sobbed and then sobbed some more. I couldn't stand that everything had changed. I just couldn't accept the fact nothing would ever be the same.
Charlie had been called to the station, there had been a fire in one of the house on the large area of lands. The house was abandoned so it was just a case of finding the kid that did it. He was going to be out all night and some of the morning so he said he'd just sleep at the station. So being here, alone, kind of made it worse. This set off another round of tears.
I closed my eyes and listened to my erratic heartbeat. Suddenly there was a scratch at my window. I heard a light curse, as I panicked, and the window was pulled up. I was still crying and I lifted my head up, ready to scream. But there he was. Looking at me, taking in the tears.
"Angel, don't cry…" he whispered, anguished. He ran to me and sat next ot me on the bed. I cried harder.
"I- I'm sorry about b-before." I flung my arms out and clung to him.
"No, baby, I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I never came back, I dated Tanya…I did everything wrong." He held me tight.
"No, I asked for too much and…dated?" he looked at me with sad eyes.
"I broke up with Tanya. She's lovely…but she's not the one for me. I have a soul mate." I squeezed him tighter then pulled back and looked into his eyes.
"I need it to be how it used to be…" I whispered.
"Me too." He said before adding "I'm sorry I'm not the boy you loved." I shook my head.
"You'll always be that boy…" I whispered and with that he leaned in and pur lips met for the first time in three years.
His hands were on the sides of my face rubbing away all the tears I had cried. His lips were just like I remembered, I felt like I was on fire.
He slowly laid us down and we laid together kissing sweetly. "I missed you so much." I whispered between kisses. His kisses became needy and passionate. His hands ran down my sides, grazing my breasts. I kissed him more urgently. He moved his hands back to the sides of my face and pulled away.
"I love you so much." He said staring into my eyes, his green ones becoming so intense.
"I will always love you, angel." I whispered softly back. He kissed me softly and pulled back slightly but his lips were just grazing mine.
"Marry me." He whispered into my lips. I didn't need time to think about what he asked me.
"Of course." His head shot up. Staring intently, trying to work out what I was thinking.
"You will?" he said, elated.
"I will spend the rest of my life with you, Edward. I love you, all my heart forever."
He smiled hugely and kissed me hard.
"All my heart forever, my Bella." He whispered and kissed me like his life depended on it.
Our kisses became so urgent that I found myself tugging at his shirt. His hands slid down my sides and he fingered the hem of my shirt. He placed kisses from my lips, down to my neck and collar bone, then he jumped to the bottom of my tank top. He looked at me as if asking for permission but all I could do was moan at the sensations his hands brought me. He slowly lifted my shirt about an inch and kissed my skin.
He would pull it up and kiss more of my skin. Eventually he had pulled my shirt off. I tugged at his and he complied by pulling it off.
He kissed between my breast, his tongue flicking out, making me moan. His lips moved to below my ear and his hands moved around to my bra latch. My breathing was ragged. His hands paused, questioning. His lips suddenly enveloped my earlobe and he sucked and nibbled on it.
"Edward" I moaned in a whisper. That made him undo my bra.
He hand removed his jeans so the only things we were wearing were our underwear. He slowly slid my bra off, taking in every detail which made me blush.
"Beautiful" he whispered.
He lowered his head and took one of my breasts in his mouth and then the other, my back arched towards him. he trailed kisses up to my neck.
"You're so beautiful, you always have been." He looked me in the eyes. The moment was so intense.
"Edward," I whispered. "Make love to me." He immediately ducked his head down and kissed me hard.
His hands slid down and fingered the edge of my underwear. His finger slipped under and he stroked me while kissing me. I became extremely wet. He pulled down my underwear and I kicked them off. He did this with his own and I knew I had been right before. He was huge.
He sat himself between my legs and looked me in the eyes.
"Edward" I moaned, ducking my head to his shoulder.
"I love you, baby." He whispered and the he slowly entered me. It hurt at first. A hell of a lot.
His eyes were glued to me. A tear escaped my eye. He slowly kissed it away. It stopped hurting and I realised there was pleasure instead. I moaned and ground my hips to his.
And then he made love to me.
The next thing I knew the room was light, an early morning light. I looked up and saw Edward in all his glory, sleeping next to me. I gasped. He looked so much like the child I first fell in love with when he slept. His eyes fluttered open and he stared at me with only love.
"Good morning soon to be Mrs. Masen Cullen" I grinned so wide it hurt.
"Good morning future husband." He kissed me softly. We were tangled in the sheets, I couldn't tell where u ended and he began.
"You're perfect, you know that?" I whispered.
"As are you, my love." He whispered back, sealing the declaration with a kiss.
And the bubble we had those years ago, was coming back once again.
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