A/N
I want to thank anyone who is still reading along with this fic. I really do appreciate it and my apologies for the long time between updates, but I had a baby and it kind of took up a lot of my time lately. My next update shouldn't take as long.
This chapter is basically all lemons – so if that doesn't float your boat… you can skip and not have it really mess up the story for you. Rated M for a reason. If you aren't 18 – move along…
Big thank you to my beta Blackjacklily – she's the best!!
Thanks to my Twilighted beta – Totoro
Disclaimer: I currently own a lot of shirts with spit up on them, but I don't own Twilight.
Without further ado….
It's been a while – so previously on TRIBE
She turns her head slightly to quietly ask, "How did you learn how to do that? From what you told me we both don't have a lot of experience…"
"Porn, lots and lots of porn." I reply in my best Rainman voice. Bella threw me smile with an incredulous look, so I continued. "Hey, what do you want, I'm a single guy who's been living on his own for a long time." I shrugged and pulled her closer into my chest.
"To think that I could have been studying up all this time?" She chuckled, before snuggling in closer to me. It wasn't too long before I could hear Bella's breathing even out, letting me know that she'd fallen asleep. I smile down at her as I pull back the covers and place her gently under them. My erection had finally decided that it had waited long enough and requires immediate attention. Slipping quietly into the bathroom, I turn on the shower and before getting in, I look at my reflection and see the shit eating grin plastered on my face.
"Best. Birthday. Ever." I say to myself before climbing in to the warm water to relieve some tension.
Tit for Tat…
BPOV
Waking up wrapped in Edward's strong arms made me feel loved and protected. I could feel the rise and fall of his breaths along with the rise of his morning wood against my ass. I smiled at the memory of the previous night. He had actually made me orgasm, and it was like nothing I had ever felt before. I was astonished by the emotions and sensations that washed over me all at once. The feeling in my abdomen exploded and in those few moments, took more energy out of me than any sex with Jacob ever had. It made me smile to know that it was Edward who had finally been the one to crack my O-card, almost as if my body had been waiting my whole life for him. Being held in his arms felt like nothing else, as if I was molded to fit side by side with him in perfect harmony.
I was still basking in the glow from the night before when I was suddenly overcome with overwhelming lust. I guess one orgasm will make a girl horny. Sliding my hand around behind me, I softly played with his cloth covered erection. It was only then that I realized that although I was completely nude, he was still being a gentleman by wearing his boxers to bed. Extricating myself from his grasp, I moved slightly away and turned towards him. He barely stirred, letting me know that he was still deep in slumber. I took the moment to really take all of him in for the first time. His chest was lightly sculpted in a way that said he exercised, but wasn't into heavy lifting. His taut abs were covered in a light smattering of hair leading down his happy trail, and showing off the sculpted V of his hips. His chest hair was of the same auburn color, and had just enough to keep him looking more manly than boyish. Slowly running my fingers through it, I relished in how soft it was. I wanted to nuzzle against it and have him pull me into a tight embrace, but I had something else in mind. I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to pull his boxers off without waking him somehow, but I needed to see all of him, and to let him know how much I wanted him. After a few moments of debate, I decided to leave the boxers on, and to just work around the offending fabric. I wanted him to wake up from whatever he was dreaming about to a very happy ending.
I slowly slid my hand into the flap in the front of his boxers. I could feel the smooth, taut skin of his erection as I pulled it out so that I could finally end my fantasy with his reality. His penis was pure perfection. Not that I had seen a lot, but while I didn't lose my virginity until I was 20, I did give the occasional blowjob in high school and college. I was seriously hoping that it was like riding a bike, since it had been a long time since I had given one.
Edward's member was long, but not obnoxious like some kind of porn star. I would have guessed it was around eight and a half inches, and was a nice comparable width. Licking my lips in anticipation of finally tasting him, I took a quick glance to see if he was still sleeping. He had rolled over onto his back and thrown his arm up over his head, but appeared to still be soundly sleeping. Stroking it lovingly, I leaned down and took my first lick along the underside. I heard Edward moan and shift a little in his sleep, but I didn't stop what I was doing.
I swirled my tongue around his tip before taking it slowly into my mouth. Moving up and down his shaft languidly, I grasped the base and began pumping my hand around what I couldn't fit in my mouth. As I sped up my actions, I caught sight of movement from above me. Peeking up, I saw Edward's green eyes locked in a piercing stare. I curled my mouth up into a smile and hummed around his firm cock. Edward's hips thrust forward as he grunted.
"Bella, what are you doing?"
Pulling off of him with a POP, I threw him a cheeky smile. "If you don't know what I'm doing, then I must be doing it wrong."
His eyes rolled back into his head as I resumed my activities, humming and moving back and forth.
"Oh God… you know you don't have to do this…" he moaned, looking back down at me.
"Mmm hmm, but you taste so good…" I mumbled around him and sped up my movements.
"Oh shit, Bella, that feels so good," he said through clenched teeth, gripping the sheets beside him. "Oh, God, I'm not going to last…"
Feeling his hands near my head trying to push me away, I heard, "So close…" He gasped as I sucked harder and fondled his perineum and balls, just before he exploded into my mouth. "FUCK, BELLA!" Swallowing every drop, I continued to watch Edward come down from his orgasm. His handsome features finally relaxed and he started stroking my cheek as I released him slowly, cleaning any remnants off of him.
"Good morning," I cheerily said, moving back up to lay next to him.
"Now that's a fantastic way to wake up," he murmured into my ear, giving me a kiss along my neck. "What brought that on? Not that I'm complaining."
I smiled into his eyes, the look of relaxation and bliss purely evident. "Apparently my body woke up from the coma it was in, and you turned me into a horny mess," I responded honestly, chuckling softly.
Pulling me even closer to him, he stroked my back lovingly. The feeling deep in my abdomen was beginning to awaken again and I could only think of one thing, that I wanted Edward inside me, NOW. I couldn't believe that my libido, which had been dormant for so long, suddenly awoke, making me feel like a raging, hormonal teenager. I didn't even know if Edward wanted to take the next step, and here I was borderline ready to jump his ass.
"Um, Bella?" Edward asked, taking me out of my hormone induced trance.
"Hmm?"
"You're humping my leg, was there something you wanted?" He chuckled, pulling me on top of him and wrapping his arms tightly around me.
Blushing deeply, I tucked my head into his chest, too mortified to respond.
"God, you're so sexy," he said, nuzzling his face into my hair.
I could feel him already rising to the occasion. I wanted him badly and didn't know how to tell him. How was I able to give the man what I hoped was a mind blowing blowjob and wasn't able to ask for more? As my brain continued to mull over how to ask for sex with a man that you're already in bed naked with, I felt Edward's hands glide over my ass.
"Bella…" His voice low and husky whispered in my ear, "tell me. Tell me that you want me as much as I want you…" I felt his hands continue to graze the underside of my ass before his fingers began sliding through my slick lips.
"Please, Edward…" I moaned before attacking his lips with my own.
"Please what? You need to tell me…" His fingers pinched my clit while his lips travelled down my throat before suckling on my nipple.
"Oh God, please, Edward, fuck me… Please," I begged, panting into his shoulder.
He pulled away from my chest to gaze seriously into my eyes. "No." He said matter-of-factly. To say that I was mortified would have been an understatement. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes as I moved out of his grasp.
"Bella, where are you going?" he asked, grabbing my wrist and pulling me back into bed.
"You said no…" I wept into his chest, feeling raw and dejected.
"Bella, I said no to fucking. You didn't let me finish. I want to make love to you. I want to worship every inch of you and take our time getting to know each other. We can fuck another time, but for right now, I want to go slow. Is that okay?" He pulled me away from his chest to look me in the eye.
My tears dried up when I realized what he was saying. He wasn't rejecting me; instead he was being the sweet, loveable, and romantic man that I was growing very fond of.
"Mood killer, huh?" I joked,beforejoked, before I started to attack his lips, trying to get us both back in the mood.
Chuckling against my mouth, Edward pulled back once again to gaze into my eyes. "Baby, I just want to do this right, no regrets. I know it's been a long time for both of us…"
"Shut UP and make love to me." I replied, fiercely attaching my mouth to his once again, effectively shutting him up.
Having given him an answer he could live with, his hands promptly felt like they were everywhere all at once. He flipped me over onto my back and didn't release my lips during our change in positions. Running my hands through his hair, he dragged his lips down the column of my neck, taking slow small nips along the way. One of my hands left the tangle of his soft hair to move across the planes of his muscular back.
Edward quickly found my erect nipple, suckling on it and rolling it around in his mouth. I threw my head back and ran my nails down his side at the delicious sensation that was coursing through my body. Moaning loudly, I grabbed at Edward's ass, trying to pull him towards my center and get some much needed friction against my core. Realizing that he was still in his boxers, I quickly used my hands and feet to tug them off of his hips and down his legs.
Edward continued his descent down my body, fulfilling his promise to tease every inch of my body. He had covered my neck, chest, belly, and even the curve of my elbow in warm open mouthed kisses and nips. While his lips worked on my torso, I felt his hand descend down towards my throbbing center. The pressure inside me was building before he even had reached my clit and I ached for more.
"Edward, please…" I begged
"Please what, baby?" he huskily replied.
"Please, please, please… It's too much. I don't know, but please…"
"Shhh…" he murmured in my ear, his hand cupping me gently as he ran his thumb over my clit. The sense of frustration eased with the friction of his fingers, and they soon sent me falling over the abyss.
"Oh God, Edward…" I moaned, falling back onto the bed and relishing in the complete and immediate sense of relaxation. It took me a few moments to realize that I had left poor Edward hanging. I opened my heavy lids and saw Edward kneeling next to me with a look of unadulterated lust. Smiling timidly, I grabbed his hand and pulled myself up into his awaiting arms.
"Thank you…" I whispered shyly. "I'm sorry to have left you hanging there for a moment. I'm still getting used to this whole orgasm thing," I tried to tease.
"No apology necessary, watching you cum was the hottest thing I've ever witnessed." He growled and overtook my mouth once again. I could feel his erection straining against my thigh. I felt wanton and sexy for the first time ever as I pushed him onto his back. I felt like taking control and making this happen for us both. We had both been through so much and I needed the connection with him, and I needed it now.
"Edward, I believe you mentioned something about making love?" I teased seductively while running my hands and lips down his amazing chest. When I reached his cock, I ran my hands lovingly back and forth over it before preparing to settle myself on him.
"Ugh… Bella… Condom?" He gasped just as I was about to make my move.
"Pill, we're good?" I asked, barely able to form the question. All I wanted was to impale myself on him.
"Oh, okay…" he grunted as I shifted my hips, fully sheathing him inside me. His size was impressive and I had to take a moment to adjust. It had been four and a half years after all. I looked down at Edward's face and I couldn't help but gently caress his face as I started to slowly move on top of him. He was so beautiful in this moment that I needed to take a second to try and commit his handsome face to my memory.
"You feel so good, as if you were made for me…" His hips jutted forward as a sign for me to speed up my motions. Rocking over him, I remembered a move that I saw in Cosmo once long ago. Reaching back, I took hold of his thighs and felt him hit my g-spot deep inside of me.
"Oh God!" I gasped, trying to maintain the rhythm we had created. He filled me so deeply and I felt another orgasm fast approaching.
"Fuck… Edward…" I gasped, letting go of his thighs and throwing my head forward and down into his chest.
"So close, baby…" he said, grabbing me tightly by the waist and spinning me onto my back. His hips began pumping faster and I knew we were both close. I felt the pressure building up as I breathlessly exclaimed, "Edward…", my insides clamping down on him.
"Oh God, Bella…" he exclaimed as he spilled into me. He quickly collapsed onto my chest, his body weight mostly resting on his forearms. My arms instinctually wrapped around him, soothingly rubbing up and down the smooth planes of his back.
"That…that was amazing," he whispered breathlessly into my ear, kissing my neck soothingly.
"Mmhmmm..," was all I could say. The peaceful feeling overtaking me.
Rolling off of me, Edward pulled me tightly into his side as we both fell back into a contented sleep.
EPOV
Being woken up by Bella's mouth wrapped around my cock was completely unexpected; fantastic, but unexpected. I had planned last night's seduction at the last minute, wanting nothing more for my birthday than to get to know a little more about Bella, both mentally and physically. Reciprocation was not what I had on my mind when I drifted off into a deep slumber after my shower. She had vacillated between being bold and shy as we made love this morning. I wanted nothing more than to make her feel the confident and sexy woman that I was coming to love.
Waking up about an hour after our first time, I couldn't help my wandering hands as they yearned to touch Bella. I woke her up by slowly and leisurely caressing her soft supple skin, making her moan as I teased her entrance. We made love slowly and reverently before our stomachs decided that they needed nourishment.
"So how about I whip up some sandwiches and we eat them out by the pool. It looks like a lovely day," I asked, running my hands down her supple curves.
She nuzzled into my neck. "Sure, sounds good. Do you mind if I grab a shower first?" she asked.
"Take your time. There are towels under the sink. I'd join you, but I'm afraid we'd never leave this room if I had my way," I teased, giving her one last kiss before sliding out of bed and grabbing a pair of shorts and a t-shirt from my dresser.
Wandering down to my kitchen, I couldn't help but smile at how wonderful the weekend had turned out. I felt like the relationship that I had been dreaming of since high school was finally coming to fruition. Bella had let me in on so many levels over the course of these few days that I felt honored and somewhat ashamed. While Bella had opened up to me, I still had secrets deep in my closet that I had yet to share. I'm sure Dr. Banner would be commenting on it during our next session this week. He was the only one who knew the shame that I felt every day and why Victoria still held so much power over me.
Shaking the dark thoughts from my mind, I started making our sandwiches. Moving around the island, I heard my phone beeping, letting me know that I had a message. Glancing down at my phone, I saw that I had three missed calls and two new text messages. Rolling my eyes, I decided to read the texts first.
Hope U had a good bthdy. Get some? C U Thurs – Em
Crap, I had forgotten that Emmett was moving in with me this week. So much for thoughts of having spontaneous sex around my house now. My brother had impeccable cockblocking timing. I finally get a girlfriend who I want to bone in every room in my house and I now, for the first time since living with my parents, get a freaking roommate.
I felt arms encircle me, shaking me out of my musings.
"Whatcha doing?" she asked, standing on her tiptoes to give me a quick chaste kiss.
"Mmm… come here, that wasn't nearly enough of a kiss for me." I insisted, putting the phone down and grabbing her by the waist.
She fell back into my embrace and I could feel her wet hair brushing against my chest, smelling of mint and my body wash. Kissing her deeply, I mumbled into her mouth that I really needed to get her some of her girly body wash so that she smelled like her instead of me.
"Oh, I don't know. I kind of like smelling like you. So what did you make?" She twirled out of my grasp and headed towards the counter were the sandwiches were sitting.
"I only had turkey and Swiss, so I hope that's okay. I need to get to the store, but getting followed around by cameras while shopping is pretty unappetizing.
"I'm famished, so you could feed me just about anything at this point."
"Want something to drink?" I asked, heading over to the fridge to pull out a bottle of water for myself.
"Water would be great, thanks."
Grabbing our plates and water we walked out to the patio that surrounded my pool.
"God, what a view. How do you ever leave here?" she inquired as she sat down at the shaded table.
"I actually haven't enjoyed it nearly enough, and with my upcoming schedule, I probably won't have time to appreciate it for a while," I explained solemnly.
"Yeah, I guess we're back to the real world tomorrow, huh?" She shrugged, looking a bit sad as she took a big bite of her sandwich, getting a smear of mustard on the corner of her mouth.
"Ugh… don't remind me," I huffed, taking my thumb and sweeping the mustard off. She quickly licked my thumb before I could lick it off, soliciting a grumble from deep in my stomach. I threw her a dark look of warning. "You can't do things like that or I'm going to throw you over my shoulder and we're not leaving the bedroom until the sun comes up."
"Sorry, as much as I'd love to spend the rest of the day in your bedroom, I do have to go back to my house and get ready for the week. It's going to be a bit insane for me too you know…just cause you're a big time celebrity doesn't mean you're the only one with a busy schedule," she claimed mockingly.
I threw my hands up in defeat. "Okay, okay, you're right. So does that mean you're heading home soon?" I pouted, hoping to change her mind, knowing that we probably wouldn't see much of each other for the week.
"Nah uh… that pout isn't going to work on me, I have laundry to do and a week's worth of guests to read up on. " She gazed up at me through her thick lashes laced with what looked like regret.
"So what time do you have to leave then?"
"I should probably head out in an hour or two." I was bummed, but could see from the look on her face that she was just as unhappy about it as I was.
"So what's going on this week and when do I get to see you? I'm not sure I'm going to be able to wait until next weekend." I grabbed her hand to reiterate my point, needing to show how much I hated to not be able see or touch her for a few days.
"Aside from waking up before dawn for work and volunteering, I have to do a couple of location gigs and we have our station's Hot Time in the City concert festival this Saturday, so I have some promotions to do around that as well. If we're lucky and you're free, we might be able to hang out on Sunday," she sighed, rubbing the back of my hand and looking deflated.
"Sunday… really?" I groaned, not wanting to wait that long. "I am in rehearsals for the tour all week, Emmett is coming in on Thursday and I'm filming my next video on Friday, but maybe we can meet up for dinner?" I got up and walked around and knelt before her. "Let's not let our schedules get in the way of US, okay? I've finally got you and I don't want to lose you due to our busy lives," I pleaded, trying to get her to understand how desperate I was to make this fragile relationship work. I knew that I was going to be gone for most of the summer and didn't want us to retreat into ourselves once things got hectic.
She looked down at me and gave me a shy smile. "Okay," she whispered, leaning in to give me a kiss filled with the longing we both were feeling.
"Let's talk once I get home and check my schedule about when we can get together for dinner, alright? I don't want to go all week without seeing you either."
"Deal. Let's not waste the rest of our time together getting depressed about it." I tugged on her hand, helping her up. She leaned in and gave me a tight hug, burying her head into my chest and nuzzling against the soft cotton of my t-shirt. I felt the sexual tension within me begin to rise, but wasn't sure if Bella was up for another round.
Heading back inside with our dishes, I heard my phone ringing in the distance. "Crap…" I mumbled, remembering that I never made it through the messages that were still stored on it. I knew I wasn't going to be able to answer it in time and let it roll over into voicemail. Figuring it was most likely either Emmett or my mom, I left the phone where it was and went to attend to Bella who was now washing up our lunch dishes.
"Who was that?" she inquired, not bothering to look up.
"Don't know. I missed the call and didn't want to interrupt whatever time we had left for the day," I replied, wrapping my arms around her and grabbing the dish from her wet hands.
"It's okay, Edward. If you have things to do, I understand." Her ass was backed up into me, and being this close to her was causing my internal temperature to climb once again. I needed to have her again and had a funny feeling that I would never get enough of her.
Spinning her around to face me, I leaned in and whispered in her ear, "The only thing I want to do is you."
I crashed my mouth onto her beautiful lips, feeling riled up and possessive after our chat earlier. Our tongues were quickly wrestling for dominance in each other's mouths while our hands were roaming, greedily pushing and pulling at the little clothes we were wearing.
"Edward, can you do something for me?" She pulled away from our embrace, panting out her question.
I gazed into her lust filled eyes and smirked before murmuring in her ear, "Whatever you need."
"Fuck me? Here, against the counter, or on the couch, but fuck me, hard, and fast? You've made love to me all morning and I need something raw. I don't know why I'm feeling this way… edgy or something. I don't know," she begged, shaking her head, almost trying to rid herself of the feeling. "I just know that I want you so badly it's making my body actually ache for you…"
Without letting her finish her confession, I scooped her up into my arms and stalked over to the leather couch. Attacking her clothes, they fell off of her in a flash, my mouth in a fury discovering every inch of exposed skin. I wasn't sure what had come over me. It was as if her words sparked some unbridled passion deep within me. I suddenly wanted to take us to places that I had only dreamt about. I wanted to bite her and tug on her hair. I wanted to bend her over, spread her legs and fuck her into oblivion. I started to turn her around when her head shot up breaking our contact.
"Wait… wait…" she repeated breathlessly. I immediately pulled back, shocked, trying to figure out what I had done wrong.
"It's just um… my back. I don't want you to…" I overtook her mouth, effectively keeping her from completing her sentence. She didn't want me to take her from behind because she was embarrassed. I would need to work on her confidence over time, but for today, I would give in to her request.
"Baby, you know it doesn't bother me. I think you are the most gorgeous thing I've ever laid eyes on, but I don't want you to be uncomfortable." I sat down on the couch and pulled her into my lap, running my hands over her shoulders and down her arms, trying to soothe her psyche.
"I know… I'm sorry." She hung her head dejectedly.
"Hey," I replied, tipping her chin up so that she was looking at me. "I believe you mentioned something about fucking," I reminded her, trying to get her to focus on something other than her perceived imperfections.
She gave me a crooked grin and assaulted my mouth greedily. I was relieved to know that the mood wasn't completely destroyed.
Wasting no time, she slid herself down onto me in one quick movement and began to dictate the pace.
"Oh God, Bella, you feel so good." My hands ran up her back and threaded themselves into her hair. I tugged lightly to see what her response would be. She moaned delectably and while her head was pulled back, I had to attend to her beautiful neck.
"Edward, please…" she begged as I dropped one of my hands between us and began rubbing her clit.
"Look at me," I directed. When her eyes met mine, I seized her waist and flipped her on to her back on my floor.
My head descended at once, latching on to her pert nipple. My hips continued to pump wildly as I felt the pressure building towards my orgasm.
"I'm so close…," she moaned, tugging on my hair and running her short nails over my back.
I grabbed her leg and threw it over my shoulder, while using the other one that was pushed up against her chest as leverage to shift the angle, hoping to hit the elusive g-spot I had always heard things about.
"Mary mother of God!" she exclaimed as her body clamped down on my dick, sending me over the edge and exploding in to her.
I collapsed on top of her, carefully keeping most of my weight off of her.
Wiping her hair from her forehead, I glanced into her expressive eyes. "You are filled with surprises Miss Swan." I leaned down and kissed her lovingly. "Now that you've opened the flood gates, how am I supposed to not have you every minute of every day?"
"Hmm… I could probably be asking you the same question Mr. Masen. That was incredible."
"That it was, that it was…" I agreed, nuzzling into her hair.
"As much as I would love to continue lying on the floor…" she teased, reminding me that we were indeed laying on my uncomfortable hardwood floor.
"Right, sorry." I muttered, climbing off of her and pulling her back up on to the sofa next to me. We relaxed in comfortable silence for a while just basking in the afterglow of our day's escapades.
After a while, I felt Bella scoot out of my arms as she turned to tell me that she should get dressed and get ready to leave.
"I know. I'm just not ready to let you go yet…" I pulled her into my side, hugging her tight.
"Me neither, but reality was bound to come crashing in at some point, right?" She smiled sadly, picking up the yoga pants and tight t-shirt that we had shed so quickly.
"So you need to head home now?" I quirked my head to the side, throwing her my best puppy dog eyes.
She nodded forlornly and walked off back towards my kitchen looking lost in thought.
I watched her head up to my room to retrieve her overnight bag, looking distant and melancholy. Walking up the stairs behind her, I pulled on a pair of jeans and another T-shirt from my dresser before sliding my favorite pair of flip flops on.
"You ready to go?" she asked me, walking from the room.
Following her, I replied almost inaudibly, "As much as I'll ever be."
We silently walked towards the garage, picking up my keys, phone, and wallet as we walked by the bowl that I dropped them in when I came in the house.
I opened the door to the Audi for her and then walked around, letting myself in on the other side. I needed to ask her what she was thinking, the silence had moved into the awkward stage.
We pulled out of my driveway and made the trip back to her home in Santa Monica.
"So are you going to tell me what's on your mind, or are we going to settle for awkward silence?" I asked, trying to add a hint of joviality into my question to mask how serious I actually was.
"Hmm?" she asked, finally turning her head to look at me.
"What's going on inside that head of yours?"
"Nothing…"
"Bella, you're a crappy liar. What's wrong?" I grasped her hand that was sitting in her lap, moving my thumb over the smooth back side of it.
I heard her sigh heavily. It felt like she was trying to weigh her words carefully.
"Um… I sort of feel like one of those people, who after being deaf their whole lives, gets their hearing restored thanks to modern technology…"
"What? I'm not trying to be obtuse, but I don't follow." I said, glancing quickly over at her profile next to me.
She hung her head and mumbled into her lap, "I'm scared Edward. I never thought that I was lonely, because for so long, it's all I've known. Now you come along and shine this big bright light in my face, illuminating all that was dark and wrong about my life before. I'm scared." She reiterated, looking up at me, her eyebrows furrowed and the sparkle of unshed tears in her eyes. "Now that I know what it's like to proverbially hear, I don't want to go back to being deaf. Does that make any sense?" she confided. "This weekend has been one of the best and one of the most challenging of my life. You're the first person that I've truly let in and I'm feeling raw and exposed. Now that we're leaving our little bubble, I fear what's to come now." I could hear the emotion welling up in her voice and wished that she hadn't waited until we were in the car to tell me all of this. All I wanted to do was envelop her in my arms and comfort her.
"You know that you're doing the same for me, right?" I asked, trying to verbally reassure her instead.
She threw her head back against the seat, slouching down, looking so fragile and broken.
"Do I? You've had this confidence about us since we reconnected and I just feel a little overwhelmed by these feelings. I just don't know what I'm doing…" she huffed, closing her eyes.
"This confidence is all a façade, Bella. I don't know what I'm doing either, but I trust US, that's all I have." I grabbed her hand, squeezing it gently.
We pulled up to her little bungalow and I jumped out of the car to open the door for her. I grasped her hand and pulled her up into a warm embrace.
"I'm sorry. I know I'm being silly…"
"Hey, this is new to us both. I want to know what you're thinking and feeling. Don't hide it from me, or we really won't work. Okay?" I pulled back and gazed into her eyes, trying to ensure that she knew the sincerity of my words.
"Okay…" she muttered shyly. I pulled her bag out of the backseat and walked her up to her door.
"Did you want to come in for a few?" she asked timidly.
"No, I should head back. Call me later?" I leaned down and gave her a chaste kiss, knowing that if it got any deeper, I would probably force my way into her house and go for round four.
"Mmm kay…" she moaned into my mouth. "Thanks for the lovely weekend. Really, Edward, I had a great time."
"Me too… I'll talk to you later?"
I watched her enter her house and I quickly walked back to my car, the huge smile on my face unfaltering.
You've had more sex in twelve hours than you have in the last twenty five years. About freaking time! I thought to myself, patting my internal rock star on the back.
I was almost half way home when my phone rang. Grabbing my Bluetooth headset, I turned it on and answered, "Hello."
"Edward, where the fuck have you been? I've tried you four times, why haven't you called me back?" shouted Rosalie.
"Good afternoon to you too, Rose. What can I do for you?" I replied calmly, knowing my publicist's affinity for the overly dramatic.
"Edward, we have a big fucking problem," she snapped seriously.
A/N
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