Authors Note- Sorry, another late update, a semi busy day today, I will be doing hw all day tomorrow, so inbetween subjects I will try to update!

It's been a very interesting day, of course Susan did everything in her power to keep us away from each other. And if we had to be together, we got the most interesting cases. The rectal was just the tip of the iceberg. Right now I want to forget it all and go home. Abby's already home. I don't think it's fair that she gets to leave early because she's pregnant. Well, okay so if I was carrying a baby inside of me, I'd love to go home too. But Bryce got to hang around and finish work with me. Fourteen full hours. Poor kid. He's probably traumatized for life. I throw my last chart into the discharge bin and Susan starts laughing at me. I give her my signature evil glance and she stops. I pull Bryce out of the chair by the desk, and we head towards the lounge. He looks worn out. He's probably going to go straight to bed when we get home. Which could prove very valuable. I haven't talked to him since he apologized, and I guess I'm really not in the mood right now to either. It's the exhaustion. It gets to a person after a while. We walk in silence towards the L, and the train comes momentarily. He leans against me, he's ready to pass out. He deserves it. I'm sorry to say it, but that will teach him to experiment with girls at age ten. We manage to get to the apartment, and he goes straight towards his room. We've got the night to ourselves. I walk into the living room to find Abby on the sofa, covered in about ten blankets. It's not that cold in here, or outside for that matter. I kneel down next to her, I hate waking her, but I have to.

"Abby..."

She sighs slightly and opens her eyes. I put my hand up to her forehead, and she's burning up. Oh god, no not now. Not now. I run over to the washroom and grab the thermometer out of the cabinet. I run back to her and take her temp. 102.3. This isn't good. If she wasn't pregnant, I would give her some Tylenol or write a prescription for penicillin, but the pregnancy complicates things. There are drugs that can cause major trauma to the womb. I gently shift her head, going for her carotid pulse, then comparing to wrist pulse. They are both lower than they should be. Maybe I'm just overreacting. Maybe it's just a simple infection that her body's beginning to fight off. But no infection during a pregnancy should be taken lightly. I grab the phone. I can't do this. If she was some random woman brought in, then maybe I would be able to do something. But she's not, and I'm scared to death. I dial the hospital and I hear Susan pick up.

"Susan, it's Abby."

I hear her move the phone a bit, hushing the people behind her.

"What's up?"

I take a deep breath, pulling myself together.

"She's got a temp of 102.3, hypotensive, and vaguely responsive to surroundings."

I'm holding her hand somewhat tightly, hoping this is all a dream or she's playing a game to tease me.

"BP?"

I run over her sats again. God, she' getting worse by the minute.

"Systolic 115, Diastolic 70, Pulse 50."

I hold the phone between my shoulder and my ear, and I use my hands to pull her down, so she has a clear airway.

"How's her breathing?"

I pause for a second, she's breathing, but raspy and forced.

"She's breathing on her own, but I'm not sure for how long."

This isn't happen. This isn't happening. She was fine just a few hours ago. She was perfectly fine.

"How far along is she?"

I count the weeks in my mind. They've just flown by.

"About 24 weeks."

I just noticed Bryce standing a few feet away from me, terror etched on his face.

"An ambulance just went out. ETA about 5 minutes. Hold on Carter, she'll be okay."

~*~

The ride, the day, everything has been a blur. Nothing has been established, I'm not allowed to go in to see her just get. God I wish I knew what was happening. Maybe that's a reason why they wont' tell me anything. I'll know how bad it might get. Bryce finally cried himself to sleep next to me. I ended up carrying him into the lounge and laying him down on the sofa in there. It's quieter. I sit down at the table and I hear the door swing open. Luka walks in and sits down across from me. I look at him with pleading eyes. He's acting professional, which is probably the only way this could work.

"What's wrong? Is she okay?"

He nods his head slowly.

"She threw a clot in her right leg."

No. That's impossible. I mean it's possible, but why Abby? Why now?

"We have her on heparin for the moment, small doses."

I nod my head. Heparin during pregnancy is a big risk.

"But it's not enough. We need to get her started on regular dose."

I cringe, no, this is all a horrible nightmare I'm having.

"John, you need to talk to her. You only have so many options left. If we keep her on the doses that we have right now, it's not enough, she can clot again. She needs to deliver this child. It's 24 weeks, perfectly healthy. We've saved worse upstairs."

I shake my head, I can't make this decision. I doubt she can either.

"What if she doesn't?"

I know the answer to my own question, but what if I'm wrong? What if there are some new breakthroughs I don't know about?

"If we start the heparin now, you'll loose the baby. If you don't start it, you can loose both. If she delivers, they are both given a chance."

This isn't supposed to be happening. I run my hand through my hair, I don't know what to do anymore. All those years of medical school, internship, residency, attending, nothing can help me make the decision for my own family.

"What would you do?"

I watch the man shrug his shoulders.

"I'd do everything not to loose either one."

I nod my head, and walk towards the door. We've got to figure out what to do together. I can't loose her. I can't loose her, no matter what happens, I need her. I can't live without her.

***REVIEW RESPONSES***

hyperpiper91- DUUUUUUUUUUDE! Your name is Jordan? You lucky duck, that is such a cool name!!!! I want a name like that. I get stuck with boring name :( Ernie is coming soon....

Kate- lol, yeah I am okay, just lazy and kinda busy, if you can believe that lol. I have really gotten behind on posting the chapters.

IDontWriteIJustRead- heh. Carter was being a bit of a prissy pants in the last chapter.

Caitlin- I am a little off track with the updates, I will try to post more I promise:)

AngelicDevil1 - HAHAHAHA good idea, we should have hahaha.

MrsWyle- I agree, Carter sex would be fun. The beard is HORRIBLE, but its gone now, so its all good.

carbylobsterandavrilfan- Yeah he was very crushed when Bryce said that :( some kids can be mean... take that back, all kids can be mean, lol well sometimes.

Amanda- HAHAHA horny Abby hahaha.

CamilaC- I hope you have a good trip :), I think you should have a few chapters to read byt the time you get back!

mandi- Thank you, yeah at least he said ILY!!!!

FroggERs- They love each other, I just thjink they had to go through a rough patch before htey can truly love each other, and you will see in the upcoming chapters that they are having an easier time, they understand each other more.

***PREVIEW***

I tilt my head over the side of the bed and see pools of blood on the ground... Oh my god what has happened here. My baby, is something wrong with my baby? Did I deliver already, I can't breathe, I need to breathe. Why can't I breathe? . "They had to deliver Abby." I'm twenty-four weeks along, I can't deliver. "No." I manage to croak.