I don't own Harry Potter or any of the songs I use, I just like them both...more than anyone should; it gets ridiculous.

This song is called "Satisfy" by Vedera. I found them on iTunes awhile back and I loved it. Sorry about the teaser of the fundraiser in the last chapter but it's coming very soon, I promise. I figured that we need a little brother/sister stuff first.

Thanks to:

Sammy Sosa the 13th: I'm glad you're enjoying the story.

EmoPrincess21: The 12th I think will be my favorite and I didn't even write it yet.

Casi (jokergirl4ever): Yes, I decided, to let Draco be on the end of the heartache for once but this heartache seems to be a moot point, ya know?

LadyRin98790: I'm moving as fast as I can…damn college.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

If there was a way to try and make it back
back to where we started from
could I find a way to try and make you stay?
Would I know what could be done?

I don't wanna deny my heart its chance to feel
I don't wanna deny my soul something real

"Mione?"

She looked up and saw Harry standing there.

"Are you alright? Did Draco hurt you?"

Hermione shook her head 'no' and launched herself into her 'brother's' arms. He held her, letting her cry. When she had finished he took her by the hand. "Come on, Mione."

"Where are we going?"

"When was the last time we had a 'brother/sister dinner'?" he asked with a smile. "When I told you that I was going to marry Ginny?"

"About that." She said.

They walked down the street to a restaurant called Vedera. After the order was taken she looked at Harry. "There are so many days…"

"Do you ever regret it?" he asked, "Leaving Malfoy?"

"Everyday…I wish…I pray to Nyx…to go back to that day…to let him explain himself…to go back to the way it was. How was I supposed to know that this would drive me to insanity?"

"You didn't."

"I feel like I'm denying my heart the chance to feel anything for him" she said, looking out the window.

"You still love him, we can all see it."

"I just don't wanna deny my soul…something real."

"What, Ron, wasn't real?" Harry laughed.

"Let's not go there." She laughed. "Draco touched my soul, though, which made it real."

Is there anything left in this world
that will satisfy me?
Is there anything left in this world
that will satisfy you tonight?

We were sailing on, I could see the world below
Never thought of coming down
Expectations fell, it seemed as though our will
was no match for the trouble found

I don't wanna deny my heart its chance to feel
I don't wanna deny my soul something real

"You miss him, don't you? I can see it in your eyes." Harry said.

Hermione nodded. "Nothing really makes me smile anymore…not even reading." She said. "Nothing brings me joy."

"What do you mean?" he asked concerned.

"When I was with Draco, I felt like I was flying and I never wanted to come down. I expected that he had changed his ways but I was wrong. He was just the way he was in Hogwarts."

"Mione…"

"No, Harry, don't try and tell me he's changed because he took my heart and soul and crushed it."

So take my hand and I won't look back
though I've lived tossed along these waves
I will stay

Hermione told Harry she had to get ready for the fundraiser the next day and left. When she got back to her hotel room she crawled into bed and cried and cried. She had no idea what she wanted to do. She wanted Draco back but she also didn't want to get hurt. The tears gave way to sleep…a sleep filled with a dream.

/She was standing on a beach. The waves rolled onto the shore, only do be dragged back out. She loved the beach. It calmed her and brought her back to the reality she had once known.

"Hermione."

"Mum? Dad?" She turned….but that was impossible…the Memory Eraser was irreversible.

"We're a little disappointed in you, love." Her father said.

"Huh?"

"We've raised you better than this. Treating that boy like scum." Her mother said.

"But…"

"No excuses, Mia." Her father said, looking into the ocean. She followed his gaze and saw Draco standing in the waves.

"Draco?"

"Mione." He said, holding his hand out to her. She went to take his hand. When she felt there skin touch she felt fireworks shoot off of her skin.

"I still love you." She whispered.

"I will always love you." He said, taking her out further in the water.

"I just…don't hurt me." she said.

He pressed a kiss to her lips before letting her go and watching her sink./

Hermione sat up, breathing heavily. Seeing that she was in her room she sank back against the headboard. Glancing at the clock she saw that is was 5 am.

"Fuck." She moaned. "Fuck fuck fuckity from Fucktown, Fuckania."

She knew she was born to love him but she had to stay…but did she have to be with him?