Yeah, I still don't own Twilight, sad business that.. *sniff*
This is from Daniels point of view and has no volturi in it, but still... don't hate me! I had this chapter written about a week ago because it wouldn't stop rumaging in my head.
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11 Car Crash
Daniel
After breakfast I got into my car and drove home. You couldn't really call it breakfast, those vampires had made a feast out of it, I was so stuffed you could roll me home. It was still dark outside but I had some work to finish lying on my desk. Driving down the highway, my thoughts trailed around the strange turn my life had taken. Two days ago I had been comparatively secure in my plans for the future. I had found the woman I wanted to share my life with, white picked fences and the statistically 1.4 children playing in the garden had dominated my daydreams, although I had never been the family guy.
Ever since Tanya had told me her secret, my thoughts twirled and ran around in my head, never slowing down enough for me to make sense of all that had changed. My view of the world and my place in it had been deranged and left in shambles. Somehow I had stumbled into a mysterious world where monsters from horror movies actually existed. I had known that there was something strange about this wonderful woman since I first met her. A dark secret. It was in the way her golden eyes narrowed when my questions concerned her past, the way her beautiful, musical voice changed when she spoke about her family. Hesitating, deliberating, so obviously keeping things from me. I had wanted her to trust me, badly. But now, that I was in on the secret, did I still want it? Yes, I decided. More than anything did I want to have her confidence. I had fallen for this gorgeous, loving woman, and I had fallen hard, straight from the beginning of our relationship. I had wondered countless times what a woman like her wanted with someone like me. Now I had new things to consider. One of Tanya's cousins, Bella, had answered a few questions for me, giving me new things to ponder. She had found her soul mate in Edward; more important she had been human at the time, just like I was now. Edward seemed to have felt the same for her.
Could it be? Could Tanya possibly see her soul mate in insignificant me? What would this mean? Would she want me to change over? Would she expect me to become a vampire for her? More important did I want that? I was not sure, what I wanted or if I wanted to know the answers to all these questions. My thoughts changed to the things I had learned about vampires in the last 24 hours. Most of the common myths seemed to be false. The coffin thing, garlic, crosses, burning in sunlight… Two other rumours had turned out to be true; blood drinking and immortality. Then there were the other things like vampire gifts, super strength and… enemies. There seemed to be a silent war going on. Did I want to be a part of that? I ditched this question, because I couldn't answer it at the moment and concentrated on my Tanya instead. My Tanya? I pondered that thought. Yes, my Tanya, I finally decided, it didn't matter to me what she was. She was the sun my life circled around. I was irrevocably caught by her gravity. Even though she was a blood drinking vampire, she would never hurt me, I was positive about that. The others, especially the British ones, had admired her control. Bella had said something – something about the thirst hurting in the back of their throat – that explained the awe. The conversation started to play in my head again…
Bella had finished her explanation about the thirst and I had thought about it.
"If smelling blood hurts you, how can you control the thirst? I mean, why are you so… civilized?" I asked.
"We don't want to be animals. We believe in the integrity of human lives and don't want to be murderers. In order to live with our conscience control is absolutely necessary." She explained.
"That is why you drink only animal blood." I concluded, "But how can you control yourself. I can imagine it's not easy."
She smiled and nodded, "It is not. For me it seems to be a mind over matter thing. Since I have made up my mind, not to hurt humans, well I just don't. Knowing that it is possible helps a lot. Without Carlisle as a role model we wouldn't be what we are. Some have more problems with it, though, like Jasper. That is why he keeps away from you. He doesn't trust his control completely." She pointed in the direction of a tall, blond man standing next to the small pixie-like girl, who seemed to be able to predict the future. As we watched he looked up and gave us a crooked smile, as if he had listened to our conversation. A little embarrassed to get caught staring I quickly turned back to Bella.
"What about Tanya?" I asked concerned, trying to keep my voice down.
Bella seemed to consider something before she told me, "Tanya has been a vegetarian for over a century. Normally she is fine."
"Normally?" I pestered. I had noticed moments, when Tanya turned away from me, cringed or seemed to be holding her breath for much longer than possible. I thought I knew why, now.
"It's harder for her with you, because of the way your blood smells to her," Bella slowly explained. "You have very appetizing smelling blood to all of us, but to her it is much stronger. You are to her, what I had been to Edward. A singer. You're blood calls to her."
I had been shocked at hearing that.
"She would never hurt you," Bella assured me, "You are her life now. It would destroy her to loose you."
This conversation had given me lots of things to think about, so I fell silent afterwards. I was brought back to the present by two white lights coming from the opposite lane, nearly blinding me. I realised that I had come very close to the middle line, driving almost over it. The truck honked and speed past me. I shuddered. That had been close. For the first time I consciously noticed, that it rained hard. At some point I had started the wiper, but I couldn't remember it. I dragged myself together and tried to concentrate solely on driving but soon my thoughts returned to another conversation I had had earlier in the day...
Edward had bragged a little over the supreme control Bella had shown, when still a newborn. I soon learned that newborns were supposed to be ruled by thirst only, regaining higher functions of their brain sometime around the end of their first year.
Bella had protested instantly, "I don't think I was so very special. I knew what to expect, when I was changed. I knew about the thirst, and I new it could be controlled."
She turned towards me and continued, "I have a theory about that. Rosalie, Alice and Esme have never drunk human blood. And I know for a fact that Rose was very close to humans in her first year. Alice for her part woke up alone and nevertheless only fed on animals. They knew it was possible to control themselves, Rosalie because she was told and Alice because of her visions. Alice didn't fall into the so called newborn madness; she didn't know it even existed. I knew it existed and I guarded myself closely. I think any newborn can do as well as I did, provide he or she gets the right information before the change."
Edward hugged her close, "I still think, you are a natural and more special than anyone else, regardless what you say." He kissed her neck and she chuckled.
"Because you're biased. Carlisle said my theory was plausible."
As they started to cuddle and kiss I turned to Tanya. She had watched me concerned and I had kissed and embraced her, asking her what was wrong. But she only shook her head. Later she told me, that she was afraid there would be a point, when I had heard too much of her strange and dangerous world, a point, when I would leave her. I tried to convince her that it was quite the reverse, but she wouldn't listen to my arguments. So I just reminded her of my promise that I would tell her first before I ever left her.
Once again I was drawn from my thoughts by parallel lights on the streets in front of me. But these weren't blinding me; they weren't even lights, in fact, more like …reflectors, small parallel reflectors in the middle of the road. Realization hit me as the silhouette of an elk came into view and I promptly stomped hard on the brake. That was my first mistake, the tyres jammed and the car slid down the wet road towards the frozen animal, speeding up instead of slowing on the way. I panicked and turned the wheel and thus made the second mistake. Before I grasped what was happening the car started spinning around, skidding from the road and breaking through the road barrier. I – meaning the car with me inside – flew towards the trees, the tops of the trees, to be specific, their bases being about fifteen yards below. The car crashed through the first branches and the windshield shattered. I somehow managed to duck behind the wheel, one arm in front of my eyes, shards were everywhere now. The car spun from branches to branches making screeching and crushing sounds all around me. At some point I felt my legs break, but it didn't really hurt at the time. They say when you die your life runs in slow motion in front of your eyes. But I saw only Tanya's face. I was sad, that I would never see her again, never smell that sweet floral scent of her, she smelled like anemone in the rain. I would break my promise to her, the promise that I would never leave her without a word. A desperate feeling washed through me at this thought. Something cracked as the car hit yet another tree, my breathing got harder and suddenly very painful. I gasped for air and black spots danced in front of my eyes. Finally the car stopped about 2 yards from the ground. It hung in the trees facing the ground front first. I tried to cling to consciousness to scream for help, but all I managed was a groan. The darkness found me and swallowed me whole.
In the next chapter the vampires will learn what Alice's vision was about, but I think you can guess already... can't you?
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