AN: Wow, a lot has happened since the last time I've updated. Halloween, the Election, BREAKING DAWN PART TWO! Have any of you seen it? Holy crap, it was so... so... Holy crap.
Oh yeah, happy belated Turkey Day!
Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns all things Twilight. I may occasionally mention some other name brand and, chances are, I don't own that either. I own the plot though. :)
-SammiHammi
But as I stood in the middle of an open field with both eyes closed with two vampires, I did not hear the rage I expected. No, I didn't hear shrieks of anger, or any insults thrown my way.
Instead I heard laughter.
"You silly cow, that medication is really messing with your mind." She walked closer, running her fingers through my hair roughly. "But don't fret, I have the perfect antidote for that."
"N-no. I killed James. I killed him. Not Edward. No, no, no, n-not Ed-Edward."
She smiled. "No you didn't." She whispered. "But you helped, and for that, you'll pay forever."
And with that, she sunk her venom coated teeth into my jugular.
The Pain, Chapter Eleven: The New Chapter in Life is Unveiled
~Monday, March 15th, 2012~
I recognized the burning sensation instantly.
At first, it feels as if you have a hand warmer placed on your skin. Maybe you're sitting by a heating vent or fireplace. The warmth is relaxing, almost soothing.
Then the heat escalades a bit, you're in a sunroom, or greenhouse on a warm summer day.
Next, you feel as if you had burned yourself with an iron.
You've spilled boiling water on your skin.
You've touched an open flame.
Now, you're standing in one.
This has all happened in a matter of seconds, the venom gives you virtually no time to react, prepare, or even acknowledge what's just happened. All that you can do is endure it, and pray that it's almost over.
I wished for it to move throughout my body faster, for it to spread. But my hopes worked to no avail, the venom worked leisurely through my bloodstream, scorching everything in its wake. My body was burning, and I didn't know how much I could handle.
As all of this ran through my head, Victoria was still connected to my neck, sucking, taking, feasting. I was uncertain if she was going to stop or not, this was a bitter sweet moment, I wasn't so sure if I wanted her to stop.
On one hand, dying is bad; what person in the right mind would contemplate death? But, this pain was excruciating, and I knew that it was only the beginning, so, I suppose death would be welcomed in a situation as severe as this.
I wasn't sure how much time had passed, but when I was sure I had no blood left, Victoria released me. She violently through me on the ground, hard enough for me to hear a crack, and ran away, leaving me alone with Kevin.
I could barely focus on anything or anyone, but I knew that the combination of blood and a newborn didn't mix well, luckily, before I could panic, a new figure came to the scene and grabbed Kevin, dragging him off into the wilderness.
Now, I was alone.
I more so sensed the sun setting then rather than saw it, and it was when this happened that I realized something: I haven't been screaming.
I tried thinking back to that horrendous night in Phoenix when James had bitten me, I was thrashing and shrieking and begging for someone to help me, to put the fire out. I didn't understand why I wasn't screaming, but I was glad I wasn't.
I refuse to give Victoria the sick satisfactory that came with me loosing it. Even though she left, I doubt she went far, I still needed to watched, regardless of my state, so I knew I couldn't make the littlest of peeps. I was sure that opening my mouth would be the pebble that began the avalanche anyway. Even so, I wouldn't want any humans coming here to see what was going on, for their sake and mine.
I couldn't help but think that if I had never met James, then this whole experience wouldn't have happened. Victoria wouldn't be here, avenging him, and perhaps, just maybe... Edward would be with me, maybe they wouldn't have left at all.
That brought on a whole new wave of pain. Most would say that the pain from the venom couldn't be compared to anything else, they would say that it was the upmost agonizing thing they had ever gone through, but I can't. No, I have gone through much worse.
"I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
His words have never left me. They're a constant echo in the back of my mind, something that I've learned to live with. Some probably think that I've forgotten about him, or maybe I will in time. But I honestly don't think that's possible. I haven't seen him in over half of a year, but my love still burns for him as if it had been seconds.
No, I will never get over Edward Cullen.
At first, I didn't realize the pain was leaving my body. I didn't notice my toes and fingertips had stopped burning.
Maybe this meant it was almost over.
Or maybe it didn't...
Everything in my arm below my elbow was free from this torture, but sadly, the pain wasn't leaving my legs as quickly; the inferno inside of my body was still in my ankles.
As I laid down in the snow filled, secluded field, I noticed something. All of the pain that I was experiencing wasn't leaving me. No, it was simply relocating.
Everything that I have felt so far has moved to my heart, and the burning has multiplied by ten.
Something was wrong.
Why was I still hurting? Nowhere else beside my heart was on fire. When was it supposed to go out?
I thought about forgetting my useless plan to not scream several times, but denied myself. It wouldn't get me anywhere, anyways.
My heartbeat was going a mile a minute, my fingers dug into the snow, pushing them deep enough for me to feel the cool earth that laid beneath the ice.
All of a sudden, my heart stopped. Along with it, the pain. I could laugh, I could scream, I was so happy that it was finally over; but I stayed still.
What was I to do now? I was a vampire, I knew that much, but where should I go?
I certainly didn't want to leave with Victoria, but maybe... maybe I could go warn the Cullens.
I opened my eyes and revealed a world of light. I could see everything. It was unexplainable really.
The sky was beautiful, the clouds made it gray, but I could see past that. I could see out of this atmosphere and into space, I could see stars, despite the fact that the sun was shining.
I turned my head so that I could see the snow around me, it was stained red in my blood. I could see the little cracks of white that peaked through, too small for the human eye to see. The sun continued glisten, making the snow shimmer. But, the snow wasn't the only thing that was shining, I rose my hand up and saw how radiant it was for the first time.
I was sparkling. The sun was reflecting off of my skin, bringing out thousands of tiny diamond - esque patterns. My hand held no wrinkles, there were no lines, I flipped my hand to see, I didn't even have finger prints.
How strange... I thought.
My hands were so smooth, and soft. My skin looked flawless, not a mark, scab, or blemish. The only negative comment I could think of was the fact that I was so pale, but even that kind of worked.
Slowly, I stood up. I could see for miles, all around me I could see rows and rows of trees, hiding creatures within.
I finally noticed the noises. At first, they were just a quite buzz in the back of my head, but now I could pay attention to what I was hearing. I could listen to the snow falling as if it were a song, I could hear footsteps from miles away, for each one I could sense how far away they were from where I stood. There were thousands upon thousands of small heartbeats surrounding me, inviting me in.
A small tingle crept onto my neck as I registered the smell, but it was nothing too bad.
The wind blew and I caught the scent of something, something that wasn't at all appetizing, but it smelled sweet. I knew immediately that this was the scent of a vampire.
Not one, several. I mentally corrected myself.
I could tell distinctly that there were four different vampire - like scents, all leading to the same place.
Turning in that general direction, I thought about my options.
Well, I could just leave and do my own thing... And then what, though? I'd be solitary for the rest of my life? No way.
I could leave the scent and find the Cullens. But what if they didn't want me? What if they hated me, because I brought Victoria to them? If I had never met the Cullens, they wouldn't be in any danger at all. So, no, as much as it pains me to, I can't go to the Cullens.
So, that leaves me with one option: find Victoria. I can try and convince her to leave them in peace. I can convince her to come after me again. Maybe she'll end her vengeance with me. An eye for an eye.
And with that last thought, I began to run to my fate.
Oh my God! I thought.
I didn't even realize I was going that fast until I turned my head to see that I was at least a mile from where I was previously sitting. I couldn't be going any less than eighty five miles per hour.
The trees weren't blurring like I expected, my new perfect sight analyzed every little particle that I passed, allowing me to see everything as well as when I was still.
I whizzed past squirrels, chipmunks, rabbits, and even foxes, but I did not stop. The feeling that came over me couldn't be describes as anything less than pure exhilaration, so I couldn't help the smile that crept onto my face.
I heard a light pitter patter of feet to my left and slowed to examine it. Directly in front of my stood a giant buck, but when I approached it, the creature ran with such force that I'd think it had seen death itself.
But it had. I thought.
I am a predator. Since awakening officially, that thought had never come to mind. I am supposed to hunt, to kill.
Never did the thought to kill humans come to mind. I'm not going to become a monster, I'll have to survive off of animals.
I remembered what he once said to me, about how after a good hunt, vampires are stronger, so figured that maybe I could try it out, I had a feeling that I would need all of the strength I could get.
I let my instincts take over as I ran off after it. The deer didn't get that far, so it didn't take that long for me to find him. I quickly snapped its neck, I was surprised at how easy it was. I dropped the animal and looked at my hands.
What am I capable of?
I didn't think as I brought my mouth to the jugular. I could feel my teeth being coated in some substance, which I assumed was venom as they sank into the flesh of my first pray.
It didn't taste remotely as good as I thought it would. It actually took me some strength not to spit the bitter liquid out. I did notice, however, that small tingle in my throat left all together, which was good, I suppose.
I lifted my head when the beast was dry and stood, deciding to let nature take its course, I left.
I ran for about five minutes before I heard the sound of others. I recognized the scent and knew it was Victoria and her crew. I continued to run until I was standing before them. I saw Kevin and Laurent standing beside her.
"Look who finally decided to show up." Said Victoria.
"Sorry to keep you waiting." I scowled. I was surprised by my voice, it was so clear and melodious, like music.
Her eyebrows rose. "Well, look whose being bitchy."
"I want answers." I spoke confidentially. "Now."
"Okay, okay. What do you want to know?"
"Everything."
"Alright." She muttered. "In the beginning, I had sent Laurent here to go spy on you. When he returned and told me that the Cullens had left, an idea hatched in my head.
"Why don't I use you against them? I could kill you and send them the message. They would feel what I felt when you took James from me." She glared. "I was going to torment you a bit, maybe video tape it. I had this whole evil plan worked up, only to be shattered by what you told me.
"You don't mean anything to them. Nothing, nothing at all. So, I thought of a better idea. You and I can kill the Cullens. Together. But we couldn't do it by ourselves, so I rounded up Laurent and Kevin."
"I thought you were in Denali?" I confronted Laurent.
He smiled wickedly and shrugged. "Old habits die hard." He raked his eyes up my body. "This new life treats you well, I'm sure that the two us could make good use of it."
I glared. "Go fuck yourself."
He chuckled. "But it so much more fun when there's two of us."
Shuddering, I turned to Kevin. "And what was your part in all of this?"
He seemed focused on my face, his eyes were glazed over and his mouth was slightly parted. So, I snapped my fingers in front of his face.
"Hello? Earth to Kevin, I asked you a question." He blinked.
Victoria rolled her eyes. "Looks like somebody's got a crush. Anyway, Kevin has a gift. He can take the form of someone else. For instance; Dr. Sharron, Dr. Xavier, and Tony, have been dead for months."
I gapped. "What?"
Kevin smiled and he morphed into Dr. Xavier right before my eyes. "Yo-you fa-fa-f-f-fasci-fascinate m-me" He mocked, laughing. "Remember?"
"Why are your eyes...?" I trailed off, looking at the turquoise pools.
He shrugged. "I don't know."
I had to get back to the task at hand here. "Victoria, I'm not going to help you kill the Cullens." I supposed being blunt was the way to go.
"Excuse me?" She scoffed.
Grounding my teeth, I spoke again. "I will not help you destroy some of the only people I actually love in this world."
Her glare would turn anyone to stone, but for some reason I remained unaffected. "But they obviously don't feel the same, or else they wouldn't have kicked you to the curb as fast as they did."
"It was all a trick. They did it to protect me from the likes of you." I had no idea where these lies were coming from, but I was certainly in no mood to stop them.
"Then you're to die." She growled. "Laurent, Kevin, do my dirty work." Coward. I thought. She couldn't even kill me herself.
Laurent came at me first, I easily blocked his first punch, but surprisingly, in the process I knocked his arm off. He let out a scream and came at me again. I ripped his other arm off and he fell to the ground. I stomped my foot as hard as I could in the center of his back, breaking him in two.
I think we were all surprised at what just happened, so, for about five seconds nobody moved.
"Well, get her you lazy sack of shit!" Victoria screamed at Kevin.
Everything happened so quickly, I had no time to process my actions, but, I pushed Kevin with all my might, sending him flying. He landed on a tree, destroying it. I quickly ran to him before he could collect his bearings and ripped his head from his shoulders.
"Wow... that was... easy." Obviously, neither of them had much training in combat, then again, neither had I.
Smiling, I turned towards Victoria.
Her eyes widened and before one could blink she was gone. I ran after her, as fast as I could. She was fast, I would give her that much, but I was faster, so I caught up to her in no time.
She kept disappearing, not turning invisible or anything, but running out of my sight and getting away. I always managed to find her though.
After about two hours of chasing, I couldn't handle it anymore.
I wanted her! A sudden burst of power came over me and I ran up to her so that I was five feet away at most. I knew she could sense I was closer, but she was going as fast as she was able and couldn't move with any more acceleration.
I heard the whooshing of something and realized she was running towards the ocean. That didn't matter, I would follow her until she was dead.
I reached an arm out and tried to grab her, but she was still too far, and I couldn't go any faster. I was so angry. She was going to die one way or another!
Something strange happened just then. A mist like substance began to seep out of me, moving towards Victoria. She didn't seem to notice it, but when the it began to lick at her back, she stopped running. I had to dig my heals into the ground to stop me from knocking into her.
Victoria was fully enveloped in my mist now, and her eyes were dead. She was still; like a statue.
I wanted her to go through the worst, I wanted her to go through hell. Her worst fear. But, before I could shred her to pieces, something changed. It was almost as if I could see what Victoria was thinking, yet I was here physically with her at the same time.
In her mind, I could see the meadow that we were currently standing in, but I wasn't there, and she wasn't frozen.
A figure walked out of the shadows.
"James!" Victoria called, running to him. "You're alive!"
"Yes, and well." He chuckled. James looked exactly as I remembered him, in fact, he was wearing what he had when I saw him last Spring. Probably because I didn't have any images of him in my head where he looked any different.
I noticed that both Physical Victoria and Mental Victoria were speaking and moving, even though James was only with her in her mind.
"How?" She asked, stepping closer.
"I never died."
"What? The Cullens killed you, I know they did."
He rose a brow. "Then what am I doing here?"
"Well - I - Uh..." She stuttered.
James's nose wrinkled. "You never were very smart, were you?"
She ignored that comment. "Where have you been? I would expect you to come straight to me, so we can finish off the Cullens once and for all."
"I've been... busy." He chuckled. "But don't worry, I haven't been alone."
She walked even closer and began to slowly reach her hand out to touch his chest. "James, I don't understa - ah!" She screamed. When their skin touched, James ripped her hand right off.
"Don't you dare ever touch me again, scum! I don't need the likes of you within a hundred miles of me." He finished with a glare.
"James, what's going on? Did I do something to upset you? I... I thought - " She was cut off by James's scoffing.
"Do you hear that? She thought!" He began clapping exaggeratedly. "Who would of guessed?"
"James, why are you being so cruel?"
Just then, a woman walked into the scene.
"James? What's going on? When are we - oh, who are you?" She asked Victoria in a snobby voice.
The woman was beautiful, I could see in Victoria's head that this was the exact woman that she had concocted in her mind when she feared that James was being unfaithful.
"Who am I? I'm his mate. Who are you?" She replied, obviously trying to make it sound like she was above this woman, but it sounded pathetic even to her ears.
James laughed again. "Hey babe, come here." Both the woman and Victoria stepped forward, but when James sent a look Victoria's way, she stepped back, and made a face as if he had pushed her.
"Ann, this is Victoria, my old whore. Victoria, this is Ann, my real mate." He pecked Ann's lips.
"How do you do." Muttered Ann. When Victoria only stared back, Ann grew angry. "Hasn't anyone ever told you it isn't polite to stare? James, take care of her."
He smiled. "My pleasure." He then proceeded to rip her apart and burn the pieces. Victoria was dead, or at least she was, in her mind.
Surprisingly, she could still see what was going on in her head. Ann began to kiss James tenderly, which he returned just as. Victoria watched as their kisses escaladed into something more, she cried and screamed, but it fell onto deaf ears.
I figured that I had, had enough and came out of Victoria's mind. Even as the bubble retracted back to me, Victoria still stood still. Black, tar like matter dripped from her eyes, mouth, ears, and nose, as I stood; staring.
I didn't have enough time to wonder what that was, I had to tend to business, so I threw Victoria over my shoulder and ran back to the meadow where Laurent and Kevin's bodies waited to be burned.
When all three of the bodies were incinerated, I wandered back to the hospital. No one was outside when I arrived, and I could hear hubbub going on in the hospital. It was now dark outside and the only thing illuminating the hospital were a few streetlights and the open night sky.
Even though I could smell the blood and hear the heartbeats, I wasn't tempted. Were the Cullens lying when they said that they couldn't handle the smell of blood? Were they trying to scare me? Because even as I stood outside of the backdoors, I could smell open wounds inside, yet I didn't want to suck everyone in sight dry. All that happened was that slight tingle returned, but that was certainly manageable.
I decided that it wasn't my biggest issue right now when I heard Dr. Fischer talking to someone on the phone inside.
"Yes, she's still missing."
"Are you sure you've searched the entire property? She's a little girl, Bella couldn't have gotten too far." I recognized my father's strained voice on the other side.
"I'm sorry Mr. Swan, but after this long of a wait and no reported sightings outside of town, I think it's time to assume the worse."
"No! She isn't gone, I know she isn't." He cried.
Dr. Fischer sighed. "Charlie, it's been almost a week. She has no food, water, plus that forest has been notorious for its bear and cougar sightings. On top of all of that, she has no way to treat the wounds she's - "
"What wounds? How do you know she was hurt?" He asked, panicked.
He sighed again. "I'm sorry Charlie, really, I am, but a few of our men found a significant amount of blood about a mile out. Enough blood was lost to consider a person dead, and if that didn't get her, the animals would have. I'm so sorry Charlie."
"How do you know if it's hers?" He asked, I could tell that he was crying now.
"We took a sample to the lab and - "
"NO! No, no, no, no, no... She can't be dead. No. There's still a chance, I won't believe anything until I see a body." And with that, he hung up.
I realized how much I was going to hurt my family by my new vampire state. They needed closure, they needed to move on.
I now knew what I had to do.
Tomorrow, I was going to fake my death.
AN: AHH! Holy unexpected twist Batman! I've had this in mind the entire time I've been writing, who was expecting it? And the eyes thing? How about Bella's ability? Who has any ideas on how she's going to fake her death?
IMPORTANT! -
I just thought that I'd explain Bella's power to anyone who's confused about it. (If you still have questions, please, review them and I'll answer anything you may ask)
Bella has the power to control the mind in whichever way she please, by making you think, feel, hear, smell, and see things that aren't really there. She can get deep inside of your subconscious and torture you with just a thought, but, nothing she does is real, it's all inside of your head. For instance, if she decides to burn you alive, even if on the inside your turning to ash, on the outside you look the same as always, besides the fact that you're screaming your head off. Bella can do virtually anything that has to do with the brain, varying from healing diseases within one's body, or killing you all together. If you're human and you die in your mind, you really die, but, if you're a vampire, you'll be trapped in your mind forever, never to awaken from your eternal slumber, unless of course your body is burned.
Her shield's still there, but in this case, it's used differently. All that is under her shield are under her power, she can give you the thought that you don't have an ability, then of course you can't use it whether they be corporeal gifts, or cerebral ones. So, even though are Bella's still learning, I ought to say that she's pretty badass.
