Okay, I am trying to make you guys like Magnus a little more though I am aware that it is going to take a very long time. ;) Also, don't like...don't read. Its not rocket science. (sorry)

Chapter 10

What had he done? What had he done? What had he done? What had he done? What had he done?

No matter how many different ways he said it, it never sounded any better. Everything was black. Literally and emotionally. Magnus couldn't sleep. He was a horrible person and now he was paying the price for it. He had betrayed Alec. Sweet, kind Alec and turned him into a monster. He deserved his fate.

How could he have done this? When did he become this? What had happened to him? Questions were swimming in his head, making him go crazy. After a while, it just sounded like angry noise. But noise that made him regret everything. He deserved his punishment. That's what he kept telling himself. Again and again.

"Magnus?" Came Camille's sleepy voice. "Why are you still awake?"

"Go back to sleep." He snapped a reply.

"What is wrong with you?" Camille snarled.

That was enough to make him snap. "You are. You're what's wrong with me. I can't pretend anymore, Camille! You're driving me insane!"

"Exuse me?" Her voice turned ridiculously high pitched. "How dare you talk to me like that?"

"I can't do it anymore." Magnus ignored her. "I can't keep lying to myself. I don't love you and I never will. In fact, I hate you. I've only now just realised it."

Her face was shock and his was pure hatred...

*

The man finished his elegant scrawl. He stared down at the paper, writing in blue ink covering it. The man just looked. Just looked at it, wondering. Wondering why. Wondering if. Wondering who. He was torn but he couldn't let it happen. He would never forgive himself if it did.

And they couldn't know it was him. If they did... well, he didn't know what they would do. But it would be bad. He knew that much. He clicked his fingers and the water droplets on the paper vanished, removing the blue pools if smudged ink.

He was going to do it. He was. It was for the best. Cautiously, he took the pen scribbling at the bottom. Magnus Bane. Taking out a stele, he drew a rune in the bottom corner and watched the paper burst into flames.

How long would it take them to get here? He didn't know. But they would arrive. He knew they would. There wasn't a flicker of doubt.

*

There was a sudden burst of light as the door opened. Magnus blinked rapidly at stared at the silhouette outside the cell. The man opened the cell door and grabbed Camille by the elbow. She screeched and yelled for Magnus but he did nothing, blocking her out.

He shut his eyes and heard the door slam. The room was dark once again. It was a while before the screams started but when they did, they seemed to last eternity. But what was worse, was the eerie silence that followed. Once she died. There was a sense of relief, guilt and fear. He was next. You deserve it. His concious said. Yes, he did.

The door opened again. Great, this is it. Magnus thought. But the man didn't grab him, just stood staring. That was when Magnus realised that it wasn't the same man from before. No. It was Alec.

Alec slowly walked into the cell and sat next to Magnus in the dark, hugging his knees. Magnus saw blue ink smudges on his fingertips and wondered who he had been writing to. Then suddenly, just like that, he was his Alec again. Young, inexperienced, perfect. They sat in silence for a while. It felt like nothing needed to be said. Though, of Course, alot did. Finally, Alec spoke.

"You've changed." He whispered.

"So have you."

A small laugh followed. "Yeah. Guess I have. I just... you went back to Camille. You're a different person."

"I know." Magnus admitted. "And I hate the person I am now. I don't know how it happened. How I can make it up to you."

"You can't." His voice cut like a blade. "Nothing can."

Those were the words that hurt the most. Out of all it, knowing that there was no chance of return caused physical pain.

"I'm sorry." He spluttered.

"That changes nothing." Alec whispered. "You're going to die today, Magnus."

"Yes." Was all he said. He had accepted it. "But I have said... horrible things to you, I get it. You hate me."

This was the part where Magnus expected Alec to say. "I don't hate you. I love you. Let's get back together." But that wasn't the answer he got.

"Yes." The hybrid said. "I do." He looked at Magnus, silver eyes fading to blue. He must have seen Magnus' face so carried on talking. "This you. This new you, I hate. The old you... I loved the old you. But you're not that person anymore."

The silence wasn't an awkward one but full of unspoken words. "I don't think I can be that person again." Magnus said after a while. "Not after all that's happened. He's gone."

"How long has he been gone?"

"Since you died. I just hadn't realised it." Alec looked at the floor, frowning. "But you're not the person I loved, either. You must know that. The Alec I loved was warm, loving. You're colder than ice."

"I have to be." Came a small voice. "Otherwise I would't be alive right now. They would have killed me. You would have killed me."

"No I wouldn't."

"That's what you came here to do."

As much as he wanted to, Magnus couldn't deny it.

"And that's why you won't be here in the morning."

Magnus thought he was talking about death there. But that was not what he was saying at all.

Alec stood up abruptly. "I have to go now. To be honest, I don't even know why I came here. I don't know why I've done a lot of things, actually."

At this, Magnus stood up aswell. His legs hurt when he moved. "This is the last time I'm going to see you. You're going to outlive me." The irony was not lost on them.

Alec coughed slightly and stood up straighter. "Indeed." They stared at eachother awkwardly. Alec walked forward suddenly and touched Magnus' cheek. Magnus couldn't help but lean into his hand and close his eyes.

When he opened them, Alec was gone. The room was dark and doors locked. His eyes had only been closed a second and he hadn't heard a single sound. Reality hit him hard. Had he imagained it? It had felt so real.

Alec sat at his desk, head in his hands. Why had he done that? Though, he knew why. He just couldn't accept it.

Magnus crumpled to the floor again and stared into the darkness. It felt like he was doing that for hours before the noise came. A thud against one of the walls. It got louder and more frequent, causing his ears to ring. And then, finally, the wall collapsed before him. A man stood on the rubble. He slowly walked forward and grinned at Magnus, who grinned back.

"Hola, amigo."

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