Chapter eleven
Finally Bella and I got home, after keeping my lips to myself for the past hour or so I was itching for Bella's lips on mine. This afternoon was the most embarrassing thing in the world, I couldn't believe that I actually erected! But I knew I could hardly blame myself, Bella was just too sexy for words.
I planned to grab Bella as soon as we got through the door, but she ran straight to the kitchen for some dinner, damn.
She rummaged around in the fridge, obviously not having enough to eat at the hospital. It was when she got out the pan from the cup bored was when I stopped her.
"Honey, you're not cooking." I said firmly, after she got food poisoned by coke, the last thing that I'm gonna do is let my angel step anywhere near any food that I hadn't examined or confirmed that the dates haven't gone out of date. I know I can get a bit protective when it comes to my most valued processions, but when it's something like Bella, well, you wouldn't want to be anywhere near if something ever happened to her.
"What? Then what are we going to eat? I really don't think that I want to eat something that is too greasy tonight. Really, I'm fine, I can cook." She said, leaning on the bench looking directly at me, it was when I saw her flinch when I knew that she wasn't really a hundred percent ok. I smiled at her gently and walked right up to her until we were centimetres apart, Bella blushed a beautiful rose red, her deep brown eyes widened. I leant down and kissed her lovingly on the lips, leaving it short and sweet but still enough to make my heart jump.
"Bella, I want to cook. You've been cooking for the past week since you've lived here. Plus, I know for a fact that you are nowhere near well. You go and watch TV, I'll be the one to cook tonight, so please don't stress yourself love." I said, creasing her face lovingly. She pouted and looked away, I laughed lightly and pecked her on the cheek. "Go, I'll have dinner finished soon."
I heard her mutter something like 'I didn't know you cooked.' Which just so happened to be incredibly true. I couldn't back away from this duty now, and I doubt that I could go to McDonalds and pass it off as my food. I signed heavily, first things first I should at least check the fridge; I hope I get that part right.
Ok, so there looks to be enough food in the fridge to use the line 'There isn't enough food in the fridge, I'm sure I have the Chinese number somewhere around here.'. But we had a fridge full, and Bella took a quick snap shot of the fridge before, so I couldn't just lie. Though that plan wouldn't work at all, I could never lie to Bella, it would be worse than slow torched. I just had to remember back to when mom taught me how to cook...Yeah, I can't remember a thing.
It's then that I noticed the thing that saved me at the point of hunger when I didn't have my angel, eggs. Sure it wasn't a five star course meal, I doubt that I would ever be able to learn how to, my mind was genetically wired to work in the stock market and business. Not the kitchen. But knowing Bella, with a heart as big as hers, I knew she wouldn't be disappointed in me. I smiled to myself, her heart is as big as then any other in history, and I was proud, honoured and privileged to say that I own that heart, and I couldn't believe I was ever so lucky. I never believed that I could ever be happy, not after the accident. So right now, I would now be classified as the happiest man on Earth, so happy in fact, that I am actually going to do the impossible.
I am going to cook.
It doesn't sound like such a big deal, but for most guys, it does. I got the pan out and started to make the simplest thing to remember that mom let me help her make, scrambled eggs.
After nearly burning them and having oil spit onto me -which might I add, is hot!- I finally got it done. I grabbed a few paper towels and tried soaking up as much of the grease as possible then placed them on the table. I took a deep breath, done. I made my way into the lounge to grab my angel for dinner, but she was already half way down the hall. I snuck around and grabbed her by the waist, making her jump, and I pulled her into the kitchen.
She turned her head and our eyes met, she blushed a crimson red. Bella is just to cute for words. I couldn't help but kiss her blush and direct her to the table, when doing so, Bella laughed.
"Scrambled eggs?" She said, shaking her head. I couldn't help but laugh along with her.
"Well, when I said I was cooking, I didn't say that I was a chief or anything. I hope you don't mind." I said, trying my best not to burst into laughter. She probably expected a three-course meal for how long I was cooking the eggs for.
"No, I don't mind. If Edward made it, it should be fine...I hope, I don't feel like going to the hospital again anytime soon." She laughed, I gasped playfully and lightly slapped her hand playfully and portend pouting. Making her laugh harder.
We had more then half of dinner in silence, but she was acting a bit weird through most of it she sat there staring out in space and put tiny fork feedings into her mouth. I was about to say something until she did, "Edward?"
"Yes love." I replied, she blushed and looked down.
"U-um, what are we to each other?"
I couldn't help but frown at that. We are together aren't we? I hope I didn't assume wrong, because I was the happiest man alive the last few hours, I don't know if I would be able to handle it if she said that we weren't. Shut up Edward! If she doesn't want you, you can't force yourself on her. What could she possibly see in me anyway? She's a goddess who can have any man of her choosing, so I couldn't blame her for not wanting me. Alice and Emmett probably don't want me, they probably think of me more as reliability then a brother, manly after the crash. "What do you mean?"
"Well, I was just wondering what we are, our relationship I mean. Are we together or are we friends with benefits, it's just been racking my brain since we 'confessed'." She said, not looking up at me. What?! Seriously?! Friends with benefits? That, in my opinion, is wrong. It's completely disrespecting a girl and her feelings on so many levels. It kind of made me a bit mad for her thinking that I would use her like that, like a doll that could, once used, just thrown away like that. It makes me mad just thinking of the men that would do that, and worst off, the woman that let it happen. So you couldn't exactly blame me for being dumbstruck at the fact that she either thought I would do that to her.
"Oh, um, I thought that we were together, you know, boyfriend, girlfriend. But if you don't want to-" She cut me off.
"No! No, I just wasn't too sure. I want to, I just...well, it's just...so I'm your girlfriend?" I couldn't help but smile amused, she was so cute when she gets confused. I just couldn't help but lean down and lightly kiss her red pumped lips.
"Yes, you're MY girlfriend, which would make me YOUR boyfriend. Until the day you don't want me, that is." I said, looking her straight in the eyes. Shocked, her expression quickly changed from dreamy to anger in a flash, strange.
"What!? How could I not want you!? I don't even think that possible!" She yelled, I couldn't help but grin at that, so she does want me. She grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me centimeters from her, she blushed at her realization of her actions but still didn't let go, "Edward, you are the only one I want, and you are going to be the only one I will ever want. Unless you don't want me, then I'm not going anywhere."
And with that she smacked her lips against mine, hard. I wanted to do that as soon as we parted in the hospital, and now that I have her again, I'm going to take advantage of it. I slowly twisted my body towards her and started to stand up, never breaking the lip lock. I ran my hands up the back of her thighs and lifted them up to my waist, her wrapping them around instantly while her hands roamed around my hair making me moan into her mouth.
My tongue traced the bottom of her lip, I wanted to explore her mouth so badly like in the hospital it wasn't funny. She obliged, but before I could get my tongue to move, her tongue intruded my mouth. I was a bit shocked at her boldness, but then I smiled into the kiss, Bella wants to be the dominant one I assume. I moaned, she twisted her tongue around mine, the feeling was exquisite!
I pushed Bella onto the table making my hands free to put one on the back of her neck, giving her more access to my mouth, a hand on her back pulling her as close as I could possibly get her. Her chest pushed firmly to mine, I didn't close my eyes no matter how much I was tempted to, I couldn't help but look at my angel. My angel, I can now call her officially mine, and that made me feel, well words couldn't possibly muster up to how I feel right now.
She opened her eyes, only to be meet with mine. She moaned lightly, having to break the kiss for air. My chance to regain my dominance. I took a few deep breaths and attacked her cheek, smearing kisses along her cheek and down to her neck. I lightly bit into her neck, her skin erupted in goose bumps, moaning loudly. I felt proud of myself for having that effect on her, and the fact that I'm the only one that can do that to Bella. The only one that can kiss her, touch her, love her. Me, only me, all mine.
My hand adjusted to the side of her neck, she bent it down a bit giving me more room to play around with. I felt like a child in a candy store, I had so much variety to taste and I couldn't make up my mind. So I let my other hand move up and down her side, she shivered.
Bella started to grind into me, I moaned loudly but muffled into her neck. Her hands kept on my hair, running through it making me shiver with excitement. Her grinds went faster and harder, I knew what would happen if she didn't stop soon. Her hands slid down my hair and onto my back, she kept thrusting, and she lightly dug her nails into my back. Causing me to get a bit 'overly' excited, I stopped instantly, silently cursing myself for my problems.
I let out a groan, resting my forehead in the crook of Bella's neck breathing heavily. Bella is going to be the death of me I swear, but it would definitely be a death I'd be open to. Bella's legs dropped from my waist, making me feel both relieved and sad at the fact that they aren't around me anymore. She lightly stoked my hair, and let me tell you one thing, when men have a 'problem', their minds get very creative, very easily. So her doing that was not the best idea in the world.
"Bella, you can stroke my hair anytime you want, but if you want me to calm down faster, please stop doing that." I said, I could feel the heat radiate from her face. Her hands dropped away immediately to her side, the only contact that we had was my forehead on her neck and my arms trapping her on top of the table.
What are we going to do about this problem? It's happened twice in the same day that we got together, what's going to happen tomorrow? Or the next? Or in a week? We just can't keep our hands off each other, it was torture to not touch her through dinner let alone until we're both ready. I know Bella, and I know that we both aren't ready mentally to have that physical relationship right now. No matter how physically we were both drawn to each other, we both couldn't just keep ignoring this problem forever.
I kissed her neck lightly, signaling my 'problem' was now gone. I smiled nervously at her, god this is so embarrassing. She smiled back goofily, I wanted to kiss her again so much, but I knew I barely stopped myself when before, I wasn't sure how much I could handle before I lose it and take her on the table top. Just that thought alone nearly got me into another problem, god I'm in for some shit in the long run.
"Sorry about that."
Bella rolled her eyes, "Bella, you can stroke my hair anytime you want, but if you want me to calm down faster, please stop doing that." I laughed alone with her, oh how true that was.
"That is definitely true, Well, I think it's been a long and tiresome day, I think it's bed time." I suggested, she just frowned obviously not ready for bed right now.
"But it's not that late! It's probably only six!" She complained, I nearly laughed. We got back here around six and it nearly took me an hour or to just to cook stupid scrambled eggs! And not to mention the make-out session, yeah, it's not that earlier!
"Nope, sorry, it's nine-thirty."
"But still, it's not that late, why do I have to go to bed so early?"
"Because we have work tomorrow, though, since you had surgery yesterday, maybe you should stay home." I said concerned, she just had surgery yesterday, I don't want her to push herself just so she could take a few paper work off me.
"No! I don't wanna miss work! I'm completely better, fit as a fiddle! I can go to work. Look, see, I'm going to go to sleep now, I'm going to work tomorrow." She said walking away. I quickly panicked and ran in front of her blocking the door. I wasn't going to let her be in a separate room from me, mostly if she gets sick again and if I'm not there to help her, then I would never be able to forgive myself.
"Edward? What are you doing?" She said, crossing her arms with both a confused and amused look.
"What do you mean? What are you doing?"
"I'm going to bed, like you told me."
"Yes, but I meant my bed. I told you that I wouldn't let you out of my sight, even if it's just to sleep. So get changed and come to my room." I told her, then left to my room to change.
Don't be clingy Edward, definitely not attractive. Plus, she might get a bit freaked if you keep doing it, she might think that you're a stalker or something. Great, now I'm thinking in both first person to myself, and I'm talking to myself. How could Bella possibly want me, I'm so screwed up!
Before I knew it, I changed into boxers and laid in my beds, all the lights out. It still rained lightly outside, making the room colder.
"Bella!" I yelled out to her, it's taking a bit longer then usual to get changed isn't it?
"Coming!" She yelled back from her room.
A while later I heard my door open slightly and closed. Footsteps walking to the end of the bed until tripping over something and falling, yep definitely Bella. A small yelp was heard and I was up on my feet to help her up, "Bella are you ok?" I asked getting her up.
"Yeah."
I walked her over to the bed and helped her in, running over to my side and jumping under the covers. Bella instantly rolled over, half on top of me, her head resting on my chest and her leg around my legs. I couldn't help but yearn for more of her body on mine, more contact. I pulled her on top of me, legs on either side of me, her chest pushed up to mine. I moaned, she was wearing silk and no bra, and in this weather it was cold, making her perked.
My arms wrapped around her back, pulling her impossibly closer. She stayed very still, I didn't know why, but I didn't ask. The next thing I knew, we were both asleep.
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I was awoken by a voice of an angel calling my name.
Well moaning it would fit more of the profile. My eyes shot open, I said her name a few times, but she didn't respond, she was asleep. I closed my eyes again, wanting a little more sleep, that was until she moaned out my name again.
It was then that I started to panic, she started to move. To be more pacific, her hips started to move! On mine! She let out a soft moan, moving her small hips. I put my hands on her hips, trying to stop her without waking her up and letting herself be embarrassed by what her sub concuss was doing to me, more like torturing me! Even with both hands on her hips it still didn't stop her rocking back and forwards. I couldn't help but let out a deep and long moan.
Whatever she was dreaming, she just got me another problem! And she isn't even awake!
No matter how much I didn't want to, I knew that the only way to stop her was by waking her up.
"I love you..." She moaned.
I didn't have to see my face to know it was bright red. That was the first time outside of the hospital she has ever said that, the words I've been longing to hear every waking moment of the day, I replied her with the same words.
"Bella." I said, she didn't move. Well, she did, but not in the way that I wanted her to right now. I may love Bella very much, but I am still a man, and it's taking all my will power to not wake her up and take her right there and then. Cool it Cullen! Keep those ideas in your head and you really will have trouble.
"Edward..." She moaned. Yes, I'm sure that any guy would love to have their girlfriend moaning your name out loud and grinding them, sure, I love it too. But when you haven't had sex yet, being a virgin, and just getting together about twelve hours ago and having all this frustration, yeah, I really wish she wouldn't do this to me until we actually do go all the way.
"Bella!" I yelled, this seemed to get her out of her dreamy state, she started to stir and her eyes met with mine. She looked only half awake so she snuggled back into my chest, before I could say anything she slightly jumped and her head shot up to see mine, with the same kind of panicked expression as I'm sure mine is. Bella quickly rolled off of me, and already I missed her light weight on me.
"S-sorry Bella, but what the hell were you dreaming about?!" After I asked I got a bit suspicious. A cocky grin flashed on her face, like she had just had the greatest pleasur- STOP IT CULLEN! Just as quickly as it appeared, it disappeared, turning into a panicked expression as her face shot in my direction.
"What?! H-how did you know...?"
I blushed, hoping she couldn't see it with the lack of light in the room, "You were...yelling a lot, and you were, um, you were...moving around a bit."
After saying that Bella grabbed the pillow and muffled a scream into it. I tried my best not to laugh, "Bella, it's ok, you were asleep, you didn't do anything wrong!" I tried to reassure her, she removed the pillow from her head and crushed it on her stomach and hugged it.
"What are we going to do Edward? We just started going out and already we're too ready to have sex."
I wanted to go and kiss away all her worries, but the fact of the matter was, I didn't know either. I stole a few long breaths, my erection now disappeared and signed. I rolled over to my side facing Bella, lightly creasing her cheek, she turned her head up to look at mine, the light may have burred a lot of the scene but I could still see Bella's intense doe eyes, they filled with worry and a slight lust. Most likely from the dream she just had, with me being the star apparently.
"I don't know Bella; I'm just as new to this as you. Just do what you think is right, I'll go along with whatever you want to do."
"Edward, I don't know. You know I love you, a lot, but we just started going out, maybe we're rushing things a bit. Maybe we should wait a few weeks, you know, just to know each other a bit better…But I guess we always could try experimenting in the mean time…" She said, not looking me in the eyes.
Wait, WHAT!? No, no, no, no, no! This can't be happening! I just got Bella all to myself and now she's suggesting an open relationship! I can't handle seeing her talk to another guy then acutally go out with them! Why would she even suggest that when we won't even have sex with each other!?
"What do you mean 'experimenting'? You don't mean…you don't want an open relationship do you?" I said, I just hope that she doesn't mean an open relationship.
"What!? No! Of cause not! I'm just saying, just because we're going to wait to…make love, doesn't mean that we can't…do other stuff…just as long as it's not sex."
Oh, thank god. Wait! She said experiment, which means that we can do anything else we wanted to do as long as we don't have sex. My mind filed with ideas of what we could do, I couldn't help but roll on top of Bella and crash my lips with hers, holding my weight with my elbows.
The kiss was very satisfying, it was just as passionate and as animalistic as the time in the hospital, and that suited me just as fine. We both kept our eyes open, wanting to see each other's eyes and see if there was any regret hidden within her chocolate brown eyes, there was none. Bella made the first move, she wrapped her legs around my waist and grinded into my hips almost immediately. We both moaned at the friction, I could feel Bella's heat through her panties, she obviously was wearing a very short night gown, but hay, I didn't complain.
My hands roamed around her body hungrily, creasing every part of her body sensitively. My thrusts went harder and faster, wanting more, much more. I started to get jealous of my hands, I wanted my mouth the explore her body, not just my hands. I wanted to taste every part of her body, I wanted to know what makes her tick, what makes her moan the loudest. I wanted her!
Bella broke the kiss, gasping for air. I took this as an advantage; I attacked her neck, making her moan. My lips making their way up her neck, nipping and sucking in certain areas, I found a few sensitive spots, but not sensitive enough. My lips moved to her ear, I sucked on it, slightly nibbling on it. Her whole body went up in goose bumps, "Edward..." She moaned, yep, definitely a sensitive spot. My thrusts went hay wire, it felt like I couldn't control my lower half, we got impossibly harder and faster, my erection getting bigger and longer by the minute. Bella's hand running though my hair, and god it felt amazing, I wanted so much more.
My mouth started to travel back down her neck, Bella started to get a bit hypo and started to grind just as powerfully against me, causing me to muffle a moan against her sensitive neck. My hands stopped supporting myself, I let lifted my legs and crouched over her, stopping the trusts. I knew that I would ache a lot by stopping, but I wanted to pleasure Bella, make her feel great. I knew I didn't know how to do it, but after Emmett made me sit and watch porn when we were teens, I guess I knew what I could do...right?
I stayed confident, not showing Bella how majorly nervous I was. My hands grasped firmly against the inside of her thighs, lightly traveling up painfully slowly, wanting to tease her. I started to suck on her collar bone, I most likely am going to leave a hickey, I, personally wouldn't care if I did in fact I would love to leave her a hickey! That would mean that if anyone sees it, that they would instantly know she's taken. It would be classified as marking her, and since I doubt that Bella would even consider getting married anytime soon, a hickey would be the closest thing to a hickey as I could possibly get to a ring...yet.
My hands brushed against Bella's panties, I let out a moan, laced panties, of cause. I could only imagine how sexy she would look in those panties and her unbelievably short gown, or better yet, without anything on. I brushed my fingers lightly against her slit behind her panties. "Edward!" She moaned out rather loudly, yep, defiantly a sensitive spot. I kept teasing her through the fabric, every now and then she would moan my name or arch her back, and god I swear I grew an inch ever time she did. I decided to ask her if I was allowed to, when I looked at her to ask permission to let my fingers do what I couldn't do, her expression basically called me an idiot.
In one swift move, my hand moved the lace away from her folds and my finger started to rub circles into her clit, earning myself a nice and hearted moan. With my other hand I started to order it to go higher, under her thin silk dress that was pushed up to her stomach, and started to play around with her breast, playfully pinching it and massaging it better. Her reaction was a very loud moan that practically bounced off the walls. My fingers going faster in her clit.
My mind, however, started to have a flashback to the porno that Emmett sat me down and watch, I faintly remembered the part when the guy started to finger her, the blond seemed to enjoy it a lot, would Bella? Wait, would that mean that she would lose her virginity to it? I don't think so, but Bella seemed to want more, and the only thing that I could think of as more pleasure other then sex, would be to finger her, right?
Without a seconds thought my finger slid down to her impossibly wet core, I slid on finger through, and god it was tight. I could only imagine what it feel like to actually have myself inside of her, No Edward! This is Bella time, not yours! Her body slightly tensed, I wasn't sure if my actions where the best right now. But after a few moments, she started to moan, loudly.
I wanted to bring her so much more pleasure, I positioned my mouth over her nipple that wasn't occupied and started to suck on it through the silk. This made Bella arch her back, I started to pump her faster, I want her to feel better after the whole coke poisoning, and this seemed to get her into a better mood.
"Edward!" She moaned, I started to pump into her harder and faster. But that was when I felt her grab my cock through my boxers, starting to stroke down it. Oh god, please don't stop!
"Don't." I warned her, completely ignoring my thoughts, this was still Bella time, not Edward's. She didn't compile, no, she did the exact opposite. Her small and slender hand stroked its way up my hard erection and wandered under my boxers, grabbing me head on. Oh god! She started to rub small circles into my head and then started to grip down me.
I was about to moan but I covered it with a growl, no matter how much I want this, it's just not fare! She didn't stop, so I had to make her. I added a finger into the mix, making her moan out my name. But this didn't stop her, it seemed to encourage her to go faster, something I definitely was not ready for. This was no longer for release, no, it's a competition, and I'd rather burn in hell then lose this one.
I could feel that Bella was going to come to her release soon, I wanted to move the process along so I removed my hand from playing around with her breast and brought it down to her clit, rubbing it furiously. She let out an intensifying moan, if I wasn't erect enough, I knew I was now.
Bella didn't stop though, she made her process go faster, she removed her hand from my hair and brought it down to the inside of my boxers and cupped my ball sack. Oh. Crap! This made my dick release from my boxers, she started to massage my sack.
"Bella!" I yelled out. Oh god at this rate, she was definitely going to win. I couldn't help but lift my head off of Bella's breast and crush them with hers. We were both close, VERY close. We both passed ourselves faster, both so close, but both wanting to hold it for as long as possible.
Our kiss was way more wild and animalistic then all the rest, I couldn't explain it, I don't even think that words could explain it! I pumped into her harder and faster, Bella moaned into the kiss, what she did next completely shocked me. She broke away from the kiss and moved her lips to my neck, lightly, but affectively, sinking her teeth into my flesh.
"BELLA!" I screamed out in pleasure, that completely did it for me. I cummed all over Bella's stomach, Bella coming straight after me. I had absolutely no energy left after that, I completely collapsed on top of her, hoping that my weight wouldn't be a problem. I grinned like a complete idiot into her neck, damn that was...I can't verbalize that! It was so incredible! We are going to be so exhausted for work tomorrow. Oh well, I own the company, I don't have to be early every day!
It was then that I realized how much of an affect that Bella had on me. I always, ALWAYS put the company before anything else, and here I am, considering blowing off work for an entire day just to be with the goddess laying under me. I am, indeed, a changed man.
With the rest of my energy I lifted my head slightly and whispered into her ear, "That was…incredible. You're incredible."
"Yes you are. I love you." I couldn't help but smile at how cute she was.
"I love you too Bella, so, so much…" I whispered, I couldn't begin to explain how I felt about her. Love sounds like a disgrace to the feeling. Alice and Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett, Esme and Carlisle, they all seem like puppy love compared to Bella and I.
My eye lids got heavy, sleep only came easily when I have Bella with me, her scent calmed me and now with my cum over her, it made her smell of me. She's mine, all mine, and there was no way in hell I was letting her go.
Sleep eloped me, the last thought I had was my usual.
I love Bella, and nothing is ever going to change that.
