11. Finally, the truth

Disclaimer- I do not own Buffy, Joss does.

Rating- T

I finally get out of that deranged school and head back to Mom's house. I know he said he wouldn't be home, but I really hope he is. I have no idea why I got mad at him earlier. At least he had the decency to call, and it was the middle of the night for him. So why was I so pissed off?

Whatever the past is the past, right?

A few minutes later I am standing at the door and knock, just to see what Angel does. Plus it will bug him and it will be hilarious. Again he could punish me and leave. But on the other hand my Angel would never do that. At least I think so.

A minute later I feel a tingle and know that he is coming to the door. There's a smirk on his face, and I don't know why. Ooo I bet he'll go all grr on me and scream at "the intruder" or salesman!

Right then my prediction is correct as I hear, "Who the hell is at the door. If you are messing with me you will have to face the consequences!" I giggle as I think about how Angel would punish people. Torture, death, pain.

The old me (Mom's) would have never stood for that. The new me kind of likes it. Of course old Angel would never do anything like that. I think I felt a bit of the old me today, and I don't know why or how. Why is there a new me? I guess I am just growing up. But I have a strange feeling it is something more than that.

Angel opens the door glaring down at me. He pulls me into the house then starts cracking up. I lightly smack him. He smirks.

"What?" I ask.

"Did you really think you could surprise me?"

"Yes, no, maybe so," I mysteriously answer.

"Buff I could feel you, plus you reek of slayer. I could smell you miles away," he laughs and kisses my nose.

"Fine, fine, but the smelling thing is so gross!"

"Hey I like it!"

I smack him again, "Angel that is horrible!"

"Hey I am a demon, remember?"

"Of course I remember, but you do have that soul and all!" I retort.

"Yeah cause Angelus would never ever be around you. He would have seen you, then sucked you dry without a second thought," Angel supplies then laughs

"Just how you make a girl feel secure, talk about killing her," I scream very annoyed.

"Well yeah," Angel says, "I told you to kill someone you have to have passion, which love is. Plus he would have enjoyed your blood." He pauses. "Are you sure you are okay with all of this. Usually you freak when I mention Angelus."

"It scares me a bit that anyone would kill me, but Angelus is in you and I want to know."

"Okay well slayer blood is nectar to vampires. It is delicious and powerful, the best and the best. Any vampire would be dust in the wind to even try that. Of course as you know that is definitely a likely possibility."

"So you want my blood even though it pains you to even think of humans in that way?" I ask genuinely curious.

"Well um yeah. But I would never ever touch you. Plus I want all humans, I just wouldn't touch them."

"Okay. Well to get off of this weird conversation, will you mind telling me where you were going?"

"Is that why you left? To check up on me?" Angel chuckles.

"No," I squeal. "I left because my "friends" were annoying me, I'm just curious. Oh and I took a test on you today."

"What?"

"Oh see in history we are doing a unit on serial killers. So we are learning about The Scourge of Europe, well as humans see him. I'm doing a project on you too," I explain.

"Fascinating. And to answer your question I had to go see Spike and Drusilla," he states.

"WHAT!"

"Well um, I was going to try to get the lowdown on the Judge. Drusilla would have been very willing to give me information if I lied and said I would go back to them. I thought one little lie was worth it if I helped us fight them."

"Oh that works. Sorry I doubted you," I apologize.

"There's no need to apologize I understand you got jealous," Angel smirks.

"Not funny," I say.

"But so true babe." He wiggles his eye brows and I hit him.

Then I remember the book I have in my backpack. I pull Angel over to the couch and kiss him. He keeps his lips on mine, but I push him off. "Not now, I want to show you something." I pull out the book.

"Can you read my mind?"

"No why?"

"Because this is a book of prophecies that I have been searching for," Angel answers.

"Oh. Well I don't want to sound crazy but I found it in the library. It whispered for me and I had to read it so I took it. Only it is in some old demon language," I sigh. "I can't read it."

"Well I think it may describe you. Flip to the page you felt a calling with," he instructs. I do. "Good now try to read it."

"Baby I can't," I whine. It's in some strange demon language.

He laughs, "Right I forgot you weren't one to know a lot on educational stuff." He sees my face, "Just kidding!"

"Here you take a look." I shove the book into his face.

He looks at it. "Um it's as old as time, I can't read it,"

"Ha," I stick my tongue at him.

He shakes his head, "But I know someone who does."

"But," I press.

He takes a deep breath, "It's Spike. See he was a nerd as a human and during his first 30 years as a vampire he became like a mass murderer/ scholar. He could read this."

"Would he."

"Um yeah."

"Without killing us?"

"If we pay him enough."

I think about this for a moment and make a decision that I knew I would make all along, "Call him."

"Are you sure," Angel says calmly.

"Yes. Tell him I have a sewer access in my basement," I tell him.

"No, Spike walks around in the sun all the time, he hides under a sheet."

"Okay call him."

And Angel does. I go in the other room and Angel comes back in to the room and tells me that they agreed on a price. Spike would be here in about 10 minutes. Angel is giving him extra so he doesn't use his invitation to come in whenever he likes.

For the next 10 minutes Angel asks me questions about my day. It's really nice that he cares for me like that. Just sitting is really nice. Oh and we do a little bit of kissing. Or maybe a lot of kissing.

Angel gets up and answers the door when Spike knocks. I follow him and see him covered in a smoking blanket. Angel and I both start cracking up. I can feel Spike glaring at us from under the blanket.

"Come in Spike," I manage between my laughs.

He runs to the den and sits on the couch. We walk in there and Angel passionately kisses me.

"There's no need to do that now Nancy Boy. I know she's yours. I smell you, though it seems not 100 percent of you," Spike says sounding annoyed.

I punch him in the face, "What the bloody hell was that for slayer!"

"That was for insulting Angel. Well I think you insulted him.

"Peaches are you really going to let her punch your childe. That actually hurt!"

"Sorry William, but that will never happen. Buff was right to hit you," Angel growls. I laugh. The two of us smile.

"Okay what do you need me to translate?" Spike asks.

I hand him the book and point to the correct page. Spike looks at it for a few minutes before saying, "This is weird."

"What does it say," Angel and I scream at the same time.

"Hold your horses! It says,

The One of the Chosen is doubly chosen.

The one who will tip the scales.

Blood and Destruction,

Or Love and Redemption,

She shall rule the land.

One will be dead,

The other a grace.

The winner staying with her till the end.

He plays a role forever so,

So watch the darkness drift or drown.

"That's your sodding prophecy slayer. Can I go now?" Spike asks.

"Oh not yet you don't William! We have some things to discuss. Just let Buffy and I chat for a minute," Angel commands Spike and leads me into my bedroom where he installed a soundproof layer to the walls. Works great because now Spike can't hear us.

Angel has this dumb smile on his face that makes me smile. "Why you smiling," I ask teasingly.

"This is better than I thought," he muses.

"Splainy please because that smile is giving me the wiggins," I say. This causes him to smile wider.

"Well it sounds as if a special slayer, you, will either do something to help good or evil win the never ending war. In the process someone will be forgotten, one your partner. And this he better be me!"

"It will be. But Angel can you answer a question?"

"Sure."

"Is there something wrong with me?" I weep. "This should terrify me, that I may help evil. It should repulse me! But I don't feel a thing besides that it is the truth."

"Buffy, um I have a secret to tell you?" Angel whispers.

"What? I thought we had no secrets!"

"We won't after this," he amends.

I pout, "Tell me now."

"It involves Spike," he mumbles.

I feel like screaming, but hold it in. Pulling him downstairs I can't help but be royally pissed off that Angel is keeping something from me.

We sit down and Spike stares at us. Angel sees his face and says, "It's time I tell Buffy the truth." Spike nods.

"Now please explain," I press.

"Okay but promise me you won't scream," I nod. "Okay well it seems as if the gypsy's curse had a clause. One minute of true happiness and I would lose my soul. I was supposed to be in pain from my sins, not happy."

"Why are you telling me this," I cry. "Is something wrong?"

"Trust me nothing is wrong baby, are you okay?"

I wipe my tears away, "Yeah I was just afraid you were going to say that you had a secret girlfriend."

"No Buff, the opposite kind of. See a few days ago I, well Angel experienced perfect happiness. The night of your birthday. I'm Angelus the Scourge of Europe, the soulless vampire. That's why I've been acting a bit strange. I've been impersonating Soulboy, and have thrown in a bit of me."

I get up and smack him in the nose, it bleeds, "Bastard," I cry. "So the past few days have meant nothing! You kept telling me you loved me, and you didn't! Gosh how did I not notice this?"

Spike gets up to leave but Angel glares at him and he stays seated.

"Baby I would have killed and tortured you if I didn't really love you. See you made a soulless demon love. Buffy Anne Summers, I told you before I love you. The demon loves you, which is me. Please believe me. He kisses me, but I pull back.

I look into his eyes and I see the truth in his words. I gently kiss him on the lips, Spike gags. I shoot him a menacing glare and if looks could kill, he would be dust. Angel, no Angelus laughs.

"So you believe me?"

"Yes," I sigh. "Angelus I told you before I love Angelus as much as Angel. Okay this name thing is creepy!"

"And you don't care that I have killed humans since your birthday. That blood in your fridge right now came from a corpse of a teenager I killed a few days ago."

"Haven't I made it clear in the past few days? I really do not care. Actually I kind of like it. That's what scares me. But this prophecy does make more sense. It explains why I have been acting so strange lately. I guess the dark side is tempting me, and if that's where you are, then I don't care! Plus you can eat Ms. Calendar for me! I really hate that woman. And you don't have to be so guilty all the time! I actually think this is a good thing. Does the demon world know?"

"Wow Peaches, this is a feisty one here, might want her for myself," Spike says.

"Don't you dare touch me you soulless monster! I am Angelus's girl. Not yours. Understood?" I mentally hit him in the face and smirk. Then with my new powers I cause him incredible pain. All by looking at him! He screams and nods.

"Wow Babe that is hot! Can you do that on everyone? We can start a torturing business together or something. Now all I need to do is teach you how to mentally torture people and you are going to be brilliant!" Angelus says wide eyed.

"I'm not going around helping you! I may tolerate it but for now I'm not going to help you. Maybe in a few weeks or years if I change, but not now," I lay down the law. Angelus actually pouts.

"Fine but according to this prophecy that may be sooner than you think. And I know you Buffy. Remember you've been telling me how everyone's been getting on your nerves and you've wanted to hurt them? Wouldn't it feel great to kill them and end their lives?" Angelus seductively whispers in my ear.

I smile and close my eyes. I can picture it now. All of them screaming and yelling at me while Angelus and I are standing over them and. No Buffy snap out of it! They're your friends you can't kill them!

"No, I don't" I tell him.

"You do Buff I can see it in your eyes," he tells me. I gulp.

"Hell slayer it is a load of fun!" Spike tells me. I hit him again.

Angelus laughs, "See William dear boy isn't she the perfect one to help me lead the clan when I take back my rightful place?"

"Stop that," I tell Angelus. "We can discuss this later. Tell me why he is still here," I point to Spike.

"Well he and Dru know about me. The rest of the demons know too."

"God I am so stupid! That's why vampires haven't been attacking me. You told them to leave me alone or die! What I can't take care of myself?" I ask. Even though I don't care, he was just trying to help me.

He knows it too because he says, "Spike we are going upstairs, we will be back in a few minutes. Stay here."

He leads me upstairs and kisses me. I push him off. "Why are you just getting like this?"

"Because you know the truth Buffy. I don't have to pretend to be Soulboy around you anymore. And tell me the f-ing truth babe do I really scare you?"

"No. And what you were saying sounds tempting. I'm just scared of the consequences. I have a soul Angelus, unlike you I feel. You should know about that better than anyone else. And that prophecy, well it sounds as if this darkness could easily take over and then I could end the world."

"Actually it sounds as if you'll rule the world if you are good or bad."

"Whatever! I am just scared! Can you please just hold me for a minute," I whimper.

He kisses me on the cheek, "Buff I may be an evil Scourge, but I'll do anything for you. Come here."

So I do. I go and put my head in his lap as he strokes my hair. Just like always. None of this stress, just me and Angel, I mean Angelus. I love it.

Okay so that's the chapter. I'm going to start putting all of my AN at the end of each chapter. Just tell me if you don't like it. This is a long chapter and I am very proud of it. I hope it doesn't sound too corny and trust me there are a lot more twits in this. Don't think you know which choice Buffy will make, trust me you won't. If anyone does I will be very surprised, but go on and guess as you review!