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You've reached Dr. Mark Sloan's voicemail at the Department of Plastic Surgery on Seattle Grace Hospital. I can't come to the phone just now, so, leave a message and I'll return your call as soon as it's possible.
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Mark, where the hell are you? Are you not at the hospital? I need you, Mark, quickly! I'm staying at the Ritz. Please, come see me as soon as you can. Derek cheated on me. I've tasted my own medicine and it is bitter. Please, Mark. I need you. I know I screwed up! I know I chose Derek when I actually should've chosen you! I should've known better! I knew Derek would end up screwing that damn 12-year-old again. Mark, I'm so sorry to whatever I did to you, I'm so sorry about how much I hurt you for choosing Derek, I'm sorry!
Okay, now I'm rambling, and I'm panicking. I'm losing my fucking grip. Breathe, Addison.
I'm gonna tell you the whole story now, Mark. And I hope you have the patience to listen to it even after everything I did to you. Right after you left, I asked Dr. Hahn where Derek was operating. I waited for him until midnight at that waiting room in front of OR 3. I had your face in my head the whole time. I couldn't stand to hurt you that way and I'd never seen your face that sad before. I can't tell you how sorry I am, Mark Sloan, but Derek left Meredith for me. As much as I could see how amazing you were in Med School while Derek was absent, I could also see how depressed I was when I came to Seattle again to find Derek with Meredith and how much I wished he would leave her for me.
I felt the obligation to at least try. If you were in my shoes, you would know exactly what I'm talking about. I just couldn't put my head in a pillow every night knowing that Derek did exactly what I begged him to do for a whole year, and I just ignored it. I had to try.
But, Mark, truth be told: Derek loves Meredith much more than he loves me. I can, only now, see that rather clearly. I was second guessing my decision and questioning myself the whole time. I went back to his trailer and we had sex. I'm not gonna lie to you, Mark: It was damn good sex. But, this morning, I woke up alone. He had left to go make out with Meredith in the woods that surround his stupid trailer! I struggled to believe my own eyes.
And now, I'm here, asking you to please come see me at the Ritz. We have a lot to talk about.
I made a mistake and Derek made a mistake. Please, don't be the next one to make a mistake.
Oh, shit, is this voicemail password-protected?
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You've reached Ritz Hotel Seattle. Please dial in the room number or press 9 if you'd like to talk to one of our receptionists.
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Room 421. Guest: Addison Forbes Montgomery. Leave your message after the beep.
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I knew you were in room 420. You're always in room 420. April twentieth. It's my birthday.
Well, Addison, I'm sorry you're not there and I have to say that to your voicemail, but: Are you fucking kidding me?
I'm sorry, Addie. I wasn't raised to be rude to women, but, listen to you! I've waited 12 years for you to finally realize that I'm the one for you. And you keep pushing me away every time! I gave up, Addie. That face you talk about so much, that was me giving up! I can't wait around for you anymore! How do I know that this isn't just one more of your excuses, trying to trick me into being with you? How do I know that if Derek wants you back you won't go running back to him?
I can't risk getting hurt by you again, Addison.
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AM: Mark, are you there?
MS: Addison, I didn't know you were there, I thought I was talking to your voicemail!
AM: Please, Mark, come to the Ritz. I pick you, Mark! I pick you! Please!
MS: No, Addison, you don't pick me! You're stuck with me! You picked Derek, but, he walked out on you, so I'm the only thing you've got left! How special do you think that makes me feel?
AM: I made a mistake, Mark! I made a mistake choosing Derek! Pleaseā¦
MS: Don't start crying on me, Addie.
AM: You have to believe me, Mark! I chose you, you have to choose me! I made a mistake!
MS: You lived with your mistake for eleven years and you didn't bother to check before making it again!
AM: That's how stupid I am! And you can love me even though I'm that stupid! How big of a man would you have to be to-
MS: (interrupting) I do love you, Addison. As I said, I can't help myself. But, I wish I didn't.
(hanging up noise)
AM: Mark? Are you there? Shit!
GUYS, FROM NOW ON, THE STORY WILL REACH ITS PART TWO.
THAT MEANS THAT WE'RE GONNA HAVE DIALOGUES, INSTEAD OF JUST LETTERS REPORTING STUFF. I THOUGHT THAT WOULD GIVE THE STORY MORE RICHNESS OF DETAILS AND MORE EASILY DESCRIBED EMOTIONS. ESPECIALLY NOW THAT ADDIE IS IN SEATTLE. IS THAT OKAY WITH YOU GUYS? :D
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOUR REVIEWS MEAN TO ME! I LOVE YOU ALL!
MARCELA COSTA.
RECIFE, BRAZIL.
