'Ive loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night' Galileo

i'm so pleased with how this chapter turned out :)

Harrys POV

I hugged Remus tightly, whispering that I was sorry over and over again and hoping he wasn't hurt. He kept telling me not to say sorry, that it was okay and he understood. He told me all wolves go through it and it was natural. But I was angry. Angry at Remus for being so forgiving. Angry at Fen for attacking my godfather. And most of all, I was angry at myself for feeling like id disappointed my dominant. The tears were still running down my face. Not only was I angry, I was sad. I know he's my dominant but he was so scary. I chanced a look over at him and he was glaring daggers into Remus' back. He caught my eye and smiled softly at me. I quickly put my head down and hugged Remus tighter.

'Cub, I told you I'm okay, stop worrying. I do wish you'd told me, but I understand why you didn't. You've gone your whole life having no one to talk to and having to keep secrets, I just wish you knew that now I'm here. You're not alone Harry' Remus said softly to me. Upon him finishing I heard Fen growl loudly. I sighed.

'Come on Remmy, well go to my tent and talk about this,' I said, just loud enough for him to hear. As we turned I noticed Fen was starting to follow us.

'Leave me alone Fen'

'But Harry, I..'

'Just go. Please' I whispered.

His face fell but he nodded. I turned and walked in the direction of my tent, knowing Remus was walking with me. All the way there I felt his eyes on me. It was quite annoying actually. I was glad when we reached my home so I could busy myself making tea. Once id made the tea, I sat half facing Remus. I waited for him to speak.

'Harry, who was that man?'

'That's my dominant mate Remmy. His name is Fen'

'Is that why you asked me about why you felt so lonely? You'd met him by then?'

'I'd met him yes, but I didn't realise he was my mate. Not at first. It was only once I'd spoken to you that I figured it out.'

'I can understand what he did.'

As he said this I gasped and looked up at him, shocked.

'Harry, you're unmarked. It makes no difference that you're his soul mate at this moment in time. He hasn't marked you yet so any other wolf can come and lay claim to you. If that happens, Fen would have to fight to the death to prove his dominance. With him not knowing me, he just saw us hugging and felt I was a threat. I'd have been the same with Dora, had she been a wolf too.'

I hadn't thought of it that way. He was trying to keep me. He wanted me. But he should have just asked! He was too brash and bull headed! Remus saw me frown and he chuckled lightly.

'Go and find him cub, youll need his help pretty soon. I'll let you know when I'll be calling next, I'll bring Teddy'

He ruffled my hair and left. I'll need Fens help soon? What's going to happen? Oh god, it involves me, it can't be anything good.

Once Remus had gone I started to feel lonely again. I also felt extremely guilty. I had worried my dominant. He had willingly started a fight, which in any other circumstances could have been a fight to the death, to prove his loyalty to me. And I had told him to leave me alone. Oh god. He probably wouldn't want me anymore. Now he knows what I'm like he'll run as far away as he can. For good reason. I hung my head. I needed to make it up to him. I wandlessly conjured up a bouquet of flowers and smiled as I smelt them. They were beautiful. I freshened myself up and then went looking for my dominant.

I had a feeling I knew where he'd be. I followed my feeling and came out at my hiding spot. There he was sitting on the log. His back was to me so I studied his profile. He was slumped and gently plucking the grass. His hair was no longer pulled back, it hid his face. I was struck then by how fond I was of him. Did i? Did I love him? Surely it was too early for that wasn't it? NO!

'Fen..' I whispered softly.

He whipped round to look at me and I held out the flowers. A slow smile spread across his face. I couldn't control my emotions. At the smile I sobbed and ran to him. I was crying as I sobbed into his chest.

'I'm sorry. I'll m-make it u-u-up to you. I'll be a b-b-better sub, I pro-o-omise.' I sobbed. He shushed me softly and hugged me. When I slowly looked up at him he leant down and kissed me. It was just a short kiss. To anyone else, it would seem like nothing. It was nothing, but it was everything too.