Phil's POV:

Our faces moved closer, my heart beat fast and my palms sweat. I had imagined this moment so many times in my head. Our mouths were centimetres apart, when Dan jumped back.

"Erm, Phil, can you get me a drink of water?" Dan asked sheepishly.

"Uh, sure" I said getting off the bed.

I left the room and fell back on the door, what just happened? We had a moment, that wasn't in my head, Dan felt it too. In fact I was sick of hiding my feelings, I loved him. I stormed back into the room, Dan sat with his back to the door. I marched over to him.

"Dan?" I said.

He turned around as he heard the door shut and me call his name.

"Where's my water? He asked.

"Just be quiet a minute" I said.

I walked over to the bed he sat on, I placed both hands on either side of his face and pulled it closer to mine. Our lips brushed against each other, tingles ran up my spine. It was like that kiss they talk about in movies or books, the one where you see fireworks and you get light headed. I pulled away and stood back up to my normal height.

"Why did you do that?" Dan asked.

"Because I should have done it ages ago" I told him.

I left the room, the adrenaline rushing through me – my cheeks burned red and my palms were sweaty. I didn't want to even let my mind think about what was going through Dan's head right now. Nothing made sense, this didn't seem real. I was light headed, I needed to sit down and think this through.

Dan had always been my best friend, just my best friend. There was always all that 'Phan' stuff, but I knew Dan never took it seriously. The possibility that I had ruined our friendship flooded my mind, what if he wasn't gay? Or even worse than that, what if now he wanted nothing to do with me? I'd have to move out, and how would we ever explain it the phans? They would hate me for ruining everything, but not as much as Dan would hate me.

I buried my face in my hands, what had I done?

I heard a voice come from beside me.

"Hey, what are you doing?" The familiar voice asked.

I looked up, it was PJ.

"Erm, nothing really" I told him.

"You look down man, what's up?" He said, something about his green eyes made him feel trustworthy.

I shook my head, I was embarrassed – too embarrassed to say it out loud.

"You know you can trust me" He smiled and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Dan and I had a moment and I kind of kissed him" I mumbled.

I heard PJ take a deep breath, I always felt better telling PJ things, he always knew the right thing to say or always had some good advice. He was like an older brother, even though he was younger than me. PJ seemed ten times wiser than the majority of people his age.

"I'm presuming he didn't take it well then?" PJ asked.

"I don't know, I walked out before he could react" I told him.

"Well then you don't know Phil! For all you know, he's in there waiting for you to come back. And even if he isn't, how will you know sitting out here?" He asked.

"I don't want him to hate me PJ, I don't want to lose him" I whined.

"Dan's a good guy, even if he isn't interested he'd never hate you" PJ smiled.

I began to feel slightly less anxious, PJ had a point – PJ always had a point. All I needed to do now was build up the courage to go back in there. Besides, what was the worst that could happen? But as soon as I asked myself that my mind thought up the worst scenarios.

"Thanks Peej" I smiled.

"No problem, now I got to get back to Chris, or he'll kill me for not getting his coke quick enough" PJ laughed and walked around the corner.

As soon as PJ left I tried to talk myself into going back in there, I paced around reception. Walking two steps forward, and then three steps back again. What was I going to say? Of course I couldn't just leave him there by himself, what if he needed a drink or fell or something? I walked down the corridor to his room, slowly I peeked through the window of his door to see what he was doing.

But I was shocked to see he wasn't alone in the room, someone was sitting beside him. I took another glance, dark hair, small, female – Leah. She sat next to Dan on the bed, my heart sunk into my stomach. They were talking, yet by the expression on Dan's face I could tell it seemed serious. I got caught up in looking through the window that Leah spotted me, I guess I had to go in now. Slowly I opened the door, hoping Dan hadn't told Leah about what had just happened.

"Phil, why didn't you tell me Dan was in hospital, I'm his girlfriend" Leah shrieked.

"Sorry, the whole week was really hectic, I just forgot" I explained.

"Just forgot? Don't you think I would have liked to have known my boyfriend had been a bad car crash?" Her voice went straight through my head.

"Leah..." Dan said, implying for her to stop it.

"No Dan, Phil has never liked me – that's why he did this" She continued.

She had a point, I never did like her, she never seemed good enough for Dan – not that I was. Calling her after the accident was something I didn't forget, it just didn't seem important at the time. Her being here would have made things a million times worse.

"You're right, I never did like you. You're shallow and fake and Dan could do a lot better" I told her and then left.

Strangely, even though I knew I was going to regret saying that I felt proud of myself. I had wanted to say that to her for months now, but I'm not the type to start fights. It sure did feel good to get it off my chest. I almost wanted to see her reaction, I felt bad for Dan having to put up with her whining though.

I went home, if Dan didn't hate me before he certainly did now. I walked into our empty apartment feeling like I had the world on my shoulders. Suddenly our apartment that was always filled with laughter seemed so gloomy. I had a shower and crawled into bed, not that I could sleep. You've really screwed things up this time Phil.

Cue clip of Dan lying in bed also feeling sad

Ok Hi! I actually kind of hate this chapter, I have the attention span of a fly. If I get time tonight I may write another one (lol friday night and im writing fanfiction, this is the life guys;D). I'm really enjoying doing this, I can't believe I talked myself out of it for so long. Your nice comments make it even better:D I LOVE YOU ALL.