USAGI'S P.O.V.

I must have laid on the couch forever till I saw the remote laying on the table in front of me. I reached to grab the remote, flipped the tv on and when through all the channels. There was nothing on, I must have went through this like four times before I gave up. I decided to take a bath, god knows I need one. I smell really bad and my hair is so oil. Gross. I got up and walked into my room and over to my dresser, pulled out some clothes and made my way to the bathroom.

When I got in there I picked up a towel and put it over one of the cameras L has in the bathroom. He wont like it but o' well, I need some privacy and a girl can't get that with a guy watching now can she? I turned the water on and let it run til it was the temperature I wanted it at. I plugged it and stripped down, carefull stepping into the tub as not to fall, like I might anytime soon.

It was filling up fast and as it rose, it was burning the cuts that still lined my body, but after being submerged for so long, I got us to it. I don't know how long I was in here, but I guess a little bit 'cause my fingers were starting to prune. I picked now to be the time to wash my hair. After I was done with my hair I very carefully moved to washing my body. That was a task in its self trying to avoid the stitches and the scarres.

When I was done I got out, dried off and got dressed. I walked over and removed the towel that was covering the camera and walked out to my room. I was feeling better now that I was clean and could relax. Now I was getting hungry. I didn't feel like making something and I didn't want to leave my room, so I did the next thing I could think of. I called Wateri and asked him to bring me a salade and a piece of cake.

It only took him ten minutes to bring me what I asked for, so I wasn't waiting to long 'knock knock' "com in" and it was Wateri. He walked in with a tea cart of what I asked for and some more of things that I didn't. I was sitting on my bed as he pushed the cart up to me "here you go miss Usagi" I looked up at him "thank you, but whats this?" I asked pointing to a bottle of something.

"that is to make you feel better, for the pain and what not" "thanks" I said again "is there anything else you want?" I was debating rather or not to ask him this, but in the end, I asked him "Wateri, can I ask you something?" I was looking at the piece of cake "yes, you may?" I didn't know how to say this, so I just said it "is L mad at me?" I know the answer to this, I just want confirmation.

"no he is not, he was rather worried about you to tell you the truth" what? that's not what I was expecting "why was he worried?" why would he be worried about me? Wateri walked over to me bed and sat down beside me "my dear, L is very new to feelings, he doesn't know what to think, when something he thinks is his is taken away from him" Does that mean that L thinks of me as a friend? I don't know so I asked Wateri

"your smart my dear, you'll figure it out" he patted my head, stood up and walked out my bedroom and my room all together. What am I suppose to make of that? he gives me an answer, that leads to me asking more questions, that leads to him giving me no answers, that's just mean. I went back looking at my. Why is this little piece of cake, reminding me of L?

I was starting to feel even worse about what I did. Just because I was mad, I could have died and I could have gotten L killed and I put L's investigation on hold. Now I feel like shit. And I just swore, so I must really feel like crap. I started eating my salad so my stomach would stop yelling at me. It wasn't that big but just big enough to satisfy. I got up and grabbed the piece of cake.

I walked out my room and down to where L is. The main room. He was sitting in his chair doing work when I walked in. I know he knew I was in here, I mean know one can sneak up on L. I walked up beside him and placed the cake on the desk beside him. He didn't even look away from his computer to look at it. I mean It's cake! the one thing he loves the most in this world. Cake! and he didn't look at it.

Wateri was wrong, L is mad at me and who could blame him. I sat down, pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapped my arms around them and laid my head on my knees. Yes if you must know, it hurts to sit like this, but only a little. I closed my eyes and just rested here. Listening to the sound of him raping his keyboard. Poor thing, I almost feel sorry for it. Almost.

I don't know how long I was sitting like this, but I fell asleep. Listening to the taps of the keyboard. I felt something worm go around my back and under my legs. What was it? I was too tired to care right now. I was lifted, that much was Curtin. I guessed I was in an elevator 'cause I felt the gravity shift. Then I heard what sounded like a door being opened.

I decided to open my eyes but just barely and what I saw was L he was looking straight ahead of him when I turned my head I was looking at my bed. So he brought me to my room. That's nice of him. We were by my bed when I looked back up at him. I guessed he sensed someone looking at him and he looked down at me. He was just staring at me with those big eyes of his, you could get losed in them even for a second.

What was I thinking? me getting lost in L's eyes, but I couldn't help it. "you fell asleep, so I brought you to your room" he said "what time is it?" I asked "around two in the morning" he replied. He laid me on my bed gently as he could and removed his arms. "thank you L" he just turned around and started walking away without saying anything else.

"L?" I said looking at my blanket. He stopped walking, that much I could tell "yes?" what was I gonna say now? don't go, I don't want to be alone right now. I did the next thing I could think of. It might not be the smartest thing i've ever done, but o' well. I got up and walk in front of L. I looked up at him, he was looking at me with questioning eyes. Then I gave him a hug.

I know he wasn't expecting that, he was as still as a board, so tense and not moving not even breathing. Believe it or not, he isn't that skinny. He has some muscle to him, even if you can't tell, but that's not the point. the point is I wanted to show him that I was sorry and mean it. He didn't do anything, but just stand there. I was starting to feel uncomfortable now, so I un wrapped my arms and moved back a few steps to give him some space.

So much for that idea. I was feeling very embarrassed right now for doing that. I turned around and walked back to my bed without looking at him and laid down in it. I covered myself up pulling the covers over my head. I didn't want to see L anymore right now. I heard foot steps walking away. He left. Wateri was wrong.


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