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Chapter 11

"Have you seen Jane, Barry?" Maura asked. They were sitting at the lunch table.

"She was here, and then she left. I think she said something about going to go see Mrs. Robbins." Frost said with a shrug.

Maura went back to eating her lunch. She wasn't worried about it or anything. She figured Jane just wanted to catch up with Arizona since she hasn't really talked to her very much over the summer. As the day went on, Maura started to worry something was wrong when she didn't see Jane in any of their classes. When she finally saw Jane it was the end of the day.

"Hey beautiful." Jane said walking up behind her.

"Jane, Where have you been all day?"

"During lunch, I went down to see Arizona, because I've been thinking and we've been spending so much time together that I don't want to be to the point where we end up hating each other. Arizona suggested that school should be the one place where we don't see each other every single minute and that way when at the end of the day we can ask each other how our days went and not already know. So, she changed my schedule around for me. I'll still have first period and lunch and Physics together, but other than that, we have different classes. I know it wasn't what we planned, but I don't want you to ever hate me and after hwo amazing this morning was, I don't want to lose you... I'm rammbling. I'll shut up now."

Maura proccessed in silence for a few seconds before responding. "You're right. We do spend every minute with each other. But why didn't you tell me about your concerns before now? Why didn't you talk about this with me first? I thought we were being honest and open with each other?" Maura was angry. It may have been irrational anger a little bit, but she was still angry.

"Sweetie, I know. I should have talked to you first, but I didn't want you to think that I didn't want to be around you." Maura cut Jane off.

"That's the thing though Jane! You didn't talk to me first. You ran to Arizona to talk things out."

"That's because she has been there for me since I started school here! Way before you were even here! I'm not used to having someone besides her to talk to Maura!" Jane took a deep breath. "You know what? Before one of us says something we don't mean and will regret, I'm walking away. I'm going to go to the cages. I'll be home in a couple hours." Even though she was frusterated with Maura right now, Jane still kissed Maura's forehead before walking away.

When Maura finally got outside and nto the waiting car, she started crying. She was upset with herself. She knew she overreacted to what Jane had said, but in a way she was kind of right to be a little upset that Jane didn't voice her converns with her about their relationship. The driver, Mark, looked back at her through the rear view mirror and gave Maura a questioning look.

"I think... I think Jane and I just got into our first fight." Maura said.

Mark turned around slowly in his seat to face her and handed her a tissue. "Don't worry, everything will be just fine." He turned back around and pulled away from the curb. Maura just sat in the back seat calming herself down. She needed to calm down. The urges going through her head were ones she hadn't had in a long time.

When they pulled into the drive way of the house, Maura felt like she did before she met Jane. She felt alone. She was walking into her house alone. And Jane was mad at her. Still having the urge to cut in her mind, Maura went to the guest bathroom,instead of her own where there were razors, and filled the tub so she could take a bath. She needed to relax. A half hour later though, she heard the front door open and close, and the familiar sound of Jane walking up the stairs.

"Maura? Sweetie? Where are you?" Jane yelled from the top of the stairs. Maura could hear Jane coming down the stairs and coming closer to the closed bathroom door. "Maur?" Jane knocked on the door as she spoke.

"You can come in Jane if you want." Maura said. Jane came in cautously.

"Hey." It was the only thing Jane knew what to say.

"Hi." Maura took a deep breath. "I thought you were going to go to the batting cages."

"I was, but I forgot that everyone I normally go with is at some sort of practice. And I'm not supposed to be making the motion of swinging a bat yet."

"Ok." Maura wanted to cry. She felt like a complete dumb ass for getting mad at Jane.

"Why are you in here anyway taking a bath? Why not upstairs in our bath..." Jane trailed off. It was clicking in her head now.

"Do not feel guilty about triggering me Jane. It was just urges. I stayed away from the bathroom just in case. Please. I didn't act on it. And anything could have caused the urges."

"Maura, how can I not feel guilty about it? I caused you pain! I promised I'd never hurt you!"

"No Jane! No! You promised you would never hurt me intentionally! There's a difference! You didn't know it would cause the urge."

Jane said nothing. She just turned around and walked out the bathroom door and went upstairs. Maura started crying as soon as she saw Jane turn around. She needed to calm down before she went upstairs so she stood up out and got out of the tub and wrapped herself up in a towel. She drained the water from the tub and took a deep breath and walked upstairs.

When Maura walked into her room, she saw Jane sitting in the middle of the bed. With something in her hand and Maura took a surprising and shocked breath in.


duh duh dun. What could be in Jane's hand? Do you think Maura reacted irrationally? rationally? What about Jane with Maura's urge to cut? Oh and by the way... this is only the weather before the storm.