Edward's jaw clenched. He whispered to me ,"Get Renesmee out! Now love." He kissed my forehead then our daughter's. I whispered as quietly as I could in Renesmee's ear. "Renesmee, get on my back. I have to get you out of here. No time for questions."
I looked at her pained face. Her mouth formed a straight, even line. Her face was paler than usual. She was standing up straight, eyes locked on the wall. Her brown eyes looked lost. Renesmee looked lost. Her hear was missing. Seth took it. Was this seriously what I looked like when Edward left Forks? Did I look this pained and depressed? I knew the obvious answer.
Renesmee wasn't going to move, so I picked her up in a cradle. Aro glanced at my daughter. He didn't move. She didn't move. I heard him yell something to Jane as I headed for the door.
"Jane! Food! Now!" I heard Jane fly past us with Chelsea.
We ran down the long hallway into the lobby. We sat in the chairs that were warm and cozy. There was something familiar about these chairs, but I couldn't put my finger on it…
I looked at my statue daughter. I had to get her to speak.
"Sweetie, I know you're hurt. You barley slept last night and you haven't eaten or drank blood in days. Baby I'm worried." either have I. none of the Cullens have fed since we got to Texas. We almost cracked at the pier, I mean really cracked. Like human blood. Luckily we all held our breath.
My throat burned as my black eyes stared at my daughter. The venom in my throat burned like hell. Why was the pain hitting me now? Why not in the car? Maybe because I wasn't thinking about it..? I looked at the woman at the desk.
Her face was horrified. Her left had was caught in her strawberry blonde hair while her other hand was over her mouth in shock. Her green eyes kept glancing between me and my daughter. I read her name plate. Kayla. Was she thinking I was going to kill my own daughter?
"Renesmee," I said trying not to breathe.
She wasn't staring at emptiness anymore.
Her eyes were locked on Alice, in the door way. He was leaning against the wall casually.
"Uh Edward just sent me to check on you. He would of done it himself, but Aro is reading his thoughts."
Great! Aro gets to see Edward's sex experiences with me. Nice. I looked at Renesmee as the corners of her lips curved upward. "Seth!" She exclaimed running to Alec.
"What the hell-" Renesmee's mouth caught his before he got the chance to finish. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled her body closer. Alec, was kissing her back…?! I think. I studied them closer.
Alec's body moved with Renesmee's. her hands tangled in his hair (the best possible), and vise versa. I looked at Alec's eyes as they were shutting. Not thirsty. Thank God!
Renesmee pulled away, probably to breather. I zoomed over there, before processing what the hell just happened.
I pulled her off Alec. Alec kept touching his lips. I giggled, but then I spoke in a serious, trying-to-sound-like-a-strict-mother tone. "Renesmee, why the hell did you just kiss Alec?"
Her eyes widened. "That was Seth Mommy."
"Darling, that was Alec. I think you were just hallucinating." I leaned in close to her, and spoke quietly, even though I knew Alec could hear me. "Just F.Y.I, he was kissing you back." she looked at me.
"Mom! What have I done?" she buried her head in my chest. It was so nice to hear her voice, have her hug me, and cry with noise.
"it's okay Renesmee." She looked up as eyeliner ran down her face.
"How do you know that?"
"There's just some things a mom just knows."
That was true.
The thing that was a lie is that it's going to be okay.
Renesmee smiled and closed her eyes. Before I knew it, she was sleeping. I let her fall as I stood up and walked back into the death-room.
Jane returned. I didn't even notice. She was talking to a tourist. She led him into the room. I heard Aro greet him excitedly. I walked out the room with no emotion or words.
"Hello friends!" I covered my and Renesmee's ears as I sat down. I could still hear the screeching sound of the teeth ripping the skin. Renesmee buried her head again in my chest. She fluttered her long eyelashes open.
"It'll be okay. We'll be out soon."
"Soon," she questioned looking up.
"Yes. Soon." I hope, I added in my head.
Renesmee was in bed with Alice that night trying to sleep. They share a room, even though Alice doesn't sleep. Edward and I were in 'our room'. it wasn't our room. Our room was back at the cottage in Forks or in Jacob's house or at Tanya's or a house we built in Canada. Anywhere but this hell-hole.
The rest of the Volturi members gave us this room for privacy. Goddamn it! I hate saying 'the rest of the Volturi'. we are now part of the Volturi. Blech!
Edward and I hung up our cloaks as we sat on the bed. The room had a bed, chairs, a huge chandelier, television, and tables. The tables were oak as well as the chairs. There was a leather couch that sat in front of the flat screen television. The chandelier was gold with twinkle lights. The walls were painted brown with a hard, Mahogany wooded floor. A giant, polished black piano sat in the back corner of the room, next to the huge walk-in closet.
I thought a little bit about the bed. It was a pale green with Mahogany headboard and stilts. It matched to room and floor to perfection. A pale green canopy hovered the bed. I wonder why they had the bed. Oh…
"Edward, I am sorry about this. I know I suggested it I thought it was the only way to sa-" Edward cut me off with a kiss.
"Shhhh Bella. You did the right thing. So what. We're here together, me you, and our daughter. That's all that matter. But right now, all that matters is you, and how much I love you. So, I love you." he kissed me.
"Mmm. I love you too." I looked down at my left hand. My wedding ring. I loved looking at it! I also loved looking at Edward's. he noticed me looking. He took our hand and put them flat against each other. We wound our fingers and looked at our own rings. Then into each others eyes, which were now a beautiful topaz.
"My lovely wife Bella, I love you."
I giggled. "and my lovely husband Edward, I love you more." I kissed him. We were sitting up on the bed so I jumped into his lap. I used all my force to push him down. I tugged off his shirt as he pulled off mine.
Edward unzipped the back of my silk dress and threw it on the ground. I don't like wearing this stuff, but Alice forced me to. We had to meet the rest of the Volturi we didn't meet before and she wanted me to look nice. I unzipped Edward's khaki pants and slipped them off his legs.
I kissed Edward with an insane amount of passion. My soft lips grazed his as he moved his lips to my neck. We were interrupted with a worried attack from Alice.
"Renesmee! Bella! Edward! She's…she's…"
"Alice I said running over to her. "What?" She just stood there. Statue. I shook her. "What the hell is wrong with my daughter! I have a right to know!"
Alice took a deep breath. I realized I didn't have anything on except undergarments. Edward followed my actions. I put on a robe while Edward threw his khakis on, not caring about a shirt. It's not like I or Alice cared. Right?
Alice took my and Edward's hand and sat us on the couch.
"Renesmee was sleeping and when she's in pain she talks in her sleep. She started mumbling something about Seth and then she, she.."
"She what Alice?" Edward said in a calm tone.
Alice breathed in and out slowly trying to think how to word this. "Well at first I thought she was just dreaming but then I had this awful vision and I-" Edward stopped her babbling abruptly.
"What the hell is our daughter going to do Alice!" Edward was frightening. They way his eyes glared at her made me think I was in a horror movie, because I know what he could do. His lips pulled back over his gleaming, venomous white teeth. He was leaning towards her, sitting down still, pushing me behind him, even though he knows I can defend myself. I am a vampire Goddamn it!
It was silent.
"No." Edward said. "No. No. Alice! Why the hell would she do this?!" I was lost. Edward stood up and paced back and forth at vampire speed. I reached out my hand and grabbed him. He was looking down. I decided to be kind of (trying) to be sexy to get my way because
A. Alice won't tell me either way
B. Edward can hardly resist me anymore
I looked at his face and kissed his lips. While his mouth was open, I slid my tongue in. I quickly pulled it back in between my lips and said, "Baby, do you want to tell me what's going on or do I have to be stopped? Hum?" I kissed his lips and made my way down to his neck.
"Bella, you're not getting off that easy."
"Am I?" I challenged. I kissed his lips. I moved my hands across his chest so I could feel his abs. I pushed him on the bed as our lips never parted away from each other.
He pulled away, sighed, and surrendered.
"Renesmee is going to wait until Aro's thirsty."
What is that supposed to mean? Why is she bring a hungry vampire into this? Edward answered my silent question. "She's going to let Aro, consume her. Suicide basically."
I quit breathing. I stopped moving. I sat there still, on top of Edward, on my elbows. Like when everyone walked in on me and Jacob back in La Push- I had to speak.
"W-wh-wha-what?" I stuttered. Renesmee. Killing. Herself. No. He was lying. Why? Is the truth worse then my daughter becoming crazy! Seth. In love.
"Seth," Edward said simply. I stared him down.
"I thought you couldn't read my mind." I challenged.
"Bella, you're my wife. I just know you. That's basically the only thing that you don't surprise me about." he flashed me my favorite crooked smile.
'Seth is the cause. He was her soul mate. It was like when I left you. She isn't whole." he made a pained expression. I grabbed his face.
"Edward, we must stop our daughter! We must help her. I can't stand to see her, me, or you unhappy and scared. When we're unhappy, it's harder to have fun." I winked and smiled. I glanced around the room. Alice must of left. I was too distracted to notice.
I got up and pulled Edward off the bed with me. We marched to Alice and Renesmee's room.
Renesmee was rolled up in a blanket in her bed. She was breathing soundlessly. I looked at Edward.
"Let's not wake her," I suggested. Edward nodded as we each kissed our daughter. Then our lips met. They didn't leave each other until the next morning.
*******
The next morning, Edward cooked Renesmee his amazing scrambled eggs. Well, I guess they're amazing. I mean, I ate 12 cartons at Isle Esme, of what Edward told me. I don't really remember Isle Esme. All I remember is feathers, and Esme not letting us return for at least 2 centuries. I giggled. Edward noticed my odd sudden outburst of giggles. He cocked an eyebrow as I lifted my shield. I just realized something there. We're in the Volturi where Edward almost commit suicide right here in this castle. Renesmee is going to attempt, or almost attempt. I rolled my eyes. I wonder where she gets it from, I thought to myself. I didn't realize Edward heard the last part. I giggled.
He smiled my award-winning crooked smile as Renesmee came slumping down the solid gold staircase. She sat at the wooden table as Edward put the plate of eggs in front of her.
"I'm not hungry. Thanks anyway. Can I just have a glass of water?" she mumbled her words all together in a mush.
I looked at Edward and stood next to the table, almost hovering over Renesmee.
"Renesmee, no. We won't let you! Your dad and I and Charlie care too much about you. I won't let you." Alice can speeding down the stairs.
"Renesmee, I won't either." Alice spoke with a little bounce.
"What are you talking about?" my daughter questioned. Her eyes widened with fear.
She couldn't control it. Renesmee showed her thoughts.
Aro.
Seth.
Herself.
By then she knew we knew.
Alice's eyes never left Renesmee's face. It was like she was staring at her, her eyes glaring and telling her to go to hell. Alice's mouth was slightly parted, exposing her venom-infested teeth. Her nostrils were flared and her hands were in fists. Her muscles tensed as she spoke roughly. Alice actually looked like a vampire.
"I saw," she said through her clenched teeth.
"What?" Renesmee looked scared of her aunt.
"Aro. Thirsty. Seth. YOU." Alice said each word very slowly and clearly, pronouncing every syllable with perfection, pausing in between each word.
"Alice, Mom, Dad, I…..I….." she broke down crying. Her mascara slid down her face and she whimpered. She covered her eyes and ran to Edward and I. she locked her arms around us as Edward rubbed her back.
"Shhhh Renesmee," soothed Edward. "May I ask why the hell you would do something so stupid?" he sounded fatherly. I liked it.
She looked into his eyes. "Are you calling me stupid? Don't call me that! I'm not stupid. You are!" she pulled away abruptly.
Excuse me? Did my daughter just talk to my husband (Edward / her father) like that?
He looked at her through his incredibly long and sexy eyelashes. "Renesmee, I wasn't calling you stupid sweetie. I was calling your damn suicide act stupid. Why the hell would you do something so stupid, or try. Why Renesmee? Please tell me, and your mother. We're worried. We love you."
I could tell Edward was trying to stay calm and he got his act together in the end. I can't believe Renesmee wasn't taking this very seriously! I can't believe she talked to Edward like that! I decided to step in.
"Renesmee, this is serious. You don't talk to Edward like that sweetie! And Renesmee seriously? Killing yourself?"
Her crying slowed. "Mom, dad, Alice," she looked at Alice. She wouldn't look at Renesmee. Renesmee went back to the table and sat down.
I could see a rage building inside of her.
"I am sorry, so sorry. I was dumb and I wasn't thinking. I just….I can't deal not seeing Seth! I love him! I'm lost! I need to see Seth Goddamn it! I can't stand it any longer!"
Renesmee pushed out of her chair and ran upstairs. Edward and I looked at each other with worried expressions. She came back down with a cell phone in her hand.
"The sun's not out and it's raining. I don't give a shit that it is so don't yell at me. Please. I need to be alone. I'll be back later."
Renesmee marched outside into the freezing rain while me and two other vampires stood there, stunned and frozen.
