Just after the words left my mouth, a hell butterfly fluttered into the room from the slightly open door. Shuuhei listened to the message and looked at me, unable to take in either my news or the message. I already knew what it said without me having to listen.


Ichigo's POV:

I looked around me, expecting the seireitei to be the last place I'd find Yasu. Whatever, this makes my job all the easier. But so help the bastard that is holding Yasu from me.

"You friggn' moron! She came here on her own free will!" My inner hollow snapped, completely receding his grip on me for now.


I knew I had to make several snap decisions right now, and I knew that I will loathe where I end up, but I know deep down that I can no longer be with Ichigo, so I might as well return to my home. By home I mean not only Hueco Mundo, but Las Noches where I'm certain I won't be too welcome. I know that's suicide, but there is a chance I'll survive if I go there.


Ulquiorra's POV:

I sense a disturbance in the force. I could just feel that Yasu had changed her mind and was coming back. That's going to be very problematic for her now. Even if you could overlook her last time here, there is no way she can have an easy time here, but knowing her the way I do, I know she knows that.


I pulled out the ring Ulquiorra gave me on my birthday. He told me that no matter where I was, it could bring me not only into Las Noches, but straight into his room. I had only used it when we were secretly seeing each other, so now was my first time using it with urgency. I just hoped he was in a listening mood as the infirmary dissolved around me to be replaced with a room I had not seen in a very long time but knew by heart.

"Ulquiorra," I sobbed.

He was waiting for me, like he knew I was coming, "Yasu, I didn't expect to see you here again,"

I shook my head, sending tears flying in all directions, "Please don't do this. Ulquiorra, I didn't to come here, but this place is my home, and I knew that if anyone would help me, it'd be you,"

He narrowed his eyes at me in suspicion, "What could you possibly need my help with? Why don't you go to that human of yours,"

I sighed, unsure if I should tell the truth him or not, "I find myself-"

"Tell me the truth, you can save your lies for Aizen and the others," It was like it once was with us.

I nodded, too euphoric to do anything else, "Well, I know it was only a week or so ago, but-"

He grabbed my hands to steady them, "I already know what you're carrying. To save time, I'll tell you what I'm asking. I'm asking why you aren't with Kurosaki,"

I would have known he'd already knew if I wasn't so distracted, "It's your baby. I can't do that to Ichigo,"

He wrapped his arms around me while still holding my hands, "So why did you come to me?"

I knew that I did love him, but I didn't want him to know that, "I had nowhere else to go,"

He kissed my neck, "I know that you love me,"

"Is there anything you don't know about me?" I asked, already falling back into what we had, though there was an empty hole in my heart that only Ichigo could fill.

"Not really, no. I guess now that you're here to stay, I need to warn you about something-"

A cero blasted into the wall, revealing someone I knew to be dead, "Ulquiorra, what the hell do you think you're doing with my woman?!"

"Grimmjow?! You're alive?! But how?!" Now that changes things.

Ulquiorra moved from behind me to stand guard in front of me, "Now how do you think that she's yours?"

Grimmjow looked past Ulquiorra to stare into my eyes, "Yasu, you know, I don't have to explain to such trash, now do I?"

I remembered, it seems like centuries to me now, Ulquiorra had just ended it with me, I don't recall why, and Grimmjow was just kind of there. Like most of my relationships, it started out as sex, but with two kindred spirits, it just won't stay like that.

We wound up having quite the romance, but after a health scare not unlike the one I'm having now, we just fell apart, like it was a long time coming, but it was rather sudden. I ended up back with Ulquiorra in secret and then I met Ichigo, all while thinking that Aizen was the love of my life.

Now I realize that Ulquiorra was more loved than Aizen, but I was too blinded by lust and fear to see that. Grimmjow and I will always be entwined, and being how he is, he calls that his claim on me as his woman. Aizen to me now is just a bad memory. Ichigo is Ichigo, and saying that I love him or that he's the love of my life is an understatement of colossal proportions. I love him, but to protect him, I must run from him and lie to him. I can't hurt him like this, and I can't hurt me again, because I know he'd never forgive me.

Wow, thinking back on it, all the men I have ever been with have felt like I'd been in love with them. The man who will always be special to me is the father of my baby, the man who almost fathered what would have been my first child will always be just that, the man who wanted to knock me up and use me as a breeder was the man I spent too long thinking was my true love, and yet the one man I never will sleep with is my true love. Fucking hell my love life is fucked up.


Yes, she went back in front of Shuuhei, yes I used a Star Wars pun, and yes, I brought Grimmjow back. I recently watched some episodes with him that made me change his mind with his character, so I brought him back. I know I pretty much said things twice in this chappy, but I had to make Yasu's thoughts and feelings clear! I don' own Bleach.

Oh, and I wanted to bring up a few points that I noticed in Bleach, though they have nothing to do the fic (yet), and are more of my own findings/beliefs:

1: the hell butterflies are not only called moths at times, but they take the time to use stairs and not the open window.

2: Shinigami can have children! Byakuya is "a descendant of the Kuchiki clan", Isshin was a shinigami five years prior to Ichigo's birth and is one again, Kenny found Yachariu has an infant it appears, and Rukia was brought to the Rukongai when she was only a baby, which brings me to 3.

3: Rukia is Byakuya's daughter, or at least step-daughter. He himself told Rukia that her older sister cared for her until a point. Not to mention how similar they both are. Rukia has a stuck-up air just like Byakuya did. Even their moves are alike. I mean, they are the same moves, only with different elements and effects.

So far that's it, but there may be more. Feel free to agrue any of this any way you want to.