Disclaimer: Of course Leo and Calypso are not mine... it's called fanfiction for a reason.
Author's Note: thank you for reading. 3,080+ views = not bad at all. One of my favorite chapters. It remains me of so many things.
11. The Unspoken Words and Feelings
During the night, I felt feverish hot and Leo took care of me with cold rags on my forehead and checking my temperature every time I whimpered. I felt cared like I hadn't felt in years, not even by my own parents.
I woke up completely alert and the morning light wasn't available yet. I felt so much better. I turned to see to Leo. He was snoring lightly next to me. I could see a worry scowl on his face. He looked just endearingly cute. I kissed his forehead and he relaxed at my touch. I could see him smile in his sleep making me smile.
I was too alert to sleep again, so I got up as quiet as possible and took a cool shower soothing my aching body after a night of fever. I felt so much better after my shower.
I returned to the bedroom to find Leo still sleeping. I sat on the bed with my hair dripping cool water drops. I didn't know what to do now.
"How are you feeling?" I heard Leo talking to my back. His hand reached mine, probably checking my temperature.
"Better. Thank you for last night"
"I care about you. You don't need to thank me"
"Thanks anyway. I have to say it. It's polite"
"It's still early. You need to sleep. You push yourself too much with your job and school and still find time to hang out with me. I wondered how come you didn't get yourself sick before"
"I am too resilient. I have endured a lot"
"Your parents' divorce?"
"Just a lot"
Leo sat up on the bed leaning closer to me. I felt his arms on my shoulder. I leaned back and he kissed my hair.
"Look at me" said Leo making me turn to see his caring brown eyes "I like you"
"I like you too" I said blushing and looked at the wall. I didn't know what to do. This was so different of anything and anybody before. I thought my feelings for Odie were strong but this was intense. Was this how you feel when you truly fall in love?
I spaced out in my thoughts, and then I felt his hand moving my damp hair to the side. His lips kissed my neck tenderly. I was soothing, tender and sexy. I looked at him and his eyes brightened by desire. He wanted me. I gulped and met his lips. He kissed me like never before. There was so much in his kiss: desire, care, longing, desperation and the most important one thing honesty. He wasn't faking anything.
I felt my chest heavy by these revelations. He truly cared about me. This wasn't about sex, possession or curiosity. This was a real relationship.
His hands removed his t-shirt, the one I was wearing. I felt vulnerable and raw as his eyes were on me like I was a tasty dessert worth eating slow enjoying the taste.
He removed his clothes fast before I could run to the door. I was scared of the meaning of what would happen next. I didn't deserve him.
Leo pulled me to his arms and kissed me with raw passion. I felt all giddy as the fire in me increased. I wanted him too. His hands travelled all over my body before resting on my chest touching and pinching.
Before I could register his hands on my chest, his lips travelled south to where his hands were. I leaned forward as he took my nipple on his mouth while his hand worked on the other. I moaned hotly at his caress. I felt his smile as he moved to the other nipple sucking and nibbling with slow agonizing movements. The sensations were overwhelming.
His hands pushed me softly to lie on my back. He kissed me as his hands were on my cheeks and his body on top of me. I opened my legs pulling him to my aching core. I wanted him now pushing me to the edge and beyond.
"Are you sure?" I said as I felt his tip almost at my entrance. He stopped all together to stare at me looking for doubt, then he nodded.
"Do you have protection?" said Leo embarrassed. I kissed the tip of his nose and smiled.
"In my backpack, small pocket to the left" I said and I saw him jumped out of bed faster than a roadrunner.
He took a good look of my naked body making me blushed before putting the condom on. Soon, he was back on top on me. He kissed me mind-blowingly hot pushing forward into me. His eyes never left mine as he was pounding faster and faster making me moan like never before. The sex was so different of anything I had experienced before. It was caring. I felt worthy.
After that, Leo came to pick me every night after class. We walked to the bus stop and we hugged and kissed like a normal couple at the bus stop. I really felt like a girlfriend.
Friday became our date night. The next Friday, we went to his apartment to watch movies, eat take-out and sleep together, sex included.
As we were heavily making out on his bed, our clothes found the floor sooner that I would expect it. This time was sweeter than the last time. All his caresses were tender and his lips kissed me softer as I was precious.
He was about to enter me when I smiled wickedly at him. I wanted to do something a little bit different. I moved fast making him lie and I rode him. His eyes opened wide as he saw me on top of him moving and grinding on him. His hands found mine as I was moving faster seeking release. His eyes were on me making blush. I felt like nothing would separate us now. I felt loved. This wasn't just sex anymore.
"I love you" the words slipped of my mouth without notice and he grabbed my hips stopping my movements. I looked at him shocked of my own words. Leo was also shocked.
"I don't believe you" said Leo. I felt tears running fast down my face as the words were spoken.
I couldn't stay a single second there with him. I felt rejected and unwanted, so I ran away naked to the living room. I sat on the couch sobbing. I tried to compose myself. This wasn't me. I wasn't the kind of girl who said those words or the crying mess on the sofa. I wasn't supposed to be in love, but I was even if I denied it to myself.
I wanted to go back to get my clothes and ran to my house. I wanted to never see him again. I was too ashamed, hurt and heartbroken. I curled on the sofa hoping to disappear.
Minutes passed before I felt Leo's hand on my shoulder. He was staring at me naked.
"I'm sorry" said Leo. He was crying. He was in pain because he hurt me. Leo sat next to me to the couch. He didn't touch me, just stay there close. He was waiting for me to do something.
The typical I would throw something at him, punched him or yelled at him, but I wasn't that girl anymore. I didn't know who I was anymore. Leo had broken the former me and I was shaping myself in someone new and different whether I liked it or not.
"I shouldn't have said it. It's just too soon. I know" I said weakly as I wiped his tears. He smiled and kissed me before wiping my tears.
"I like you too much. Come on, come to bed before Percy is back here and finds you naked. Only I can see you in all your glory" said Leo with a hopeful smile on his face. He wanted me to forgive him. I wanted to forgive him too, so I pecked his lips nodding.
"Right"
Leo took my hand and we walked back to the bedroom. I was too conflicted to have sex right now, so we settled to sleep. Leo apologized a couple of more times before I fell asleep. I knew he was really sorry but I was feeling too many things at the same time.
In the morning, the light was coming softly through the window. I looked to the light before turning to the other side to sleep more. I felt his lips on my shoulder as he spooned behind me. I was drifting again almost completely out when I heard him whisper.
"I love you" His voice sounded true.
I opened one eye and whispered back "I heard you". I heard a soft chuckle and felt his breath on my ear.
"You didn't. You are sleeping" said Leo kissing my shoulder again.
"Maybe. I hope so. It's a good dream" I said drifting again to dreamland.
