I had ran in my room, and fallen asleep, and when I woke up, it was dark, but light.
It was....wait, let me look at my clock... 4:46 am. I yawned and tried to figure out what had happened in the last 8 hours.
I stretched, and it hit me. I jumped up and ran into Fang's room.
I told him to leave, and I couldn't see anything in his room. I flattened my hand out on the wall, and found the light switch. I flicked it on, and saw the bed neatly made, the closet door closed. The closet door was never closed.
"No, no, no, no, no!" I whispered, and shoved the closet door open. All that was in there was old shirts of his, and a pair of white pants that my mom gave him last year, but he had told her Gazzy used them in some bomb. Back then, I laughed with him about it, but now, I didn't want to see those pants. I wanted to see his black clothes, messed up and falling off hangers, like usual.
I turned around and opened the drawers of his desk. The first drawer still had his pens and highlighters in it, the second drawer had a stack of index cards and Angel's teddy bear Celest, which he took from her as a punishment for something a few months ago.
"No! No, no way!" I said to myself. It couldn't be true, Fang promised a long time ago he wouldn't leave me. I wrenched open the last drawer, the drawer he kept his laptop in, and if it was empty, then he left. I closed my eyes, counted to ten, then opened them.
The drawer was empty.
He listened to me.
He went God knows where to look for his parents, that he never thought existed.
And it was all my fault.
I ran outside, and looked around. The streetlamps were just turning off, and everyone was sleeping. A car passed by, probably the Collin family coming home from their usual Thursday night routine for Disneyland. I sank to the ground on my knees, and prayed. I prayed for a long time that Fang hadn't left, he was just hiding or something, trying to teach me a lesson.
I heard the screen door slam shut, and Ella was by my side. She hugged me and helped me stand up. "What happened?" she asked.
I ran my tongue over my lips. "He.. he left. I told him to look for his parents and he left!" I broke down sobbing. "He promised, Ella! He broke his promise! He is so selfish!" I yelled at myself.
"Shh, shh." Ella cooed, and led me inside. The flock was just coming down the stairs, as well as my mom.
"What is going on out there?" Gazzy asked, rubbing his eyes.
"Fang's bed is empty." Angel said, and hugged my waist.
"Fang's bed is... whaaa....?" Iggy slurred a bit, and leaned against the wall.
"Fang is gone." Nudge told him, and ran up the stairs as if to make sure I wasn't hallucinating. Mom and Gazzy immediately followed, and Iggy all of a sudden woke up. Ella and Angel held on to me.
Everyone came back down, and Nudge had tears in her eyes. She ran to the phone, and called Desiree. "Nudge, it's too early-"
"Sh!" she hissed to me. "Hey, sorry to call so early but....." she walked into the kitchen and I sighed.
"No worries, we'll find him." Iggy said with a pat on the back. I let a tear fall, and sat on the couch for hours.
Lunch at school wasn't so great.
"Max! I can't believe it! I'm sorry, I should have done something..."
I smiled at Nick. "What could you have done? I told him to leave."
"You did?" he asked.
"I was just mad at him, I didn't mean it. We got caught up in our argument. He said he wanted to find his parents, and I yelled at him to leave and find them if he didn't think we were enough for him." I said, picking at my salad.
Nudge wrapped an arm around my shoulders and smiled. Desiree remained silent, as did Sam and Iggy. It was hard for Iggy, to lose someone who seemed like the closest thing he had to a brother, closer than Gazzy. I felt sorry for him. He was probably mad at me, he said Fang didn't cheat on me, and I told Fang to leave, so now Iggy has no one to make fun of and make perverted jokes at.
Everything so far this week seemed to be my fault.
My cell phone rang. I didn't even think of that. Cell phones! Why I didn't call him, I don't know.
"Hello?"
"Max?" Fang said.
I let out a sigh of relief. "Where are you? You gave me a heart attack!" I asked. Everyone looked at each other, then scooted closer to me.
"Max, I don't know if I'll come back. Like you said, things don't work out when we're together. I haven't found my parents, but I'm going to start looking today."
"What!? Are you crazy? Fang, please come back. Everyone wants you back, please." I begged. "Fang, I didn't mean those things I said. I don't want you gone."
I heard a sigh, then shuffling around. "I'm sorry, Max. It is how it is. And obviously, if you didn't mean those things, you would have said something afterwords."
"I was asleep afterwords! How was I supposed to say anything? I believed you, you didn't kiss Lissa, she kissed you, sure, whatever, but how did it end up you leaving?" I asked breathlessly.
A pause. "I don't know. Fate?" he guessed.
I motioned for everyone to go away.
"Fang, please come back." I said.
"I can't."
"I love you."
"Max, that won't change anything."
"Yes it does. It changes things." I told him.
"I love you too." he replied coolly.
"I'm coming after you." I said.
"I hope you won't forget that." he said, ignoring my statement.
"I won't forget." I promised. No way was I ever going to forget that Fang loved me.
He hung up and I sat on the bench staring at my phone for minutes. After the bell rang, Iggy bounced to my side and hugged me.
"Max, I'm sorry." he whispered.
"Why should you be sorry?" I asked. He shrugged. "I should apologize to you." I said.
"Why?" he asked.
"You two were always telling each other stuff. Girl advise, fighting advise, making fun of each other, and I won't forget that time when you two sat down at a bench and started rating girls." I said.
Iggy smiled. "Hey, we had just turned 16 and when you and Nudge and Angel went to the mall for your mom's birthday present, me and Fang had nothing to do! You just left us at the bench, with nothing but... well, nothing." Iggy said.
I smiled. At least someone had a sense of humor right now.
"Bye, Max. Call me when- if, Fang comes back." Ella said after I had told everyone what Fang said on the phone.
I gave her a hug, and so did Iggy, but he held on longer. "Bye Ella." he said, and pulled away.
Me and mom looked at each other smiling. Somebody had a crush on Ella. But it looked like Ella had a crush on that somebody. Ella hugged everyone else, and ran out the door to the taxi with her dad in it.
Her dad waved at us, before disappearing into the car, and they went off.
Iggy sighed and turned to go up to his room. I grabbed the back of his shirt and pulled. "I don't think so. Someones been bitten by the love bug." I told him.
He grinned and shook his head. "Yeah, well, it would be a bit easier if we had found that out earlier, rather than right when she left." he said, and I tilted my head like a confused dog.
"Why didn't you kiss her or something?" I asked, throwing my hands up in the air.
Iggy shrugged and added, "You should probably check to see what Fang wrote in his blog... he might have typed where he was. Maybe a hotel or something."
I smiled and called mom.
"What?" she asked, walking into the living room.
"I need your computer." I said.
She gestured to her room, and I skipped in, and moved the mouse. The computer came to life after being on sleep mode. I went to Fang's blog site address, and read what he wrote.
Hey guys. I wrote in my last entry (this morning) how I had left the Flock. I feel bad about it. I called Max earlier today. She told me I almost gave her a heart attack. Ya, I could give her the goosebumps, I could make her blush, I could scare her so bad she jumps ten feet of the ground. But I didn't think leaving her would make her have a heart attack.
So as I was saying, I told her that I'm fine, and she said that she loved me.
Females are so confusing.
I'm sorry, to all the girls out there reading this, but they are! First, all they do is run away when you kiss her, then she writes songs about how she wants to be with you, then she tells you to leave, then she says she loves you. I'm on a roller coaster, guys.
I need help.
Max makes me happy, and I didn't mean to kiss Lissa. Here's how it went:
I went into my lunch club, or whatever you want to call it, then Lissa came over to talk to me. We were talking about what we did over Spring Break. And I heard Max's voice, and right when I start turning around to look at her, Lissa's lips smack into mine, and I hear a gasp and the door slam.
I had pushed Lissa off me, then this little pixie girl named Marissa is saying stuff to me so fast, I can't even understand anything. Then the bell rang, and when I got to 4th period, Max wasn't in her usual seat...
She completely ignored me when we were on our way home, and she wouldn't listen to Iggy.
So when I called her today, she said the things above, and I told her I loved her too. She said she would come find me, but I ignored that and just told her not to forget that I loved her. She would never find me. I'm still in Arizona, just east of Phoenix, in Scottsdale, but Max doesn't read my blogs, so she has no idea where I'm at.
If I find my 'rents, I find them, and we'll see what happens then, if I don't find them, then I'll just go back to the good ol' days with the pervert and the mind reader and everyone else. I just won't see Ella. She left today. Probably a few hours ago. Or minutes... I don't know.
All I know is I want Max, so bad.
I just want to kiss her and hold her like usual. But she doesn't want me to, so what's the point? Maybe I'll find someone out where I am. Maybe if I'm lucky.
I bit my lip and scrolled down to the comments people left.
Flyleaf12345 says:
Aw Fang... maybe your right, just a break from the Flock, and you'll find your parents. Good luck!
Fang not Fnick says:
No offense, but boy I hate Lissa. She is just out to get Max, no matter what the consequences are. But good luck with finding your parents, and maybe a girl will come along the way...
Fangluver01 says:
I trust your judgment, Fang. And I believe you will find your real family. By the way.... in your profile, that is a pic of you, right? Because I think I saw you about half an hour ago at Walmart.
My heart skipped a beat, and I clicked on her username. Her profile came up, and I went into a chat room that she was in.
Please create an account before accessing this area.
"Shoot." I muttered, then found the link that led me to create an account, and filled out the information.
Username: White Wings
Password: *****
Re-type Password: *****
Email: .com
Birth Date: May 13 1992
I clicked 'Done' and it took me back to the chat room.
Fangluver01: Duh! He has to be, I mean, come on! He looks just like the picture!
White Wings has joined the chat room.
Imaginary Girl: If you say so... hello White Wings.
White Wings: Uh... hello
Imaginary Girl: What brings you here?
White Wings: Curiosity.
Fangluver01: Curiosity?
White Wings: Ya. Where do you live Fangluver?
Imaginary Girl: ...... thats personal, you shouldn't ask her that.
White Wings: It's important.
Imaginary Girl: How?
Fangluver01: Scottsdale Arizona
White Wings: Closer to Phoenix, farther from Phoenix....? Come one, I need to know.
Imaginary Girl: Look, stalker, you don't need to know where she is! Who are you anyway?
Fangluver01: Closer to Phoenix. Near a hotel called Arizona Heats. And near that is a Walmart.
Imaginary Girl: WHY ARE YOU TELLING WHITE WINGS THIS???
Fangluver01: Cuz. I think I know what she's up to. Your trying to find Fang.
White Wings: Yes.
Fangluver01: What's your name?
White Wings: My name, is Maximum Ride.
Imaginary Girl: Holy Crap.
Fangluver01: Wow. Really?
White Wings: Yes, but I have to go now. Me and Iggy are going to search for Fang. Goodbye, and thanks so much for your help.
Fangluver01: No problem!
Imaginary Girl: Ya know, I helped a bit too.
Fangluver01: Did not!
Imaginary Girl: Did too!
White Wings has logged off.
I sighed and jumped out of the chair. "Iggy! Iggy! Ig-oof!" I ran right into Iggy, and fell over.
"Max, get off the floor. I haven't vacuumed in a month." he said.
"First of all, ew! Second, I know exactly where Fang is!" I told Iggy.
"How did you find out?" Iggy asked.
I took in a breath. "Tell you later. Let mom know we'll be back in a few hours. I'll grab a couple granola bars, and then we're off!" I said, running down the stairs.
"Breath, Max, breath." I told myself.
We're going to find Fang.
