Chapter 11

A few hours after getting back to the lair, Raph came into my room. I peered at him from underneath my arm and grinned.

"What have you been doing on the surface?" He asked, crossing his arms. I rolled my eyes.

"Look, what I do honestly has nothing to do with you" I replied, sitting up.

"Listen kid-" I laughed.

"Kid? Are we back to that now?" I asked. Raph glowered at me.

"As I was saying, you may have done things differently before you met us; but down here we like to make sure no one is going to do something stupid that will put us all at risk. Including you" Raph said, almost as if he never heard me. I stood up.

"I would never endanger anyone here; if that be the case then I would stay well away from anyone here" I said, my anger vanishing quickly. Raph sighed.

"Just make sure you don't endanger anyone here or I'm coming after you myself" He threatened. I grinned.

"Alright, but when that day comes promise me you won't hold back."

"Sure thing. By the way, your training session will be starting in two minutes. Don't be late" Raph said, as he turned to leave the room. I nodded my head once then waited for him to leave, before I made my way towards the dojo area. I entered the room and saw that everything in the centre had been cleared away and pushed to the walls. Raph stood in the centre and watched me as I walked towards the middle to stand in front of him. I stood with my feet shoulder width apart and my arms casually at my sides.

"Alright teach, what are we doing today?" I asked.

"Today you are going to learn some defensive moves then to apply them with the movements you learnt last time" Raph replied. "First place your hands like this," Raph continued, balling his hands into fists and placing them in front of his chest, outstretched a little. I copied his movements, trying to mimic it exactly. "Good, now I'm going to use a basic attack to hit you. See if you can block me." I nodded and waited for Raph to attack. He watched my movements and punched out. I moved to the side, shying away from Raph's attack. "Don't move away from any attack, try to block using your arms as a shield" Raph commented. He punched out again and I used my arms this time, but he managed to hit the bone in my arm. I bit my lip to stop any sound from escaping. Raph smirked. "That was better, but try to block with the softest part of your arm; it doesn't have as much pain as if I were to hit your bone. Try again." Raph punched out again. I used my arms and lined up the softest parts of my arms to match his knuckles. When he hit then, I ducked under and grabbed his wrist with one hand and his upper arm with the other. I put my back to his chest and used all my strength to flip him over my shoulder. Raph landed on the floor hard and I let go of his arm. He looked up at me surprised and I grinned.

"Is that how to do it?" I asked. Raph smiled then started to laugh.

"Yes, that's exactly how you do it," He said, "Where did you learn that?" I shrugged.

"I don't know, but it may have something to do with what I saw in my memory" I replied. I held a hand out for Raph to take. He took it and I helped him to his feet. I took my hand back and smiled.

"Ready to go again?" He asked. I nodded. I placed my hands out in front of my chest again and waited. This time, Raph went for an uppercut. I moved my head and punched out. Raph blocked and kicked. I ducked and his leg sailed over my head. I sprang up and punched out. My fist connected with Raph's chest and he went flying back towards the wall. I grinned and watched as Raph's face changed to frustration.

"What's the matter Raphie? Afraid to be beaten by a girl?" I taunted. Raph tsked and I felt everything go black.

I blinked open my eyes and found myself staring at the ceiling of the sewers. I frowned and turned my head to the side. I had somehow ended up back in my room. I sat up and looked around. I had no memory about what had happened. I stood up and went to walk out when pain flared through my mind. I fell to my knees, clutching the sides of my head. I clenched my teeth to make sure no sound escaped and felt something tugging at my mind. I opened my eyes, but everything was blocked out.

"Tristan run or they'll kill you too!" Shouted a voice from the headphone in my ear.

"I can't just leave him!" I shouted back. I raced forwards toward a large building with white concrete walls. I kicked down the door and ran in. I grabbed a gun from a holster at my upper leg and pointed it down the darkened corridors. I slowly made my way up the stairs listening to every sound coming from the top. I heard a small groan come from one of the rooms and I quickened my pace. I stopped at the top of the staircase. I heard a sickening crack and I moved to the door where I heard voices coming from.

"Where is your guardian?" Said a male's voice from behind the door. I heard someone spit and something splatter the ground.

"I don't know; she doesn't know I'm here so once again your plan has failed" Replied a young man's voice. I clenched the gun tighter and placed my finger on the trigger and kicked the door in. I moved quickly into the room and shot at three men, hitting each of them in the chest. I moved closer and a bullet embedded itself into my shoulder. I bit my lip and fired the gun at the last man. He was hit in the stomach and moved behind a large wooden crate. I ran towards the young man and pointed my gun around; making sure no one else was going to surprise me. I grabbed a knife from the back of my jeans and cut the rope from the young man's wrists. He looked up at me.

"Great to see you again" He said. I smiled.

"Same to you James" I replied. I cut the ropes from his legs and he stood up. "Stay behind me" I said. I grabbed James' hand and led him to the door, keeping him behind my back. Movement sounded behind me and I turned, flinging James to the door. I aimed the gun and fired one shot. It hit the man right between his eyes. Blood trickled down his head and he slumped to the ground. I went to the door and opened it. I secured the area, by checking each side of the hallway then made my way towards the stairs. I started the descent with James right on my heels. We reached the front door and I opened it. At the end of the driveway was a black helicopter with an eye symbol on the side. I pushed James to the helicopter.

"Get in!" I shouted, "I'll be right behind you." James turned around and faced me.

"Tristan, don't do this" He replied. I grinned. I grabbed his shoulder and threw him into the helicopter. I slammed the door shut and hit it with the palm of my hand. The helicopter started to take off and I backed away. James was yelling something at me, but I couldn't make out what he was saying over the whirring of the blades. I moved back around and faced the building, holding my gun out. I ran forwards and entered the building again. I was angry that the purple dragons had kidnapped James just to get to me. The moment I entered the door, I was hit in the face with something big and hard. I fell to the floor, my gun slid across the floor after escaping my grip. I looked up and saw a big, muscular guy. He grinned at me and clenched a fist.

"Goodnight young guardian" He said, before hitting me in the face, causing me to black out.

I was snapped back to the sewers and I blinked. I had somehow fallen to my side and a voice was calling my name.

"Tristan? Tristan are you okay?" I looked up and saw a purple silk falling from the shoulders of somebody. I blinked and my vision started to clear.

"Donnie?" I asked, my voice cracked.

"What happened?" He asked. I frowned.

"I had another memory surface. What kind of person was I before I lost my memory?" I asked, tears starting to well in my eyes. Donnie looked taken aback.

"You had another memory? Are you okay?" he asked. I gently shook my head.

"It was awful. How could I be the same person as before?" I glanced up into Donnie's eyes.

"What are you talking about?" he asked.

"I killed people Donnie. How could I be the same person I was all those years ago?" Donnie grabbed a hold of my upper arm and pulled me to my feet. I stood up straight and Donnie led me out to the kitchen table. He sat me in a seat and grabbed me a glass of water. I sipped it and brought my legs up to sit cross-legged on the chair. My hands were shaking and I found that I was going to spill the water from my glass very soon. I placed the glass on the table and stared at the ground. Donnie walked over to his desk and grabbed a small torch and walked back over to me. He knelt down in front of me and put my head up.

"Look at the far wall for me" He said. I looked at the wall and Donnie moved a flashlight between my eyes. After only a few minutes, Donnie moved away and held up a few fingers.

"How many am I holding up?" He asked. I snickered.

"You're kidding right? I'm fine, just a little shaken that's all" I said.

"How many?"

"Three. You are holding up three." Donnie nodded.

"I just had to make sure that you hadn't hit your head when you fell" He said, moving to place his torch back. I rolled my eyes.

"If I had hit my head, I'd be delirious by now" I said. I turned my head and saw Mikey bounding into the room. He seemed happy about something. I raised an eyebrow and watched him move across to Donnie, with a sheet of paper in hand. He stopped right in front of Donnie and opened his mouth to speak.

"Before you say anything Mikey, the answer is no" Donnie said.

"Come on Donnie, if you build this we will be able to escape from even the Shredder himself" Mikey said. I turned my head so I could face the floor again and sighed.

"Those two are as cheery as ever" Said a voice from beside me. Looking up I saw a blue silk headband. I nodded with a slight smile.

"Indeed they are. How do you manage to put up with them?" I asked. Leo looked into my eyes and smiled.

"Patience. A whole lot of it too" He replied. I grinned then heard a loud smack come from the two arguing turtles. I snapped my head around and saw that Raph had hit Mikey across the back of the head.

"Leave him alone" Raph said, in a gruff voice. I took my glass and sipped at the water. I didn't realise before how cold it was, but now I did. I almost gasped in surprise at the freezing liquid rush down my throat. I placed the glass back down on the table and stood up.

"I'm going to take a walk around in the sewers" I informed Leo, before taking off before Donnie could say anything. I left the lair and down towards where I had first met James. I sat down below the small grate, looking up at everyone. Something shifted from the corner of my eye. I spun my head to look and Raph sat down beside me. He brought his knees up to a bending position and casually rested his arms on his knees.

"Donnie told me you just had another vision" he said. I smiled and looked back up through the grate.

"Yeah, I figured as much" I replied. Raph looked up through the grate.

"did you want to talk about it?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No I'll be fine. But what concerns me is the kind of person I was before I lost my memory. How could one person have horrible memories, but still be alright?"

"It comes with practice. I have memories I wish to forget, but the only reason I live is the ones I'm living with."

"I suppose you have a reason, but what would have been my will to live? I had lost everything and still manage to find a will to live." Raph moved a hand towards me and took my chin gently. He glanced into my eyes and I felt myself going red.

"Different people have different motives. You will remember everything one at a time and then you'll be able to tell me your motive to live" He said, in a bare whisper. I grabbed Raph's hand and placed back on his leg.

"I know that. I want to remember, but I'm afraid I'll become dangerous if I do" I said. Raph shook his head.

"There is no way, you'll become dangerous. I know you, there is no way you could harm any of us that you care about" He said. I stared at the ground.

"If I become too much of a danger to anyone, I want you to stop me by any means necessary" I said, quietly.

"There is no way-"

"Just promise me that if it happens that you and only you will stop me." Raph was silent for a moment.

"Fine, but try to not give me that choice" He said, after a while. I looked up at him and nodded.

"I'll try my very best" I replied. Raph leaned in a little and I felt my heart speed up. We were only inches away from our lips touching when he moved back.

"I should get back or Leo will start to worry" He said, standing up and leaving. I watched him go for a moment before resuming my watching position. What the hell just happened?