So yeah I'm still alive, I've been bogged down with college and work and coursework and been dealing with some personal problems so I took a little break but now I'm back and here's another chapter to placate you all with.
I know these chapters are quiet short and the relationship is slow burned for now but that's the way it's gonna be for a while-the first season I have planned is all about Tori being able to deal with being abandoned by her baby daddy and what that means for her-right now she's hiding all the hurt and the fear by putting Ayden first but soon were gonna see some flashbacks to Cameron and Tori's relationship which should be fun.
This chapter is filled with little Tori/Beck moments I like both the characters but Beck and Jade will always be the OTP for me. I personally like to think that whole kiss thing was Beck on drugs.
Disclaimer-Nothing is mine
Next Chapter-The Great Ping Pong Scam-Tori dresses up for the first time, leaves Ayden alone and begins the long road to recovering her broken heart
Ayden-
Chapter 11-Beck's Big Break
Andre worries about Beck and Tori's relationship-Tori just worries about Beck.
Tori's Point of View
So yeah I wanted to be famous, I wanted to be the singer and the dancer and the songwriter and the actor and the Mom that Ayden could be proud of but I wasn't about to stand on the toes of my friends to get there.
Let me tell you about Beck Michael Oliver. He's adorably nice and he knows it, he's incredibly good looking (and he knows that too) and he's a great actor. So when I found out he got a role in the movie of a lifetime I was thrilled for him.
And then I botched it.
In my defence though the main lead? A complete and utter bitch.
She made Jade look like she grew up in a meadow of flowers and puked up rainbows and petted unicorns.
And if you know Jade West you should know that that never happens.
And Beck was so disgustingly nice about the whole thing.
That night I rocked Ayden to sleep gently feeling his little fingers curled around my hair feeling pretty awful when there was a knock at the door. I opened it to see Beck "Don't look so shocked" he said grinning "The whole gangs on its way"
"Why?" I asked blinking stupidly and Beck grinned "Because we like you, and at some point your gonna have to get that" he lifted Ayden out of my arms who yawned slightly but mercifully stayed asleep his head knocking against Beck's shirt.
"I'm sorry" I said again and Beck laughed "Really cupcake it's alright" he sat down tugging a blanket around Ayden and himself and I sat down next to him throwing the edges of the blanket over my own legs leaning into his side, Beck was warm and he smelled nice. I leaned against him one hand finding my son's little fingers and my eyes drifting shut.
"Relax Tori" Beck muttered "Its fine, everything's fine, nobody's gonna hurt you again"
I nodded more tired than I thought possible.
Dimly I was aware of the door opening but I was too wrapped up in the sleepy limbo that I was in, too probably greet whomever was at the door.
"Tor?" came a voice that I recognised as Andre, "Jade is on her way, she stopped to pick up Cat and Robbie"
"Cool" Beck said leaning forward and lifting me off his chest, I blinked blearily reaching out to take Ayden back into my arms, "I need to get this little one to bed"
I grinned passing Andre who smiled back, maybe it was me but the smile didn't seem to reach his eyes.
"Do you want a hand?" he asked dropping his bags on the floor and reaching for Ayden's blanket.
"Nah its fine, Beck's been great at getting him to settle down" I said smiling back as a passed.
"Oh" Andre said looking out of place. "I'll go get some bowls for the popcorn then" I didn't think anything of it really.
When I came back down Jade was snuggled up next to Beck on the couch and Cat and Robbie were arguing about which movie we were watching.
"Everything ok with you and Beck?" Andre muttered as I slipped onto the couch next to him.
"Yeah why wouldn't they be?" I asked "He and me…I think it's cool now" I sighed "I just wish I didn't feel so guilty"
"You're not obligated to him you know" Andre said his eyes narrowing "You made a mistake, it happens, he knows that and he shouldn't be giving you crap for it"
"He isn't" I said reaching for the popcorn "That's what makes me feel so shit"
We shut up then because Cat finally won over Robbie for her choice of the movie, I spent the majority of the night watching movies, sharing popcorn and wondering how the hell I was supposed to fix this.
As it turns out getting onto a movie set isn't as hard as it looks, providing you have a murderous Jade West as your getaway driver and a talented Cat Valentine as your distraction.
And really who doesn't like a name like Crystal Waters?
It turns out that Melinda Murray was universally hated by both the cast and crew of the film, both myself and Beck were rehired on the spot and we both got pay-rises.
"Brilliant" I said to Ayden that night when I was spoon feeding him his dinner, "Momma now has lots of money to spend on you, sure some of it has to go into your college fund and some has be spent on Momma cause she needs new jeans and jeans are important but the other half can be spent on you which means…" I did a metal list in my head.
"New toys for the playpen and other baby things you don't know about, some bubble bath and maybe enough left over for some ice cream!"
Ayden was still only nearing twenty months but he was well versed enough to understand the 'ice cream' sentiment as 'that sweet food Momma doesn't let me have because it's impossible to fall asleep when it's in my system' and he clapped in glee his little hands banging his spoon on his high chair animatedly.
I shook my head grinning widely at the sheer adorableness of my son.
I've stated before that for the majority of my High School Education at Hollywood Arts I was clueless, looking back in those early days there is so much I should have picked up one and didn't, maybe I was too scared of the idea that I could ever be in a relationship, either way it took a long time before I recognised all the warning signs and what was so clearly in front of my eyes.
But for now it was me and my baby boy Ayden and I didn't really care about anything else.
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