Alcohol and Bandages

Ch 11

We need to talk.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters. I only own the plot and the Porter's.

EPOV

"We need to talk."

As soon as the words left her mouth I could tell that she was ready, ready to tell me the truth or as much as she could about that night. I pulled away from her a bit so that we could be face-to-face for what she had to say, but held both of her hands.

"Bella, what s wrong?"

"I need to tell you something and it s kind of a now or never thing and you might hate me after I tell you."

"I could never, and would never hate you." I told her pulling her hands to my chest. "You can tell me anything, no matter what it is. What is it that has got you so upset?"

"I know that it was Danny. I remember that night perfectly, well the parts that I was conscious."

"I remember the feeling of his disgusting warm, alcohol scented breath on my face and neck. The feeling of his sweaty hands roaming my body."

I did everything I could to hold back any outburst or sign of anger at hearing that, but it didn't go unnoticed by Bella as I hoped it would. She sat silent for a moment.

"If you don't feel comfortable telling me this, you don't have to continue.

"No! I want to tell you. I need to tell you."

She shifted in her seat making herself comfortable but she didn't appear to be comfortable. Given the recent events and the current situation, I doubt that she will feel comfortable for sometime.

"I planned on telling Angela no when she called, and staying home and reading a book and doing a few things around the house. When she actually called she wanted me to go with her to the party and she wouldn't take no for an answer. I didn't want to go, at first but I figured that it would be a favor for a friend. She was being dragged there herself by Jessica and Lauren but they were going to be off chasing after Mike and Danny. With Ben out of town she would have been alone which she did not want to happen. When we got there I talked with Angela for awhile, Ben showed up, and they went off to catch up. I was alone, until Danny approached me. I talked with him for a few minutes, until Lauren interrupted. I slipped away and went to find Angela. I decided that since Angela had Ben to keep her company now, that I'd leave. When I found Angela and Ben, I told them that I was heading home, they offered to drive me home, but I told them that I'd rather walk."

I sat still, trying not to cause any disruptions.

"A few minutes into my walk, I started to regret not getting a ride. I was already tired and I still had at least two miles to go. The road I was walking down had no street lights and very few houses. There were only a few cars that passed by. After a few minutes of no headlights, a truck appeared, but it seemed to be going slow and when it reached me the driver rolled down the window, it was Danny."

She paused, fighting back tears. I tried to pull her closer to comfort her, but she put her hand up, gesturing for me to stop. I wanted nothing more than to comfort her at that moment but I knew that she needed her space. I also knew that the tears would eventually spill and it would be even harder to fight the urge to comfort her.

"He tried to get me to get in his truck with him, but I told him that I would rather walk. When he realized that I wasn't going to give in, he got mad and sped off. I kept walking, and started worrying about Danny and his driving. I was worrying about him and the people that he could hurt if he was in an accident."

She worries about the guy moments before he murders her virtue. Kindness and care, rewarded with pain and violence. Karma, and fate, have no place in this world, if something so horrible can happen to such a caring and pure girl.

"About a few minutes after Danny sped off, I got this weird feeling, like I was being watched or something. I heard a noise in the bushes, I stopped walking to see what it was, even though I should have walked faster instead. I heard the noise again and then nothing, I figured it must be the wind, so I started walking again. Not too soon after I continued to walk I heard footsteps coming from behind me, I turned around to see who it was Before I could get a good look at the person, I was hit. I fell to the ground and tried to get up and away , but ended up getting kicked in the ribs."

She shifted in her seat and placed her hand on my face as a calming and comforting gesture. She's trying to comfort me while she's the one who should be comforted.

"It was Danny and he was drunk and angry. I tried to fight back but it didn't help, he was bigger and stronger than me. I pleaded with him to stop, but he slapped me and grabbed and dragged me off the road. I screamed as loud as I could for help, but it was useless, we were the only people out there."

"You don't have to continue if you don t want to. It s alright." I told her, breaking her out of her memory.

"No, I have to."

I didn't want to be a killer and I wasn't glad to be, but hearing Bella recall her attack made me feel a bit more justified in my actions. Hearing of each hit he dealt out to her made me wish his death was a slower death.

"A few seconds later we were on a dirt road by his truck, I tried to fight back even more. He punched me in the stomach with enough force to knock me to the ground. He put me in the bed of the truck. It was at that moment that I knew that he was going to rape me, and there was nothing I could do about it, but I still tried to stop him. My resistance was pointless."

"After a few more hits, I just laid there too afraid to move as he crawled up next to me, placing rough kisses along my neck, I wanted to vomit."

I clenched my fists, and she placed her small hands over them in an effort to calm me. I wanted to stop her from calming and comforting me. I wanted to pull her into my arms and comfort her.

"He reeked of cheap cologne and alcohol."

She fought back tears.

"He undid my jeans and tried to take them off, but I struggled as much as possible. He threatened to hit me if I didn't stop moving."

"I kept struggling and he hit me. He somehow managed to strip my bottom half completely. My vision started getting blurry and my arms were starting to go numb. I felt him on top of me, as he tried to pull my legs apart, I fought, keeping them closed as long as I could, which earned me a jab to my jaw. He hit my head a few times and I passed out. When I woke up I dressed and we were in his truck. He told me to keep my mouth shut about what happened, he threatened me and told me that no one would believe me. He said that you wouldn't want me after finding out that I cheated on you. I wanted to yell at him 'It wasn't consensual, you raped me!' but I couldn't take another hit. He tried to make me doubt that you'd want me anymore after finding out what happened. It worked.

"I will always want you, always. Nothing will ever change that."

"'You're no longer pure, you re nothing'. He said that in front of the house before he left."

"I'll be right back."

I had to get out of there before I before the anger that was building boiled over. I would not allow that to happen around her. I did not want to frighten her, especially by showing her the side of me, which I never want her to see, the monster. I couldn't even from the words to tell her that I would be right back, I just ran out the back door and into the wilderness behind her house.

Trying to vent while doing minimal of damage was difficult. I knocked two trees down and caused dozens of animals to scurry off deeper into the forest.

BPOV

Edward growled and clenched his fists tightly by the time I was finished. He was trying to remain calm, but I could tell he was as upset as he was the night of the attack. He stood up and left out the back door without a word. At first, for a brief moment, I thought that he was disgusted enough with me and what happened to leave me. I thought that what Danny told me was true, but then I received a text from Alice, that stifled those fears.

He's just blowing off some steam, he'll be back in two minutes.

Right when I was about to reply, I heard a loud crashing noise coming from the direction that Edward went. Before I could make it to the back door to investigate, my phone went off again, this time Alice was calling.

"It was just Edward helping a tree collide with the ground, everything is alright. Relax and sit back down."

"Relax? How can I relax? Being calm may be easy for you right now, but it's not your boyfriend demolishing the forest."

"You re right, it s not, but he is my brother and I do know for a fact that he would want me to make sure that you were alright and calm."

"I can hardly be calm while Edward is upset and out there demolishing the forest."

"He's coming back in 10 seconds, you can relax. I'm going to let you go now. See you later."

Sure enough Edward came back in as soon as the call ended. He went straight for the sink to wash his hands and was in front of me pulling me into his arms within seconds.

"I'm sorry for not being there for you when you needed me most."

"You have no reason to feel that way. We've already discussed that and I don't want to get into that again. Let's just forget everything and "

"Alright." He sighed after a moment of silence.

I knew that he wouldn't forget anything it wasn't

Agent Bradford and his partner returned the next morning, well prepared to grill me, but I didn't give them a chance. I told them everything that I told Edward about the attack. Charlie was on the verge of tears, he looked as if someone tore his heart out. I have never seen him look that crushed, not even when I told him about Renee's engagement. It was hard to look at him, so I kept my eyes on the coffee table, occasionally looking at Agent Bradford when necessary.

After giving my statement they left and told us that they would be in touch with us, as they made their exit. It was a huge relief to have them leave. Charlie looked torn, he was trying to make everything better for me and trying to forget about the past few weeks, but he looked uncomfortable with communicating so much around me. I could tell that he was trying to stay strong and not let his emotions show, but he wasn't doing a very good job. He sat with Edward and I for most of the afternoon, until he had to get back to the station. He told Edward he could stay the night since he was going to be at the station late, but that he better be sleeping on the couch.

Okay, I'm sorry for the lack of updates. I would have updated back in November, but I had so much going on. I was going to update last week but I had computer issues and the chapter was lost. I found it on one of my flash drives, but it was in a different format and not everything that I had on the computer, so I had to do some editing of it. I doubt that I fixed everything, so sorry for any mistakes. I'm not really happy with the length of this chapter, or the chapter in general.

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Karrie Kay, thank you for being a wicked cool friend and for all those weird IM conversations on messenger about this story, twilight and Rob.