ch. 11
Spencer was already dressed and ready for work and it was only 5:35am. He had made himself a cup of coffee and was sitting in a chair in the dark bedroom looking out the window waiting for the paper boy to deliver his morning news. Derek was still sleeping but when he turned over he noticed that his bed-mate was missing. He began to stir, then sat up and saw Spencer sitting at the window with his coffee.
Derek rubbed his eyes to focus, then took a look at the clock.
"Babe", he spoke groggily, then cleared his thoat. "Why are you up so early? You could sleep in at least another hour."
"I couldn't sleep, so I decided to get up. Sorry if I woke you."
"No, you didn't wake me I slept like a log."
Spencer chuckled, "Yeah I noticed by the snoring."
"I don't snore."
"Yes you do." Spencer corrected.
Derek smiled, then sat up and went to turn the lamp on.
Spencer frowned then walked over to turn the light back out. "You don't have to wake up because of me. Go back to sleep."
"Well, you can't expect me to go back to sleep when I know something is bothering you. You know me better than that. So spill. Are you having regrets about last night?" he said as he motioned for Spencer to sit beside him. Spencer placed his coffee on the table then spoke.
"I wouldn't say I have regrets, just concerns."
"Concerns about..."
"Concerns whether we're headed down the same path our relationship took the first time, using sex as the go-to thing to do. I mean,... when we didn't want to argue we had sex. When it wasn't anything we found in common to do, we had sex. When we were bored, we had sex and..."
Derek finished his sentence "...just for the general purpose of having sex we had sex. Yeah kid, I get it. We abused the privilege. But hey, give us a break. It has been a while. Trust me I know everything's going to be different this time."
Spencer frowned and said "How can you be so sure?"
Derek said confidently, "Because I've changed kid, and you've changed. It's not going to be like before." Derek paused a moment, "When we first got together it was so much sexual tension built between us over the years that we didn't know how to handle it. We drowned in it. It was like...how can I put this...It was like someone being told that they can't have candy, so for years they never ate it and finally someone gives them permission to eat it, so what do they do?"
Spencer answered, "They gorge themselves."
"Exactly. And that's what we did. We gorged ourselves so much with sex, that it ended up making our relationship sick. We started resenting one another cause we weren't talking anymore, at least not like we used to when we were best friends. We argued sometimes as friends, but we always managed to talk it through. But when we started having sex, it was like we didn't have to talk anymore. We would 'kiss and make up' without really making up. I don't know. I guess we were so afraid of losing what we just found that we didn't want to risk having a big blow out with each other, but whatever the reason, we were wrong. We went about everything wrong. And I see that now. I know we aren't going to make those same mistakes again."
"Pretty Boy you can't be afraid of our sexual relationship, its a beautiful thing between us. You can imagine how hard it was for me to come to terms with us being together in the sexual sense. But once I accepted it, and accepted us, baby it's amazing what we have together. The sex... Spencer it's not the main course anymore, it's just the dessert. It's a complement to what we already have together. You have to believe that. I do."
Spencer looked at him wide-eyed and amazed, then spoke "Since when did you get so smart?"
"Since associating with a genius." he said as he grabbed Spence to lay down with him.
"Nooo Derek!" Spencer squealed.
"I'm already dressed, you're going to wrinkle my clothes." he said struggling playfully.
Derek didn't care as he dragged him back to bed wrapping his arms around him real tight.
"Ahh so what. I need one more hour with my Pretty Boy to get me through the day", he said as he kissed him on the cheek.
Spencer turned and placed a sweet kiss on his lips. He couldn't believe how lucky he was to have Derek in his life. Derek's voice broke him out of his revery.
"I don't care for this outfit anyway." Derek joked.
"Oh really, you don't like what I'm wearing?" Spencer said while pinching Derek on his side. Derek feigned hurt.
"You should let me dress you sometime just for the fun of it."
"No thank you. I'm not trying to get arrested for indecent exposure." Spencer jests.
Derek gave him a quick once over, "It all looks pretty decent to me." Derek grinned.
They both looked at the time again, 6am. They sighed then hugged each other tight, trying to make the most of the time they had together before another long day at the BAU.
E/N: I'm so tempted to end right here. It's such a great image to end on, but I think I will write an epilogue to really tie this up neatly. Don't forget to review. I love your input.
PS-to those not familiar with the term 'once over' means a quick glance
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